Chapter 20
While Alice was dragging me to see her family I was worried what will happen when I see edward I mean after all this years ,we moved on and stuff……..ooh I'm such an idiot what can happen??? Nothing can happed if he remmembers he left ME! I didn’t leave him! So what does he wants now?.....
I was thinking hard not realizing were she was dragging me when someone hugged me
-oh Bella I'm so happy to see u look at you!!! u havent changed at all!
Then he laughed his booming laugh,awww I truley miss Emmett he always made me laugh and made fun of me
-Bella honey,how are you?
Esme came closer and hugged me and started subing
-we missed you
Then Carlisle came and looked at me with concern in his eyes and hugged me lightly
-its great to see you
He zei and patted my shoulder
Rosali just smiled at me and she seemed a little guilty about something that I didn’t know about.
Then jasper stepped closer and shook my hand this was the first time he touched me and then smiled
o.h m.y g.o.d
edaward!! What should I do?! What should I say too him………………then someone interupted my thoughts THANK GOD!!
-dear Bella! And Cullen's lets go to the hall!
Aro zei and patted my shoulder and then took my hand probably reading my thoughts and then smiled and zei
-your welcom!
Under his breath and left the room and I followed him to the hall
We sat there talking for a few mins and I was avoiding edward not even looking at him
I was mostly talking to Alice,Emmett,jasper,jane and alec and Carlisle and esme and avoiding edward as much as possible
-so Bella are u staying with us?!?
Jane asked me with hope in her eyes
-I think I am.
I zei cause I don’t have any other place to stay
-Bella u can stay with us if u like of visit sometimes??
Esme zei hope in her eyes too
-esme I don’t know …..um…maybe.
I smile at her and she touched my shoulder thanking me
Then Alice spoke
-oh Bella! Lets go and change your dress you’ve been sleeping in that thing for a 100 years!
Oh great Bella barbie again I sighed but she was right I should change as soon as possible
Alice clapped her hands and went to bring her bag
she came back in 1 sec and dragged me again back to my room when we got there she brought out a beautiful black dress
-wow its beautiful Alice!
-you like it?!
-yup!
-oh this is wounderful so try it on and come down ok??? I'm waiting!
She zei and went outside I took off my old dress and took a hot douche and put my new dress on and thinked about a paire of black high heels and then wore them. I was brushing my haire when someone knocked on the door.
-come in.
I zei thinking its Alice but someone else came in that I didn’t expected
-you look beautiful
Edward zei and closed the door behind him
-what are u doing here?
I was shocked he is such an bas…..
-Bella I came to apologize..
I cut him off
-there's no need to
-Bella I'm sorry I thought if I leave u ,you will have a normal life…
-and I had a great life untill…….
Pain filled my eyes I really wanted to cry,….i really missed matt
-Bella don’t be sad
-I am sad! Edward!you always thinked about yourself u never cared about what I wanted!have u ever thought about talking to me and ask me if I wanted u to leave?huh? of u didn’t care what I wanted and just left me bleeding!maybe I wanted to be with u no matter what!i didn’t even care if I died the dag jasper lost it!because I would have died happy knowing u loved me……….
I covered my eyes with my hands and started subbing edward came to comfort me but I flinched at his touch and he took a step back pain washing through his eyes.
-Bella I knew u didn’t want me to leave so I made this choice myself I wanted u to have a big family…
-and die!
I zei anger in my voice
-no Bella at first that I met u I wanted to ask Carlisle to change but that wasn’t fair to u that would have been selfish of me
-havnt u thought maybe I wanted what u didn’t want?!
-Bella I'm sorry I made a mistake! I tried to track u down but u kept disappearing from place to place………
-Bella I LOVE u I cant leave without u and these years that we were separate I thought I was dead1everyone tried to cheer me up but…….failed.
I snorted
-I guess Tanya didn’t
I zei bitterly
-Bella I needed a distraction and rose was telling me stuff like I needed to forget u live my life…….and all thease crap.im sorry Bella really I cant leavr if u don’t take me back!
He cried and held my hand
While Alice was dragging me to see her family I was worried what will happen when I see edward I mean after all this years ,we moved on and stuff……..ooh I'm such an idiot what can happen??? Nothing can happed if he remmembers he left ME! I didn’t leave him! So what does he wants now?.....
I was thinking hard not realizing were she was dragging me when someone hugged me
-oh Bella I'm so happy to see u look at you!!! u havent changed at all!
Then he laughed his booming laugh,awww I truley miss Emmett he always made me laugh and made fun of me
-Bella honey,how are you?
Esme came closer and hugged me and started subing
-we missed you
Then Carlisle came and looked at me with concern in his eyes and hugged me lightly
-its great to see you
He zei and patted my shoulder
Rosali just smiled at me and she seemed a little guilty about something that I didn’t know about.
Then jasper stepped closer and shook my hand this was the first time he touched me and then smiled
o.h m.y g.o.d
edaward!! What should I do?! What should I say too him………………then someone interupted my thoughts THANK GOD!!
-dear Bella! And Cullen's lets go to the hall!
Aro zei and patted my shoulder and then took my hand probably reading my thoughts and then smiled and zei
-your welcom!
Under his breath and left the room and I followed him to the hall
We sat there talking for a few mins and I was avoiding edward not even looking at him
I was mostly talking to Alice,Emmett,jasper,jane and alec and Carlisle and esme and avoiding edward as much as possible
-so Bella are u staying with us?!?
Jane asked me with hope in her eyes
-I think I am.
I zei cause I don’t have any other place to stay
-Bella u can stay with us if u like of visit sometimes??
Esme zei hope in her eyes too
-esme I don’t know …..um…maybe.
I smile at her and she touched my shoulder thanking me
Then Alice spoke
-oh Bella! Lets go and change your dress you’ve been sleeping in that thing for a 100 years!
Oh great Bella barbie again I sighed but she was right I should change as soon as possible
Alice clapped her hands and went to bring her bag
she came back in 1 sec and dragged me again back to my room when we got there she brought out a beautiful black dress
-wow its beautiful Alice!
-you like it?!
-yup!
-oh this is wounderful so try it on and come down ok??? I'm waiting!
She zei and went outside I took off my old dress and took a hot douche and put my new dress on and thinked about a paire of black high heels and then wore them. I was brushing my haire when someone knocked on the door.
-come in.
I zei thinking its Alice but someone else came in that I didn’t expected
-you look beautiful
Edward zei and closed the door behind him
-what are u doing here?
I was shocked he is such an bas…..
-Bella I came to apologize..
I cut him off
-there's no need to
-Bella I'm sorry I thought if I leave u ,you will have a normal life…
-and I had a great life untill…….
Pain filled my eyes I really wanted to cry,….i really missed matt
-Bella don’t be sad
-I am sad! Edward!you always thinked about yourself u never cared about what I wanted!have u ever thought about talking to me and ask me if I wanted u to leave?huh? of u didn’t care what I wanted and just left me bleeding!maybe I wanted to be with u no matter what!i didn’t even care if I died the dag jasper lost it!because I would have died happy knowing u loved me……….
I covered my eyes with my hands and started subbing edward came to comfort me but I flinched at his touch and he took a step back pain washing through his eyes.
-Bella I knew u didn’t want me to leave so I made this choice myself I wanted u to have a big family…
-and die!
I zei anger in my voice
-no Bella at first that I met u I wanted to ask Carlisle to change but that wasn’t fair to u that would have been selfish of me
-havnt u thought maybe I wanted what u didn’t want?!
-Bella I'm sorry I made a mistake! I tried to track u down but u kept disappearing from place to place………
-Bella I LOVE u I cant leave without u and these years that we were separate I thought I was dead1everyone tried to cheer me up but…….failed.
I snorted
-I guess Tanya didn’t
I zei bitterly
-Bella I needed a distraction and rose was telling me stuff like I needed to forget u live my life…….and all thease crap.im sorry Bella really I cant leavr if u don’t take me back!
He cried and held my hand
-Renesmee-
door the time we landed for THE LAST TIME, I was really tired, despite sleeping like a rock the entire time.
"Emmett is going to personally ensure your permanent skin tone becomes bright red," Jacob remarked.
I scowled at him; I hated that I blushed so frequently.
"But I like it," he grinned. "It makes u look cute."
"Are u on his side of mine?" I almost growled at him. I was NOT in the mood for this.
"Yours," he said, still grinning.
"Great. Then please be meer supportive."
"Yes, ma'am," he said, saluting me.
"Whatever," I mumbled as we stepped into the cab.
* * *
door the time we reached Forks, I was still incredibly tired.
The last thing I remembered was steeping out of the cab, and making it eight steps before my legs folded underneath me and Jacob's warm arms catching me before I fell.
I blinked my eyes closed, too exhausted to move.
door the time we landed for THE LAST TIME, I was really tired, despite sleeping like a rock the entire time.
"Emmett is going to personally ensure your permanent skin tone becomes bright red," Jacob remarked.
I scowled at him; I hated that I blushed so frequently.
"But I like it," he grinned. "It makes u look cute."
"Are u on his side of mine?" I almost growled at him. I was NOT in the mood for this.
"Yours," he said, still grinning.
"Great. Then please be meer supportive."
"Yes, ma'am," he said, saluting me.
"Whatever," I mumbled as we stepped into the cab.
* * *
door the time we reached Forks, I was still incredibly tired.
The last thing I remembered was steeping out of the cab, and making it eight steps before my legs folded underneath me and Jacob's warm arms catching me before I fell.
I blinked my eyes closed, too exhausted to move.
