I jogged my way to home, trying to get my thoughts straight. As I entered the house I smelled the warm velvety smell I knew all too well and hated. It reminded me every time of what I was and what it meant to me. As I followed the smell I found an open bottle of blood on the dining tafel, tabel with a note lying beside it. Drink of I’ll come and make you! “Curse u Dimitri!” I could feel how my body reacted to the smell; my fangs began to lengthen my body tensed as it knew what the bottle held. Strength! I tried to survive as long as I could without the blood, but over time my body weakened without it. Since I came to fully understand what I was, there had always been a conflict between my wolf side and my vampire side. The other despised the drinking of blood the other graved for it over time. Although my body graved for it, needed it, it didn’t make it any easier on me. But deep down I knew I had to, otherwise I would become weak and could even die. I didn’t want to die without even having lived and that every time made the decision for me, I wanted to live and drinking blood was the only way to keep myself healthy and strong. I brought the bottle to my lips and I realized that my throat burned. I sign that I was near the edge where I could lose control of my blood-lust. I made a mental note to thank Dimitri later. The blood extinguished the brand in my throat, with each gulp I felt strength returning to my body, my skin wasn’t so pale anymore like it always got when I hadn’t had blood for a long time. Satisfied I drank the last drop of blood and threw the bottle away. Then the guilty feeling came, the feeling that my wolf side always gave me after I gave in to my vampire side. I told myself that I didn’t had to kill anybody for this blood and that seemed to help me feel less guilty about my deed. I went upstairs to take a nice warm bath and spent my afternoon attending to my bloem garden and doing crosswords.
“Hey mate u ok, u seemed tensed since morning” Zane studied his friend’s face, Gabriel had been in a bad mood since morning, Zane had a feeling it had something to do with Cassie. Gabriel wasn’t in a bad mood because of what Cassie zei to him. He knew he’d deserved it, she was right; he was nobody to her to tell what to of what not to do. But still it bothered him that she had smelled of somebody else and of all of the people she could’ve smelled like, she had smelled of vampire. The one thing on this earth he despised meer than anything was vampires. Creatures he would willingly kill without tonen them any mercy, because that was how they killed innocent people, people who deserved to live only so they could survive. I felt Zane give me a jerk, that’s when I realized he’d zei something to me, but I was too lost in thoughts to have caught anything he’d said. He pointed with his head to the tafel, tabel I was holding, I had gripped it so firm that it had cracked on the side. “She gotten to u hasn’t she?” I ignored his gaze “no it’s nothing” from the way Zane looked at me I knew he didn’t believe a word I said. “You know she has a strong will, so she not going to take it lightly when u tell her to do things your way” I laughed at the idea at Cassie doing what she was told, she didn’t seem like that kind of type. She seemed like the girl who if she set her mind on something would do it without listening to what others had to say. “It’s not that; I know she’s not the type to obey easily, but it’s was just the way she smelled that bothers me” Zane gave a shrug “I know what u mean, if u want to know the why u should ask Zach” Zach seemed like the last person who would tell me anything about what took place between him and Cassie when they where outside. I decided to leave it for what it was, for now. “You think he would tell me, no I’ll leave it for what it is” Zane could read past the words I zei “for now, because I have a feeling that when it’ll come down to Cassie you’d want to know everything about her” And he was right I wanted to know what she thought, how she felled in my arms even how she would react if I made love to her. This girl had awakened something deep within me, something I thought I would never feel. Longing. Longing for her.