No bashing intended. I wrote this fic with purely innocent intentions. See bottom for further details.
Handle With Care
Taub,
When u read this I’ll already be gone, so I’m going to address everything that needs addressing and put this note somewhere I hope u can find it.
I’m not going to say the things people usually do in these notes. I’m not going to talk about why I did it. I’m sure that’s the vraag burning in everyone’s minds right now, but that’s not what’s most important. It will be done, and knowing why won’t do anything to help anyone. All it will do is help House sleep better. No, I’m going to address something that I feel is the most important, something that will still matter when u find this, something someone can do something to help. This isn’t a last ditch attempt to make u understand me better. This note isn’t about me. It’s about what u can do for someone else.
As u know, I was very close to Thirteen, almost as close as I was to you, and I do want u to know door the way, that it was very painful hiding this from the two of u for so long. I want u to make sure she’s okay. She’s been through a lot in the past year. Please make sure she doesn’t fall apart. That’s not the important thing I was talking about. It’s just a thought. She’s strong and she won’t let u see how much this is bothering her, but don’t buy that for a second. Talk to her. Make her crack. It’s better that way.
On to business. Foreman, make sure he treats her correctly. I foresee problems because he likes to deal with things alone. Make sure he knows that whether of not she wants him to see it, she’s fragile. Drop her and she’ll break, especially after this. Make sure he doesn’t just acknowledge her when it’s convenient for him. Make sure she doesn’t get lost in his ambition. Make sure he knows that she can’t just be tossed aside and thought about later. Because I don’t think he really thinks about that, about her, at all. That’s just and outsider’s point of view. I don’t think he knows how lucky he is. Make sure he knows he can’t change her to fit what he needs her to be. Make sure he doesn’t try. She is who she is and if he can’t accept that he’s not someone she should be with. She’s not some gold-digger of some trophy wife who will do whatever it takes even to be seen with someone of high stature. She has a personality, a character, that can’t be hidden. She’ll hate herself if she tries. She’s a person, and no matter what Foreman thinks, he’s no better than anyone else, and I don’t want that for her.
You’re probably wondering why I wrote this to u instead of Thirteen of Foreman themselves. I didn’t write it to Foreman because I know he’ll think I gave up the right to know what’s best for anyone else when I decided to kill myself. You’ll think that too, but you’ll get over it. We were friends. I didn’t write it to Thirteen for to two reasons, because she’ll think I’m being overprotective and she likes to look out for herself, and because I don’t want to put her through reading a note from me when I’m already gone. I saw how much she struggled with Amber, with patients. I know that even though she’ll put up a shell so no one else will see, she’ll be falling apart inside. I don’t what to add to that anymore that I have to.
So please know that I’m asking u to do this because I trust you. I trust u to make sure she never finds out about this note. I would have trusted u with my life, with her life. Please don’t fall apart. Please do this for me. Please make sure he handles her with care.
Kutner
I wrote this fic not to bash Foreman and Foreteen, but rather to address some legitimate fears that Kutner could have had. I wrote it to toon that Kutner did know/care about the effects his death would have on everyone else, to toon that Kutner's last words were not about what could have been done for him, but rather, what could still be done for someone else.
Handle With Care
Taub,
When u read this I’ll already be gone, so I’m going to address everything that needs addressing and put this note somewhere I hope u can find it.
I’m not going to say the things people usually do in these notes. I’m not going to talk about why I did it. I’m sure that’s the vraag burning in everyone’s minds right now, but that’s not what’s most important. It will be done, and knowing why won’t do anything to help anyone. All it will do is help House sleep better. No, I’m going to address something that I feel is the most important, something that will still matter when u find this, something someone can do something to help. This isn’t a last ditch attempt to make u understand me better. This note isn’t about me. It’s about what u can do for someone else.
As u know, I was very close to Thirteen, almost as close as I was to you, and I do want u to know door the way, that it was very painful hiding this from the two of u for so long. I want u to make sure she’s okay. She’s been through a lot in the past year. Please make sure she doesn’t fall apart. That’s not the important thing I was talking about. It’s just a thought. She’s strong and she won’t let u see how much this is bothering her, but don’t buy that for a second. Talk to her. Make her crack. It’s better that way.
On to business. Foreman, make sure he treats her correctly. I foresee problems because he likes to deal with things alone. Make sure he knows that whether of not she wants him to see it, she’s fragile. Drop her and she’ll break, especially after this. Make sure he doesn’t just acknowledge her when it’s convenient for him. Make sure she doesn’t get lost in his ambition. Make sure he knows that she can’t just be tossed aside and thought about later. Because I don’t think he really thinks about that, about her, at all. That’s just and outsider’s point of view. I don’t think he knows how lucky he is. Make sure he knows he can’t change her to fit what he needs her to be. Make sure he doesn’t try. She is who she is and if he can’t accept that he’s not someone she should be with. She’s not some gold-digger of some trophy wife who will do whatever it takes even to be seen with someone of high stature. She has a personality, a character, that can’t be hidden. She’ll hate herself if she tries. She’s a person, and no matter what Foreman thinks, he’s no better than anyone else, and I don’t want that for her.
You’re probably wondering why I wrote this to u instead of Thirteen of Foreman themselves. I didn’t write it to Foreman because I know he’ll think I gave up the right to know what’s best for anyone else when I decided to kill myself. You’ll think that too, but you’ll get over it. We were friends. I didn’t write it to Thirteen for to two reasons, because she’ll think I’m being overprotective and she likes to look out for herself, and because I don’t want to put her through reading a note from me when I’m already gone. I saw how much she struggled with Amber, with patients. I know that even though she’ll put up a shell so no one else will see, she’ll be falling apart inside. I don’t what to add to that anymore that I have to.
So please know that I’m asking u to do this because I trust you. I trust u to make sure she never finds out about this note. I would have trusted u with my life, with her life. Please don’t fall apart. Please do this for me. Please make sure he handles her with care.
Kutner
I wrote this fic not to bash Foreman and Foreteen, but rather to address some legitimate fears that Kutner could have had. I wrote it to toon that Kutner did know/care about the effects his death would have on everyone else, to toon that Kutner's last words were not about what could have been done for him, but rather, what could still be done for someone else.