An uur later I was waiting at the airport. I watched as Carlisle's flight moved closer and closer to the top. I walked the slow human pace towards his departure point. Everywhere I looked I saw something that reminded me of Bella,this person had the same eye color of that one was the same height. I had to find a way to distract myself. This was what was best. For her to grow old and die a happy life. She deserved that, even if I didn't. I couldn't let myself wallow in self-pity, but to think a dog was better for her, at least she would stay human. STOP! I screamed in my head. I pushed those thoughts aside as Carlisle walked through the door.
"I need u to help me Carlisle, I found this girl and she smells exactly like...." I had to force the name through my teeth," Bella."
"I know it's hard for you, but u can't let this get to you, u need to verplaats on. They're all worried about you. Esme's upset and wants u back home."
"I need to stay away from Forks, tell them that I'm truly sorry, but I can't go back, not now. Not while I'm reminded of her."
He walked with me to the parking lot where we got in a cab and went to the hospital... back to room 138.
"Her right radius is broken in three places, she has shallow cuts and bruises all over and I can't help her, but I feel this need to watch her. To be with her and help her."
"Don't get to close with her, I don't want to see u hurt again. Be careful, and we don't want u to go to Italy, so forget about that. u need to live, Bella, even though she loves another more, would want u to be happy. So do what is best for you, make decissions that don't hurt you."
"Thank you, Carlisle, I needed some reassurance. I want u to go then, and thank u for coming out. Can u make sure she is alright, though, before u go, I mean. I just feel like this whole mess is my fault. I'm going to do everything I can to help her and anyone else I can to make up for the past."
"Do what u will, just be happy."
Carlisle examined her carefully, then told me that she will heal fast and that she is already on the road to recovery.
I wanted to jump for joy even though that made no sense. Just knowing she was okay made me feel happy, a feeling I thought I would never feel again. Especially since I thought it was lost.
Even though, she smelled like her but I could read her thoughts, even though I couldn't read Bella's I could watch her dreams.
I sat down and watched her dream.