A Million Love Songs Later
A/N: Ahhh. Wow so I am totally calm now. We've had loads of exams and the worst ones are over now, welsh, maths paper 1 (still got another one to do =/), biology, Religious studies, Design & Technology. Glad I've got them out of the way. Anyway I took some time off from revising English literature to write this. So please please leave me a comment. I really appreciate it. Thank u xoxo
Chapter 12: Goodbye Again
It had been a week. Serena had temporary moved in with Blair and to play messenger between Nate and Blair. Blair had been trying her hardest to try to win back Nate but nothing was working. Blair had been trying everything to keep herself busy to not think about Nate and Chuck and the past three years which was all for nothing. Nate was never going to forgive her.
Not now.
Not ever.
She had decided to reorganise her shoe closet, ascending door colour and designer.
Boring, yes.
Kept her busy, yes and that's what Blair needed at this time.
She was on the Yellow Chanel pumps when Serena arrived back and she had brought along with her bagels.
“Hey B. I'm back and I brought bagels”
Blair decided to leave the closet unfinished and entered into the keuken-, keuken where Serena was getting the dishes out of the cupboard, Blair shouted out.
“Cream cheese and salmon?”
Serena grinned,
“Of course”
“Good... What did Nate say?”
Serena tried to avoid the vraag with another question.
“Do u want appel, apple of orange?”
But Blair wasn't interested, all that mattered is what Nate had said. Which as it turned out wasn't much at all.
“Serena...”
Serena sighed and came out with the truth.
“He slammed the door in my face”
“Great start”
“Sorry Blair”
Blair took her bagel and wandered off like a lost child into the living room and Serena felt she could not keep her secret from Blair.
From her best friend.
Not that Serena knew that, she had a habit of putting her foot in her mouth at times.
“Blair for what it's worth I think Nate is being a total hypocrite”
As soon as she zei it. She regretted it.
“How is he being a hypocrite? He has every right to be mad at me”
Serena closed her eyes and sighed, she had to tell Blair the truth now of she would never hear the end of it.
“Just ask Nate about Palm Springs”
Blair was confused. She put her bagel down on the coffee tafel, tabel and followed Serena back into the kitchen.
“Palm Springs? Why? What happened in Palm Springs?”
“I think u should talk to Nate and then he will have no reason to be mad at you”
“No u tell me”
“Ohh...Hmm...Oh where to start... Palm Springs, seven years ago...”
It was then Serena confessed all of that summer to her best friend and it was because of Blair being her best friend she did it. Serena knew how much Blair loved Nate and how much it was killing her to be apart from him but now that Serena had told Blair the truth of that summer Nate would have nothing to be angry about, but Blair would and it was because of that Serena was willing to risk her friendship to make Blair happy again. If only she knew that summer is what destroyed her relationship with Dan, if it wasn't for that summer then Dan and Serena would still be together. He wouldn't be married and expecting a family, he would be with her. But it happened and Serena could not turn the clock back.
It was confession time and she needs reconciliation.
Chuck however was issue free. He was having fun and was happy. For once in a very long time he was happy and he was exactly where he wanted to be. But he wasn't staying around for long. After being back in New York only a few weeks he was flying off again, and the Gabby was not happy.
“I can't believe you've got to go to Chicago we've only just got back from London”
“I know but it's got to be done, this deal is worth millions of dollars”
Chuck answered but still packing his Prada suits.
None of them purple, surprisingly.
Gabby jumped onto the bed and gave him those big, blue puppy dog eyes. “Don't look at me like that. I'm going. End of.”
She huffed and rolled her eyes.
“Fine. But I'll miss you”
Gabby zei as she knelled on the bed and wrapped her arms around his neck and gazed into his brown eyes. Chuck looked back into her eyes and just to shut her up he zei what she wanted to hear.
“I'll miss u too”
Her face lit up with a smile, she closed her eyes and pushed vooruit, voorwaarts and kissed him. He couldn't help but deliver a mischievous comment. “I've got an hour”.
Gabby laughed and said,
“You don't stop do you?”
Chuck grinned devilishly and kissed her back. But Chuck realized if he was leaving for Chicago he needed to go tell someone else and to ask how they were.
Blair was in so much surprise. What Serena had told her. It was unbelievable, actually when she thought about it, it was quite believable. Very believable. But it didn't stop the shock. Serena had left. Blair didn't ask her too she just felt she wouldn't be Blair's favourite person at that moment.
Blair sat in the living room gazing down at a foto from high school. Her best friends. She gazed at the foto from left to right. Serena, Chuck, Blair and Nate. The non judging breakfast club but they never really were good vrienden at all. Just as she began thinking about the old times there was a knock at the door. Blair didn't really want to answer it but it was probably Serena back to explain. But it wasn't.
It was Chuck Bass.
“Hey Blair”
“Chuck? What are u doing here?”
He shook his head and shrugged.
“Just came to see how u are...So how are you?”
He asked as Blair turned back and walked into the apartment followed door Chuck. Blair sat on the divan, bank and covered her real feelings with a lie but she couldn't hide it.
“I'm fine...Actually I'm not but it's okay not your problem”
Chuck felt like he had to reassure Blair that she wasn't alone.
“Blair u can talk to me”
“That's the thing I can't you're the one person I can't talk to”
“Why not?”
As Chuck sat down beside her she shifted away from him.
“Because I can't. I don't know but I can guess how u feel about me now and I don't want to hurt you”
“You don't want to hurt me?”
He was surprised in high school Blair would have jumped at the chance to hurt him.
“Of course not! That's the last I want”
Blair felt hurt door his assumptions, but Chuck replied.
“Because u know what I'm going to say”
Blair knew exactly what he was going to say.
It didn't need saying.
“I know and that's why I don't want to talk to u about this. I'm sorry but u know how I feel about Nate and I know that hurts you”
Chuck gazed at the floor and shook his head.
“Doesn't hurt me Blair”
“Okay say that if it makes u feel better but I honestly don't want to hurt you. I just want both of us to be happy”
Chuck thought now was the time to tell Blair about Gabby. He didn't know whether he should of not but she was going to find out anyway sooner of later.
“I think I'm starting to be again”
“Really? Why what's happened?”
“You'll find out sooner of later. It sounds weird saying it like this but I have a...Girlfriend”
“Really? u do?”
Blair seemed very surprised, Chuck having a girlfriend that was new.
“Gabrielle. That's who u saw the other week”
“But u zei she was nobody”
“I didn't want to tell u that I had someone else”
“Well you've got someone and I have someone else, well I used to have”
Reality came back to her at that moment. Now Chuck bas, bass had someone and Blair Waldorf had no one. It used to be the other way around and Blair didn't like it one bit.
“You will again. Nate will come around”
“I wish I had your confidence”
Blair had gegeven up hope about Nate.
“Listen Blair I've got to go. I have a conference in Chicago but I just wanted to see how u were before I left”
That made her feel a little better at least. Even though he had somewhere to be Chuck had stopped by, because he was concerned about her. Chuck walked towards the door before turning around to face her again.
“Hey Blair...”
“Yes Chuck”
“If u ever want to talk, I'm here, don't feel like u can't talk to me”
“Thank you”
She walked towards him and wrapped her arms around him, gratitude.
Chuck turned and began to leave but Blair called him back.
“Chuck. I don't know what Nate will think but I don't care I choose my vrienden and I'd rather have u in my life than not at all”
He grinned and laughed under his breath.
“and I could hardly live without Blair Waldorf now could I?”
Blair giggled as he left with a smile also on his face. He could now embark to Chicago knowing that Blair was good, well as good as she could have been.
It was mid afternoon and Serena knew that Nate was at his movie set so she made her way over there. Not that Nate was interested n anything she had to say.
Serena was banging on the door for five minuten before a very annoyed Nate answered the door.
“What?”
Serena pushed her way into the office. “Serena, nice to see u and please come in”
she hurried straight to his bureau and sat in his chair, just to annoy him a little more.
“Listen to me u arrogant idiot. Blair loves u now get over your ego and forgive her”
He sat silent he knew Serena was telling the truth. “Are u listening to me?”
“Yes...”
“Well?”
“Well what Serena? Huh...?”
“Ugh. Fine. Be like that it's not like I didn't try”
Serena growled. She stood up and she wanted to make an exit to leave Nate reeling but not being one for thinking on the spot, she did the first thing that came to mind. She saw a box of pencils on the bureau and all dramatic knocked it over.
Nate looked confused, was she trying to make a statement?
_ _ _
It was two days later and Blair decided to do something. Someone had to do the first move, and it was Blair who was to be the bigger person in this fight. She stood outside Nate's office, took a deep breath before entering.
Great timing Blair, she thought. Nate wasn't alone, he was in a meeting with about twenty other people, but Nate was going to hear this.
“Blair”
Nate stood up, surprised. “We're in a meeting”
“Yeah I can see that but I don't care u are going to listen to this”
He sighed.
“Blair...Not now”
All eyes in the room were on Blair and flicking each seconde to see Nate's reaction.
“I love u okay. I love you. But I don't regret five years ago...”
“If that's...”
Nate interrupted.
“Let me finish. If I hadn't of broken up with Mark then I wouldn't be marrying u now. That is if u still want to marry me?”
Nate moved from behind his bureau and walked over to Blair. “I'm so sorry for hurting you”
Blair zei again tear eyed. Nate smiled and placed his hand on her cheek and kissed her. He forgave her.
“I love u too Blair”
Nate and Blair had made up that night. Blair felt a great weight had been lifted off her shoulders. She was so glad that now they could get back to the original plan. No meer bumps in the road on their journey. They both lay in bed, Blair's arms were wrapped around Nate, she didn't want to let him go.
“I love you. u know that right?”
“Of course I do. I love u too meer than anything. You're my life Blair”
Blair thought of bringing up Palm Springs. Should she? Should she not? But now it was a fresh start for them she had to be honest.
“Serena told me about Palm Springs”
Nate jumped to the side and shifted away from Blair.
“She did?”
Blair nodded but pulled Nate back towards her.
“She thought u were being a hypocrite when u found out about me and Chuck”
“Blair u know...”
“It's okay. I don't see anything wrong we weren't together then so...”
Blair shook her head and smiled.
“I can't believe how much you've changed. I was totally unreasonable about this whole thing, I'm sorry”
Nate was truly surprised he thought Blair had grown up but never this much. She was a different Blair.
“It's okay.” She huddled her arms around his chest as he kissed her forehead. Blair smiled and zei “So tell me about Palm Springs”
Nate was all confused.
“You want to know about Palm Springs?”
Blair grinned and raised her eyebrows as an answer to his puzzling question.
“I defiantly want to know, all about Palm Springs”
So there the made up couple sat in cuddled up in bed as Nate began the story of Palm Springs.
TO BE CONTINUED...
A/N: Ahhh. Sorry but I love leaving it on cliffhangers. So I don't know what u guys think happened but I know what happens so just need to write it now. What do u think? u will be finding out soon. I know most of u will hate that Nate and Blair made up but it had to be done, since we are only half way through the story, and I hope I'm not confusing anyone with Chuck, Gabby and Blair. Chuck does still have feeling for Blair and he thinks getting with Gabby will make them go away, and Blair just wants to be vrienden with Chuck because even though she has zei she wants nothing to do with him it's the opposite she wants him in her life as her friend. I hope u are all enjoying it. Let me know what u thought on this chapter. I really appreciate your reviews. Thanks xoxo
A/N: Ahhh. Wow so I am totally calm now. We've had loads of exams and the worst ones are over now, welsh, maths paper 1 (still got another one to do =/), biology, Religious studies, Design & Technology. Glad I've got them out of the way. Anyway I took some time off from revising English literature to write this. So please please leave me a comment. I really appreciate it. Thank u xoxo
Chapter 12: Goodbye Again
It had been a week. Serena had temporary moved in with Blair and to play messenger between Nate and Blair. Blair had been trying her hardest to try to win back Nate but nothing was working. Blair had been trying everything to keep herself busy to not think about Nate and Chuck and the past three years which was all for nothing. Nate was never going to forgive her.
Not now.
Not ever.
She had decided to reorganise her shoe closet, ascending door colour and designer.
Boring, yes.
Kept her busy, yes and that's what Blair needed at this time.
She was on the Yellow Chanel pumps when Serena arrived back and she had brought along with her bagels.
“Hey B. I'm back and I brought bagels”
Blair decided to leave the closet unfinished and entered into the keuken-, keuken where Serena was getting the dishes out of the cupboard, Blair shouted out.
“Cream cheese and salmon?”
Serena grinned,
“Of course”
“Good... What did Nate say?”
Serena tried to avoid the vraag with another question.
“Do u want appel, apple of orange?”
But Blair wasn't interested, all that mattered is what Nate had said. Which as it turned out wasn't much at all.
“Serena...”
Serena sighed and came out with the truth.
“He slammed the door in my face”
“Great start”
“Sorry Blair”
Blair took her bagel and wandered off like a lost child into the living room and Serena felt she could not keep her secret from Blair.
From her best friend.
Not that Serena knew that, she had a habit of putting her foot in her mouth at times.
“Blair for what it's worth I think Nate is being a total hypocrite”
As soon as she zei it. She regretted it.
“How is he being a hypocrite? He has every right to be mad at me”
Serena closed her eyes and sighed, she had to tell Blair the truth now of she would never hear the end of it.
“Just ask Nate about Palm Springs”
Blair was confused. She put her bagel down on the coffee tafel, tabel and followed Serena back into the kitchen.
“Palm Springs? Why? What happened in Palm Springs?”
“I think u should talk to Nate and then he will have no reason to be mad at you”
“No u tell me”
“Ohh...Hmm...Oh where to start... Palm Springs, seven years ago...”
It was then Serena confessed all of that summer to her best friend and it was because of Blair being her best friend she did it. Serena knew how much Blair loved Nate and how much it was killing her to be apart from him but now that Serena had told Blair the truth of that summer Nate would have nothing to be angry about, but Blair would and it was because of that Serena was willing to risk her friendship to make Blair happy again. If only she knew that summer is what destroyed her relationship with Dan, if it wasn't for that summer then Dan and Serena would still be together. He wouldn't be married and expecting a family, he would be with her. But it happened and Serena could not turn the clock back.
It was confession time and she needs reconciliation.
Chuck however was issue free. He was having fun and was happy. For once in a very long time he was happy and he was exactly where he wanted to be. But he wasn't staying around for long. After being back in New York only a few weeks he was flying off again, and the Gabby was not happy.
“I can't believe you've got to go to Chicago we've only just got back from London”
“I know but it's got to be done, this deal is worth millions of dollars”
Chuck answered but still packing his Prada suits.
None of them purple, surprisingly.
Gabby jumped onto the bed and gave him those big, blue puppy dog eyes. “Don't look at me like that. I'm going. End of.”
She huffed and rolled her eyes.
“Fine. But I'll miss you”
Gabby zei as she knelled on the bed and wrapped her arms around his neck and gazed into his brown eyes. Chuck looked back into her eyes and just to shut her up he zei what she wanted to hear.
“I'll miss u too”
Her face lit up with a smile, she closed her eyes and pushed vooruit, voorwaarts and kissed him. He couldn't help but deliver a mischievous comment. “I've got an hour”.
Gabby laughed and said,
“You don't stop do you?”
Chuck grinned devilishly and kissed her back. But Chuck realized if he was leaving for Chicago he needed to go tell someone else and to ask how they were.
Blair was in so much surprise. What Serena had told her. It was unbelievable, actually when she thought about it, it was quite believable. Very believable. But it didn't stop the shock. Serena had left. Blair didn't ask her too she just felt she wouldn't be Blair's favourite person at that moment.
Blair sat in the living room gazing down at a foto from high school. Her best friends. She gazed at the foto from left to right. Serena, Chuck, Blair and Nate. The non judging breakfast club but they never really were good vrienden at all. Just as she began thinking about the old times there was a knock at the door. Blair didn't really want to answer it but it was probably Serena back to explain. But it wasn't.
It was Chuck Bass.
“Hey Blair”
“Chuck? What are u doing here?”
He shook his head and shrugged.
“Just came to see how u are...So how are you?”
He asked as Blair turned back and walked into the apartment followed door Chuck. Blair sat on the divan, bank and covered her real feelings with a lie but she couldn't hide it.
“I'm fine...Actually I'm not but it's okay not your problem”
Chuck felt like he had to reassure Blair that she wasn't alone.
“Blair u can talk to me”
“That's the thing I can't you're the one person I can't talk to”
“Why not?”
As Chuck sat down beside her she shifted away from him.
“Because I can't. I don't know but I can guess how u feel about me now and I don't want to hurt you”
“You don't want to hurt me?”
He was surprised in high school Blair would have jumped at the chance to hurt him.
“Of course not! That's the last I want”
Blair felt hurt door his assumptions, but Chuck replied.
“Because u know what I'm going to say”
Blair knew exactly what he was going to say.
It didn't need saying.
“I know and that's why I don't want to talk to u about this. I'm sorry but u know how I feel about Nate and I know that hurts you”
Chuck gazed at the floor and shook his head.
“Doesn't hurt me Blair”
“Okay say that if it makes u feel better but I honestly don't want to hurt you. I just want both of us to be happy”
Chuck thought now was the time to tell Blair about Gabby. He didn't know whether he should of not but she was going to find out anyway sooner of later.
“I think I'm starting to be again”
“Really? Why what's happened?”
“You'll find out sooner of later. It sounds weird saying it like this but I have a...Girlfriend”
“Really? u do?”
Blair seemed very surprised, Chuck having a girlfriend that was new.
“Gabrielle. That's who u saw the other week”
“But u zei she was nobody”
“I didn't want to tell u that I had someone else”
“Well you've got someone and I have someone else, well I used to have”
Reality came back to her at that moment. Now Chuck bas, bass had someone and Blair Waldorf had no one. It used to be the other way around and Blair didn't like it one bit.
“You will again. Nate will come around”
“I wish I had your confidence”
Blair had gegeven up hope about Nate.
“Listen Blair I've got to go. I have a conference in Chicago but I just wanted to see how u were before I left”
That made her feel a little better at least. Even though he had somewhere to be Chuck had stopped by, because he was concerned about her. Chuck walked towards the door before turning around to face her again.
“Hey Blair...”
“Yes Chuck”
“If u ever want to talk, I'm here, don't feel like u can't talk to me”
“Thank you”
She walked towards him and wrapped her arms around him, gratitude.
Chuck turned and began to leave but Blair called him back.
“Chuck. I don't know what Nate will think but I don't care I choose my vrienden and I'd rather have u in my life than not at all”
He grinned and laughed under his breath.
“and I could hardly live without Blair Waldorf now could I?”
Blair giggled as he left with a smile also on his face. He could now embark to Chicago knowing that Blair was good, well as good as she could have been.
It was mid afternoon and Serena knew that Nate was at his movie set so she made her way over there. Not that Nate was interested n anything she had to say.
Serena was banging on the door for five minuten before a very annoyed Nate answered the door.
“What?”
Serena pushed her way into the office. “Serena, nice to see u and please come in”
she hurried straight to his bureau and sat in his chair, just to annoy him a little more.
“Listen to me u arrogant idiot. Blair loves u now get over your ego and forgive her”
He sat silent he knew Serena was telling the truth. “Are u listening to me?”
“Yes...”
“Well?”
“Well what Serena? Huh...?”
“Ugh. Fine. Be like that it's not like I didn't try”
Serena growled. She stood up and she wanted to make an exit to leave Nate reeling but not being one for thinking on the spot, she did the first thing that came to mind. She saw a box of pencils on the bureau and all dramatic knocked it over.
Nate looked confused, was she trying to make a statement?
_ _ _
It was two days later and Blair decided to do something. Someone had to do the first move, and it was Blair who was to be the bigger person in this fight. She stood outside Nate's office, took a deep breath before entering.
Great timing Blair, she thought. Nate wasn't alone, he was in a meeting with about twenty other people, but Nate was going to hear this.
“Blair”
Nate stood up, surprised. “We're in a meeting”
“Yeah I can see that but I don't care u are going to listen to this”
He sighed.
“Blair...Not now”
All eyes in the room were on Blair and flicking each seconde to see Nate's reaction.
“I love u okay. I love you. But I don't regret five years ago...”
“If that's...”
Nate interrupted.
“Let me finish. If I hadn't of broken up with Mark then I wouldn't be marrying u now. That is if u still want to marry me?”
Nate moved from behind his bureau and walked over to Blair. “I'm so sorry for hurting you”
Blair zei again tear eyed. Nate smiled and placed his hand on her cheek and kissed her. He forgave her.
“I love u too Blair”
Nate and Blair had made up that night. Blair felt a great weight had been lifted off her shoulders. She was so glad that now they could get back to the original plan. No meer bumps in the road on their journey. They both lay in bed, Blair's arms were wrapped around Nate, she didn't want to let him go.
“I love you. u know that right?”
“Of course I do. I love u too meer than anything. You're my life Blair”
Blair thought of bringing up Palm Springs. Should she? Should she not? But now it was a fresh start for them she had to be honest.
“Serena told me about Palm Springs”
Nate jumped to the side and shifted away from Blair.
“She did?”
Blair nodded but pulled Nate back towards her.
“She thought u were being a hypocrite when u found out about me and Chuck”
“Blair u know...”
“It's okay. I don't see anything wrong we weren't together then so...”
Blair shook her head and smiled.
“I can't believe how much you've changed. I was totally unreasonable about this whole thing, I'm sorry”
Nate was truly surprised he thought Blair had grown up but never this much. She was a different Blair.
“It's okay.” She huddled her arms around his chest as he kissed her forehead. Blair smiled and zei “So tell me about Palm Springs”
Nate was all confused.
“You want to know about Palm Springs?”
Blair grinned and raised her eyebrows as an answer to his puzzling question.
“I defiantly want to know, all about Palm Springs”
So there the made up couple sat in cuddled up in bed as Nate began the story of Palm Springs.
TO BE CONTINUED...
A/N: Ahhh. Sorry but I love leaving it on cliffhangers. So I don't know what u guys think happened but I know what happens so just need to write it now. What do u think? u will be finding out soon. I know most of u will hate that Nate and Blair made up but it had to be done, since we are only half way through the story, and I hope I'm not confusing anyone with Chuck, Gabby and Blair. Chuck does still have feeling for Blair and he thinks getting with Gabby will make them go away, and Blair just wants to be vrienden with Chuck because even though she has zei she wants nothing to do with him it's the opposite she wants him in her life as her friend. I hope u are all enjoying it. Let me know what u thought on this chapter. I really appreciate your reviews. Thanks xoxo
