A Million Love Songs Later
A/N: Hey. Okay so this is my last chapter for a while anyway. My exams start on Monday. I'm just super nervous but as long as I'm prepared everything should be fine. And also I don't know what happened last week but I only got one comment. Okay I guess people just can't be asked reviewing these days, but one? Needless to say I was a bit reluctant in writing this chapter but I had an uur off from revising so I decided to write it anyway.
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Chapter 11: Lost love
The clock chimed midnight Blair had fallen asleep on the divan, bank with a box of tissues and a foto of the ex-happy couple that would never be again. Blair was feeling lower than she had ever felt before she hadn't felt like this even with Chuck.
This feeling was worse.
She had lost the love of her life. Again.
But this time it was worse because it shouldn't be happening, Chuck and Blair were the past and it was one last time, it was nothing.
Nate shouldn't even be acting this angry. They weren't even together. He was overeating to the news. It shouldn't bother him like this. She thought she had nothing to apologize for that was her life then and Nate should not be putting her in this position, he should not be making her feel this way. He should of just laughed about it, thought it was just water under the bridge. But no nothing like that. For the moment she would just have to wait for him to make the first move, if he ever would that is.
Just as the clock chimed for the twelfth time Blair's eyes widened and opened. She thought Nate was back but no she was still alone. At a time like this she needed her vrienden around. She needed Serena.
But it was midnight Serena would probably be a party of something like that but this time Blair needed Serena like never before she had no one else to turn too.
She picked up her phone and began dialling.
“Blair? That you?”
“Yeah are u busy right now?”
“I mean if you're at some wild party of something it doesn't matter u stay...”
“Blair I'm at home pagina in bed watching Desperate Housewives that's as wild as I get. What is it?”
The tears began to fall down Blair's cheeks and Serena knew that her friend needed her. “B? What is it?”
“I just really need someone right now and you're my best friend. Can I come over?”
“Of course u can just tell me what's happened”
Blair decided to wait to tell Serena about what had happened that evening. She packed an overnight bag, she thought after explaining to Serena her news she wouldn't be going home.
Blair made her way to the elevator even those few steps brought tears to her eyes. She remembered that night she and Nate had spent with Dan and Katie and she was so tipsy Nate had to carry her in a wieg up to the apartment. It wasn't all clear but she remembered he had zei something to her when he lay her to sleep on the bed, if only she could remember what he had said.
_ _ _
Two Months earlier.
That was the last time Blair was having that much wine. She really could not handle her drink at all. She was a hopeless drunk. But at least she was his hopeless drunk.
After she had jumped into his arms on out in the straat and had whispered to him the three magic words, “I love u Nate”. He could not help but count his blessings.
“I love u Blair meer than you'll ever know. Can u hear me?”
“Mm Hmm of course I can”
He just smiled down at her he placed his palm on her beautiful, perfect face just as he placed a blanket on her, just as he did he noticed what halsketting, ketting she had chosen to wear that evening. It was the Erickson Beamon Necklace.
Nate hadn't really thought about Nate for some time, a jaar geleden on Blair's birthday was the time he thought about Chuck bas, bass and not door choice door force.
If Chuck hadn't of sent that gift all of Nate's insecurities would have vanished.
Blair had almost defiantly fallen asleep door now. Nate was still sitting beside her gazing down at the necklace.
“I thought I'd lost u u know, I know that u didn't want to come back and I know why. Chuck. u loved him right, I know u did and all I can do is hope that u don't anymore because I couldn't take losing u again to him, And I hope if u ever find out what I did you'll understand I only did it because I love u and I didn't want u to fall for him again”
The emotion was flowing down his cheek. He was always able to keep a hold of his emotions but tonight something had triggered him to let them all out.
“I love u my beautiful Blair always have, always will”
Nate zei kissing her goodnight on the forehead.
For now she was his sleeping beauty until she woke up and she would be the devil herself she was always the same with a hangover.
_ _ _
If only Blair could remember.
She finally arrived at Serena's apartment. On the journey there she was on the uneasy side travelling in a yellow cab at midnight through New York City, there were safer things to do but it could be worse she could of taken the subway.
As soon as Blair arrived and Serena greeted her at the door. Blair fell down to the floor in tears as Serena held around her friend and brought her into the apartment.
After hours of talking and crying and cheering up, things still weren't getting any better.
“Serena what am I going to do? Nate is so mad at me”
“Well I get where he's coming from but come on he wasn't even with u then”
Serena zei pouring each of them a cup of coffee, the needed something to keep them awake.
“That's what I zei and he just got madder”
Serena sighed speechless. “I don't know what to do”
That is what summed it up for Blair she didn't know what to do. It was all taking over. If Nate wouldn't forgive her, what was she to do with her life. But after that thought placed itself in her mind she pushed it straight out again she couldn't think that way. She would have to remain positive and think of the future the good times they were still to have.
_ _ _
The volgende morning Blair had returned home pagina and Serena tracked down Nathaniel Archibald. After hours of searching around the city she finally got some luck and discovered he was at the Marriott Times Square.
Serena banged on the door. She shouted out to him but no response. Finally after Serena had spent the volgende ten minuten singing outside the door he finally gave in and let her in. Any meer from Serena singing and it would have brought the hotel down.
“What the hell is wrong with you?”
She yelled pushing her way past him and taking the glass of whiskey from him as she entered the room.
“Serena. Blair send you?”
“Yes, I know how u feel Nate but don't u think you're overreacting a little”
“No. She cheated on him and what's to stop her doing it again”
“The fact that she loves you”
“She did love Mark what does that tell you?”
He zei taking the drink back off Serena.
“Oh my God get over it okay. Yes Chuck and Blair happened. She loved him, yes. But she loves you. Not him”
He looked like a broken man. Serena knew it was going to take a while to get these two back together.
At exactly the same time just across town at Blair's apartment she was getting a visitor too, but not the one she wanted.
“What the hell do u want?”
“Serena told me what happened”
He zei pushing his way into the apartment without even asking. Blair rolled her eyes and shut the door behind him.
She was confused, did Serena want to make things worse between her and Nate door sending Chuck around?
“Because she thought I should know what happened”
He zei taking the half empty bottle of wine off the tafel, tabel and placing it in the trash. He didn't want her drinking anymore. She might do herself some serious harm.
“Well it's nothing to do with you”
“That's hardly true is it? It's half my fault”
“No! It's all your fault”
It wasn't true. Blair didn't know what she was saying she knew it was all her fault. Chuck was just Chuck, her one true love once upon a time but not anymore and it was unfair of her to blame him.
“Oh that's taking it a little far Blair especially when your the one who found me all those years ago. I didn't come looking for you”
“Because I was trying to help you, what happened between us just happened. It was nothing. It meant nothing and now because of that I've lost him”
That statement was true...Now. It wasn't at that time it wasn't true, that night was meaningful.
“I'm sorry. I really am”
Blair sat down on the divan, bank placing her palms on her face trying to hold back the tears, Chuck sat beside her and took on of her hands and held onto it tightly.
“Yeah right. You've been telling me to put it off so go on pop the champagne you've got your wish. Nate hates me now I can be unhappy forever”
“I don't want u to be unhappy”
Blair pulled away from him and stood up.
“Of course u do. Nothing gives u meer pleasure”
“That's so untrue. Nothing gives me meer pleasure than to see u happy”
He tittered. He thought if she believed that then she obviously didn't know him at all.
“Then why have u been trying to stop me getting married?”
He paused for a second. Chuck needed to think over his answer.
“Because I know you're happy with Nate but I can't help but think u would be happier with... someone else”
“Like with who? You? Yeah right. We'd end up killing eachother Chuck”
“Maybe. But at least we'd love eachother”
Both stood silent for a few minuten until Blair spoke up.
“Nate loves me”
Then Chuck spoke the truth that he and Blair knew was the pure truth.
“I'd love u for who u are, not something your not”
Just as the last word left his lips and Blair was about to answer him Serena barged through the door.
“Blair I just got...What are u doing here?”
Serena zei with that famous confused look on her face.
“I just wanted to see how Blair was doing”
Serena responded still confused to why Chuck was there.
“Anyway how did he find out?”
Blair turned to him and zei with a little smirk.
Chuck laughed as if he should of known if anyone was going to put their foot in it, it would have been Dan.
“Dan covered for me in Yale. Mark knew I'd cheated and if he knew it was u he would have half killed u and Dan knew what I'd done so he zei I was with him”
“He did what?”
Serena shouted out not being able to hold back her shock. Dan and Blair had never been vrienden but what he had done for her was the nicest thing ever. Serena was so glad that Dan and Blair were finally friends.
“Yeah, and u wonder why I consider him one of my best friends?”
“Well not anymore I don't. Wow I never knew he had it in him”
“Yeah he's pretty great”
“See I told u he was”
Serena smiled quiet pleased with herself to say that she was always right. She fled to another room in the apartment to get a signal to call Nate.
“I think I better go. So you're okay aren't u Blair?”
She couldn't help but smile at his concern over her well being.
“As fine as I can be. Thank u for caring”
Those were his last words before he left the apartment. Blair's smile grew even bigger it meant the world to her to know that he cared like that.
_ _ _
He stood outside the apartment a tear breaking down onto his cheek. Butterflies in his stomach. He hadn't cried over Blair for years and now that he had confessed what he felt for her, he felt a weight had been lifted but really it was just adding to it, because now that Blair knew all he cared about was her happiness she would stay with Nate because no matter what he did Nate would always make her happier. All that was needed was for Nate to forgive her and a little, small part of Chuck was begging to God that Nate would turn his back on Blair.
TO BE CONTINUED...
A/N: I think I put to much dialogue in here but anyway I hope u liked it all the same. I worked my ezel off to get this up tonight so please please leave me your reviews it means so much, commentaren give me encouragements to write the volgende chapter. Thanks for reading xoxo