Help I feel like my family is falling apart!!!

Ok PLZ DON'T JUDGE ME ok so when my parents meet they were drunk at a bar and u know I don't know if this is Apporiate since I'm new but my mom got pregent and they stayed togather for the 9 months of pregentncy fell In love of so my dad thought so then when my mom gave birth to me then left aboustely no contact and I was left but luckless my dad had the money so we bought a 1 story crowed house we were ok I grew up fine kinda boyish considering I grew up with my dad with no girl around so I was bullied door the other girls for acting to boyish have u ever heard the song "one of the boys" door Katy perry it's kinda like that although me and my dad have learned the hard way together love hurts bad no one loves me and if you've heard the song I think is door Kelly clarkson "because of you" it's like that except i fell in live somehow someway don't know how but love kills its in love I've never even fad my frist boyfriend of my frist kiss I've only fell in love once and never will agian he hates me cuz I'm ugly and like him it's unfair I'll never find live its such a mistake no one loves me until about a week geleden he found a girl who's his age which is 29 all this is happening in order and the part about falling in love and having it hurt and kill without even a chance is age 11-13 and this is present dag which is age 13 they dated for a week thier engaged her name is Karen and she's pregent and I don't like her 12-year daughter HELP!!!!