After she was safely asleep, I went back to talk with my family.
"Can u guys just all go on a hunting trip for now. I need to talk to Liz and I don't want interuptions. I'm sure we can talk through this, but it would be most helpful if we were alone. I'm not trying to exclude you. Please let us alone until Monday, if we're don't get through this, she can stay, I will go."
"No, Edward, we don't want u to go,"Esme complained.
"I will, I already made her leave her apartment. She has no where else to go."
"Where will u go?"
"I will head up to Denali."
"Then we will go with you, we will let her have the house."
"No, I need time to think, also."
"Okay, but we will kom bij u in a weeks time, if things don't go well,"Carlisle stated.
Then all 6 of them took off towards the East, letting me be. I walked at a human pace, admiring the landscape and watching as the small rodents scampered about.
I wanted to make sure she was awake, so I hunted some elk, and I even found a vos, fox to feed on.
I headed back still going at a slow pace, I didn't want to disturb her, how would I live with myself if she never wanted to see me again? How could I make it right again, allow her to see that I didn't mean any harm? I wasn't sure if there was a way.
I broke through to the clearing, listening to chaos.
"Get out, no one wants u here."
Who was there?
I couldn't talk to her,...
I stopped listening and I ran to the door. After I had opened it I saw two brunettes standing there. One with familiar chocolate brown eyes. She put her head down.
"Bella?"
What was she doing here, adding to the pain of loss, definitely.
I saw a tear streak down her cheek.
"Can u guys just all go on a hunting trip for now. I need to talk to Liz and I don't want interuptions. I'm sure we can talk through this, but it would be most helpful if we were alone. I'm not trying to exclude you. Please let us alone until Monday, if we're don't get through this, she can stay, I will go."
"No, Edward, we don't want u to go,"Esme complained.
"I will, I already made her leave her apartment. She has no where else to go."
"Where will u go?"
"I will head up to Denali."
"Then we will go with you, we will let her have the house."
"No, I need time to think, also."
"Okay, but we will kom bij u in a weeks time, if things don't go well,"Carlisle stated.
Then all 6 of them took off towards the East, letting me be. I walked at a human pace, admiring the landscape and watching as the small rodents scampered about.
I wanted to make sure she was awake, so I hunted some elk, and I even found a vos, fox to feed on.
I headed back still going at a slow pace, I didn't want to disturb her, how would I live with myself if she never wanted to see me again? How could I make it right again, allow her to see that I didn't mean any harm? I wasn't sure if there was a way.
I broke through to the clearing, listening to chaos.
"Get out, no one wants u here."
Who was there?
I couldn't talk to her,...
I stopped listening and I ran to the door. After I had opened it I saw two brunettes standing there. One with familiar chocolate brown eyes. She put her head down.
"Bella?"
What was she doing here, adding to the pain of loss, definitely.
I saw a tear streak down her cheek.
Preface
I had done it, all of it.
All of which I never wanted to do.
I had hurt her.
I had risked her life....again....
I had made her suffer.
I had caused her enough pain to last an eternity.
And here I was, getting ready to do give here more pain, getting ready to do what I always wanted and never wanted to do.
I took a deep breath, and the scent of her blood burned my throat like white hot knifes, though I did not have any urge to drink it.
Yes….This just proves it, I am a monster. How could I even think about my thirst when she was suffering because of me?
Because of me…yes, it’s entirely my fault.
I ignored the throbbing in my throat and injected the venom straight into her heart...the hart-, hart which will stop beating soon, the hart-, hart which was the reason for me to live, the hart-, hart which she had gegeven to me to keep veilig just like how I had gegeven her my silent heart, because of my selfishness, it was going to stop beating.....forever.
I had done it, all of it.
All of which I never wanted to do.
I had hurt her.
I had risked her life....again....
I had made her suffer.
I had caused her enough pain to last an eternity.
And here I was, getting ready to do give here more pain, getting ready to do what I always wanted and never wanted to do.
I took a deep breath, and the scent of her blood burned my throat like white hot knifes, though I did not have any urge to drink it.
Yes….This just proves it, I am a monster. How could I even think about my thirst when she was suffering because of me?
Because of me…yes, it’s entirely my fault.
I ignored the throbbing in my throat and injected the venom straight into her heart...the hart-, hart which will stop beating soon, the hart-, hart which was the reason for me to live, the hart-, hart which she had gegeven to me to keep veilig just like how I had gegeven her my silent heart, because of my selfishness, it was going to stop beating.....forever.
Okay so I was just looking through my pictures, and I found this:
I can't remember where I got it from (possibly edwardandbella.com?) but I just thought it as really interesting.
I mean look how small Alice is, when the book says she's small I didn't think she'd be that much smaller than Bella.
And look how tall Jacob is...hmm maybe he would win in a fight against Edward...maybe not, Edward is good at everything afterall.
So anyway, I just thought it would be useful for people who have trouble picturing the characters heights -like me :).
Tell me what u think- does it help at all??
I can't remember where I got it from (possibly edwardandbella.com?) but I just thought it as really interesting.
I mean look how small Alice is, when the book says she's small I didn't think she'd be that much smaller than Bella.
And look how tall Jacob is...hmm maybe he would win in a fight against Edward...maybe not, Edward is good at everything afterall.
So anyway, I just thought it would be useful for people who have trouble picturing the characters heights -like me :).
Tell me what u think- does it help at all??
Okay so here's a little game that I found. Just like the real bingo, but for when u say one of the commentaren -and you've probably zei one of the commentaren meer then once lol.
Okay so some of the boxes are a little mean, for example '*ignores Jacobs existence*'. Please don't take offence, I didn't make this. And there are some spelling mistakes too, but I'm sure u can read it.
I just glanced over it then, and I would say I fill about 10 (how come it's so populair if it's so cr*appy being one I use often-my vrienden just don't understand lol). How many do u think u can fill, commentaar below :)
I just thought it was something funny; tell me what u think please.
Okay so some of the boxes are a little mean, for example '*ignores Jacobs existence*'. Please don't take offence, I didn't make this. And there are some spelling mistakes too, but I'm sure u can read it.
I just glanced over it then, and I would say I fill about 10 (how come it's so populair if it's so cr*appy being one I use often-my vrienden just don't understand lol). How many do u think u can fill, commentaar below :)
I just thought it was something funny; tell me what u think please.
So these are, door far, my favoriete quotes from the first 3 books. (I haven't read breaking dawn yet :P)
1.If seth didn't cut it out, I was going to throw a pinecone at him.-Bella (I just think that's hilarious.)
2.Your hair looks like a haystack. But I like it. -Edward
3.I love you. I want you. Right now. -Edward.
4.Marry me first. -Edward
5.I'll never forgive myself for leaving you.-Edward
6.Does my being half naked bother you? -Jacob
I can't think of any more... But feel free to add on XD
1.If seth didn't cut it out, I was going to throw a pinecone at him.-Bella (I just think that's hilarious.)
2.Your hair looks like a haystack. But I like it. -Edward
3.I love you. I want you. Right now. -Edward.
4.Marry me first. -Edward
5.I'll never forgive myself for leaving you.-Edward
6.Does my being half naked bother you? -Jacob
I can't think of any more... But feel free to add on XD