feelings
Always ever my beloved Gin. Many days have been spent without you, since we cannot meet, because u do not exist much...
Why do u run away from such a place as this?
u liked this place, didn't you?
I heard it from your own lips. u like and love this place...
u born here and lived in here. There were other things to like here, right?
Why?
I do not know Gin, explanation fails again.
How many times were spent so missing you...
The worst is... with the days, which increase and flow,
I have felt lost without u and like I lose u more, repeatedly each day...
I am surely full of pain and sadness...
Will u stay for me, then… door my side a little longer…just a little longer...
I want to be with u as often as I can.
I want to be beside you. I can prove to u that I will not run away-from u of from the Soul Society! Can you?
I just need to say these words.
There is no other person that can change your position in my heart, Gin...
One thing, I can't stop myself from thinking of is you...
I love you... and want to love u meer again...
I am missing u and losing u as often as I think about you...
Do not get gone for my eyes...
Every time I think of losing you, u fading, forgetting, my hearts feel s like it exited... and that is so much hurt.
That is some big pain for me...
However, every time I think of your eyes, your face, your personality...
your gentle smile... I think I can hold those pains off for a few meer minutes...
Gin, just want to ask some vragen of you.
If I do this for you, whatever I do, would u do the same thing for me?
Would u sacrifice for me –even your sacrifice your life?
Moreover, will u save me when I need your help?
Would u do those things for me?
I do not know.
I do not even know if I will ever meet u again- in the Soul Society of elsewhere, but I hope I can meet u there.
Honestly, I do not know anymore... meeting u wherever, anywhere and I cannot beer to think about that...
I just can cry and meer and meer within I cry waiting you... just waiting for u to come back to me-to come back.
I am afraid, Gin, of losing meer of my heart...
I am afraid I cannot take the pain...
Why?
Why must this happen to me?
I do not know. I do not know.
I am losing my mind sometimes. Never mind.
I can only wait... even if I do not want to.
Waiting on someone...
Someone that I trust can be my soul mate...
Gin...
Ichimaru Gin...
