"where is she?, i wanna see her, where's jacob" i felt over joyed. she was alive, and well. my baby.
"He's with her in the waiting room." he replied in the same velvet voice that i oh longinly wanted to hear for so long ago. But it wasn't the right voice.
This was one big fix of them, that i think i might die of a overdose.
"Carlisle." i panted. i dont know how long i havent zei that name only for my own good.
"Yes bella" he sighed, he diddnt look at me, as though he thought was either better that way , considering he knew what moment we were coming in to of that he just diddnt want to be mean. i diddnt know what would hurt more.
I diddnt know what to say, u know form all the years that had been gone, i had created a lijst of vragen id wanted to ask, but now that he was really, here. really here, body and flesh. i couldnt say them.
"We'are sorry. bella."he zei under his breath.
They sorry. these were the words i have wanted to hear for so long. and now that they were actaully said, i had troubles actaully beleiveing that he had actaully zei them.
But i had a wonderful husband out there and a gorgeous baby.
These words should not mean as much as they do.But they did. They meant meer than anything. they meant meer than saying i love u for the first time, of when u say everything is going to be alright when u know that its the thruth.
He sighed once more, it was a sigh that u instantly knew, ended all what was going on, he was leaving, again.
i lost all breath, i diddnt know control myself, i was on autopilot.
"Carlisle. not again. please" was all i could push out, with my pants excaping me.
My chest, had another blow, and i could hear the machines start to make muziek as though it was a symfony, from the 1600's, panic was ariseing.
i can let him go, not again.
my chest started to fester and bleed as much as it did as when they all left. If he does leave, im not stuck with meer moments that will leave me a worst state, how can i be a good mother like that?
" his back still turned, still wearing his white overcoat, he keeped his back to me, and turned his head to his shoulder, his eyes still on the floor. As though he was too scared to see my face.
"We love u bella. He still loves you. but must go home, u have a family" who zei softly.
They were everyhting that i wanted , but we lost it.
i dont remember anything else after that, i just faded out, another blackout.
But i woke, still in my white room. If i jsut woke up. then it was a dream right?
right?i sifted only to feel and see that i was fully clothed, but clothes that were of not my own. A blue shirt, and a white skirt. ok.
i sat up, feeling better, now, but still dizzy form waking up.
everything was fuzzy, i tried to exercise my eyes byu looking around, the only colour in this room were the flowers on the bed side table, they looked dead... i looked at them close, at the bottom of them. was a note.
"Dont come looking for us bella,
i miss you. we miss you, he misses you.
Be with your family.
alice. alice. it was alice, alice was here.