These black tears are the unshed blood from the wounds u left me
Not scars that healed, but fresh wounds that still bleed
u left my very soul in tatters, never mind my heart
But that someone who had taken u from me, had to take that too, and rip it apart
I don’t know who made u leave, of why, but I do know this,
That if u could, u would relive all the happy memories with me that I now have to miss
Now just as u are, the happy times are a ghost, a whisper in the wind
It feels like no matter how things turn out for me, this sadness that came over me will never end
It’s also selfish, wanting u to be here with me
You’re healed of sickness and pain, happy now with your other family
u were and angel when u were here
Now you’re just a different kind    
One that will be our guardian until we can find u again
When we find our way to the light

The years have passed
The moments flown by
Yet I still find myself here
starting to cry

The gras neatly trimmed
and the tombstone shines
Flowers' scents intoxicating
mixed with that of the pines

Dirt and mud disappeared
from your resting place
Finally I may kiss the ground
without having a mess of my face

There are other survivors
traveling this lonely road
Trying to verplaats on
is as painful as letting go

My hart-, hart goes out to those
missing someone right now
Sometimes it's too hard living
When we forget how

But we share this common bond
Me and you
We keep catching and releasing
Not taking the same chances we used to

Different are the circumstances
but the results remain the same
Death showed a higher hand
and won the biggest pot in the game

But we must share with each other
We must not sink below the sorrow of the guilt
We must not reach ground zero
Else our lives won't be rebuilt

your smile brightens up the world
your eyes are magical
your tears are precious
u make me laugh
and thought of losing u made me cry

your hart-, hart is as deep as ocean
u are calm in sticky situations
u are the one who sings our song
yours words are an inspiration for me
u can see my pain through my eyes

it's u that makes me smile in
the hardest part of my life
u are the straal, ray of light in the darkest night
u gave me new hope of life
u are always there for me

we have to different ways
but i will never forget u and your friendship
we might fall apart but
u will hold my hart-, hart forever

the times we had are precious jam
u like me for who i m so
i dont have to be any body else
your friendship is the most beautiful thing
on this planet after you

Remember,

u said...

u said
u would
try to make
this up.

u said
u wanted
me door your side.

u said
I would be happy,
I would be
happy this time.

u said.

u said
u wanted
the fresh start
for us,
u said
u wanted us
back,
u wanted
me back.

u promised.

u said
u would
try,
u said
that things
would be better
this time,
u said
I would feel
better
from now.

Remember,
u said.

No meer tears,
u said,
no more
empty words,
remember?

u said.

u said
u wanted
a fresh start
for us.
u said,
no meer pain,
u said,
no more.

And no meer lies
now I say,
sell them
some where else.
Broken promises,
that's all
u gave,
no meer pain,
that's what
u said.

THe world is cruel,

when we are young we ride above the clouds in the bubble of innocence
but as we age we begin to sense the pain behind our parents faces
we see then that really, not everyone is nice.

we begin to understand that "your not invited to my birthday party" is the deadliest threat we can make

and that one dag someone will hate me for who I am and someone will hate u for who u are,

because your not a cheerleader
because I am a cheerleader

because I have brown eyes
because u have white skin

because I have two dads
because u have one mom and no dad

because your grandparents were Chinese
because I'm Jewish

And why will people do this?

Because the world is a cruel place.




None of these things are true about me, they are simply examples of the stupid things people will judge u by.

Throughout misty forest
u seek for spark of hope.
Your life held by
darkness thoughts,
anchor is
some place else.

Bad luck follows u
like a hook,
won't let u go,
won't leave u alone.

u smile today,
and cry whole eternity,
like that's your fate,
disturbing thoughts
to lie inside of you,
to take away everything
that u hope for.

Devil is calling your name,
leaves u not,
u don't see the angel on
your shoulder,
trying to give u a strength.

u long for life
that u don't know of,
u seek for peace,
trying to get away
from misty forest
that stains your heart
into black.