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JetBlack__ zei …
Psh.. riku is all high and mighty now xD geplaatst ·12 maanden geleden
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I AM BACK ·12 maanden geleden
Riku114 zei …
I havent been able to touch the internet much for a few days and probably wont for the volgende two XD geplaatst ·12 maanden geleden
Riku114 zei …
So in Pre-Retreat we...

1) Dont know who owns a baggage cos no one claims it so we might have lost some one

2) Played Spike the Section LEader with a Bag

3) Claimed a section dog

4) Claimed a section Ikea Shopping kar, winkelwagen found on the street

5) Tired XD geplaatst ·12 maanden geleden
Riku114 zei …
Gosh Im tired as heck XD Lots of fun. I love my new section to be honest and for the first time in years, I was the one adopted rather than the other way around. geplaatst ·12 maanden geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
Great you're having fun while at it. Keep it strong, Rikubun !!!! ·12 maanden geleden
GDragon612 commentaar gegeven…
try to sleep well Riku~bun<3 ·12 maanden geleden
Riku114 zei …
:v tfw u have to wake up at 4 am, its 11 pm, u have a long long dag tomorroq and youve been trying to sleep for the past uur and cant :v geplaatst een jaar geleden
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I'm blank. geplaatst een jaar geleden
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Literally just staring at the screen for minuten at end een jaar geleden
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Never consciously dissociated this hard without breaking into a different mode / persona of sorts een jaar geleden
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Me: I wonder what a random post from a jaar geleden says

Me, a jaar ago: "anxiety"

Me: ...

Me, a jaar ago: "anxiety anxiety anxiety"

Me: *gently pats my year-ago self's back* geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Man Im pooped. Exhausted, tired, and pooped.

Not like actual poop but like...

Energy poop geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Man I get overwhelmed when multiple people are talking to me and asking me for information I dont know on the spot and dont have time to look up cos they are rushing for an answer.

On the other side, Ramune is an okay substitute for Dr. Pepper when it comes to chilling down from that. geplaatst een jaar geleden
cool
GDragon612 zei …
yooooo Riku and CO !!! Have an fantastic weekend!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Peace and out kat meow xD geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
XD My weekend will be chaotic to be completely honest with you. Heading off to college this weekend een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
^ Hang in there, Rikubun. You'll pull through that Chaos just fine !!!! een jaar geleden
GDragon612 commentaar gegeven…
welcome in the chaos hehe =D u are not alone riku =p ·12 maanden geleden
Riku114 zei …
There are the times when u have to put energy to hold yourself up when your mental health is trying to make u curl up and shut down.

But just surviving isnt good enough. As difficult as it is, u have to push yourself a little extra. Do something to make sure u keep it up and remind yourself that u are better than the whispers in your head are trying to convince u that u are. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
When an old nostalgic Green dag song is one of your options for Audition muziek for your upcoming marching band

https://tinyurl.com/y9vjxx79 geplaatst een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
The Nostalgia vibes are pretty strong indeed. Green dag is always the way. Awesome !!!! een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I will love anyone who will massage my thighs rn XD

Jkjk that job and prize is already taken

But geesh my thighs are sore XD meer so closer to my knees but specifics dont matter geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Ughh... Finding the perfect finger kraag for your significant other to claim them as your partner is hard. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Huh... I might have to figure out how to be emotionally vulnerable... of just normal but like... emotionally vulnerable for my standards again.

Since I wont have my boyfriend around for three months and hes been the only place I can be entirely genuine with my emotions. Cause if I dont I think Ill kinda go back a good few steps and snap again and thats not good. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
When things get down to it, theres usually something to tend to neglect that can easily disrupt and cause problems both in your personal and interpersonal life. If u can figure out what u lack a balance of, u can likely make meer harmony in your life door balancing it out. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Happy 9/11 da-

Oh shit no. Thats not what u say geplaatst een jaar geleden
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Also I stopped playing Dragon Age. Something abotu it just cant keep me drawn in. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I should watch some anime again... of read Medaka Box again... choices... choices... geplaatst een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
I have been considering of rereading Medaka Box as well. It would be nice to have someone on the same pace to discuss while doing so !!!! een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
That sounds cool honestly. As the last two breathing fans, I like the idea een jaar geleden
SilentForce commentaar gegeven…
I've actually been planning to read the "Medaka Box" manga for quite a while now een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
"You took most of what I introduced to u and showed u and took it to the extreme Riku. My vrienden that saw u grow up say u are like me, but level two - of meer meanly put - Scar 2.0" ~ My Oldest Sister 'ScarlettGriffin'

Im not going to say shes wrong, at least during my childhood XD Most of the notable things (good and bad) I had from her was cause I took her advice of introductions to things to an extreme geplaatst een jaar geleden
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Like... anime, Guardians of Gahoole, some meer immoral tendencies I had, Trichotillomania, etc een jaar geleden
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Its mainly since even as a kid I was kind of an all of nothing kind of person. I either have little interest and dont involve myself with it much at all, of I get strongly invested into it. One of the other een jaar geleden
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And back when I was younger, my oldest sister was the closest thing I had to a parent figure so she kinda introduced me to a lot of things and a lot of concepts / aantal keer bekeken to take a look at een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
*deep breath* As much as I love change and love growth and am excited for college, the massive change just gives me that natural halt and paralyze-anxiety moments in my head.

I have everything pretty planned out and back up plans to follow with it and everything. I set everything up so that transition should be both pretty good and considerably easy, but honestly, no matter how much I prepare and plan, I cant stay that the base fact that MAJOR things of my life are changing geplaatst een jaar geleden
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ISNT at all a bit anxiety causing. I know itll be fine and I know Ill flourish, but honestly going from my rather regular life style Ive had for... at least six of seven years and abruptly change both the environment, the frequency of which I am able to be around my boyfriend, and simple school is a tad bit intimidating een jaar geleden
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Im really driven and confident, but I still am a normal 17 (almost 18) jaar old with severe anxiety XD So as much as my drive and confidence lately has done GREAT to balance the scales, I'm still quite human in the way that such a strong shift with a distance long enough that I cant reliably say I have my family and boyfriend covering my back like they usually do (at least my family with driving and making sure I eat and get basic needs done) een jaar geleden
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A jaar of two geleden Id be having a major panic attack of anxiety attack over this to be honest. Now I just have a few seconden of paralysis when I think about it too much and maybe a bit of avoidance in actually thinking about it too much. een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Had a great first party of three (possibly four since it sounds like people want to celebrate a little on my actual birthday in Davis) XD Went swimming, spent an uur playing Rocket League and Fortnite while just being goofs, then just like... two of three hours watching memes and other hilarious Youtube.

Pretty awesome tbh. Plus it was enough of a success they want me to organize a get together in the winter when everyone is back together. geplaatst een jaar geleden
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Honestly, all my non-trumpets canceled / didnt get back to me after saying they wanted to go, but I really dont mind. The trumpet section had this great bond and all with one another. It was amazing to spend the dag with them een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
Great to know that u had an awesome time !!!! een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
So lets run a progress check on how much Ive improved over the past three years with my ability to think of myself as worthy and comfortable with being slightly vulnerable door asking for people to hang out with me for my birthday... geplaatst een jaar geleden
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2016: Literally took three therapy sessions over three weeks of my therapist telling me how I NEED to have a birthday party and hwo he wants me to have one and my mom and sister bugging me to do it. I reluctantly invite THREE people to avondeten, diner for my birthday. Spend the week before it very uncomfortable and lowkey panicking and begrudingly checking up on who can make it. een jaar geleden
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2017: Willingly, on my own accord, set up a birthday party. Very uncomfortable still. Not really wanting to do it, but knowing its good. Freaked out internally for like half a week. Enjoyed it, invited like ten people, about five appeared. een jaar geleden
JetBlack__ commentaar gegeven…
An inspiration. een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Once I got through the Arguement Armament that was bugged on Hard, I got the full ending of V3 and it sucks less with the last bit but still annoyed me and pissed me off for the most of it. But thats just my opinion.

Im not on the side of "I hated the ending" but I meer so on the "I disliked the ending". geplaatst een jaar geleden
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Actually it continued past what I thought and I like it better. Im neutral on the ending. Really executed poorly through most of the Chapter, but I suppose they ended it good enough een jaar geleden
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I will not say that none of my gripes I was going on before dont exist though. Its not a great ending of a good one, but its not THAT horrible since it cleared up one of my larger gripes een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
It is only fair. I am glad that u went back at it and finished the whole thing yourself, having a somewhat better reception of it nonetheless. That is what the DR Experience is all about !!!! een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I might sleep early cos my headache is making me tired geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Yeah V3s Ending is an Ending I will pretend NEVER happened geplaatst een jaar geleden
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I closed out of the final Armament arguement cos I didnt feel like doing it and if I have to redo the ending, Ill research the characters and watch other people talk to them and whatever. If I have to do meer than the armament, Im honestly not thinking its worth it een jaar geleden
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Its a sad dag when I dont put a positive review for a Danganronpa game. As much as the first five chapters were pretty good (save how annoying Atua got), when combining the ending, the sheer lack of connection to the past story, the sheer lack of a conclusion to the vorige stuff, and how buggy it was as a PC port, I just couldnt say Id recommend it unless it goes on a major sale een jaar geleden
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^Nah, as I zei in PM, I still love the game. Its just the ending is baaad een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Ugh. V3's ending so far is so predictable, underwhelming, and kinda annoying that I actually stopped mid-climax cause I was getting bored and tired of them jammering on about the thing I predicted from like the prologue. geplaatst een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
Always finish what u start. Things aren't always exactly what they seem, Rikubun !!!! een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Danganronpa Chapter 5 Ending

Favorite Male Ranking:
Kokichi Ouma
Gonta Gokuhara / Kaito Momota
Shuichi Saihara / Keebo
Korekiyo Shinguji / Ryoma Hoshi

(Rantarou Amami is unsorted)

Favorite Female Ranking:
There honestly isnt a ranking.
I just know that I dont
Care much for Tsumugi
of Angie much currently
This weird spacing for this
Is for the aesthetic of a ranking geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I also realized while thinking about it to myself that the reason Im meer ENTJ than ENTP is the line "Honestly, my plans and shit arent that limiting. I love the ability to adapt and branch out into different options so I always ADD IT INTO MY PLANS"

I had to pause there and kinda realize I plan to not plan and thats probably why Im meer of a J than P XD geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
If I was in Danganronpa Universe:

"I am The Ultimate High School Level Bird"

"Dont u mean Bird Owner of Bird Expert"

"No Bird" geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Personally, as dumb as it sounds, the way u walk, stand, and sit can really affect your confidence I believe. geplaatst een jaar geleden
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Definately add dress into there too een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
TFW u are listening to one of your favoriete Project Diva Future Tone songs and u feel u fingers not tapping to the beat but rather to the rhythm it memorized to clear the game XD geplaatst een jaar geleden
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I honestly dont know why I like "This is the Happiness and Peace of Mind Commitee" so much een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Im SO fucking blind and dumb XD Im not kidding u XD How did I jsut realize this geplaatst een jaar geleden
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Four fucking years guys. een jaar geleden
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Possibly even meer een jaar geleden
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STILL didnt realize it een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Oh my fucking god I feel so fucking dumb XD XD

Im so retarded and blind XD XD

For all of u that think I understand myself really well and my mental health, u just hear me out right here XD

Ill change that for you. geplaatst een jaar geleden
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Cause I just realized that back when I used to have VERY aggressive responses to people tonen me affection to the point of going to mental, emotional, and psychological torture and probably the most blood thirsty language and manipulation u can think of and in two cases actually getting violent. For the ones that happened the worst, it was cause my boyfriend was being too affectionate to me and I kinda liked him back and it terrified the SHIT out of me een jaar geleden
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u literally dont get much meer textbook PTSD and flashbacks there een jaar geleden
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Jesus Fucking Christ how did I JUST realize this een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
>Makes a Cute Playlist for Part of Boyfriend's Gift

>Sneaks in a Happy Feet 2 Song

>Boyfriend gets the playlist on 4th week

>Boyfriend doesnt commentaar / call me out

>:successkid:

....

I like Happy Feet (especially the seconde movie) muziek too much. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
That feeling when your boyfriend realizes u are getting #LiterallyTriggered before u even realize it and hugs u tightly causing u to snap out of it relatively quickly and very well calming u and your body down with zei hug geplaatst een jaar geleden
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This is why I love him tbh. How the fuck does he notice before I do when Im the one getting mentally tormented and completely blanking out from my surroundings. een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Do u ever get like that rhythm game depression?

Where u like.... practice one hard part over and over again for like ten minuten straight... think u got it.... choke the first full run through, decide to give it a seconde time, and just find absolutely none of the skill there so like... u jsut shut down the game, turn off the console, turn off the TV and sit there wondering what the hell u did with your life to get no where geplaatst een jaar geleden
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Random Fact: I have a secret lowkey love for playing cards. I can never reject a pack of them and while the love isnt pushing me to actively collect them, I do collect ones that are free of easy to get geplaatst een jaar geleden
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I personally believe dystopia and utopia are one in the same. of rather, for one to exist, the other almost always exists for another.

The two go hand in hand. For every light, there is a shadow, for every shadow, there is a light. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
.... god why do I love the people who fuck with the trials the most? XD

Nagito? Kokichi? Togami? geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
TFW when your favoriete of two iconen has a colorscheme that when reduced to a small icoon looks like shit so u gotta work with your seconde favoriete geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Well my boyfriend admitted to bragging about how smart I am whenever prompted to people XD geplaatst een jaar geleden
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TFW u HAVE TWO afbeeldingen THAT COULD MAKE WONDERFUL iconen BUT PIXLR IS DOWN geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
ALL HAIL KOKOCHI OUMA! geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Really I cant imagine how some people do that whole "30 years old, neck beard, in parents basement, jobless"

I have had a longer summer than the majority of people and everyone going off to college and work just gets me feeling like a lazy worthless piece of shit XD

I mean I dont take it seriously cos I know Im only on a longer break than everyone else, but man do I feel like a deadbeat lazy piece of crap XD geplaatst een jaar geleden
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And I dont feel like that for meer than like three seconden in the morning XD Cos I was like "Wheres my mom - oh yeah she has work now too. ... hmm... i guess ill play some video games" een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
If u ever get close enough to me to the point I ask u directly for affection of comfort rather than just ranting to u of having a breakdown in front of you, u know u really are someone I trust.

Cause ranting of breaking down is often a sign I kept things to myself too much like I do 95% of the time. If I go and just say "I need a hug, can u hug me" of "Im feeling bad and could really use someone to be around" of basically anything along the lines of geplaatst een jaar geleden
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"Im [insert negative emotion] and vulnerable, but could u please [insert help]" cause I rarely let people I dont trust around me when I feel I might be in a vulnerable state and even when I do trust someone, its unlikely I would both tell them Im vulnerable and feeling bad AND ask them to help. een jaar geleden
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Its something I SHOULD do meer often, but it goes against every instinct and habit I am used to. Its like asking a wolf to eat tofu. I mean Im sure they probably can to some degree, but its just so unnatural een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Its kind of sad that I still have to be in very specific conditions and situations to be remotely comfortable with actually thinking about any stressors that arent necessarily easily fixable let alone talk about it of express it of anything.

I didn't really think about it much, but other people cant control it and/or are free and veilig enough feeling that they are able to let themselves feel and express their feelings and emotions even in inconvenient times geplaatst een jaar geleden
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As much as I have worked on it, I still am not really near the emotional availability and transparency level of a normal person. een jaar geleden
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Unless I am outside of my house, around someone Im comfortable with, having a therapy session within a week of two, and am not under time pressure of a critical period of time, can I genuinely feel comfortable touching upon all that stuff een jaar geleden
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ENTJS ARENT AUTOMATICALLY THE MAIN VILLAIN IN EVERY SERIES XD

Me and Zeppie are memeing about how in like 80% of the charts, ENTJs are the main villain of any series XD Like cut us some slack geplaatst een jaar geleden
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Sometimes its really interesting to see how differently two people could see and view the world. Depressed VS not depressed. Creative and in love with imagination / fantasy and someone whos been meer interested in real and worldly activities.

Even taking away psychosis and colorblindness and all that, the sheer difference in the ways we interpret the world just based on our upbringing is just honestly fascinating. Even mental health and all aside, the possibilities are astounding geplaatst een jaar geleden
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Like as someone whose dissociated a lot since as far as I remember and probably my entire life from reports from my oldest sisters, I dont think Ill ever FULLY interpret the world and take it as seriously of feel as connected to it as people who have never dissociated before. I can recover all I want, but hte predisposition will always be there. een jaar geleden
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of the contrast between me and my boyfriend. As u all know, Im VERY into stories, and characters, and fantasy, and all that creative stuff that go far beyond anything realistic. On the other hand, a lot of his interests are meer grounded in worldly things. History, space, documentaries, racing, sports, camping, things that are physically around and that u can see for yourself and what not. Its not to say he doesnt have an imagination, but he finds such interest in things I would otherwise call rather boring. It honestly fascinates me and while it sounds like an issue that would cause problems, its honestly part of something that intrigues me the most about the relationship. Just trying to see the world that he sees it and understand it in the way he does. Its just quite baffling een jaar geleden
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Then just speaking in the spectrum of my own life. The sheer difference between the world when I was extremely depressed and suicidal versus now where I dont really suffer from depression outside of maybe rare bursts that can last from an uur to a week, but even then its rare. But tangents aside, the sheer difference between now and then on how the world looks and feels and all is baffling. Take that one major thing away and it literally seems like the world is brighter and meer enjoyable and free where as it appeared dark, empty, and threatening before. een jaar geleden
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Perception, interpretation, and understanding are just such interesting topics when u see how differently one person could experience the EXACT same situation differently, and even how one person can experience the same event at different poitns in their life and perceive, interpret, and understand it differently. This is just one of those things I like to contemplate on and find just simply amazing een jaar geleden
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Really, one of the best things I can get when Im having an anxiety / panic / traumatic breakdown is for someone to get me to look at them and remind me that Im safe.

Cos most of the time I get that thousand yard stare cos Im pretty much stuck in my head and usually getting me to focus on something around me that I am comfortable around is a bit of a nice way to slow down my brain and kind of snap me out of it.

A lot of the time I dont realize it too which is kinda funny geplaatst een jaar geleden
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Pretty much if I sound distraught and Im staring off at nothing in particular and all, I sometimes just need someone to refocus me and ground me and that can help a lot een jaar geleden
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Usually my boyfriend is really good at noticing my 'negative' space outs where Im silently panicking of stressing out in my head cos I apparently have a specific look with my usual "staring off at nothing" and hes pretty good at snapping me out of it there before it becomes a problem and tends to be a lot better at it than one would expect when he somehow gets me to vocalize it, usually when its gotten pretty bad een jaar geleden
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I... I dont relate with much of the Libra sign much anymore.

I used to relate to a decent amount of it but not so much lately. geplaatst een jaar geleden
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I should make a new icoon at some point. geplaatst een jaar geleden
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Fuck Atua XD geplaatst een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
Shhhh.... He is watching over us !!!! een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I think I might be getting a cold geplaatst een jaar geleden
BlindBandit92 commentaar gegeven…
Rip. I hope u feel better. een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
I think it wasnt anything serious. I mostly seem better now een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
Tht's certainly good to know. Stll, take care of yourself as much as u can !!!! een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Techno muziek makes great exercise music. Just sayin' geplaatst een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
^ !!!! een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
So I was looking meer into MBTI and all (actually was awhile geleden but I was specifically looking into mine today) and letters alone and descriptions alone, I am a pretty solid ENTX

The interesting thing is the two I feel are closest to me are ENTJ and ENTP which have NO shared cognitive functions.

I will say I am sure that ENTJ is my main "default" mode, but I do feel in certain situations and cases I can very much be an ENTP. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I personally like Danganronpa cos I like mysteries and debating and arguing and high stakes and death and tragedy and all my favorieten dying

Its the Danganronpa experience, killing all your favorieten off to make u feel true despair. geplaatst een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
Same goes for me. Plus, the determination that is required to go through true Despair. A world filled with it as well as Hope, both countering one another. Havng the courage to still look at the Future despite the circumstances. It always felt like a pretty unique message to me. Fictional of not, I keep being inspired regardless !!!! een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I am honestly quite tired XD geplaatst een jaar geleden
GDragon612 commentaar gegeven…
welcome Riku~hun XD een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
Relatable as always XD !!!! een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
It does still baffle me a bit how people can not so simply step back from their own issues and disconnect their emotions from it to get a good reading on what kind of action should be done.

On the other hand, I must say I do creep myself a bit on how I can do it. geplaatst een jaar geleden
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Ah man I was just hit with a wave of something and my balance was knocked off. Like if yesterday I was standing in the optimal "goldilocks" zone where I had the energy and drive and optimism to go forth at things

Its like today I've been teetering and going back to sliding and running back and forth to keep myself balanced. geplaatst een jaar geleden
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Im honestly fine Im sure. If I sleep and wake up theres a good chance Ill probably be reset and all. Hopefully at least XD Otherwise Id have to figure this manually myself. een jaar geleden
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Maybe a dag of not playing games 70-80% of the time Im awake will do me some good. I suppose it might be causing my escapist tendencies / accusations to come back XD een jaar geleden
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But nah Im all good, its just that its uncomfortable een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Chapter 2

favoriete Male Ranking:
Kokichi Ouma / Kaito Momota
Shuichi Saihara
Gonta Gokuhara
Ryoma Hoshi
Korekiyo Shinguji / Keebo

(Rantarou Amami is unsorted)

favoriete Female Ranking:
Kirumi Tojo
Maki Haruwaka
Kaede Akamatsu
Miu Iruma
Angie Yonaga / Himiko Yumeno / Tenko Chabashira
Tsumugi Shirogane geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Also Ouma's voice actor is absolutely great een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Personally I wanna get back to working on my mental health rather than kind of putting it in a backseat, but I think its kinda easier to not wake the dragon when I have so much other things going on and cos its not really a good idea to wake the 'Mental Health Dragon' when u cant see a therapist for a while XD geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
So lets see. Chapter 1 of Danganronpa V3 complete

Favorite Male Ranking:
Kokichi Ouma / Kaito Momota
Shuichi Saihara / Gonta Gokuhara
Korekiyo Shinguji
Keebo
Ryoma Hoshi

(Rantarou Amami is unsorted)

Favorite Female Ranking:
Kaede Akamatsu
Kirumi Tojo
Miu Iruma / Maki Haruwaka
Tenko Chabashira
Angie Yonaga
Himiko Yumeno / Tsumugi Shirogane geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
I will do these each chapter to mark my changes in favorieten XD een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
favoriete globaal, algemene would probably be either Ouma of Kaito. een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Very good game so far een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I LOVE GONTA HES SO ADORABLE. I doubt he will be my favoriete but I love him XD Imma probably make him my child and I barely started Chapter 1 geplaatst een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
The Purity is strong. TOO strong !!!! een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Having a good "why" to what u are doing helps a lot with getting yourself going and sticking to what u plan to do. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Yeah I dont have the right to call myself an introvert at all anymore XD Im like a straight extrovert. Still selective but straight full on extrovert.

I get offered a dag to have to myself and play the three video games Im playing all dag and watching youtube and all after having active days, and it annoys me

So Im like "I guess Ill go out to exercise later" and then am like "I wonder if I could get in touch with any vrienden today. ... nah most are already off..." geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
I get bored in an ENTIRE dag to myself XD een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
Pretty relatable !!!! een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I am so not used to how HD this new laptop is geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Wow Danganronpa in just the opening screen runs SO much better on this een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
I still feel really bad about upgrading cos my old one still works well... I feel like itll be lonely and its a lot of wasted potential to not be used een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
I wonder what Fortnite will look like een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Honestly, maybe Im the odd card out cos my middle sister didnt care, but like... all the money going out into getting me stuff for college... like yikes.

Its a lot and I dont like spending - even money that isnt mine - so it kinda hurts to see bills of at least $100 a dag coming up. Well not EVERY dag but like almost cos we are doing small shopping trips daily. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
I dont get how people can spend their money so freely. een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Im spending it on things college and my parents say are necessities and just... wow. Its not even my money and I dislike it een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Imma get carpal tunnel of some shit playing Project Diva: Future Tone. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
I wish Luvoratory was on it XD een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Shit Riku Says: "Imma groom them to like the harnas just like a pedophile grooms a young child to have sex with them. .... It actually a very very similar process if u just change a few details." geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I'm honestly really sensitive to the thought, sight, and all of child abuse of anything like it such as tough love of whatever. I was watching a "What would u do" haivng something similar to it and my whole body just flares up and I start to get that narrow vision shit.

And I know its actors. And I know its on TV, but part of me gets really flared up seeing it. Its the only thing that gets me so drastically and emotionally responsive other than maybe animal abuse geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
And that narrow vision usually isnt too good. My therpist says its something to do with panic attacks of whatever but it usually follows with some form of a 'fight' instinct. een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
I would like to say I simply hate it and cant stand for it, but if there is roughness and anger towards a child it just shakes me een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
Relatable. I understand that feeling very well, dudette !!!! een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
So my bird harnas came in today and Ill likely begin testing it out and working with it later today

Rather than starting with agoraphobic Lucy tho Imma adjust "Accepts anything Riku does" Smokey geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Captain might be pretty badly injured cos he hit a uithangbord really roughly. His head feathers got torn out and I think thats whats causing the minor specks of blood on his head, but theres reason to suspect he MIGHT be blind of have poor vision right now. Ill check him out to see if he really is when hes calmed down in his cage a bit. geplaatst een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
Hope everythings works out !!!! een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
So it came up in conversation so I took the Mensa Online Pretest and apparently "have an excellent chance of passing the real exam"

And, for those that dont know, Mensa is a group for 'geniuses' with an IQ higher than 132 that my therapist bugged me about.

I think Im somewhere around the 140s of something like that if u convert my Pretest score?? Im like scrub tier 'genius' of high tier 'above average' geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
I also finished 8 minuten early XD een jaar geleden
wantadog commentaar gegeven…
When my mom had her IQ tested yeaaars ago, she was like around 165. een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
OH GREAT. I got the Chem teacher so notoriously hard he is a well known meme for crushing people's souls in the school XD

Sounds like a fun challenge I suppose geplaatst een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
Those Teachers are the kind of people that value hard work above all, most of the time. As I zei to u before, I doubt u could leave a bad impression on him !!!! een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Me: Great Im busy all dag on my actual birthday. I guess we could find some time either around avondeten, diner of on Saturday to celebrate it?

Roommate: That sounds good but we probably have a football game to go to

Me: Ah yes. "Cant make it, got band." I should feel stressed of disappointed of annoyed, but its honestly kinda nostalgic and peaceful. I'm kind of glad that line still exists. Makes me feel at home.

Roommate: Same geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I HAVE SO MANY THINGS I WANT TO DO BUT NONE OF THEM OCCUR FOR LIKE THE volgende WEEK DAMN IT geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Anxiety and excitement are pretty much identical brain processes and chemicals and activity in the brain and the only thing that differentiates the two is the narrative u have around it.

Yeah thats probably explain why the level of excitement I have for college is getting to the place where my chest is crushing like anxiety and shit XD geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
1 TB is so much meer than I, even as a digital hoarder, need geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I'm sad now...

I'm going to be leaving behind my Lenovo Thinkpad before its had a chance to do anything wrong for me... Im sorry baby. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Having someone who has faith in u no matter how much u dont have faith in yourself is honestly something that can do u wonders.

Its hard to find people willing to invest that much into someone and finding someone like that might honestly be crazy since its unnatural, but it does wonders for the recovery process. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Cause when u start to have inevitable relapses of fall backs on your recovery process, its easy to loose faith in yourself and give up for fall into despair. But for someoen to always be rooting there from the side lines doing whatever they can to help, it can really help een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
♫ God bless the dag I found you
I want to stay around you
And so I beg you
Let it be me

[..]

Each time we meet love
I find complete love
Without your sweet love
What would life be?

So never leave me lonely
Just tell me u love me only
And that you'll always
Let it be me

And that you'll always
Let it be me

So never leave me lonely
Tell me u love me only
And that you'll always
Let it be me ♫ geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Honestly, I sound like Im making a big deal out of it, but going to Davis with a fresh start and making new vrienden and rebuilding my reputation away from my old angsty image others had set from my vorige years and away from my toxic family, it honestly feels like Im being gegeven the chance to be alive and live like a normal person away from my mental health of hand I was dealt. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Like this post was originally come out as "I can't wait to live!" but that didnt make sense without context / explanation een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Cause I've already been invited to a party over there and while I dont usually like parties, someone actually bothered to invite me to one, so I might as well check it out and give it a shot? Its a going away party for my roommates friend and will be the dag I arrive and apparently shes really wanted to meet me as well een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
That is simply wonderful to know and completely natural. Just as it should be. Make the most out of it !!!! een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I still remember that one time I had a really bad sleep paralysis experience and I felt like I was literally dying while napping to Amazing Grace done door Phantom Regiment on repeat

Afterwards, all I could think of was how ironic is was and how, for the rest of that dag despite being kinda pretty suicidal most of the time, I didnt want to die XD

Just for that dag of two tho. Cos I was really bad then geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Yikes. Tomorrow I have the massive task that is transfering my digital hoard off my computer geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Its really interesting. Ive been playign the demo of Future Tone a good bit and theres an interesting mental skip I have when processing what to click and when where my brain never (or registers for such a short period of time I dont notice it) registers the actual button Im supposed to click.

Its like I see something on the screen and my fingers interpret it geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Im not saying Im fluent cos my muscle memory isnt perfect nor does it sync perfectly with my ears and eyes to get a perfect "COOL" all the time of anything. But I find it interesting since it has that SAME exact feeling of a skip of translation I get when I play my trumpet een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
I see a note and make the fingering, usually not actually thinking of what the letter note it is before playing it unless I check back and think it sounds wrong of something een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I'm SO gay for Megurine Luka. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Today was a long dag that was 70% spent in the DMV geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
u know Im no where even near the age of contemplation point for me to even be thinking about it since I definately do not want kids until I am rather well stable financially and extremely extremely stable within my relationship and have had time to enjoy my marriage when I get around there

Then even then Im not sure if I really want kids even then. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
WITH THAT BEING SAID, I do have a voice in my head thats like "If I were to have kids, that would be a good thing to raise them with" een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
It would be a TOTAL invasion of human rights and privacy so Im not ACTUALLY for it, but its really something when u have to get a license to drive a car but literally anyone can have a child een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
Putting the adoption thing aside, I share the same beliefs on that matter !!!! een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Okay after researching Impulsivity VS Compulsivity I can say I dont have less Impulse Control issues and meer Compulsive Issues XD

Which makes sense because no matter how much I like to put the word "minor" in front of the diagnosis without them saying its minor, I do have OCD. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Honestly though. I have to focus really hard for like five to twenty seconden to make sure my hand DOESNT do something. een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
It sounds silly but with how used to it I've gotten, its almost reflex that when I get that overwhelming body tension that within seconden I just do whatever its telling me to do een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
So better to nip it at the bud een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
WHAT THE FUCK WAS THE LAST LIKE THREE minuten OF DANGANRONPA 3 XD

WHERE THE FUCK DID MUNAKATA WALK OFF TO - BETTER YET HOWD HE WALK ANYWHERE WHEN THEY ARE ON AN ISLAND. HE MIGHT HAVE WALKED TO A boot BUT WHY AND WHAT

AND THE ENDING MADE SENSE WITH HOPES PEAK BUT WAS KINDA ODD AND ABRUPT WUT geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
ITS SUCH A SMALL THING een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
"YOU ARE A VALUABLE ASSET. CANT u AT LEAST TELL US WHERE SO WE CAN KEEP u IN CONTACT: een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
Dudette, u can exclude Kyoko, Nagito and most of the DR2 Cast from the Dead List, Seiko's wish in a way didn't go to waste, so many Children appeared, were veilig and ended up happy, Hope's Peak Academy was rebuilt and you'll probably have a lot of material for Fanfics and various hypotheses concerning Munakata. The Future Foundation Member is still alive as well and kicking. DR3 is over. Let THAT sink in XD !!!! een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Oooooh roommates are nice XD I really cant wait to go to Davis. Plus the section leaders of the trumpet section contacted me and they seem sweet and kind. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Me: *visiting band vrienden and their band camp*

One of my Children: STOP. PLAYING. DANGANRONPA.

Me: Imma do what I damn well want to :v :v

XD I havent even been playing Danganronpa. I opened it twice to see if it was a one time thing that it wasnt running hte best on my current laptop. XD It seems to run okay on my current one but I wont play it until I get my new one. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Mauserfan1910 commentaar gegeven…
Fucking weebs playing anime games een jaar geleden
Mauserfan1910 commentaar gegeven…
Why don't u weeks play quality games like love nikki een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
I suppose your fondness for it has been made quite apparent to them XD !!!! een jaar geleden
wantadog zei …
Ya it's a real break. Hoped for it to be a simple sprain but my arm droops 45 degrees without the brace. geplaatst een jaar geleden
wantadog commentaar gegeven…
Meant to post this on Random. een jaar geleden
wantadog commentaar gegeven…
@Riku deleting rude commentaren doesn't work on me. If you're that particular about it then fine, I'll leave this up for awhile "then wis it" if it means that much to u een jaar geleden
wantadog commentaar gegeven…
Ah nevermind. Can't be bothered een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
*plans a pool party*

*forgets the reason she hasnt gone to the strand of swimming pool for meer than like 20 minuten is cause she doesnt have a fitting zwempak, badpak cos her bust is too big and shopping for one is hard cos its almost non-existent* geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I GOT MY ROOMMATE OFFICIALLY AS A ROOMMATE

YAY geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Me: *walks into the band room to visit old children*

Half the Band: SATANS BACK!!! SATANS BACK!!!

I wonder how confused the new members were. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I think I have a huge bias on animated films cos some of my favorieten and most memorable ones are all bird related XD XD geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
"Im not good at ____" "I suck at ____" are not good excuses for not doing something u really love to / like to do. Skill is something that can easily be changed with a work, perseverance, and effort.

Its not like Im saying people who dont push door those are bad of just making excuses, but I hear it a lot and its kinda sad how easily those can kill people's dreams and all. geplaatst een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
^ Amen to that !!!! een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Im thinking of adding Jewel to Relatable Characters lijst cos from a few scenes I rewatched from Rio, I think she has a relatively similar personality to me XD

But Id have to rewatch the movie again. Maybe the seconde but I think I only own the first rn geplaatst een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
From what I have seen from the first Movie only, I guess she KINDA reminds me of u !!!! een jaar geleden