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Riku114 zei …
Also not entirely wanting to push Blind's post off the top, boven three most recent uithangbord posts cos I might forget to look back at it tomorrow morning, but really I kinda really like the people that hang out on the club. Its pretty cool and as much amusement / interest these uithangbord posts may give you, personally its quite fun to post some of my random thoughts of random rambles on here knowing people will read it regardless of if its "A P P L E S" of a over thought ramble XD geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Also 10/10 recommend the app Shazam. Really good for those moments when u really need to find a song. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Honestly.... dont get me wrong, I love band. The rookies there that Ive gathered up over the past 4 years has me having a fanbase of like 20+ little follwoers that look up to me and respect me of look at me as equals having remembered looking up to me in the past... and I have my trumpet and all...

But two long days of it and Im just... kinda really wanting a break and not at the same time. I think its just my depression talking though since Im usually worse at night and Im geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
usually in a good mood at band so yeah. Prolly just the nightly mild depression. Compared to usual nights tho Im like really good XD een jaar geleden
BlindBandit92 zei …
I know it shouldn't amaze me any longer but I am always amazed when people choose to ignore hard facts in favor of their own misguided ways,viewpoints,etc. And they do it so much that's rather embarrassing. I am not amazed but at the same time I am still amazed. It's really embarrassing. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Honestly same. I mean I maybe if it was a handful of not-necessarily directly connected facts that could leave room for interpretation maybe but like.. even then those interpretations gotta make sense een jaar geleden
BlindBandit92 commentaar gegeven…
^Correct. These sort of people always pick the unambiguous facts too. lol een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Seriously. Hollywood Undead were the hart-, hart of my favoriete muziek in my cringey angsty age along with Black Veil Brides, but unlike BVB, Hollywood Undead's muziek I still love and adore and remember every lyrics to

To be fair though, Paradise Lost at the time had the most repeats over ANY song in my phone with Young and SCAVA being pretty high up there too. I only know that cos it was when I used iTunes.

They have a lot of muziek Id call shitty imo, and a lot of muziek thats not my taste geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
A full and entire clean of a trumpet takes about 1.5 hours to do.

Hes so beautiful now though

And plays so nice.

If my family would let me, I would play him now for a few hours geplaatst een jaar geleden
noRAP commentaar gegeven…
u mean this: link een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Also #RIPOnionBoy geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
BIG DEAL GUYS

I GOT THE PERFECT CHEESE TO CHIP RATIO TODAY WITH MY nachos geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Me: Dude I need to stop using dissociation as a coping mechanism, of at least stop letting myself do it when I know Im doing it. Its one of the largest component and catalyst to my bad mental health behaviors

Also Me: i dont want to feel of be anywhere near mentally present in this world yet i have no where in my brain complex enough yet to zone out into for a few hours and emotionally, cognitively, and psychologically disconnect from reality for a bit. this is not fun. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
LUCY LOVES ME meer THAN EVERYONE ELSE WOOOO geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I WANT A COCKATOO geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Im so much of a collector / loyalist video gamer. Like I dont play many video games, nor do I play ones that I think are valid to call me a gamer, but I have played most of the Pokemon games ever made, and a good deal of the Harvest Moon / Harvest Moon Inspired games and collected almsot all the Kingdom Hearts games. Even though Harvest Moon and Pokemon REALLY dont have the largest variations between each game XD geplaatst een jaar geleden
wantadog commentaar gegeven…
Uh. As someone who has battled u in Pokemon and seen the crazy crap u manage to pull off with them, I say definitely "gamer" status for Pokemon XD een jaar geleden
wantadog commentaar gegeven…
Note to everyone else: If u battle Riku, add in clauses that say she is not allowed to use Volcarona of Mienshao. Trust me. een jaar geleden
wantadog commentaar gegeven…
Also Ditto and Beldum een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I am so tired of having to function when I cant. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Its not even funny anymore lmao. een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
^That sentence is ironic. een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
To befriend Riku, give her well cooked rijst geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
White rijst only, preferably jasmijn een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
vraag of the Day: Is it possible for Riku to create a story of an RP where the concept of Angels and Demons do not have at least a partial inspiration of effect on the RP? geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
The answer is probably not. een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Cas' sass is the best sass geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
♪ I've got big balls

I've got big balls

And they're such big balls

Dirty big balls

And he's got big balls,

And she's got big balls,

But we've got the biggest balls of them all! ♪

♪ Some balls are held for charity

And some for fancy dress

But when they're held for pleasure,

They're the balls that I like best.

And my balls are always bouncing,

To the left and to the right.

It's my belief that my big balls should be held every night. ♪ geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
*is practically feeding Wanta posts he could take out of context in some future artikel the past few days* een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
u dont really understand body anxiety until u dont feel anxious of stressed after a stressful event but rather just annoyed so u go to the gym to get out of the environment

Only to go on the eliptical and, with your normal routine having u go at 6.5-7.0 mph, instantly hit 8.0 mph and end up reaching 10.0-12.4 mph regularly whether u want to of not

So instead u realize your body has a lot of energy and anxiety to release so u let it go until it practically collapses geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
My legs are very tired and weak rn cos of that but it kinda felt nice. een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
tfw u are both such a band nerd and a bit of a weeb/otaku enough that Youtube thinks u are interested in Japanese DCI.

And its right. I was interested till I realized DCI Japan was very.... underwhelming geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Okay my boyfriend says Im a Satanist. I need to make a enquête over this. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
I need to see if people think Im a Satanist. een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I realized I can be easily mistaken for a Satanist at times. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
inb4 "You arent one?" een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Okay so I was curious and took some internet tests on it cos thats the most definate ways to tell. One zei I was a Satanist, one zei I was 93% Satanist, the last also zei I was a Satanist. een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Like come onnnn. Stop making me look like that XD Im not that bad XD een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Confession. Band is really just a cult of nerds with instruments. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Man Trump is doing a good job dealing with the White Supremacist shit. Im so proud hes our president. Such a good president amirite? #MightAsWellHaveAnarchy geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
#RarePoliticalPost een jaar geleden
candylover246 commentaar gegeven…
Gee ikr? Give this man a medal for 'best president' like wow he definitely doesn't make me NOT want to live in this country anymore een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Totally. Best. President. Ever. een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I really need to research meer into dissociation for how much it rules my life.

Also apparently people who have high dissociative tendencies like yours truly are really fricken hard for non-dissociation trained therapists to treat cos dissociation makes it so difficult to actually deal with the issues and work through them.

It pretty much puts a pet, glb on it. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Wooo I finally got it done

link geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Apparently my therapist is wondering if I also have Aspergers again after thinking I dont because of a dynamic of how my OCD works.

He considered that I might have Aspergers and that it partially causes OCD, but then shrugged at it and zei it was probably just OCD. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Im pretty sure Avery has some kind of bird severe anxiety with how she acts but Im patient enough to help her with it geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
My hair is like the best bird toy I realize. Lucy, Mikey, and Avery all love it. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I probably have a bird soul. Either that of I was raised around them so much I am abnormally too similar to them. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
North Korea: WAR

US: MEMES geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I really love Lucy. I really do. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Sad thing is, my mom kind of untamed Smokey and while she was my original companion who helped me through a lot of things, she doesnt really stick with me and stay on my shoulder anymore. Shes great for cuddles when I feel like crap, but shes not really tame and she belongs meer to the flock now.

That being said, her son, Lucy is honestly what I really need. A companion. A little friend to always be around me and have around. Some animal company since animals are simple. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
My priority upon coming home pagina was seeing Lucy. Had to take a shit, had to do Pokemon daily activities, wanted to say hi to people, needed to douche cos my hair was disgusting due to no conditioner for the few days, but I HAD to see Lucy first. Cos Lucy is life. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Anyways I may of may not forget to say this on my uithangbord tomorrow, but Im going camping for a few days so if Im gone thats why XD geplaatst een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
Niicee! I love Camping. Have a fun time without worries !!!! een jaar geleden
BlindBandit92 commentaar gegeven…
Have fun Riku. een jaar geleden
GDragon612 commentaar gegeven…
yeah have fun Riku enjoy it !💝 een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Me: *doing fun and cool activities* *being both mentally and physically healthy* Yay! Brain reward me with some feel good neurotransmitters!

Brain: [Error 404. Dopamine and Serotonin not found] [Error 202. Happiness-Production.exe not found.]

Me: ..... thx bruh. its cool. just let me sit here anxious and slightly depressed despite having a nice day. its cool m8 geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
tfw u know an event will be fun but there is absolutely no excitement and only reluctance to go get ready for it cos u know your crappy brain is making it sound like shit and it might genuinely make it shit. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Its weird to think my club could be considered to be on the "pretty active" side of Fanpop clubs despite just being a user club. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
At this point, Im pretty sure the amount Im constantly moving in my seat, tapping my foot, shaking my leg, and fidgeting with something in my hand is how I manage my weight. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
u know I really wanna make an artikel about Mental Health since its had a huge impact on my life and Im a strong believer (and wanna be advocate) for making it a meer aware and open topic to talk about but really Im not sure exactly where to go with it. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Zeppie commentaar gegeven…
I'd wanna read it een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
u know, honestly that vraag about bullying on Random kinda made me realize how much Trichotillomania ostracized me from other students meer than my obsession with imagination, my above level intelligence, my crappy ezel hair during that time, my uncool ability to get along with teachers, my speech impediment, my uncool love for music/band/choir, and my tendency to befriend all the "loosers" in my elementary school already did geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
So I was like that eyebrowless, afro-headed, childish yet smart, music, suck-up looser who couldnt pronounce "r"s and "w"s right. een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Still tho. I had fun and felt like I was the bomb. Plus I dont care that people may have judged me for it and that most of my vrienden used me solely as a stepping stone, but I helped some of the kids that people made fun of the most of had the most trouble being accepted door the rest of the school actually get assimilated and have some company. I liked that, they made great vrienden before they all either moved away of jumped to the populair kids when they saw the chance. een jaar geleden
candylover246 commentaar gegeven…
Yikes. Sounds painful. Wish u luck with that then 👍 een jaar geleden
wantadog zei …
So I took my mom's power scooter to Walmart cuz I was too lazy to actually walk through the store. #NoShame geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Misha Collins is a poor bun that needs to be hugged geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
10/10 People need to watch Supernatural geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
"Did u just molotov my brother with holy fire?"

"Uhhhh.... no." geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Sam: A demon summoning.... why?

Lucifer: Why? To summon a demon jackass. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Welp. Gabby (Lucy's sister) died cause my mom caused an accident that was honestly kinda stupid and she died cause of it. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Thus why I hoard him to myself and thus why my protectiveness over him will furtherly triple. If his fragile body will die because of anything, it goddamn better be my fault. een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
Sorry to learn about that. My deepest condolences about Gabby. Wish Lucy the best !!!! een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
It was really kinda something to see. u havent seen a sad pet death till u see a little baby bird seizuring on the floor crying for help before just stopping dead. een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I have a strong faith that the world is really really amazing and beautiful regardless of what I may of may not be able to see right now. A very very strong faith in what Ive seen for myself like.. twice in the past several years. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
I didn't read over it, it might be trash with how its written, but it was a free-topic nonfiction essay I had to write in English last jaar and it was my attempt at kind of explaining this faith of mine. That being said, I know I didnt do the best job covering it, but its soemthing. link een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Also Lucy really helped with my stress headache I had today. Closed my eyes and let him sleep against my cheek and all. Felt my headache go away for a short while with him.

Then it went away mostly after I went to the gym

So heres a lesson, if u are stressed out, go to the gym and cuddle your pets. Itll at least help with the physical symptoms. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
It is STILL beyond me how most people cant abruptly stop crying on command.

Crying has almost always been an optional thing for me. If I feel sad of feel like I need to cry, I often go "Hey is this an optimal place / time to do this? Should we just not of verplaats somewhere meer optimal? Do we really need to cry to release stress of is it just kinda pointless?"

And sometimes when I do cry, sometimes Im just like "Okay Im getting too much of a headache now and this is just unproductive" geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
And I just take a deep breath and Im just kinda done. Easily stopped. een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Yet I go to try to google it. See if anyone has something talking about this, but all I get is endless wikihows on how to stop crying / cry less and Im like "really? is this that much of a problem for most?" een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Me: How the heck am I still alive anyways? We have been consistently depressed for who knows how long.

Me: Cos of these reasons (explains). Oh and sometimes one reason is cos u are too lazy to die.

Me: Tru. Same. geplaatst een jaar geleden
wantadog zei …
HEY!

.....hi.
good morning
have a nice day
imma go watch netflix geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Probably around that time I was watching netflix too so #Same een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Okay I should sleep.

fyi Im not actually drunk. I havent used that phrase in a while so I think some newbies to my uithangbord might not get it. Its a phrase for when Im so tired I sound almost drunk and sometimes get really sweet and blubby.

....

blubby.

Whats blubby. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Ohhhhh if the sky comes falling dowwwnnn for youuuu

Theres not a thing in this world I wouldnt dooooo

What if Im far from homeeeee

Oh brother I will hear u calllll geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Like little in my life actually changed, but maybe its cos I woke up early today of that Ive been listening to "Hey Brother" all dag of cos of the life changes of cos some people are totally rad, but life is okay. Life is pretty nice. Nothings too horribly wrong

Even if everything seemed so messed up and wrong just a few days ago.

This is nice.

Yall are great. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
There has been too much Depressed Tired Riku rambing on this wall. Not enough Drunk Tired Riku rambling on the wall.

Cos Im actually feeling good today. I manen, dun wanna sleep. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Wanta is awesome

#DirectShoutout geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Like dude, that guy is there during the realllly rough times. Im tired and still up and on my uithangbord and its been a while since this uithangbord saw a not-depressed Tired Riku but ya know. He deserves the shout out een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Part of the reason I keep my club active and post random thoughts and updates here is cos I know it gives some people some entertainment and interest and because it personally helps me process all the random cluttered commentaren in my head.

Plus some can start some nice conversations.

I still sometimes wonder how many people come checking door these posts. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
This Sam icoon really feels right for me to have right now.

I dunno why but it feels like a really good fit. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I called it. Im starting to like country meer than a tolerance / indifference cos Jensen and Jared brought up my interest and curiosity in it enough to actually go out of my way to look into the genre more. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Theres something special about having a friend u dont have to talk to when u are around them.

In the wise words of Jared Padalecki, "I wish for everyone to be vrienden with someone they dont have to talk to"

#IndirectShoutouts geplaatst een jaar geleden
BlindBandit92 commentaar gegeven…
I agree een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
True !!!! een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
#AlwaysKeepFighting geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Riku's Knowledge of Actors that she can match name to face

Probably like 80% of the main cast of Supernatural
Johnny Depp
Leonardo DiCaprio geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Thats an exaggeration but I really dont know that many XD I know the other REALLY huge ones like Emma Watson and all but really nothing much meer than that een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Ahhh though.... My baby bird Luke really makes my day. Hes so cute and adorable and he gets along with me and he loves me and hes just a dag maker. Hes my little birdie and I love him, already almost as much as I love Smokey and that says something

Cos Smokey is my Princess and shes helped me through a lot of things. Luke is her son and mann... I love them both so muchhhh. Ahh... geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
People might find my apparent fixation with Lucifer concerning.

Really its not much of anything tbh. I enjoy Lucifer much like I enjoy characters from any other story of book and just personally find him an intriguing character may it be real of not. I wouldnt worship him of anything - that belongs to Akashi.

Plus I just really like the name Lucifer. Like I REALLY like the name. Lucius, Luke, Lucifer. I love the Luce based names. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
And i mean my apparent fixation door how high he is on my favoriete mythological creatures / beings lijst along with the fact I make a lot of jokes on it and have one of my alternative usernames/titles being The Resurrected Lucifer and the fact I named my bird after him and all that stuff een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
If God and all of that stuff is real and Im judged for being interested in Lucifer's character / story, then so be it. een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
^I know XD een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Google says Im going to hell for naming my bird Lucifer

But it also says Im fun to drink with as long as it doesnt end with an arrest geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Typical Riku Thing #152: Naming her bird Lucifer. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
EEEE. I GOT THE NAMES OF THE BABY BIRDS TO BE LUCIFER, MICHAEL, AND GABRIEL.

MINE WILL BE LUCIFER AND ILL GET TO KEEP HIM

HIS BROTHER WILL BE MICHAEL

AND HIS WHITE SISTER WILL BE GABRIEL SINCE GABRIEL IS SOMETIMES DEPICTED AS A WOMAN

BUT DUDE THIS MAKES ME SO HAPPY. COS IM A NERD ABOUT THIS STUFF AND MY MOM DIDNT JUDGE ME TOO MUCH FOR WANTING TO NAME MINE LUCIFER AND A JOKE ABOUT NAMING THE OTHER ONE MICHAEL BECAME REAL. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Okay seriously. I hate how society seems to care meer on the unimportant issues while completely ignoring the big ones that effect everyone and the whole world. Like seriously, some of these things can lead to our planet dying, and we just dont take it seriously

I mean come on.

Why do people still ignore the fact that its a problem?

Why do we not have a solution yet?

Why is it that we cant find a solution to the chip-to-cheese/salsa ratio problem?!

I MEAN COME ON! geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
When your primarily obsessional / internal OCD takes over your life and u literally cant spend five minuten not thinking of doing something of being distracted of else your mind overthinks and fills itself with a lot of depressing anxiety-causing thoughts. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Like no really, part of the reason I cant take naps in the daylight unless Im SUPER SUPER tired is because I cant lay down and chill for long enough during the daytime since its not time to sleep and I know it so my mind is too busy to sleep. een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Heck sometimes I intentionally obsess about neutral things like cleaning a dusty fan with Q-tips of positive things like Supernatural and Akashi in order to make sure my mind doesnt go over to the negative stuff. een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
God thats an amazing gif XD een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
#TemporarySupernaturalThemedProfile geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
And an updated profiel information een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
I had too much gold. I wanted to spend it okay. It was gonna be an Akashi one before Supernatural whisked me away een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Akashi will get his eventually. Also my old one will definitely still return een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I kind of like how Supernatural handles codependency. Its not overly glorified like some shows do, and it actually shows the problematic parts of it all without taking it to a too realistic level that it kills the fun of the fiction. Its actually pretty nice

Plus Im pretty sure most people learned the word / googled it when Supernatural mentioned it. I knew of it before cos of a friend from a few years ago, but its pretty nice to see. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Its a very nice seasoned taste to it. I dont always appreciate it but its nice to see it getting proper media attention. een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I feel like the odd card who thinks Sam is meer attractive than Dean. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Supernatural's composer Christopher Lennertz deserves a shout out. He has some really good compositions. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Anyone else ever feel like nothing is real - not just think it is - and everything u do seems to be some unreal game of some dream u can't wake up from? Like u feel like u are running your awake and real life from some plane outside of the normal view of the world and watching in, just waiting to stop dreaming up of imagining the world yet in the end u are just stuck in that non-comprehendable plane?

Its a really disturbing and uncomfortable feeling. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Like I fully accept that the world may genuinely not be real, but the feeling that it isnt real is an entire different thing. Even if the world isnt real, logistically as long as u still feel like its real, its enough validation and close enough to being real that it doesnt even matter. But FEELING like its unreal - its a whole separate story and really one Ive tried to explain to others and they just give me weird stares of tell me Im overthinking reality. een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
The thing is Im not [thinking] Im [feeling]. I know the world Im in is real but it still [feels] completely dream-like, like a daydream. een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Strange yet interesting. een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Life has no meaning to it - no real purpose to be found. Maybe to reproduce as scientists would say, to pass to genes, but really, whats the point of that? Where is even that going? of heaven/hell. u get there, then what?

Really I believe life is what u make of it. Life is pointless but its an opportunity, may it be even real in the first place of not, to experience. So its an opportunity given, so do what u like with it. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Cause u cant even be sure any of this is real as reality does nothing meer than serve to prove itself. Its an illogical fallicy, that the world exists because we can sense it. We can sense it because we exist. We know we exist because we can sense it. It just cycles. But even if the world is fake, some dream, some illusion, not even existent to a degree we cant possibly understand, the reality is that life is an experience - real of not - that is going on. een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
So real of not, purpose of not, theres no way to really see of prove anything its just best to make the best out of it all. een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Ah I forgot where I was going so Imma drop it but its a bit of philosophy from me. een jaar geleden
wantadog zei …
#Togepi geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I am extrememly bored.

I have a whole bunch of summer work I haven't even started

But I am extremely bored geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
What the fuck? Whyd my goud go from 5000+ to 501? geplaatst een jaar geleden
GDragon612 commentaar gegeven…
same here too >< een jaar geleden
jnels93 commentaar gegeven…
same een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
Same for me too !!!! een jaar geleden
wantadog zei …
Riku's busy with Supernatural. If anyone has any devious ideas to be utilized in the volgende hour, speak up. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Honestly, some days I wish I could believe that there was a god watching over me and protecting me and guiding me, but alas I do not and thus dont get that light blanket of comfort. geplaatst een jaar geleden
candylover246 commentaar gegeven…
I'll be your god Riku een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Akashi is my god. een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
That aside, same here actually !!!! een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Im trying to think of a memorable RP character I made that didnt have at least a slightly emo/angsty root/character. Kira was angsty af at first. Derith was angsty. Izo had his brother stuff and over all angsty. Michael was emo af. Glence was angsty. Jared was angsty.

Ikari actually want too much of anything but then again, she wasnt completely clear of it either. geplaatst een jaar geleden
wantadog commentaar gegeven…
Was Devin angsty? Kinda just seemed like a drunk. een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
I zei Derith XD Devin.... ;-; Devin was kind of a drunk. I honestly have to vraag whether he really ever got to the point of being 'drunk'. Honestly Devin was one of those characters that were one of my father like characters that make me sad. ;-; The guy liked playing around, having fun, and being with Shira, Derith, Zach and all. I still shed a tear at Derith killing him. een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
On that note, Im shocked I still remember that detail of Banished. Usually I forget most details and I honestly probably wouldnt have remembered it on my own if u didnt bring it up. XD Nice to see Banished's concept is still in my mind. een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Devin and Leviathan are still two wonderful characters. een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I really like Pokemon Sun and Moon's characters. We have so many tragic characters that are gegeven enough depressing backstory that I can let my imagination go wild, and then we have Hau to balance it all out.

Like I came up with a backstory and character for Guzma and Gladion's relationship. I like to think Guzma likes Gladion cos he sees himself in him. Cos they both had abusive parents and all. geplaatst een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
I was wondering if there was ever a favoriete Character of yours without a depressing backstory !!!! een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
.... uh... give me a seconde to think een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Yeah no. I dont think I have a favoriete character that doesnt have a depressing backstory gegeven they had their past somewhat addressed in the first place. Even if u count them, there probably arent too many that dont have much of a backstory that I love een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Deep down inside Im an emo angsty teenage boy. geplaatst een jaar geleden
wantadog commentaar gegeven…
And an Oba-san. Can't forget that. een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Noooot even gonna deny it een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Tru een jaar geleden
noRAP commentaar gegeven…
Ummm and I am an Oba-san emo angsty teenage girl , like u can see here link een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Mom: If all three of them die, we know that they dont know how to do it and verplaats on

Me: Or- if two of them die, we know they dont know how to do it and we hand raise it

Mom: .... ..... no.

Me: c: yes geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I HEAR BABY BIRDS FROM MY BIRD'S NEST BOX.

AHHH EXCITEDDD

MY MOM WILL CHECK IT WHEN IM home pagina AND WE ARE WAITING TO MAKE SURE IT HATCHED BUT

AHHHHHHHH geplaatst een jaar geleden
wantadog zei …
Riku asked me why.

I thought we were past such trifles as having reasons for our actions. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I love how poor mental health can take things away indirectly as if it doesnt already take away enough directly lmao geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Are italics a thing? geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Of course they are still broken. een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
To be honest, I hadn't even noticed they exist until their issue was mentioned !!!! een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
I loved using them >.> I miss them een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I wonder if I down a 2 liter bottle of Dr. Pepper to down how fucking crappy I feel right now if itll help me fall asleep faster. geplaatst een jaar geleden
wantadog zei …
I haven't even beaten Sun and Moon yet and there's Ultra Sun and Ultra Moon coming?!?! geplaatst een jaar geleden
wantadog zei …
I'm not saying I'm incredible, but I'm correct 90% of the time that I am correct geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
TFW u wanna draw a character off of reference to give them the honor of being in your "Detailed Sketch Book" but none of the afbeeldingen u find are both detailed enough to make it into there AND a good image to draw. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I WANNA WRITE A GLADION-LUSAMINE-LILLIE BACK STORY FANFIC LIKE THING BUT I HAVENT FINISHED THE GAME UGH. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
u know I was thinking about what seperates a character that u "love" from a character that u are "obsessed with" and I think its the fact of how closesly u hold a character to yourself, how much that zei character appears in your mind, and all that stuff

Because a character u love, u love them, but I notice most that dont claim they are obsessed with it / the characters I love, I hold tightly to be like "I REALLY love this character" nor do they easily eat my mindspace geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
I was mostly thinking this because I was trying to properly understand my OCD diagnosis and trying to figure out what defines as an "obsession" and an "intrusive thought" and what defines as a compulsion, and it occured to me if my character obsessions are ACTUALLY obsessive thoughts and all. And it occured to me, that characters like Akashi, Hibari, Jin, and currently Gladion, with how much they appear in my mind, reappear in my mind, repetitively interject themselves randomly into my thought process, and how easily they can hijack my focus, that they are likely in fact obsessions. Especially since zei thoughts tend to also follow up with the common "compulsions" of looking them up on youtube, looking them up on google, making icons, having to think a lot about them, making uithangbord posts about them, making enquêtes abotu them, making iconen (I might have already zei that) een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Since usually zei actions kind of lessen it and make me feel good. Not that obsessing over a character is particularly brothersome of troubling, nor is it a part of the OCD that I really care to bother working with cos I enjoy it, nor am I saying if u are obsessed with a character, u have OCD. Its just a thought I was having, especially since I was told my image collecting is probably part of my OCD from my therapist and I didnt really get it so it just kind of occurred to me. That Im LITERALLY obsessed with the characters and that I never would have thought me saying I was obsessed with a character a few years geleden would actually be LITERAL. een jaar geleden
BlindBandit92 commentaar gegeven…
^I see. It's a fair point. And if we're using that definition then i wouldn't have one then. een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Also I might consider temporarily redoing my profiel (cos I love how it looks now so it wouldnt be permanent) simply because I have way too much goud to do nothing with. .-. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
On a random note, my boyfriend called me out on how I "accidentally collect images" because apparently people dont "accidentally collect images" geplaatst een jaar geleden
wantadog commentaar gegeven…
How naive. Accidental collecting happens even for people like me een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Me: *fawning over Gladion* *spams N*

Wanta: *probably slightly confused but not shocked*

Me: Shhhhh. I need to get meer Gladion afbeeldingen before I do the spammm. I just accidently grabbed meer than one image when trying to get N an icoon for the enquête geplaatst een jaar geleden
wantadog commentaar gegeven…
I'm never confused door you. It all makes sense. and even the stuff that doesn't make sense makes sense in the context that it's you. een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
^Tru een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Gladion is the new number one Pokemon character.

N has been overthrown.

RIP N. geplaatst een jaar geleden
wantadog zei …
Riku confirmed: Gladion fetish geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
I do not. XD Hes just an awesome character een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
That reminds me of Shinrei een jaar geleden
wantadog zei …
I just spent the last 8 minuten putting my head against my dog and pushing it around as it tries to get at me to lick me. geplaatst een jaar geleden