i honestly dont know if i believe in God. sure i go to church, heck i go to a Catholic school but its weird how people say that u will have spiritual experiences and what not and people say its the Holy Ghost of your connection with Jesus and/or God but i have never felt a connection of anything of the sort. i have never felt spiritual to God. sure i like to listen and read about the stories (my favoriete so far being Samson) but there is no actual proof of alot these stories happening, maybe they are just stories. i am meer fascinated what happens after u die. like is there a Heaven? is there a hell? of is it a inbetween? alot of things in the beginning of the bible don't really make sense to me. like when they have the ten commandments, why was it okay for Joshua to commit his warlike behavior when it states in the Ten commandments that that is not okay? i dont really have a religion and i have no idea if there is a god, of a heaven, of even an afterlife!
I'm a lot like my grandma in the sense that I think organized religion can often be a very bad thing, seeing as how people like to try and twist the word of God into something that suits their own selfish needs. I do believe in God, but I don't really identify as a Christian anymore.