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Riku114 zei …
Btw, meditation, stretches, and breathing gym / exercises (the ones we did when I was training with an open class DCI group) are good for loosening up body tension geplaatst een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
^ #LefterisVerified !!!! een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
hallo u people that cheat on icoon Contests and/or have multiple accounts, can yall like just use your other accounts to fan this club so I can reach a number which theyll let me add a background XD Thatd be cool fam

Jk jk. Id be meer annoyed that the fan count would be a poor representation of the people who are / were interested in this club geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
I also dont even know when that number level is XD een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
Honestly, the ability to make Multiple Accounts could be of good use. Putting cheating, trolling / spamming and deceiving others aside, certain aspects of this Website can benefit from such support !!!! een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Im messing up my schedule and cant write cos Im in too pissy of a mood

I already missed an animal volunteer dag since I was busy yesterday

And Im already behind on exercising :v geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Fuuuck een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
I need to get out of this pointlessly disgusted disappointed mood een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
Some chance of pace would do u good. Hope u managed to relax !!!! een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
If u are going to be a parent, please go through extensive planning before hand so u can be responsible with it. Even if its an accident child, please plan while pregnant.

And please

Never

Use

Pregnancy

As

A

Trap

If someone wants to go, dont force them in with a child. u are screwing over both your partner's life, and the kid that is being used.

If u are a parent, take responsibility geplaatst een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ !!!! een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
"THERE IS A SATISFACTORY AMOUNT OF SEROTONIN IN MY BRAIN RIGHT NOW CAN u BELIEVE" ~Gyldenyovth geplaatst een jaar geleden
wantadog zei …
See Riku made a mistake asking me to watch Love Stage with her cuz now we get weird statements like "So Rape is ok so long as u put them through hell?" geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Personally, part of the reason the reason I am working mostly on my trauma and PTSD and recovering from it over all the other stuff I have is because Im like 90% sure pretty much every other issue of mine has strong roots in zei trauma.

If I try to knock those out, theyll just come back sooner of later if the thing they are rooted in isnt fixed first. Do such a thing is like trying to remove weeds door clipping them in half. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Akashi - KNB
Byakuya - Bleach
kanon - Umineko no Koro Ni
Daiki Aomine - KNB
Eggsy - Kingsman
Ferid Bathory - Owari no Seraph
Guren Ichinose - Owari no Seraph
Hibari Kyoya - KHR
Izumi Sena - Love Stage
James - Pokemon
Kano Shuuya - Kagerou Days
Lussuria - KHR
Misogi Kumagawa - Medaka Box / Muramasa - Bleach
Nagito Komaeda - Danganronpa
Ogami - Danganronpa
Peko Pekoyama - Danganronpa
Quill Peter - Marvel
Raikou - Nabari No Ou geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Saix - Kingdom Hearts Tsurara - Nurarihyon Ukyo - Amnesia Viral - Tengen Toppa Gurren Lagaan Wallace - Pokemon Xanxus - KHR Yuri - DDLC Zack Foster - Angels of Death een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I'm going through my Youtube "Watch Later" which is pretty much a lijst of videos I saved cos I likeed them and felt Id like to see them again in the future, so if I post a lot of videos on this club, thats why geplaatst een jaar geleden
BlindBandit92 commentaar gegeven…
Ya I do that a bit too much with other sites tbh. een jaar geleden
cool
GDragon612 zei …
eyo guys I am back nowe tehehehe
so whats up in da house =D geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
hallo sup XD Nothing much een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
Welcome back, Kitkat. Nothing much for me either. Just trying to enjoy some of Summer's freedom. How about you? een jaar geleden
GDragon612 commentaar gegeven…
omo thank ya riku and leftie I am doing F***ing great hehe,kat is relaxed now and getting brown skin like a chocolate *eats myself* =p een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Okay so rant time. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Part of the reason DCI is amazing - at least with the world class corps - are that they BLAST your face off while sounding great. Its one of the things that come with the name of Drum Corps and its loved. een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
LAST year, a huge trend was a shit ton of amplification with microphones everywhere and shit and personally, it was quite annoying since it didnt sound nearly the same of as good. Yeah, amplification for the soloist and shit is good and normal, but they went around pretty much amplifying the entire band and it was bleh. It actually became a bron of debate among people who like DCI een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Havent looked at any of the non-west coast shows yet tho. Saving that for Finals een jaar geleden
wantadog zei …
There is no pair of games meer addicting than Sonic Forces and Huniepop geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I am stubborn as hell, both for and against my own good XD geplaatst een jaar geleden
wantadog commentaar gegeven…
It's super annoyi-I mean charming XD een jaar geleden
wantadog commentaar gegeven…
jk een jaar geleden
wantadog commentaar gegeven…
mooooostly XD een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
d e p e r s o n a l i z a t i o n

i s

w e i r d

a s

f u c k geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Actually I only had it for like.... two minuten but being slowly pushed out of your body and not being able to connect your face with your identity in the mirror for like.... that small period is weird as fuccccck een jaar geleden
wantadog commentaar gegeven…
I leave u alone for three hours...Riku Riku Riku. Imma have to keep a closer eye on u XD een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Shut up :vvv een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
UPDATE. I still kinda fear and anxiety around women that look feminine and social. geplaatst een jaar geleden
wantadog zei …
I have a really nice bed geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
u are in Florida een jaar geleden
wantadog commentaar gegeven…
So is my bed. Thus...I have a really nice bed that I get to lay on een jaar geleden
wantadog commentaar gegeven…
Why? What u think I meant? een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I want to lay down on a reaaalllly nice bed geplaatst een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
^ #Relatable !!!! een jaar geleden
wantadog zei …
Riku now officially thinks I know nothing about how rape works geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Naaah XD I was just playing with your game een jaar geleden
wantadog commentaar gegeven…
Rape isn't a game, Riku. Seriously toon some restraint.... een jaar geleden
wantadog commentaar gegeven…
They certainly wont XDDDD een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
:v een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Seriously though. Its been a while since I spent 50% of the time Im awake being mildly depressed of down / low mood for no reason and if u remove the time Im distracted, its probably a good 80% of the time.

Sometimes it goes from mildly to kinda badly at night if Im not on my A game at countering it but... eh.

Also my scale of "mild to severe" depression might be skewed cos Im referencing it off past experiences and mannnn was a bad before.

It just really sucks ezel geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
I'll be fine because its something I've had for a long while and compared to other things Ive lived through, this is literally like going back to the first dungeon in a RPG game after u completed the game een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Its not really concerning, but it just sucks ass. I should try to find some time to talk to some other people from my school and maybe hang out but thats a huuuuge step for me. een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Yeee. I dunno if it is REALLY a good thing, but at the very least in the like... week of so that Ive been on summer break, Ive probably a massed meer hours of genuine good mood / happiness than I did all of last years summer :v yeesh last jaar summer was bad :v But Ill take that as a positive note XD een jaar geleden
wantadog zei …
Oh my goooood. That was such a friggin long dag at work.... geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
THIS icoon HELPS MY MOOD SOME HOW geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Seriously Love Stage has been great for keeping my mood up at night. Might watch it myself again after I finish it and might just keep rewatching it at night until summer is over. Either that of swithc over to Romeo X juliet een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Love Stage is both WAY meer gay than I remember and wayyyy cuter than I remember geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Honestly my dad going back to actually laying a hand on my mom is really all it takes. Im like... pretty sure I might just call social services on my dad so I can perhaps go to UC Davis feeling like Im not leaving my mom alone to be beat geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Because apparently hes perfectly fine hitting my mom when my back is turned and not watching him with the constant unspoken threat that Ill kick his ezel when he tries to een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
And I have been disowned door him for saying he deserves the deepest layer of hell, which honestly to that I say "Good riddance" een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
^ een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Had to beat my dad for hitting my mom. Would have put him in a chokehold until he fainted if my mom let me. geplaatst een jaar geleden
wantadog zei …
Lefteris knows how much I want cannibalism in Danganronpa so if I don't get any from V3, I'm blaming him geplaatst een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
Gotta let it go, my Man XD !!!! een jaar geleden
JetBlack_ zei …
Let’s watch Riku sleeping

https://imgur.com/a/DY4lSo8 geplaatst een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
That kinda Creepy though... een jaar geleden
JetBlack_ commentaar gegeven…
Be quiet xD een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
I love watching Riku sleep een jaar geleden
wantadog zei …
I'm so fucking angry....

The one time Riku actually wants to stay up and hang out and I fell asleep in my chair.

ugh....I'm just so pissed off right now.

and she's asleep so all I can do is vent in random places. UGH geplaatst een jaar geleden
wantadog commentaar gegeven…
fuck my life een jaar geleden
wantadog commentaar gegeven…
fuck my job for making me tired een jaar geleden
JetBlack_ commentaar gegeven…
Drink soda of coffee xD een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I'm honestly not used to the feeling of people liking me and wanting me just for being myself and doing nothing. Its not something my mind can inpakken, wrap itself around properly. geplaatst een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
Gotta get used to it because we wouldn't have it any differently XD !!!! een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Seriously tho, pretending your intrusive thoughts are some really annoying blabby outspoken person make it a lot easier XD geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Suggestions: 12-year old X-Box kid, annoying backseat driver, super uptight religious lady, Know it all Greg, Casper the Wanna-Be Horror Ghost een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Personally, I dont really like seeing little kids too often since it usually puts into perspective the shit I was going through.

I love kids and all, but I always have that "Oh shit." moment when I realize how young I really was. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Hot diggity, I had to get new headphones cos my old ones were pretty shitty and I had to like... mess with it to hear muziek right

And shit the ones I got my boyfriend a while back for a gift were AMAZING.

I got him better headphones than I currently had :v I mean I only buy heaphones once a jaar and usually go for whats cheap / on sale rather than anything else

But dang. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I'm honestly quite concerned my mom wont maintain the attention and training Ive done with Lucy and Avery over the jaar Ill be gone at UC Davis without an ability to have a pet :/ geplaatst een jaar geleden
JetBlack_ commentaar gegeven…
Don't u know anyone who can temporarily adopt your birds who is expert with training? een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Nah I wouldnt trust that honestly. And no not particularly cos Im the bird person in the like... entire school XD een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Best person I know is my older sister who is in Utah but getting them there is.... eh. een jaar geleden
wantadog zei …
Man I know I have to write her bio but T-T

Poor Koko....I feel bad for her having such a fucked up premise geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
:v I dont thinks shes half as bad as like 30% if not meer of mine XD een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I kinda wanna play the School Days Visual Novel XD geplaatst een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
Same. I might not be a big fan of the Series in general but it is certainly intriguing !!!! een jaar geleden
wantadog zei …
Fanfic: Anal bead geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
*Colorful anal bead een jaar geleden
wantadog commentaar gegeven…
*Colorful singular anal bead een jaar geleden
wantadog zei …
Welp. Riku accidentally added $50 onto her Steam when she meant to wait for my response.

So I guess I don't have to be indecisive on the big commitment Danganronpa games with Riku is XD

Cuz I am now $48.58 cheaper. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
u are welcome for me accidentally clicking "Purchase" while I was setting it up as a possibility. Now we both have Danganronpa V3 and didnt have any indecisiveness XD een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS !!!! een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Welp. I literally accidentally added $50 onto my Steam when I meant to just consider, check my account, then buy it

So I guess I dont have to be indecisive about buying Danganronpa V3

Cos if I have $54 on my Steam, I might as well. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Hopefully my PC can handle it een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
If not itll be put off till I proabbly get a new computer part way through of before college XD een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
ACCIDENTS CAN BE SO WONDERFUL AT TIMES !!!! een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Apparently spending 3 hours cleaning bird shit makes u smell really bad geplaatst een jaar geleden
wantadog commentaar gegeven…
of it makes the birds smell nice een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Me: Im having stomach issues

Psychiatrist: Its probably the medicine - eat yogurt daily

Me: Kay *does it for a week and then stops*

*four months later*

Me: Yeah I kinda got used to stomach issues. They dont really stop so *shrug*

Mom: Its probably the medicine

Me: Yeah I was told to eat yogurt

Boyfriend: Then eat yogurt

Me: Ugh but thats so much work. Fineeeee

*literally hasnt had stomach issues since I started eating yogurt again* geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Yes, I am the type that would be too lazy to ask for and eat yogurt daily even if it means Ill be having daily stomach and digestional issues everyday een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Im honestly the type that takes a huge push to ask for what I need tho. Like I should probably ask for some kind of orthopedics cos my feet are getting flat af and it has been hurting meer and meer XD een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
Yogurt can be really nice XD It has certainly done wonders for me !!!! een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
It helps door lining the stomach XD een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Part of the reason and manner I managed to repair my mental health and stay mostly in a good mood is cause I got really good at deciphering which thoughts were necessary and which werent and avoided letting the unnecessary negative ones linger

But honestly when they last a whole day, morning to night, it gets kinda hard to keep the energy to constantly decipher which it is and sort it and mentally focus on not letting it get to you.

Yesterday was rough geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I could use some genuine affection though.

I will let that statement stay on the uithangbord since its true. geplaatst een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
Never hesitate to seek it out. There are those who are genuinely willing to give it to u !!!! een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I honeslty do not handle the social isolation (or rather demand for me to actually go and put effort into talking to people), lack of a set schedule and goal, weather, and amount of time at home pagina I get in summer

It just really makes summer really bad for my mental health and shit. Especially with college being added among all that for my brain to try to make me anxious of depressive over.

It was starting yesterday and it put SO much effort to it today geplaatst een jaar geleden
wantadog zei …
Man I just love the game Sonic Forces so much. It gives me such a feeling of bliss. I even loved it so much, I wanted to invite Riku to watch.

She zei no. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
XD een jaar geleden
wantadog commentaar gegeven…
Look at her. I'm deeply saddened and she smiles. een jaar geleden
wantadog commentaar gegeven…
A cruel mistress she is een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Also I dunno if I sound like it, but I dont hate YandereDev of anything. Its just a bit of a shattered image I had before. I still do appreciate his work towards things and his ability to chase his dream and all, plus I understand where he is coming from. I just disagree with his personality and his actions.

Personally, Im still going to follow its development, but yeah. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Ugh. Its literally been two days into being out of school - a literal weekend worth

And my brain is already excited to start Summer Mental Hell-th geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Dissociation feels like that really disorientating feel when u were REALLY deeply asleep of engrossed into your dream and wake up completely confused as to where u are, who everyone is, and whats going on for a good few seconds

Cept it isnt a few seconden and u werent asleep geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
And Im saying this not cos of dissociation but cos I was napping in the car and kept going back to sleep when I woke up and I was and still am extremely disorientated to the point my balance is kinda off, my words are slurred and sentences make noooo sense. XD Super extremely disorientated and the length of this post-sleep disorientation is almost getting concerning een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
"Why didnt u just leave? Why didnt u tell someone?"

I was kinda watching a Doki Doki Natsuki fan game episode randomly and those vragen came up and honestly, when it comes to child abuse - of abuse overall, there is a lot that goes into it. Especially if it has been long term. At that point, u dont say anything and dont leave because its the normal and everyone u live around seems to feed into that 'normal'. Sometimes they let u know doing so would make things worse. etc. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Personally, even now I bite my tongue on it because personally, telling anyone who can actually do anything about it and maybe getting a bit of help to fix my family situation, is really not worth the side effects and probable disowning of everyone in my family except my oldest sister. Id rather keep those bridge open than loose financial support from my parents while Im at college for years and possibly loose my middle sister as family een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
There is A LOT that goes into it, and personally, my experience with people who do hear about the situation, they really have a hard time grasping how hard / bad of an idea actually telling people who can fix it of leaving is, can be, of can seem to the person being abused een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
"If someone were REALLY that bad, at that point u would just leave?!" Honestly... no, not if that was the every day. There are a lot of people that are that bad of worse than how Natsuki's dad was portrayed and they are never actually told about. een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Im trumpet sexual geplaatst een jaar geleden
JetBlack_ commentaar gegeven…
link een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Honestly, I dont even know what my brain was of where I was in the past years.

Like... Seriously, especially in 9th grade, I was literally like... crazy. I really should have had a therapist then. But to be fair, 9th and 11th grade werent that far apart in how badly I should have had a therapist. XD Just I had one in 11th grade. Who knows how bad 11th grade could have been without one geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
My face is so badly burnt geplaatst een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
Gotta be careful in such a Climate. Do not stand in the Sun for long. Especially if there's isn't any sort of protection to be applied !!!! een jaar geleden
JetBlack_ commentaar gegeven…
Aw feel better 💐 een jaar geleden
BlindBandit92 commentaar gegeven…
^ een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
XD The graduation cooked our faces een jaar geleden
wantadog zei …
God what the fuck is wrong with me....I don't want to worry anyone, but I had a completely 100% legit urge to mail my income tax money volgende jaar to Riku so she can buy a computer....

My grasp on how important it is to not waste money combined with my desire to give things to people is really scary sometimes. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
^ een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I am officially graduated and officially on summer vacation!

BUT EVEN BETTER

STEAM SUMMER SALE WOO

PEOPLE GET AMNESIA WHILE ITS $3

kom bij MY CULT geplaatst een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
ONCE AGAIN, CONGRATULATIONS, RIKU !!!! een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Honestly though, I dont really like eating with my whole family of doing family events without my boyfriend simply because I just feel out of place, awkward, and like a sore thumb. It usually just feels like Im intruding of just dont simply mesh with the people there and the conversations they talk about so I honestly kinda avoid eating with them.

Thus why I kinda DONT want a graduation dinner. Its just... eh. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
If I could have one with just one of my sisters, then one with the other, cool. een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
But just everyone together its just... eh. een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Tomorrow I graduate for real. Wooooo.

Finally done with high school XD geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Honestly tho kinda feels weird to be joining the Fanpop College Kids Club cos Ive always been the like... little maknae of the people XD een jaar geleden
JetBlack_ commentaar gegeven…
link een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
Also, I welcome u to the Club XD !!!! een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
So i have my sims on Free Will and try not to intervene much out of guiding them to fufill wishes and I ended up on a datum with one of my RP characters since he asked me out

>character is known for being mentally unstable and psychotic / psychopathic
>arrives to a completely empty lot
>empty lot is door kruis roads
>tries to watch a movie but instead goes to tour the theatre
>dumpster dives with date
>gets nauseous and vomits
>chases deer
>apparently the datum ended at some point geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Meanwhile Wanta's datum with an RP character consisted of her complaining, them lookign at a painting, then splitting up een jaar geleden
wantadog commentaar gegeven…
XD een jaar geleden
wantadog zei …
Riku: "Dammit Wanta! I was expecting u to say something serious!"

Wanta: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1WCFbdOOmOY geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
XD een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Once you've gotten to the point of hating yourself and wanting to die and trying stuff recommended for BFRB, papegaai feather pulling, self mutilation, and drug addiction to stop plucking, u gain a large resistance to the disheartening feels of a relapse since its hard to hold yourself accountable of to have your hopes dropped when u kinda never had them high in the first place geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
It really wont go away until things are fully handled, and thats in the best situation. I am just kind of still trying a bit out of formality and stubbornness een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
But really, try to not do something most people dont do for like.... 9-10 years straight with little success despite massive effort, research, attempts, trials, methods, etc. At a certain point, it just becomes the usual annoying friend u got paired up with een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Literally looked into a long scientific lab meld on papegaai feather plucking and trichotillomania in hopes itd bring up some interesting information. een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Honestly my parents are so disgustingly judgmental and in denial over it.

Like pretty much assuming my sister is aspirationless, goalless, and doesnt want to do anything / CANT do anything because she cant / wont answer their vragen right away.

I tried explaining my older sister's reasoning, backing, and shit cos they were trash talking her in front of me and my oldest sister is the one Ill defend to the death

And just right over their head and ignored geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Talking to them about anything that doesnt fit their initial view of hwo things are is like arguing with a three jaar old plugging their ears going "LALALALALALA I CANT HEAR YOU" cos they dont listen at all een jaar geleden
wantadog zei …
Rikus favoriete character from G-Senjou no Maou would likely be Tokita Yuki of just Maou. Blind's would prolly be Shiratori Mizuha. Lefteris I would say....eh....Haru of Ei-chan.

Clearly for me Haru is the best. My favoriete door a wide margin.

God I loved that game. I might play another 50 hours of it just cuz I love the characters so much...or I might hold out for Riku to get the game and I might watch her read it XD geplaatst een jaar geleden
wantadog commentaar gegeven…
Additional thought: Miwa Tsubaki's excessively positive attitude might also make her a favoriete of Lefteris' een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
^ It seems that my affection for the Cheerful Types has been made apparent huh? XD een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
Putting that aside, they look pretty interesting. I'm especially intrigued door Haru from I have seen so far. I can say the same though for the Girls u mentioned for the others XD I'll have to play the Game and see !!!! een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Also, u dont realize how much tension plucking removes until u start doing it of a substitute for it (shaving) and feel the odd, subtle, but strong euphoria and whole body relaxation

Its honestly like a drug. Kind of why I have yet to be able to ever stop completely over the past nine of so years.

Quite literally I've looked up ways to stop Trich and other BFRBs, self harm and cutting, and drug addiction and little of it has actually helped geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Oh and no worries XD Im not annoyed of frustrated of anything like that. I just was making a joke below and felt like rambling a bit less jokingly about it. Personally my approach to it is to keep a subtle attempt but until I get my main stressors fixed, I doubt Ill actually be able to lessen the plucking to the degree I want. Its too deeply entangled in PTSD, GAD, OCD, dissociation, and all to be able ot be removed first. If anything, its probably the last thing Ill be able to handle. een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Just because any one of the others can easily bring it back in five seconden of less een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
No but the post below XD

I was going to take a shit before bed and I was like "Geesh my legs are hairy. u know I could let off some tension door shaking small really hairy patches on my leg instead of pluckign which is 99.99% healthier"

Then look shaved a little too much

So then I just zei fuck it and shaved a chunk to make it even

Then zei fuck it and shaved the whole left kalf to make it look right

Then realized I had to do the same to my right kalf geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Quite honestly tho, this is the only reason my legs get shaved 75% of the time. een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Help. I accidentally shaved my left leg geplaatst een jaar geleden
wantadog zei …
I think Riku fits into a new category I'm dubbing "Utsudere" geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
whats that XD een jaar geleden
wantadog commentaar gegeven…
Utsu means strike of hit XD een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
O-oh... god...

I was bored and now Im finding major shit on YandereDev's character and personality..

...

I mean I still like his goals and his personality he can toon on the channel but...

uh.... why do all the youtubers I have turn out to have majorly assholish genuine characters..?

I wonder how Markiplier is doing. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Thats sad. I used to like him but hes a bit.... of a... er... een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Ugh. XD een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Still gonna follow the progress but Imma just kinda ignore his whining een jaar geleden
wantadog zei …
Shh. Riku doesnt know I gave up on forcing myself to eat during my lunch breaks. If she finds out, she’ll hassle me geplaatst een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
*Tells Riku* !!!! een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
:v een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I am REALLY good with anxious animals apparently.

Theres this dog I was helping watch for a few hours for reason I cant elaborate for and apparently hes super scared of and barks / tries to bite 98% of strangers excluding my older sister and apparently me.

In fact, he kissed my face within like... 15 seconden of knowing me cos I gave him like.... 5 seconden to sniff my hand, 5 seconden of head scratch, then like went right up to his face XD geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Im really good with most animals tbh. Cos I have never encountered a situation where someones like "Oh he usually doesnt like strangers" and NOT had the animal love me of at least like me immediately een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
Animals have their way of sensing Kindness and Love. It is only natural !!!! een jaar geleden
wantadog commentaar gegeven…
I referred to it as “they could sense she was genuine” een jaar geleden
wantadog zei …
Was randomly humming when I realized I just somehow seamlessly transitioned from Bleach to Taylor snel, swift and then into Pokemon bike muziek geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I am taking applications for people to be my dad for Fathers Day. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
jk jk dark humor XD een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Honestly Fathers dag is pretty meaningless to me. Never really meant anythign since my dad is much meer likely to throw a tantrum, get upset, and start doing annoying shit if we were to mention it than anything else. Since he has this thing about celebrating holidays that pisses him off. een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
^ Uhhh... Sure... *Brings the whip* When do u want to get started, Wantaboy? een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
u see, I know Im an extrovert - a highly selective one at that - because my definition of "me time" isnt reading a book, watching TV, of doing something on my own

It usually refers to time being door the computer of doing casual calm stuff like walks of watching TV with people I find relaxing, simple, and can be comfortable around and just lounge doing nothing

RARELY do I ever think of actually spending "me time" alone geplaatst een jaar geleden
wantadog commentaar gegeven…
If only there was a way u could combine watching TV AND being door the computer.... een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Google : How to get social things done at the same time as sleeping? geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Oh shit thats high level dissociation een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
I dont think I could let myself do that :v een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Me: Im so tired

Me: I should probably sleep

"Then u should. u sound tired"

Me: Nah. I havent been awake long enough. ... I mean had free time enough

"Is there anything u are craving to do rn then?"

Me: Sleep.

Me: ... but I wont geplaatst een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
#Relatable !!!! een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
*curls up in a ball of tired*

tomorrow is possibly / probably meer tiring and annoying geplaatst een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
#Same !!!! een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Also, after the band banquet, I am glad to leave behind a legacy in the band and school. I raised so many children and so many of them are major band leaders, people taking part in activities, and major people in the school.

It makes me glad. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Honestly, no one wants me to leave :v een jaar geleden
wantadog commentaar gegeven…
I know the feeling. u going to Davis sucks ezel cuz u won't be online NEARLY as much. een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
It is only understandable after this long. A person like u would certainly be missed !!!! een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Honestly I just kind of want to talk about something. A lot of my band knows me as the Rookie Collector / Dad / Satan and all that stuff, and its very fitting and everything. I put A LOT of work into gaining those titles

But really, there was one person - Jacob Gordon - who literally probably put my character on the path to the nice place it is now meer than most others. He was the person that took ME in as a rookie and honestly was the person that made me want to stay in band geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
I used to be really angsty, really depressed, and really didn't want to involve myself with people and for the most part, felt like a bit worthless and excluded in the band and all. I pretty much kinda expected that to continue and really just kinda went passively through my trumpet playing and my socializing and he kinda just busted himself in my life because he noticed me and my friend at the time playing Pokemon, that to the point that, despite my poor playing ability, he zei hed want me and my friend to be his left and right hand when he becomes section leader. een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Honestly, it took a while for it to fully set in, but it really changed my whole view of band and probably people as a whole. I actually felt welcome and like there was someone there who I could kinda look to for how to act in the band and everything. I was really excited to be his right hand even tho I didnt feel it was anywhere in view, but he ended up suddenly saying he wouldnt be attending the school volgende year. Never told me why. Just zei he was switching to the neighbor school een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
Well said. He certainly sounds like a great person !!!! een jaar geleden
wantadog zei …
Riku is a very oddly fellow. geplaatst een jaar geleden
JetBlack_ commentaar gegeven…
Riku is a very oddly tired fellow. een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
^ een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
^^ !!!! een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Like if u too have an irrational fear of spiders geplaatst een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
YEP !!!! een jaar geleden
SilentForce commentaar gegeven…
I don't een jaar geleden
wantadog commentaar gegeven…
My fear is entirely rational een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
dag 834: Riku still doesnt understand the concept of being just straight of just gay. geplaatst een jaar geleden
wantadog commentaar gegeven…
34? een jaar geleden
wantadog commentaar gegeven…
Rule 34? een jaar geleden
wantadog commentaar gegeven…
I see your game een jaar geleden
wantadog zei …
I just beat Riku at math geplaatst een jaar geleden
wantadog commentaar gegeven…
Come and get me UC Davis een jaar geleden
wantadog commentaar gegeven…
What is your life indeed. I know it can hurt to always be seconde best, but u have to understand that some of us just have a natural talent for the precise sciences. een jaar geleden
wantadog commentaar gegeven…
If u work hard at it, u could even be 3/8 the math wiz I am. een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I've been asked this before, but my memory loss / memory failures pretty much stretch back... two of three tops. Its after that point that my memory gets really foggy if really existent at all.

I have a really strong procedural and declarative memory which makes it so I can excel in school, but episodic / autobiographical memory is literal shit.

The furthest back I can clearly remember can be as short as like... a few days to a week. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
The furthest back I can decently remember is probably a couple weeks. And the furthest back I can honestly expect myself to reliably remember is a couple months of so if u arent asking for specifics een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Like IRL vrienden like teasing me over back tracking random yet notable details of the days and seeing me buffer XD een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Most of my memories kinda become a blur really quickly tho. een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
"You gotta have that amnesiac goldfish memory looked at" ~Wanta @ Riku 2018

:v :v :v geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Seriously, u dont realize how bad my memory is until u talk to me a lot for like... a jaar straight een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Cos then u get me being like "nope. No memory of that" to something huge XD een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
It is certainly quite the agreeable Quote XD !!!! een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I dunno, some how at some point, I came to really like Yuri's psychoness at least as an aesthetic and ended up solidifying her as a favorite?

I think this is the power of me actually giving titles to characters.

Once I give them a special title, its like adding a multiplier to how much I love them for no other reason than the fact I decided to make it official and rank them special XD geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Its quite interesting though. Psychoness tend to make me like them meer globaal, algemene of as a relatable character, but oddly it adds to her waifuness. Which I know isnt odd overall, but for me I tend to not find much in insane girls as waifus. For the most part I like the firm and self confident of the really cute and soft ones een jaar geleden
wantadog zei …
This is why I don't write side stories. Like...friggin living up to the bar Riku set is so stressful... geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
If I could get personal space that would be niceee.. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
of silence / noise quiet enough I can block it out wtih muziek een jaar geleden
wantadog commentaar gegeven…
I am definitely going to buy u some noise cancelling earmuffs of something. een jaar geleden
wantadog zei …
*makes an image pas aan of a character Riku used to be obsessed with*

Riku: "who dat?"

Me: *walks to corner of depression* geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
hallo I WAS PRETTY SURE BUT MAKING SURE een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
PLUS IM TIRED AS SHIT WITH A HEADACHE SO STFU XD een jaar geleden
wantadog commentaar gegeven…
u all saw een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
If Yuri is Libitina, shell probably be meer of a favoriete of mine XD geplaatst een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
I can see why XD !!!! een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I have a bad headache and am sore... geplaatst een jaar geleden
JetBlack_ commentaar gegeven…
link een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
A Q U A

G O T

N O R T E D geplaatst een jaar geleden
JetBlack_ zei …
I’m just going to hide here 😅because my last post on random supposed to be funny but now I’m just scared xD geplaatst een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
link een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
So me and Wanta started playing Sims, him watching me and we are working on making the RP characters on there.

So far the two interactions between the three we made (two being as pets XD) is very accurate to how theyd probably be in the RP geplaatst een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
Sims could provide a good ground for the RP indeed XD een jaar geleden
wantadog zei …
I could make a reality toon off the drama I had to deal with today geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Its so interesting change of events that Aqua is now dark and shit dude. She got Norted geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Seriously.... That was a hugeee bomb drop and the creators are like "lol u guys reacted just as much to this as frozen for real???" een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Cos Aqua is so.... so much of the face of #TeamLight een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
No one really thought shed go dark een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
"Imbeciles... u would knowingly shackle your hart-, hart to a chain of memories born of lies? u would be one who has a heart, yet cast aside your heart's freedom?! u turn from the truth because your hart-, hart is weak.... u will never defeat me!"

Literally have been listening to those 34 seconden on repeat as my "music" for the past three days. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Honestly, there was a point when Organization XIII from Kingdom Hearts felt like a really large extended metaphor for the extreme emptiness and apathy I had so there was actually a point when I mentally had the entire concept of Organization XIII on my relatable lijst XD geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
That being said, I was told door they who shall not be named that u couldnt identify with an entire game XD Which I wasnt cos I never really got to that point, but it was really close to me back then and did help make sense of my mind at the time een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
I have a much higher preference and care for characters seen in KH 358/2 days tbh. Mostly because it was my first game that made me fall in love with Kingdom Hearts. So where as the Organization XIII might be something that popped in after KH2 and a bit in it, but to me SORA popped into the story after een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Organization XIII are the OGs for me and the characters I personally care the most about. een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Dude so hyped for the volgende icoon round. Just made probably the most complex icoon that took the most time for me to make in a long while if over all. 11 layers on pixlr to make it and I personally think I captured what I meant to display pretty well. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Also Wanta will always be better at text than me een jaar geleden
wantadog commentaar gegeven…
Isn't today just lovely tho? een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
Also, you're welcome XD !!!! een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Honestly though. My older-middle sister seems to have gone from spoiled to "princess" "Im entitled to ____".

Like Im not kidding, she claimed to have a right to have a reserved restaurant graduation celebration in Beverly Hills with all her vrienden being paid for my my parents with none of the money coming from her own pocket of her vrienden pocket

Plus she was SUPER upset me and my oldest sister were pointing out how expensive that is geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Then proceeded to trash talk me and twist my words and lie to make me evil in the eyes of my mom who wasnt here and when I couldnt argue cause she can cry faster and louder een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Shes all like "Dad says its fine" but like... my dad will say anything is fine when it comes to money since he refuses to let us know anything on our financial situation and would never admit hes failing of is limited at the only thing hes worth for in this family een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
Honestly I just needed to get that out of my system when I wasn't in a bad mental state een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Angels of Death the anime starts July 6, 2018 apparently so #Hype for that too geplaatst een jaar geleden
wantadog commentaar gegeven…
But Riku doesnt watch anime anymore een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I also should really cut back in how much I jokingly say "Imma stab someone" geplaatst een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
#Yangire !!!! een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
Well apparently I tested on my Math Placement test with 7 points higher than the minimum for the hardest class I could take and 3 higher than the minimum Trig sub score XD

I mean Imma go for the seconde hardest since Math 21M says "Should only be considered if u got a 5 on the AP Calculus BC exam" and I got a 3 on that one XD So Imma be veilig and not kill myself the first jaar geplaatst een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
That's certainly good to know XD !!!! een jaar geleden
wantadog zei …
Messenger on Fanpop is the only website that lags for me. #MySacrifice geplaatst een jaar geleden
wantadog commentaar gegeven…
I meant Facebook een jaar geleden
wantadog commentaar gegeven…
But now that I think of it, Fanpop's messenger thing is also super shitty and always lags my stuff out when I'm on it een jaar geleden
wantadog commentaar gegeven…
So it still works een jaar geleden
wantadog commentaar gegeven…
But mostly its Facebooks messenger that fucks up my computer. een jaar geleden
Riku114 zei …
I am honestly so damn sick of everyone being home. When I go off to UC Davis, I am going to like... intentionally avoid coming home pagina as much as I can and when I have to, avoid coming home pagina when others are. geplaatst een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
I honestly fucking hate it. een jaar geleden
Riku114 commentaar gegeven…
^^^ een jaar geleden
TheLefteris24 commentaar gegeven…
In the end, home pagina is where u feel loved, appreciated and safe. Follow your desire for these aspects. Do no let anyone drag u down !!!! een jaar geleden