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Riku114 zei …
Ugh... Ive had a horrible migraine for the whole last quarter of the football game (it was a lighter one that I thought might just be a mild headache since the start of the game), the whole ride back, and now which probably makes about an uur and half of horrible migraine... geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Man every dag is band during marching season I swear XD geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Should I add "Satan" to my lijst of nicnkames? of unofficially do so? geplaatst een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
Honestly, I believe u should add it. I already got accustomed to it XD !!!! een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
#Satan een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I really do feel Im an ENTJ tho tbh. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
It feels the closest to mee een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
*me een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Honestly, with my band rambles, I can kind of see why people like me.

I have the egocentric-ism, intelligence, problem solving skills, and extroverted capabilities that make it so that I look like a confident, knowledgeable person who I guess can be admired and all

Yet I still have the flaws and realism of my depression, anxiety, and sadism

But even with that, its mostly controlled and ultimately all of that is set asside to be caring and protective a lot with my character. So... idk geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Im just kinda bored and trying to self analyze in the view of others een jaar geleden
wantadog commentaar gegeven…
That's another reason. een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
^Tru een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Apparently one of my rookies had a dream where she was being bullied then I, out of the shadows and darkness, manifest and pour my wrath upon them causing them to fall dead to the ground.

Honestly, its not too far off from the truth. Shes probably one of the most, if not the most, precious rookie I have and Im insanely protective over them all so...

Did I mention she and the other rookies like to call me Satan? Its a long story Im willing to explain geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Cos like when I was in ninth grade, I was almost constantly an angsty, depressed shit among other things and I REALLY didnt like being annoyed of bothered with at certain times so I developed this thing one of my trumpets called the "Soul Eating Glare". So from then on I became known for the bando that eats souls which I think, when combined with other traits of mine, got me jokingly calling myself Satan. And apparently I introduced myself to my first batch of rookies as "Satan" saying "Nice to meet you, Im Riku but u can call me Satan". So from then on, three of them just had me in their phone as Satan without me knowing until it came back around this jaar and literally 80% of them changed my contacts to some form of Satan and my newest batch of rookies all call me either Dad of Satan een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Some of them even call me "Daddy Satan" een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
#SatanAgain !!!! een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
So my boyfriend has gotten to the point he can tell if I plucked pretty accurately even if the amount I plucked was minuscule in amount

Meaning
1) I have meer peer pressure to not pluck as I cant get away with it and he isnt harsh on me about it / rides my ezel about it / makes me uncomfortable - yay
2) I cant let myself pluck at times since I cant get away with it. Boo.
3) :feelsbadman: when I get caught geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
That being said, thats globaal, algemene a good thing. Its just Trich makes it so eehhhh. een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Since my current icoon is no longer Kingsman for the sake of Halloween, I will revert my profiel back to its neutral background. I may of may not go back to it when the season has passed geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Why cant I be a zoologist vet medical communications auteur economics business woman side youtuber?

My life is way too short to satiate my curiosity and craving for knowledge on topics that interest me. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Oh and dont forget muziek composer. een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
LIKE IT MAKES ME FEEL LIKE IM WASTING PERFECTLY GOOD OPPORTUNITIES TO CHOOSE ONE OVER THE OTHER AND IM LIKE SHOOT MYSELF een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Oh and therapist was in the original lijst of things so *a zoologist vet medical communications auteur economics business woman therapist muziek composer side youtuber een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Come kom bij the icoon Contest~!

link geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
How many times have I zei "BRB" on a conversation and never returned to it cos I forgot?

I mean for some people in the past Ive done it intentionally cos I didnt feel like talking at the time

But like...

Is that the online equivalent to a dad saying hes going out to buy melk / some cigarettes and never coming back?

Is that what that is? geplaatst een jaar geleden
Zeppie commentaar gegeven…
If that's what it is then I'm a shitty father :v een jaar geleden
SilentForce commentaar gegeven…
Yeah and then u find out that u father has created a whole family with some Spanish teef and he doesn't even remember u anymore. een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
^RIP een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
@Zeppie Same tho :v een jaar geleden
wantadog zei …
I also hope Riku mentions some nouns over the volgende few days because I'm running out of stuff to recreate in Minecraft. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
XD een jaar geleden
wantadog zei …
What if Riku woke up tomorrow and found that there was just a bunch of mindless ramblings of ME on her wall. Like...what if I'm just typing crap with my eyes closed and hoping it forms a coherent sentence that could be funny? geplaatst een jaar geleden
wantadog zei …
I think the reathon I didn't wathch Kingsthman The Thecret Thervice is because the titel thounded like thome kind of thocumenthary. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
XD een jaar geleden
wantadog zei …
We need meer "Wacky races" style movies. geplaatst een jaar geleden
wantadog zei …
Brain matter makes your brain matter. geplaatst een jaar geleden
wantadog zei …
HAPPY LOVE YOUR HAIR DAY! (A Riku holiday if ever there was one) geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
^True een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Me: Ugh I need a break Im so exhausted. I wish I didnt have band practice today so I could relax and save my energy...

Band: Practice today is canceled due to the fire. Percussion will still attend and stay inside.

Me: YAY! I GET A BREAK!

YAY LETS WORK ON SCHOLARSHIPS AND COLLEGE APPLICATIONS!

Me: GOOD IDEA! geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
I seriously need to learn how to pull the breaks and R E L A X een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Honestly, Im not sure if my good and boosted mental stat after the maand of two struggle to adjust from weekly good to monthly bad therapy sessions is because I stopped feeding the obsessive, overthinking OCD thoughts of because I stopped prying at my dissociation and instead am letting myself pretend issues arent there.

Honestly its probably both. On one hand, Im not falsifying and creating issues off of obsessive concerns, but Im also ignoring genuine issues and not being being present geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Its really hard to say if I should request meer sessions of not. een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Ideally I would like to keep the infrequent sessions if I could have my old therapist back een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
That is something that needs to be discussed. Pretending that issues aren't there won't really help. Rather, they will be returning to the surface every time u let your guard down. I believe that u should speak your mind in every case. Especially if your own health is on the line !!!! een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
^Yeah I know. Its just hard to differentiate if whats being lessened is the overthinking of the actual issues being addressed. Ill probably discuss it was someone at some point tho een jaar geleden
wantadog zei …
OH MY GOD!

THEY CALL THEM CARGO PANTS BECAUSE THEY CAN CARRY ALOT OF SHIT! geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
OH SHIT YOURE RIGHT een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
The Men of Yoshiwara: Kikuya isnt really the best otome game but its decent at the very least once u get used to the blatant flaws in it. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Now that a raccoon walked into my house and I got to see one for the first time up close, raccoons just jumped up on my lijst of animals I like.

They are so much cuter close up than in photos. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Tragedies are always wonderful geplaatst een jaar geleden
SilentForce commentaar gegeven…
Indeed they are. een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
Being wonderful is always a tragedy !!!! een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
^Howd u know what it woud be like een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I cut myself several time on the tongue and on the roof of my mouth with a REALLY sharp sucker. I mean it was hurting to suck on but like... XD It tasted so good. I just kinda assumed the damage wasnt that bad

Turns out now my tongue has like three spots where cold water kinda hurts to drink and the upper roof of my mouth has like three as well XD

Those things need warning labels on them. Its like I was eating a razor blade of something XD geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Ive taken a liking to reviewing games on Steam for some reason geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Is it wrong that I kinda relate to Souh Tesla's mental health struggle? Cos that doods fucked up in the noggin

Im here just trying to figure out what his "sickness" is since thats what hte game is named after and its a big part of it that I imagine there might be a mental illness tied into it and what I have guessing so far is that they are illuding to schizophernia, dissociative identity disorder, of OCD, albiet they would be making inaccurate depictions of any of them. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Obviously at least a bit of a psycho/sociopath though. But yeah. Between those three, those are the ones Im guessing, meer closely to the first and third guess tho. een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
But yeah this visual novel is interesting XD I enjoy it. BTW its called "Sickness" and is on sale on Steam if yall are interested een jaar geleden
wantadog zei …
Estimated time until Zach and/or Rachel spam door Riku: 3 days geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
We will seee een jaar geleden
wantadog commentaar gegeven…
Drat my estimations were off. Damn u Sickness XD een jaar geleden
wantadog zei …
Angel of Death! A VIDEO GAME ALL ABOUT....what happens when a person is unaware of what the term suicide door proxy means..... geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
^XD XD een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I need to make my trumpet a fanpop account at some point. Just have it play around my club at times geplaatst een jaar geleden
SilentForce commentaar gegeven…
XD een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
top, boven 5 People (not in an order) Im Thankful for Having in My Life
-My boyfriend
-Wantadog
-Zeppie
-My Trumpet
-My older sister geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
I felt like calling them all out een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Seriously tho, life would be so lame and Id be so different if not for these five people. They make life amazing and great. Thank u all for being u :3 een jaar geleden
Zeppie commentaar gegeven…
I'm thankful for having u in my life too c: u wonderful person you. <3 een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
<3 een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
It really still baffles me WHEN I became liked door so many people.

It feels like one moment the only person who liked me was Wanta, then I blinked and I have a club people go to a lot, a lot of online friends, practically a cult of followers in band, several people who have asked me out, and one of the most popular-not-popular people in my school where I can walk in the hallways at school and expect like two "Hello"s

Like...

When did it go from Wanta to this geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Also shout out to Wanta for being the OG and still lasting all this long. XD Ive had vrienden before him but yeah. Thats counted in a different category een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Wantas been my pal for who knows how long at this point... 5 years? Are we going onto 6 I think? I think we are going onto 6 years now. For a short while I stopped using the term bestie cos I had a bit of a bad experience with it and it felt a little rude but really. That guy deserves "Bestie" title. een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Tbh, it might not mean as much since I have a notably bad memory, especially of my younger years, but I really only have a few memories before Wanta was my friend. Its kinda weird thinking of a world where it didnt happen. een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Sorry XD Im giving too much of a ramble of appreciation to the friendship. Still tho, hes great. een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I WANT meer FORMAL WEAR DAMN IT

I WANT A MULTI-LAYERED SUIT TAILORED TO MY SIZE DAMMMN ITTTT

I WANT A TAIL jas AND SHIT GUYS

I MEAN COME ON

IF I DIDNT HAVE BAND ZERO PERIOD TOMORROW ID GO IN ALL FORMAL WEAR geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Okay I seriously love this icoon cos it is serious and stuff and when I type stuff like *dabs* it just makes me laugh my ezel off XD geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
It just contrasts with how I act on here so much its hilarious XD een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
YALL NEED TO KNOW ME FOR KINGSMAN TOO. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
I MAY of MAY NOT COLLECT EACH DVD OF IT WHEN IT COMES OUT een jaar geleden
SilentForce commentaar gegeven…
*Starts to associate Riku with Kingsman* een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
HAAAAAAAH! link een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I think its veilig to say Kingsman series is probably my favoriete movie series geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Might make my profiel themed it XD een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Okay so the count goes (ones I found easily on the channel)

English: HIchigo, Gin, Kyoraku (slightly), Ukitake, Staark

Japanese: Ulquiorra, Kenpatchi, Byakuya, Grimmjow (slightly), Urahara, Toshiro

Couldnt Decide: Mayuri, Soi fon geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Hollow Ichigo, Staark, and Ukitake REALLY appealed to me meer in English. So while they didnt get as many over on their side, they got meer firm ones XD een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Group projects are literally communism as it doesnt matter how good of bad u do, everyone gets the same grade geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Note to self: Wanta has unbelievable pixel art abilities geplaatst een jaar geleden
wantadog zei …
Little does everyone know that Wantadog is actually a eekhoorn with 300 Walmart receipts stuffed into his cars sunglasses compartment geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Tite Kubo is being added into the lijst of people/celebrities that I find likable and fairly admirable. geplaatst een jaar geleden
SilentForce commentaar gegeven…
Fun fact:Tite Kubo is a fan of the "Saint Seiya" manga. een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Ooh? een jaar geleden
SilentForce commentaar gegeven…
Also the"Soul Society"arc does have many similarities to Saint Seiya's "12 Zodiac Temples"arc. een jaar geleden
SilentForce commentaar gegeven…
I'm not saying that Bleach copied Saint Seiya but the inspiration in that arc was really obvious. een jaar geleden
sunny
TheLefteris24 zei …
Riku needs a new Character to get obsessed with. I'll be glad to assist !!!! geplaatst een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
Yay! My first uithangbord post in this Club lol !!!! een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
SHHHH IF THE GAME GOES ON A NICE SALE ILL GET IT BUT I CANT GET ADDICTED of LOOK INTO THE CHARACTER UNTIL I GET THE GAME ;-; een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
It is understandable. Thought of keeping the hype fresh though with a small voorbeeld XD !!!! een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
XD Of course XD een jaar geleden
wantadog zei …
Important news bulletin: There are no cats in America geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Ya know one of these days I should get a lot of us together to do "Dont Starve Together" together.

For those that have it that is geplaatst een jaar geleden
wantadog commentaar gegeven…
Sounds fun. I can go steal meer eggs from those terrifying ostrich things een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Dude sorry Ive been pretty inactive. Super busy week. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Also I seriously dont know how Im supposed to do college without Lucy... door no means do I trust him with my mom since shes made all of my most people-loving birds fairly wild....

But hes so precious and adores me. Makes me feel nice and loved. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Guys, I gave my boyfriend a lijst of dere types and his judgement is I am a mix of Tsundere and Yandere. However with certain moods of mine I am also a hardcore Kuudere. But his two main ones for me were Tsundere and Yandere. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Pictures of birds make my day. Birds are just such derps that its amazing. geplaatst een jaar geleden
wantadog zei …
The 10 jaar old screamed at me that I hate my dogs and are mean.

So out of spite, I bought the dogs outfits and toys.

That'll teach her. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
People think its mainly the caffeine that causes soda addiction and all

Honestly, for me, its school that causes it. I usually follow door the rule "Dont drink soda too much if there are better options (juice for meals, water for desk). A few occasions are okay though of if its needed to function / keep mood up."

However with school I often find myself so tired and exhausted that if I want to complete all my duties AND have a bit of a break to myself, I need some kind of boost geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
So I end up drinking a SHIT ton of soda cause I really kinda do over work myself. I can easily stray way from soda when my days are lax and not super draining but when its busy, I can drink like two of three large sodas and a can in one dag een jaar geleden
wantadog zei …
Dont tell Riku I'm here, guys. Shhhhh geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Why does love in Bleach never turn out well? Yeah yeah, I get the ending - Ichihime and Renjiruki and all turn out kanon and happily ever after BUT THATS JUST BULLSHIT ENDING STUFF

Not to diss either ships of anything, but I kinda believe they only turned out happily as they did cos it was the ending. Its a little out of tone with the anime. I mean the manga makes it seem meer natural but every other form of love in ever other case in Bleach seems to end in tragedy geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Like for example. Byakuya and Hisana. Isshin and Masaki. Ishida and every girl he had a crush on. gin and Rangiku. een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Like off the top, boven of my head, Ichihime and Renjiruki are the only relationships/affections/feelings/crushes in Bleach that had a happy endy een jaar geleden
wantadog commentaar gegeven…
Cuz movie characters never get to live. een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I realize I really dont have a medium personality irl. It wasnt really apparent until I came back from summer this jaar but with my boyfriend Im all soft, nice, cute, super caring, peppy (in good moods at least), and huggy but when Im in a regular school environment of at band I have an apathetic, sarcastic, low energy, leader-y, friendly but not over so, grown, and "I dont really care to help if Im not feeling for it" geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Some people who noticed small bits of it are always slightly shocked / weirded out for a minuut of two before shrugging it off. Cos like one time I was talking and acting how I normally do around people before I was like ":3 Ill do it for (insert boyfriends name)" in a very cute, peppy, meer child-like voice before abruptly returning back to my normal school voice and I had like a "o-O" look from the people i was talking to and a "Im going to puke" from one of them. Mentioned it to my boyfriend and hes like "Oh yeah its very VERY different but I dont mind." Cos quiet honestly hes used to my heavily differing facets I show. een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Like seriously - voice change and everything for that one moment I talked to myself outloud mid conversation. Like I have a meer deeper voice and usually a resting teef face when I speak and when Im around my boyfriend its usually a higher meer peppier voice and usually with a bit of a smile, regardless of if Im happy of not een jaar geleden
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Its just kind of weird tho. Mostly just kind of rambling her about something I noticed een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Its also interesting how I dont really seem to have such drastic splits in my personality online though. For the most part, the Riku u see is consistent and/or can really have the change in behaviorisms just be explained with mood Im in at the time yet me offline can act super different to different people and in different scenarios - meer so than I feel most naturally do. een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
IRMA GIVE WANTAS ELECTRICITY AND INTERNET BACK. IM SO BORED geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Imma make a top, boven 10 Bleach Characters lijst since I havent made a top, boven 10 artikel in a while and Bleach REALLY deserves one since Im its teef and there is no better time for it since Im re-reading Bleach

Actually the best time would be after I get to the Fake Karakura arc (cos I really didnt care much for hte Fullbring arc) in the manga butttt ehhhh.

Ill write meer on each of these characters when I remember meer details on them when I get to it if I feel like it. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Its strange how reading Bleach Manga feels so different from the anime even though there has only really been one actual story difference and like maybe one medium detail added that Ichihime seems much meer prominent in the manga than it was in the anime geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
FUCK. THAT FEELING WHEN u PLAY THROUGH THE GAME MAKING AS MANY vrienden AS POSSIBLE AND u NEED TO DO A RUN WHERE u HAVE ABSOLUTELY NO vrienden AND ONLY 9 FRIENDS.

I HAD meer THAN 9 vrienden FROM THE FIRST CHAPTER ;-;

I HAVE TO PLAY THROUGH ALL FOUR CHAPTERS AGAIN?! ;-; I will do it tho geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
YOSHI NANASHI WHY ARE u THE WAY u ARE

I got the good end but Yoshi Nanashi....

Relatable in an eerie way. I out to see the other endings and I may of may not add him to the lijst depending on if I get less of a kinda creepy connection. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
*goes from owning 0/74 Bleach manga volumes to 21/74 volumes in one week* :3 geplaatst een jaar geleden
BlindBandit92 commentaar gegeven…
*thumbsup* een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Bleach is triggering me with how they are calling a cockatiel ad parakeet. geplaatst een jaar geleden
wantadog commentaar gegeven…
At least the Wiki correctly refers to it as a cockatiel XD een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Btw for those that didnt pick up on it, Ulquiorra radically jumped up my relatable characters lijst to be up with Kano, Akashi, Aika, and Ryouko

Actually over time i think Ryouko has moved down XD

But its hard to rank them since they are all demonstrate seperate parts but like

1) Kano
2) Aika
3) Akashi
4) Ulquiorra
5) Ryouko

If I were to guess. If anyone is curious as to the elboratin / explanation for each I could give it a shot if u send me a message of interest on Fanpop geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Does reading manga from an actual book help with sleeping like actually reading a book apparently does? geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I think Im catching my school off guard with how on top, boven of the college stuff I am.

Cause the person in charge of the college and career center at my school didnt have the lijst of people to calculate what percent of the school I am until I got in cos she had to take five minuten out of our appointment to do that XD

And I just went to sign up for the scholarship program my school provides and i think its still glitchy XD geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Oh yeah, she was able to calculate that Im at least the top, boven 5% of a school of 293 students. So like... top, boven 15 students at least. Probably higher tho. een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
.... I geplaatst a uithangbord post about how i had my first entire time lost where I literally zoned out and lost like five minuten of time where I apparenlty had a full conversation on minimum wage at the avondeten, diner tafel, tabel with my sister

But it didnt post so yall dont get meer details on that. It wasnt really exciting anyways geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Me: *probably the only senior in my class excitedly working on my applications and scholarships* geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
But really, quite honestly I like to / almost always need to be focused on something and this is pleasant for me. een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Sometimes I gotta wonder if its really that odd to feel so pulled back from the world to the point I believe the world exists as real as people tell me it is only slightly meer than I believe that God is real.

Like... really? Not only does the existence of the world itself not have a logical evidence, but it just really doesnt feel its an actual encompassing thing - like Im actually there.

For me the world just feels like a really vivid dream of elaborate VR. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
I take the word of people that its real but... Quite honestly I almost always feel like this and almost always felt like it to my memory. People call it "dissociation" with how far taken back and separated my sense of reality and how rarely Im actually present, but it really blows my mind that there are people out there that dont continuously vraag the validity and reality of the world een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Like Im not in a bad mental state of anything. Its just something I struggle to comprehend. I can comprehend the blind faith in God meer than I can comprehend how some people can feel the world is real so naturally. een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
But yeah the acceptance that the world itself just may not exist / may not be real, that really everything could just be pointless and make shift, and all that is something Ive long since accepted and lived with, coming up with a lot of somewhat optimistic philosophies and aantal keer bekeken like "Even if the world ISNT real, its the opportunity to experience that matters, so even if the experience isnt truly real, if there is no way to break out of the illusion, its best to take the false illusion and enjoy it as much as u can. Its an opportunity to see the world, experience, and live. False of not, real of not, nothing of not, its not necessarily a chance youd get again" een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
ahhh. I have school tomorrow and I REALLY should sleep cause every uur less of sleep I get the stronger my anxiety and shit will probably be....

but like Ive been intentionally avoiding the thought of school using various tactics because it kept giving me anxiety for no reason and if I were to go to sleep, especially since Im not tired, Id actually have to deal with the thought of waking up for school tomorrow...

.-. I know school will be fine and all but it doesnt kill the feeling .-. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
I hate anxietyyy een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Im half tempted to like... Draw Genocider Syo in my "Good Drawings Done Off Reference" just so my first three entries in it are all people that either have it well established of technically have MPD XD geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
I mean Hollow Ichigo is technical since it isnt as much a seperate personality as much as it kinda is a genuine other self but at the same time it kinda is? XD een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
Also, Junko Enoshima is another DR Character that would fit well in this aspect. I love these types too !!!! een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
@SilentForce Yeah u really should XD @TheLefteris24 I did draw her before realizing that I couldnt shade / detail well without color so I only did an outline for the most part XD een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Apparently from what Im hearing, Bleach has a lot of the staff wanting to animate the last bit of it, but they are missing permission from Shueisha and BORUTO stal THEIR DIRECTOR :V :V :V

Nah tho. Ive waiting a while for it, just hearing its still in consideration and talked about makes me super happy that I could wait several years for it. Let Boruto have its fun geplaatst een jaar geleden
SilentForce commentaar gegeven…
Your constant talk about"Bleach"is reminding me that I really need to finish watching it XD.3 of 4 years geleden I watched the first 2 seasons and I liked them very much but I stalled the anime and ever since then I haven't gotten around finishing it. een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
u should finish it XD een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
*is eating Fritos with nacho cheese using chopsticks so she can still use her PC w/out getting it dirty with chip oil* geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Ive used Chopsticks to eat some of the oddest things. Like Popcorn, Ribs, Fried Chicken, etc. I should eat a hamburger with them just to see how people react een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
It amazes me the level of ship wars that go on in fandoms XD I just checked door the Bleach club out of lels and saw a "Which is the worst bleach pairing ever" and of course IchiRuki and IchiHime were just below RYUKKEN X URYU

Like seriously XD They say that IchiRuki and IchiHime are WORSE than a HEAVILY creepy Father X Son relationship.

Quite honestly though, I dont really think any ship listed on there could be possibly worse than how creepy that is geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Like even if u dislike the ship, that ship is just so horrible. een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Kinda hurts me to see a few people have such a dislike for Ulquihime of Rangiku X Gin, but I kinda understand it since some people could say it is / would have been abusive in nature een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
I mean the age difference is so large that Ryuuken could be Uryu's fathe- ... oh wait een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
How is / was Bleach such a big anime yet there is so little really good fanart I can find of the characters I really like? geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Is it normal to feel overworked before even going into school? Cause Im in summer and Im exhausted and thinking about school is just kinda....

Like its not even that I dont want to go to school.

Its just doing meer than what I already am and doing it well sounds just.... kinda a scary demand.

Ill probably be fine, even if my first Saturday of school is welcomed with an ACT test. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I am Bleach's Bitch. Just for all of u to know. It controls me geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
u know its a problem when my mom can recognize the anime Bleach within just a few seconden of seeing the screen. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
This is a profiel design I made one time when I was having trouble sleeping XD geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
So I got a new PC and the keyboard is just a little odd so itll take some getting used to. Sorry if I make a lot of typos XD geplaatst een jaar geleden
wantadog zei …
Riku needs ALL of us to mention Bleach in as many conversations with her as we can. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Just a fun reminder that pretty much all my favoriete characters are dead

Not really just like 75-80% of them but yeah geplaatst een jaar geleden
SilentForce commentaar gegeven…
Same door me. een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
u know its the first time since like... 4th Grade that I ever felt liked enough and liked enough people in person to really actually want to have a birthday party. Every time between then and now has been forced pretty much. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Like seriously.... I used to find birthday parties annoying, pointless, stupid, a waste of time mostly cause I saw like... all my irl friendships as pointless and an entire waste of time since none of them actually are REAL vrienden and none of them are actually going to be long term vrienden and all so I didnt really want to even bother with that... but like.... I dunno. Maybe Im a little meer open to the idea of it and trying and all. Cause some people have really made it clear in the past week of two that they really do adore me and really would miss me when I leave to college and all. There are just some people I wanna spend meer time with before I go to college and risk loosing contact and all. een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
My PC did a stupid while I was seeing if I could verplaats my collections into another place and I lost all my Amenisa: Memories afbeeldingen I collected as well as a good portion of my "Band" folder, most notably including all of BTS' images

So yeah. My PC has barely any BTS afbeeldingen now. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
A few years geleden 50 afbeeldingen would be an average batch size. Now a batch of 90 afbeeldingen is considered a small batch geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
A friendly reminder that Ulquiorra needs love geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Okay so heres the thing. Im open about being an Ulquihime fan, but Im not going to say Ichihime doesnt have its validity. It effeminately does and its a fair ship to become cannon. Orihime clearly liked Ichigo, Ichigo seemed to have shown signs of liking Orihime. But the thing is I still see a lot of potential that could have happened in an AU of Ulquihime with how things were going and to a degree I also think it could have been valid gegeven slightly different circumstances. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
But no really Bleach has a tendency of having relationships / love that doesnt work out and I fully believe that Ulquihime is a pretty unrequited type AND IT PISSES ME OFF ULQUIORRA DIES SO CLOSE TO ACTUALLY KINDA HAVING A NORMAL SENSE OF HAPPINE- //shot/ eherm. een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Reasons Why My Rookies Are Adorable:

Us: *texting*

Them: Will u be at the potluck tomorrow?

Me: Yep

Them: Yayayayyyaaaysyayayayaayya geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Dood. Did an abrupt impromptu Vice President speech for a band meet and greet in front of the entire Band Boosters (parents) and I think (and apparently other people were telling my mom that I did) I did really good XD

At least 20x better than I thought Id do

I guess Im not really bad at public speaking after all XD geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
UGH I STRONGLY SHIP ULQUIHIME THE meer I LOOK AT IT. THEM AND SARUMI MY GOD.

SARUMI ENDED KINDA OKAY

BUT ULQUIHIME. I GOTTA stempel, punch THE GUY THAT KILLED ULQUIORRA OFF RIGHT WHEN- DSJFLKSDJF

WHYD I READ ULQUIORRAS UNMASKED CHAPTER?

POOR GUY geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Dood. I today realized that my duty as Vice President of Band translates usually to "The Presidents Dog / Back Up" but here actually translates to "The person who is the messenger and communicator in order to try to make it so the highest up officers and the lower down officers dont spend the jaar hating each other"

Cos pretty much I realized thats a duty that isnt and hasnt been filled at all and weve had consistent useless Vice Presidents soo... geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Bleach the anime, no matter how much I recognize the flaws and all, no matter how much I know its not the best anime in the world, has the strongest control over me that makes it almost feel as if I do see it as the best anime in the world and constantly just tugs me around to constantly drool over it.

Like why?

Like how? geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
u ever wonder if "good always prevails" because "the winners write history"? So the winners always say are seen as good and because they won, good always seems to prevail? geplaatst een jaar geleden
SilentForce commentaar gegeven…
"Power is Justice.Those who are in power decide what is right and what is wrong"-Cancer Deathmask(Saint Seiya) een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
^ een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I wanna make a Fushimi background for my profiel to save, but I promised Akashi one and itd be kinda wrong if I were to make a Fushimi one first. On that same coin though, my past TWO/ALL backgrounds have been red.... So Akashi's would probably make another red one and blue might be a good change of color scheme... geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Fact of the dag with Riku: Saruhiko Fushimi is attractive and his voice is almost meer so, there is no denying it nor arguing it.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3uv1oGZCQKI

seconde Fact of the dag with Riku: Fushimi isn't properly understood door 90% of the fandom due to the lack of people reading Lost Small World

Third Fact of the dag with Riku: Riku REALLY needs to find where she left off on that mange and find zei translation on tumblr since its there but not on her manga sites geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
u know u dont use coins when u go to count only your quarters (cos your band is having a coin-based donation game and u have way too many coins in your wallet for your wallet to be efficient anymore) and u have $17 of quarters and $10 of dollar coins. I also put all my dimes and nickles in for donation too. Only $7.50 of quarters and none of my dollar coins since I kinda collect them XD geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
But really.... it just kinda amazes me how much Ive come to notice the millions of rookies I adopted each jaar actually really like me. Like I tend to adopt like 5-8 rookies each year, which, over the span of the 4 years Ive completed and this jaar I started, results in about 20-40 rookies Ive adopted ever.

And like... the ones this jaar are REALLY fond of me. Like I have rookies from other sections being like "I wanna be an honorary trumpet cause u guys are really fun and talkative. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
My section is all quiet" and within a week having some of them be like ";-; dont leave us volgende jaar ;-;" and the ones from years prior too. Its like.... am I REALLY that much liked / enjoyed? een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
And then I kinda realized I have a similar, even though smaller thing like that, on Fanpop and Im like :v :v How do so many people like me? een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Im going to shoot myself. I have an SAT tomorrow right after a week of super exhausting band when I already got a really nice score and shit. I already know my volgende score will be notably lower than the first one I did and bleh. Imma be forced to wake up early and take a several uur test just cause. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
I probably just wont humor that seconde SAT. I dont care if my parents dont think my score is good enough of whatever. I have the highest score of most of the over achievers in my school without having tried and the only reason I was thinking of taking another SAT was if I could have time to study before hand and I didnt een jaar geleden
ace2000 commentaar gegeven…
wow today I took my SAT for the seconde time too een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Howd u do on your first one? een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Psychiatrist: So have u been abnormally tired since our last visit?

Me: Oh h e l l yeah.

Psychiatrist: And not because youve been staying up late and have been having to wake up early for band.

Me: Well I mean, yeah, but it was like that before hand :v geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
To be honest Ive been sleeping at somewhat regular times, of at least trying to XD een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Band camp makes me so thoroughly exhausted that Im barely making it through the dag with enough energy to just sit at my computer cos Im only exhausted and not sleepy of anything.

Like Im currently running on fumes and Block B which I went to solely because I know their muziek gives the fumes Im running on a little meer power.

Im probably just going to get through the last one of this week tomorrow on the idea that its the last one man (and the longest day) geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
My plan worked XD Make Junior jaar (last year) super hellish and make Senior jaar (this upcoming year) as easy as possible.

I have literally 4 non-band classes XD geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Aka about 2 hours of non-band school a dag XD een jaar geleden
wantadog zei …
A P P L E S geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I love the minor key tbh. Major tends to sound happy and all, but I like the eerie, dark, and sad tone of a minor key.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VmrhzGyW1Fo

Listen to that guy of any other song on his channel thats dedicated to changing things into the minor key.

The minor key just kinda... soothes my soul. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Also not entirely wanting to push Blind's post off the top, boven three most recent uithangbord posts cos I might forget to look back at it tomorrow morning, but really I kinda really like the people that hang out on the club. Its pretty cool and as much amusement / interest these uithangbord posts may give you, personally its quite fun to post some of my random thoughts of random rambles on here knowing people will read it regardless of if its "A P P L E S" of a over thought ramble XD geplaatst een jaar geleden