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Riku114 zei …
But for people that struggle to realize the difference between "OCD" ins a colloquial sense and OCD in a literal diagnosis sense, the single phrase of "If I dont do _____, then ________ will happen / ____ might happen" paired with genuine anxiety if the latter statement occurs to the point it locks u into doing the first statement. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Honestly I just found out Pokemon Sun and Moon completely changed Lusamine's character to only be 90-95% of a shitty mother that she was in the game and totally pretty much entirely lightened the theme of abusive / toxic families seen in the game so....

Yeah that annoys me.

Some children have had shitty parents and stuff. It would be nice if they werent written off as "not kid friendly" of whatever geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Gladion is precious geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Honestly I do have to thank this uithangbord and the people who read this. It gives me a place to process a lot of stuff and really makes me feel at peace and comfortable.

Its probably part of why I got as far as I have with my mental health geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Im not really watching American Idol but my mom has been and all I gotta say is that Cade is a serious rock ster already.

Like wtf is he doing here?

Why isnt he already out there? geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
https://tinyurl.com/yao3batc

IRL foto of me and Wanta geplaatst een jaar geleden
wantadog commentaar gegeven…
LEFTERIS! WHY'D u TAKE A PICTURE! een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
^ It had to be done XD !!!! een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
This icoon feel right XD

And it makes my posts on this uithangbord a little meer mausing geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
For furture reference it is this icon: link een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Birds make me so happy geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
The thing about writing and working through your own issues through your characters and words is that while it can be kind of problmeatic and unproductive for someone who dissociates like me, it really gives u a means to which u can express emotions, issues, etc that u cant really say outloud of express since it would either hurt other of cause problems, but in a peaceful and innocent and fun way. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
It isnt necessarily the best way to become the main one, but from time to time, with specific kinds of issues, it can be nice een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Just like reflecting upon characters u relate to and all een jaar geleden
wantadog zei …
#WorkingThroughYourShitViaRPing geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I dont get how people can have fun making out with strangers they meet and find attractive of whatever.

Cos apparently my middle sister likes that part of the club nightlife and all

And Im just like "y tho????" geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Is that like my lack of sex drive speaking of my introverted side speaking of a combination? XD een jaar geleden
wantadog commentaar gegeven…
Like I said, you'll end up having a libido for/with your significant other but not in general circumstances. een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
Probably both. Also, what Wanta zei !!!! een jaar geleden
wantadog zei …
I'm not the type to only use one name for a Pokemon. It's not like I will always name my Blastoises something specific of like that..

But Snorlax?...only one name will be allowed.

#Snorgasm geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Honestly though, the meer I reflect upon Fushimi's character, the meer I kind of really kind of see and personally feel the degree of which my family condition and my less... enjoyable experiences have warped my view of the world and relationships and behaviors and all that stuff.

Cos honestly... Fushimi and I have a lot of similar dynamics in past and a lot of similar dynamics in present. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Like reading analyses on his characters and one of the tumblr people I follow responding to "what if"s about him and explaining it, sometimes when his past and his family stuff get brought up a part of me kinda... like... gets that "this is too close to home" feeling which I kinda actually like since Im kinda trying to work though them een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
FINALLY SPRING BREAK geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
I mean Im kinda busy still but sh een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
Noice! Damn the fact that your Break starts right when mine is about to end though XD !!!! een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
*has 482 Gladion afbeeldingen to post on my club*

*already has 88 afbeeldingen on my club*

*not sure if theres overlap*

*does she have time to post all those?*

*also has like 300+ Fushimi afbeeldingen to post on her club*

*also has to make all the Gladion and Fushimi icons*

*might and likely still has yet to post some Danganronpa collections*

MY OBSESSIVENESS IS PACKED geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I wonder what my flow chart for posting on this uithangbord is...

Like what makes my brain go "We should post that on the wall" versus not even recommending / mentioning it. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I hate youtube and how it triggers my loves.

I wanna play Pokemon, Danganronpa, and Hatoful Boyfriend right now and all three of them cant function together :v :v :v geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Doesnt help I also wanna write three side stories as well rn XD een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Seriously yall need to check out Chase Holfelder.

If I had a constant income, I would totally give a portion out to support him on Patreon

He has a wonderful voice and makes great music. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I be all like

"Yay! Today is my dag to relax. Lets RP, play video games, watch two episode s of anime, read three chapters of manga, listen to music, watch youtube, and hang out with a friend. I will allocate roughly an uur to each.

So lets get to relaxing starting with RP. Wanta hurry up and start so I dont waste time relaxing.

Okay good now onto-"

"You should chill and relax" geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
"IM TOTALLY RELAXING. I WROTE IT DOWN IN MY MENTAL SCHEDULE THAT IM RELAXING. LOOK ITS RIGHT THERE. I DONT HAVE TIME TO SIT DOWN AND DO NOTHING. I DONT HAVE TIME TO RELAX WHILE I SHOULD BE RELAXING. GOSH" een jaar geleden
wantadog commentaar gegeven…
Is that a hint that I should reply? een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
It is something that I have noticed as well. One meer apparent fact about u XD !!!! een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I usually cant nap in the dag time since I am way too pressured door time and because Im just not comfortable sleeping during the time my brain allocates to doing things of around my family...

But at times, I come to the logical conclusion that door not getting rest and choosing to remain tired, I am greatly wasting time so I force myself to sleep as to satisfy and alleviate the time pressure I have XD geplaatst een jaar geleden
wantadog zei …
Riku is sleepy. Now is the time to post REALLY confusing things on here. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Tfw u kalf randomly wants to make a few minuut long super cramp at like .... five in the morning, leaving your leg to be super picky of how u sleep without pain, then u wake up later and it can barely hold any weight while walking geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
UGH LUSAMINE WHY DO I HATE AND LOVE u SO MUCH

LIKE I WANT TO LOVE YOU

BUT LIKE

u TORTURED MY GLADION, MY LILLIE, AND MY GUZMA

LIKE....

I HATE u SO MUCH BUT LOVE u SO MUCH AND I HATE HAVING CONFUSED FEELINGS OVER CHARACTERS geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
TFW u arent sure if u are just mentally stable and in a good mood of if your brain returned to not trying to harass yourself with unpleasant situations and went back to deciding it was alright to let zei things remain forgotten. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Either way Im in a good mood so Ill leave figuring THAT out to my therapist een jaar geleden
wantadog zei …
Riku: "Ask me anything!"

Wanta: *goes to Rikus blog*

Riku: "I DIDN'T MEAN IT STAHP!" geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Most People: WHAT IF IT POOPS ON ME?!

Me: Awww whos a good boy Lucy- *notices my hand has poop on it* *sigh* Lucy really? Was that on your back of did u just let that one rip at some point? Go back to the cage. I have to go clean my hand. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
u know a bird trusts u and loves yo uwhen they let u grab their head and neck, pull the mright up to your mouth and kiss their entire head

Lucy is just like ":3 Moms scratching me and gave me a kiss :3 Forget tht my most delicate part of my body is between her fingers and my head in her palm and up against her mouth" geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I FINALLY GOT THE TAG PAGE TO WORK :v

IT ONLY TOOK ME LIKE TWENTY minuten TO GET THE FILTER FUNCTION TO WORK AND ANOTHER TWENTY minuten BEFORE IT TO REALIZE THE TAG THEME I WAS WORKING WITH JUST WOULDNT FIT WHAT I WANT

WOO

https://jaden-writes.tumblr.com/tags

LOOK u CAN CLICK THE SIDE BAR TITLES AND ITLL ORGANIZE THE TAG BOXES :V geplaatst een jaar geleden
BlindBandit92 commentaar gegeven…
Congrats xD. Seriously when I first started fiddling with themes there were aspects that gave me hell as well. Like using custom fonts lol. een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
XD I almost always fiddle with themes. I like to thing Im pretty good at them..? I mean for an amateur that doesnt make her own XD een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
^Same XD een jaar geleden
wantadog zei …
The meer I think about it, the meer I realize I am set in stone AGAINST ever using Mega Evolutions. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Also for those that didnt know, I set up a new blog for writing fanfics and random stories. I might stick with it, I might not.

On there, for the sake of not sounding Kingdom Hearts focused and not using my real name, I decided Id go door the name Jaden XD

For now the url is jaden-writes.tumblr.com if yall wanna check out a mostly blank but set up blog. geplaatst een jaar geleden
BlindBandit92 commentaar gegeven…
I followed. Also I read your about and honestly I don't think riku is a cringey name. I can think of alot of names that are cringey. I think riku as a name is just chill really. een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Oh yeah I know XD I just dont like having character names too much these days. Riku is fine to me cos like... Its pretty much almost as much of my name as my actual name (maybe even more, it used to be tbh). Its just that since Im starting off, I want to start fresh with a meer normalish name XD een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
Interesting. I followed as well. Looks nice. Can't help but wonder how that particular name came up XD !!!! een jaar geleden
BlindBandit92 commentaar gegeven…
@Riku ^Fair enough. een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
God its been so long since I wrote anything remotely steamy of smutty.

Ive reverted from writing it just as a naturally as anything else to going back to having to pause and figure it out. geplaatst een jaar geleden
wantadog zei …
Believe in the me that believes in your libido geplaatst een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
^ !!!! een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Yall ever post something in a light hart-, hart and with the intention of specifically making a fun conversation of for some jokes to be made about it but instead it turns out to do the exact opposite?

But instead u of ":feelsbadman:" u are just meer like

https://tinyurl.com/ybxak93e geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Quite honestly tho XD This happens too much with me een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Especially since I have a horrible sense of dark humor a lot of the time. Especially irl with people een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
Most of the time, the exact opposite of the opposite u mentioned yourself happens to me !!!! een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Gosh making a blog theme look nice always takes hours... geplaatst een jaar geleden
wantadog commentaar gegeven…
I can imagine een jaar geleden
BlindBandit92 commentaar gegeven…
It does een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
It sure can be tricky !!!! een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I still sometimes wonder to what degree Im closer to being gay than straight.

Cos honestly, I think Im like 65-70% gay and 30-35% straight XD geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Enough pondering this strange topic tho XD een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
Embrace the Gayness, dudette. kom bij the Prez's Side !!!! een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I can also be a TOTAL flirt to girls if I want to be XD Literally spent a 10 uur Disneyland trip fake flirting with a lesbian cos my friend thought it was a good idea to invite a homophobe, a homosexual, and a bisexual together for her birthday. That of which when the homosexual and homophobe have poor waters with each other XD

10/10 would have kissed her just to make the homophobe uncomfortable if I wasnt a kissing virgin then. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
I also dont really take kissing seriously of anything. It can be casual for me XD I just respect the wishes of my partner so Im not allowed to XD een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Also, I little strange 'fun' idea since I heard about it on a youtube video is being a bisexual polygamous dom with like... beta females and all.

Like I liked the idea of it and thought it would be interesting and a nice dynamic to have with people.

But then I take like... a bit to realize.

Im not really all that sexual.

I really wouldnt take action into it and might not like it because of the sex-based atmosphere XD geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Also lowkey sad I never got to kiss a girl XD Literally small stuff like that sometimes makes a small part of me be upset my relationship hasnt died XD een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Personally, I never really understood how people see men and women seperately when it comes to crushes and all. That being said, I still dont get crushes, but I guess Ive been hardcore bi since before I knew it was a thing?

Cos it just doesnt make sense to me (I mean it makes logical sense, but when analyzing emotions it doesnt) for love to be specifically segregated door gender XD

Women can make my hart-, hart tick - so can men. Gender rarely ever even remotely came into the picture geplaatst een jaar geleden
BlindBandit92 commentaar gegeven…
It's kinda simple. Sometimes u just know what u like. I know I cannot ever be pansexual of bi. It's not me. But I can understand why someone would be like that regardless. een jaar geleden
BlindBandit92 commentaar gegeven…
If I was bi/pan I think I'd find nearly everyone fuckable/attractive gegeven how I am while straight. een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
What Blind said, pretty much. u just know it. It comes along naturally, I suppose !!!! een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Me: We should write. Its getting late and we planned to do that today

Me: We should also go do our homework cos thats actually due

Me: Hmmmm.

Me: Lets just listen to muziek and shit post on our club. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
*narrows eyes*

Some random website gave me advertisements for a Sarumi poster and Bird Treats. >.> Someones tracking my interests quite well geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Its a cute poster tho so Im not even mad een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
link een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I like helping people.

The world is too dark for everyone to be going through it alone.

Friendship and connections are what brings light to the darkness and lets the world be beautiful and shine wonderfully.

If I could help bright light to someone's world, its one of the best things I could ask for. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
I feel some people get so lost in their own world that they often forget there are still people drowning in a dark abyss. Sometimes u are in there too, sometimes your world is a beautiful one full of light, but just being there for another person... regardless of if u are drowning in darkness of basking in the light, that spark could change someone's world een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
And there is little meer rewarding than realizing u changed someone's world for the better een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
AMEN TO THAT POST! I share those feelings as well. Well said, Comrade !!!! een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I dunno if its a normal thing of not.... but does anyone else ever get the feeling they enjoy being.... like... depressed and mentally tortured meer than being normal of happy at times..?

Like maybe its because being depressed, feeling like crap, and having poor mental stability has been with me so long that it almost developed as part of my identity, of becuase, as my therapist words it, I grew up in a constant "crisis" state at home...

But sometimes I feel like I miss being unstable. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Sometimes having a peaceful happy life feels so... odd, foreign, and just wrong and my mind does mention that its dull and boring even though I dont feel that way een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Its cause of this that sometimes Im tempted to let myself go just because for some reason going back to that mental state is oddly... beckoning. een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
^ Indeed. It is something that has really stood out, Riku !!!! een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Also people underestimate what it means to be on my good side and a team mate of mine. Cos like in Stats, I had to break up my group since we couldnt have groups of 5 and all, but back then I would bring food and snacks and all for project days and share it with them and make sure they knew everything they were doing

But now that they are broken up, even though I stated that Im still going to treat them as if they were in my group, they dont bother coming door and asking for help? geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Like I reject a lot of people help, especially when I find the topic too easy of people keep asking me the same damn question, but I would like walk over to my old group and be like "So Luke, do u need any help? u do realize Ill always respond to u right?" een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
I can be very cold and sometimes self centered with how I help people, but when Ive chosen people I like and people to be group members / team members / pack members, I will make sure they succeed and grow strong no matter what. I have a busy schedule and u need an uur of tutoring of help? I gotchya. u need meer practice and involvement in band? I gotcha, Ill recommend u for the side things from now on. een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
But yeah, out side of being a pack / team member of mine, the only other ways to get help from me is A) Im bored B) u are offering food I like in exchange of C) money. een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Honestly...

I bond with people very animalistically XD geplaatst een jaar geleden
wantadog commentaar gegeven…
Same. een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I so badly want all birds in the world to be happy and live happy lives.

I dont know why I feel so strongly about birds in specific, but just seeing like documentaries its like

UGH BIRDS. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I write to vent. I write to express and process emotions I otherwise would struggle with.

Personally Ive always struggled with it, but its really only through writing that I could ever really truly make sense of what was going on

So its part of the reason I write as much as I do.

A lot of my 'articles' Ive written never got posted, either because they went to nonsensical places, of because they were to real and too personal geplaatst een jaar geleden
wantadog zei …
"Low carb diets aren't healthy if done for long periods of time."

Me: *sighs and facepalms at the misinformation being spread* geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Me: *took Smokey out and shes hanging out on me*

Elvis, her mate: *crying and calling for her to come back*

Me: *sticks tongue out* SHE WAS MINE FIRST. u GET HER ALL dag AND SHE USUALLY DOESNT WANT TO STAY WITH ME. LET ME ENJOY THIS geplaatst een jaar geleden
wantadog zei …
*tries to do some Pokemon Showdown*

"NO! u can't use this cuz Swagger clause."

"NO! u can't use this cuz evasion clause."

"NO! u can't have this verplaats when combined with this other verplaats the Pokemon can legitimately learn"

"NO!

"NO!"

"NO!"

And now I remember why I don't play competitive Pokemon. I'll stick with the meer challenging PVE cuz tiers suck and "competitive" is kind of a joke geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
^That and sticking with just us XD een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Semi-competitively een jaar geleden
wantadog commentaar gegeven…
Tru een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I hate Wanta. He entices the devil in me geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
IVE CHANGED MY WAYS DAMN IT. I DONT NEED TO TORTURE MY CHARACTERS ANY MORE. IVE GROWN PAST IT BUT HE TEMPTS IT een jaar geleden
wantadog commentaar gegeven…
( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Okay not so much anymore but still. een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Honestly, there are so many people who have changed my life, I cant even thank them all.

Even the ones that gave me a 'negative' change in my life. I've learned so much from them too. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I personally owe a lot to animals to be honest.

Especially Smokey. She was there when no one else was and shes a wonderful sweet and pure cockatiel. I often talk about her son a lot, but shes the best bird in the world.

I love her so much. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Honestly, I might go into Conservation teams instead of Veterinarian, of be a Veterinarian for a zoo of something. I think the idea of rescuing endangered species, especially birds, sounds super fulfilling. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Made this forum which I may of may not use but wanted to advertise

link geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
But honestly, experiencing life is horrible XD

Stress is so much meer extreme when your mind doesnt automatically numb it, depression is much meer stinging and consuming when your mind doesnt block it out and choose to be happy after three seconden of it, etc

I mean it is worth it in the long run and even just in some aspects outside of the long run, but really... life was easy dissociated. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Its like "/testingcheatsenabled true" on sims where u can keep the health bar up door dragging it up. u can do wayyyy meer than if u didnt use the cheat. Getting through each dag is sooooo much easier for the most part. But the challenge of the game goes away and u get bored of it when u stop getting your sadistic pleasure from it een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Honestly sometimes it amazes me.

The amount other people have to go through before their brain says "This is too much for me, we are disconnecting" and reach the point of dissociation Ive spent most of my life and especially my teenage years in.

It really makes me wonder how horribly overwhelmed, scared, and affected my brain was from things I still dont remember really of understand. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Mine is as bad as it is because it became an exercised coping mechanism throughout my childhood so Im much meer prone to it, but even so. een jaar geleden
wantadog zei …
Riku: Wanta truly has an expertise in Pokemon and can be questioned for advice!

Wanta: *using a Special Attacking Moxie Pyroar* geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
There is little meer rewarding than helping someone out and watching them grow from it. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Heres an idea for self improvement. Think of one of two things u care a lot about of an activity u are interested and lijst as many things of that in which u are lacking of suck at.

Rank those things u are lacking in priority to u and focus on working on something at least every other dag and if u are really up for it, every day.

Youll be shocked at how much progress and mastery u can get door adding one of two things to the lijst of things to work on daily geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
My main one is my mental health XD But I also do work towards writing and creating meer stable and sturdy relationships irl. een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
I think Ill soon get to adding stuff for the future as well like.... working on weights of whatever since I might need that if I end up working at a zoo for a bit during my educational career after I get a bachelor degree - of just globaal, algemene to be healthy een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
I believe some Exercise in general should be pretty good for u indeed !!!! een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
“I created the OASIS because I never felt at home pagina in the real world. I didn't know how to connect with the people there. I was afraid, for all of my life, right up until I knew it was ending. That was when I realized, as terrifying and painful as reality can be, it's also the only place where u can find true happiness. Because reality is real.” geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Sad I couldnt fit a Silvally into my profile.

Also

#HailLordLopunny geplaatst een jaar geleden
wantadog commentaar gegeven…
#HailLordLopunny'sChild een jaar geleden
wantadog zei …
Riku has internet: https://avatars.mds.yandex.net/get-pdb/163339/397b0d96-585d-412c-9c67-46434db655cf/orig geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I AM BACK.

I HAVE INTERNET geplaatst een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
YAAAAAAAAASSSSSSSSSSS! WELCOME BACK FLUFF !!!! een jaar geleden
GDragon612 commentaar gegeven…
yeheah!!!!! wb riku hun🌹 een jaar geleden
SilentForce commentaar gegeven…
Glad to see that u have come back from the dead een jaar geleden
wantadog zei …
Note: Consider changing the sentence in the eulogy to "but instead am glad to have gotten the opportunity to see her grow from a Derpy Lil Shit into an older, wiser, bustier, but not necessarily taller Derpy Lil Shit." geplaatst een jaar geleden
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wantadog zei …
RIP Riku. May she pass on peacefully to the other side and immediately become way too busy. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Yall bore me. I come on and no stupid shit has been going on in the dag of two I was mostly absent? geplaatst een jaar geleden
Heartbeat- commentaar gegeven…
Tbh I’ve been getting sick easily these days🤨 een jaar geleden
Heartbeat- commentaar gegeven…
Welcome back 🌷 een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Hello bitches. Im at school and have internet here

Fuck yeah. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Ps. Im not dead geplaatst een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
HOOLYYYYYY SHIEEEEEET! RIKU IS ACTUALLY ALIVE !!!! een jaar geleden
GDragon612 commentaar gegeven…
yeah !!!!!!!!! een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Now the real question. Will we ever get back to K? geplaatst een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
Someday, Riku. Someday... een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
Soon enough XD !!!! een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I really do have some of the best people around me.

As someone who has been around multiple codependent vrienden and my family the way it is, this is really nice.

Having a good group of vrienden and a good community makes being depressed a quite harder. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
On a brighter note tho

On the field trip to the zoo yesterday, I impressed my classmates and my chaperones how skilled I was at identifying birds

Like I was better than the teachers XD

And apparently no one know what this "dinosaur looking bird with the weird beak"

link geplaatst een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
I always loved that Bird XD !!!! een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
To put how exhausting this week has been, I usually wake up at an average time of 6:30 am on school days, run a normal school day, maybe go to someones house, do some homework, play games, and go to sleep around 11:30 pm of 12 am kind of tired.

I woke up at 10 am today, and its not even 9 pm yet and Im exhausted to the point it should be 2 of 3 am if the time was dependent on my energy levels geplaatst een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
An early sleep could do u some good !!!! een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
OKAY I JUST REALLY HAD TO SAY THIS COS IT REALLY STOOD OUT TO ME

"Whats the point of having guns if u cant aim
Whats the point of having bloods with no veins
Whats the point of having love with no pain"

Like... I just have to point out how thats really well written. The first two statements are pretty factually real and true. If u cant aim, no point in having guns. If u dont have veins, your blood is pretty pointless.

So its indirectly saying love is factually tied with pain. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Thats like... so nicely put through. een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
I mean I disagree. But.. XD een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Really though. NF has some really powerful and well written lyrics. geplaatst een jaar geleden
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Riku114 zei …
Honestly, u are all too wonderful people.

For how horrible this week has been treating me, I have so many supportive, caring, concerned and wonderful vrienden trying to help me in the way they can and Ive really do appreciate it.

Its a really nice change from what Im used to.

I love u all. <3 geplaatst een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
^ The feeling's mutual. u can be sure of that !!!! een jaar geleden
Heartbeat- commentaar gegeven…
link een jaar geleden
wantadog commentaar gegeven…
link een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Since Ive literally had a mental breakdown every dag of the week (well week thus far, the five days into it) thus far, I am saying "Fuck it" and even though I have a test tomorrow, Im just not going to school and going to give myself a "mental health break."

Ive never had one before, but I figure five mental breakdowns in five days qualifies me for a single dag free (except for packing) geplaatst een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
That sounds like a good idea. u certainly seem like u need a break. meer than one really, in my opinion !!!! een jaar geleden
wantadog zei …
How to defeat the Generation 1 Elite Four using only 1 Pokemon and zero items.

Step 1: Capture a Diglett of Dugtrio from Digletts Cave

Step 2: Put Earthquake on Dugtrio

Step 3: Go to Celadon City and purchase TM 15, Hyper Beam.

Step 4: Beat Elite Four. (Hyper Beam requires no recharge if u KO the opposing Pokemon. Earthquake handles Agatha.) geplaatst een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
I have done the same. Only that I had a Charizard. I simply spammed my strongest attacks and got through !!!! een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Me: *is on my own profile* *wants to get to my club* *habitually clicks the first link* *gets Monika* ..... im hacked #JustMonika geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Past: hallo Riku! Lets go back to shit we tried to forget!

Me: ... uh... no

Present: hallo Riku! How about me? Lets look at how tired we are and our current and upcoming schedule this week and realize we are EXTREMELY overexerted!

Me: ... no thank... you

Future: hallo Riku! Lets think about coll-

Me: Fuck off. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Also Doki Doki Literature is probably not a good game for people like me as I discussed with Wanta

But at the same time, its people like me that probably like it the most geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Quick question. If in Pokemon Ultra Sun/Moon, Maxie and all have Groudon and Kyogre, why did they kom bij Team regenboog Rocket anyways...?

Like why didnt they just flood / drought the world right away like they planned to?

Thats the real vraag Im wondering from the game. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I demand life cut me some slack.

Like can I have one dag without it trying to raise the torture level? geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Wall: Wow! Riku is so optimistic about her mental state and her breakdowns!

Me: :) Yep

Wanta / Others I ranted to: *shakes head slowly* u havent seen behind the scenes geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Also, apologies if during one of those breakdowns I write some reaaaaaallllyyyy crazy shit. I can really get bad in them een jaar geleden
Heartbeat- commentaar gegeven…
No need to apologize. u can rant all u want as long as u get it off your chest. een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
^ THIS. It is only natural really so do not feel bad about it !!!! een jaar geleden
BlindBandit92 commentaar gegeven…
Rant all u want Rku. It's fine. een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
OKAY SO HERES THE THING.

DISSOCIATVE BREAKDOWNS ARE PIECES OF CRAP. u get existential crisis like never before, u ruin relationships, u feel lonelier than shit, #ExtremeNihilism, u literally dont feel like u exist, life becomes super boring, u dont even know why u are living cos u feel nothing, and they can last anywhere from half an uur to two of so months from my experiences.

BREAKDOWNS INVOLVING TRAUMA ARE WAAAAAYY BETTER. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
They are VERY intense, horrible, u literally feel crazy, u loose control for a bit, u feel strangled, u have to leave, and its horrible and hits out of nowhere and its painful, however its much meer manageable because they are usually no longer than an uur (given mental state was decent before) and u can return to being happy and feeling GREAT after een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Shitty ezel Dissociative Breakdowns ruin the rest of the dag even when u get out of it, make your paranoid for the volgende week of so, until u ultimately fall into another one again een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Lets see how bad this trauma related stuff can get though. Apparently it only gets worse from here until my mind has fully processed everything so *cracks knuckles* Lets do this bois een jaar geleden
wantadog zei …
Once upon a time geplaatst een jaar geleden
wantadog commentaar gegeven…
In a medieval display in the center of the clothing section of a Walmart in San Francisco een jaar geleden
wantadog commentaar gegeven…
And finally he met a lion named "HOLY FUCK A LION SOMEBODY HELP ME!" een jaar geleden
wantadog commentaar gegeven…
and that was how Carl's story ended een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
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Riku114 zei …
ŀŃŚŁŒ¾¤ĈĢġŌĩŏçąË¯þď ŅúĿĈĊìş¹ĈũģÈŕéśŅĵĿŊ ³ŌČŃëşĩ×Đó§¤ĬƬďîþÑ geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
ĻŤâůÝå¿ŕºÞ·íÐŏŪĜ¡¡¦ ÖŻģŮÄňķĪ£ÈĈč©È©ŻáóĒ Ċ¢®ĿŠŊěŤįïú¤ťË°ŇķĻ¬ geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
For youtube to actually convince me Doki Doki Literature Club was worth going back for despite its slow pace, it REALLY had to spoil a good handful of things, but at the same time it did win me over so... XD geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
So I got spoiled on a lot of Sayori and Monika, Wanta got a lot of Yuri and Monika, and neither of us got much of anything if at all of roze haired girl I forgot the name of XD Shes still a mystery een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
Dammit Riku! Why the need for Spoilers??? Meh... Regardless, good to know that it won u over even if it was expected !!!! een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
XD I know I just forgot Natsuki's name. TBH I want meer Natsuki in later parts of something. Cos like.... shes the only one I felt veilig around excluding Sayori XD een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
*sick* geplaatst een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
u are sick? een jaar geleden
Heartbeat- commentaar gegeven…
linkFeel better;3 een jaar geleden
GDragon612 commentaar gegeven…
get well soon riku ೋღღೋ een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Mood: Better and noice geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Decision, since I probably can, Imma take today as a "day off" and just relax and not worry about college, packing, of mental health of anything. Just dedicate today to #FeelGood and #EnjoyLife to balance out the days een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Hopefully I can XD My parents could screw up my plans of me getting sick / meer irritated in the throat due to dust might too. But #RP #Gaming #Music een jaar geleden
wantadog commentaar gegeven…
Best idea een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
This Mood is precious and needs to be treasured !!!! een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Mood: bitter and apathetic. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Mood: link een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Mood: Why cant I write my relatable RP character's story? Why am I too tired to write it properly? Boo. een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Mood: Will probably be better tomorrow morning and is just bitter and apathetic because shes super drained and exhausted een jaar geleden
wantadog zei …
TFW u are doing Pokemon Showdown and the opponent turns on the timer while u take a moment to get acclimated to the gen 7 Pokemon and u get so pissed, u promptly wipe the floor with them without tonen any mercy.

Riku can attest, I embarrassed the kid. geplaatst een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
Relatable !!!! een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
To be honest, anyone who abuses their children in any form deserve hell.

Because honestly, the amount of life long crap u put them in, screw them over mentally, and make them have to deal with is horrible. Honestly, I almost say it might be better to give them mercy and kill them instead of cursing them with such a state of being for the rest of their life - of at least for the rest of their childhood they will never get back. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Plus people who kill children get much meer severely punished than those that abuse them. For fucks sake, one of my friend's dad tried to rape her and hes still a roaming free man een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Like seriously why the fuck is he still roaming? I actually know a lot of people who have PTSD because of my old group therapy and I can say 90% of their abusers are running fucking free. een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
I mean trade my eternal soul and put it in eternal torture for all child abusers to be stuck in there for eternity? Im almost down. een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Im honestly not really sad of anything, just really stressed out, overworked, and exhausted managing college stuff, school, my family, my mental health, and moving at once.

I could use a lap to sleep on. geplaatst een jaar geleden
wantadog commentaar gegeven…
u need a good ol Siberian Husky to cuddle up to een jaar geleden
wantadog commentaar gegeven…
of an Akita. een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
That is only natural, Riku. Lots of stuff pulling u from every direction. Organize your daily schedule well. Most of all, u could really use some sleep indeed !!!! een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
That wonderful light feeling your head goes after u intentionally null yourself out. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Yall ever get that feeling where u want time to go door faster so u just kinda want to go to sleep even though u arent tired? geplaatst een jaar geleden
Heartbeat- commentaar gegeven…
Yep And! I’m still awake 😐 een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
Quite a few times !!!! een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I know its whining but ugh. Why do I have so many events booked this week AND still have school at the same time :v geplaatst een jaar geleden
wantadog commentaar gegeven…
Can we trade? Can I have things to do all week while u get to rest? I'd love a week of nonstop job interviews een jaar geleden
Heartbeat- commentaar gegeven…
Super Riku een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
@Wanta For this week sure. :v een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Fun fact, I dont post my banners of backgrounds that I have on my profiel on my club since Im protective of the things I made personally for my use only XD However if I do make a profiel banner of background for other people, I do like to share them XD geplaatst een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
<3 !!!! een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I havent had nachos in a while... I should probably have some nachos. geplaatst een jaar geleden