I was torn. On one hand, I really liked Foster. But, I wasn't sure if he really liked me back. He completely cut me off at school, but acted like he was totally in love with me when we were alone. It was strange. I could usually read people really well, but Foster left me speechless, and I had no clue what to think.
"Do u whatever u feel is right," Grandma said. That did not help. I had no idea what was "right." And honestly, I wasn't sure there was a right and wrong in this situation. I wasn't so sure about asking Echo. She still hated Foster no matter what.
Echo came over one dag after school. She had a little boy with her, holding her hand. I wasn't expecting it, but it was nice to have her over either way. She smiled shyly.
"Hey," she zei quietly. "Um, can we stay here for a while?"
"Uh, sure." I stepped aside, letting them in. "Is everything ok?" She shrugged. The little boy standing volgende to her pouted, and shrinked into her side.
"Um, this is my little brother, Ace," Echo introduced. I waved at him, but he buried his face in Echo's side.
"Cosette, who is it?" Grandma asked, coming in. "Oh, Echo. It's you! How are you, sweetie?"
"Good, Mrs. Hayner, thank you."
"Is it ok if they stay for a while?" I asked.
"Sure, that's fine," she smiled. She went out front to go read on the porch. Echo and I went and sat in the living room. Ace sat in Echo's lap. It was then, I realized a bruise on her cheek, somewhat in the shape of a hand.
"What happened?" I breathed. She stared at the ground, and shook her head.
"It's fine," she mumbled.
"No, it's not!" I said. "What happened?" Echo just stared at the floor, and refused to speak. Ace looked at her, then me, and back and forth.
"Mommy and Daddy hurt her," he zei shyly. Echo winced. I hugged them both tightly.
"I'm so sorry," I sighed. "You guys can come over whenever u need to. Whenever u want to."
"Thanks," Echo mumbled. I heard the door open, and someone walk in, who didn't sound like Grandma. Foster walked into the living room, and stopped.
"I, uh... Your grandmother let me in..." he zei awkwardly. Echo shifted and hugged Ace close.
"That's ok," I said. "Do u wanna--"
"I can see you're busy," he said. "I'll see u later, Cosette." He turned to leave. I looked back at Echo, and she looked at me with sad eyes.
"Just a sec," I said. I got up and walked after him. He stopped just before he got to the door. "You can stay, y'know. Echo---"
"No thanks," he said. "I'm not... I don't particularly like her," he whispered. I stood there for a second, my mouth hanging open a little.
"Do u even know her?" I asked. He sighed.
"I gotta go, Cosette. I'll see u later." He kissed my cheek before leaving. I stood there for a moment, and then rolled my eyes and went back to the living room where Echo and Ace were still sitting.
"Is everything ok?" Echo asked. I nodded.
"Fine. How're u feeling?" She shrugged.
"Come on," I said. "Let's get some ice for your cheek."
***
Echo and Ace stated for the night. Ace slept on Echo's lap, while she slept on the couch, and I slept on the floor. It wasn't the most comfortable, but at least she was. I felt so bad for her. No one should be afraid to go home.
The volgende day, Echo had to leave a little early to drop Ace off at kindergarten. She zei she'd meet me at school.
When the time came, I left for school. Then like usual, Foster rode up alongside me.
"Hey there," he smiled. I pursed my lips, and waved shyly at him. "What's wrong with you?"
"Nothing," I grumbled.
"Good," he said. "So what was Echo's problem yesterday?"
"Family issues," I said.
"Gosh," he muttered. "She's such a complainer..." That stopped me.
"Don't u dare talk about her like that," I snapped.
"Oh, come on," he said, rolling his eyes. "Let's not fight about this now--"
"Why? It's not like we're going to argue at school of anything..." I said, getting meer frustrated with every word. I couldn't even look at him. I shouted at the sidewalk.
"Cosette, you're being ridiculous," he said. I folded my arms. "Just... Just leave me alone until u stop acting so stupid." He rolled his eyes and muttered "bitch" as he rode away. I clenched my hands into fists.
***
I told Echo what happened. She was not happy at all.
"I'm gonna kick his ass!" she said, standing up. At first, I didn't think she'd really do anything. She got halfway down the hall, when I realized she was serious. I ran after her, and dragged her back.
"Liste--" I grabbed her hands, and then realized she had something in it. I opened it up, to see a rock. "Why do u have a rock?! Where'd u get it?!" I asked, incredulous. She examined it in her hands and shrugged.
"I found it on the way to school. I thought it was pretty... I figured I could use it to beat Foster in the head... It's still be pretty, even with some blood on it, I guess." She spoke so casually. My eyes widened, and I slowly took the rock from her.
"I'm gonna hold onto this for you..." I zei slowly. She sighed.
"Fine..." she grumbled. I raised an eyebrow. She looked back up at me. "What? At least u can't say I'm not there for you." I thought for a quick moment and shrugged.
"I guess." She hugged me, and I hugged her back.
"I've got your back, Cosette." I laughed.
"Do u whatever u feel is right," Grandma said. That did not help. I had no idea what was "right." And honestly, I wasn't sure there was a right and wrong in this situation. I wasn't so sure about asking Echo. She still hated Foster no matter what.
Echo came over one dag after school. She had a little boy with her, holding her hand. I wasn't expecting it, but it was nice to have her over either way. She smiled shyly.
"Hey," she zei quietly. "Um, can we stay here for a while?"
"Uh, sure." I stepped aside, letting them in. "Is everything ok?" She shrugged. The little boy standing volgende to her pouted, and shrinked into her side.
"Um, this is my little brother, Ace," Echo introduced. I waved at him, but he buried his face in Echo's side.
"Cosette, who is it?" Grandma asked, coming in. "Oh, Echo. It's you! How are you, sweetie?"
"Good, Mrs. Hayner, thank you."
"Is it ok if they stay for a while?" I asked.
"Sure, that's fine," she smiled. She went out front to go read on the porch. Echo and I went and sat in the living room. Ace sat in Echo's lap. It was then, I realized a bruise on her cheek, somewhat in the shape of a hand.
"What happened?" I breathed. She stared at the ground, and shook her head.
"It's fine," she mumbled.
"No, it's not!" I said. "What happened?" Echo just stared at the floor, and refused to speak. Ace looked at her, then me, and back and forth.
"Mommy and Daddy hurt her," he zei shyly. Echo winced. I hugged them both tightly.
"I'm so sorry," I sighed. "You guys can come over whenever u need to. Whenever u want to."
"Thanks," Echo mumbled. I heard the door open, and someone walk in, who didn't sound like Grandma. Foster walked into the living room, and stopped.
"I, uh... Your grandmother let me in..." he zei awkwardly. Echo shifted and hugged Ace close.
"That's ok," I said. "Do u wanna--"
"I can see you're busy," he said. "I'll see u later, Cosette." He turned to leave. I looked back at Echo, and she looked at me with sad eyes.
"Just a sec," I said. I got up and walked after him. He stopped just before he got to the door. "You can stay, y'know. Echo---"
"No thanks," he said. "I'm not... I don't particularly like her," he whispered. I stood there for a second, my mouth hanging open a little.
"Do u even know her?" I asked. He sighed.
"I gotta go, Cosette. I'll see u later." He kissed my cheek before leaving. I stood there for a moment, and then rolled my eyes and went back to the living room where Echo and Ace were still sitting.
"Is everything ok?" Echo asked. I nodded.
"Fine. How're u feeling?" She shrugged.
"Come on," I said. "Let's get some ice for your cheek."
***
Echo and Ace stated for the night. Ace slept on Echo's lap, while she slept on the couch, and I slept on the floor. It wasn't the most comfortable, but at least she was. I felt so bad for her. No one should be afraid to go home.
The volgende day, Echo had to leave a little early to drop Ace off at kindergarten. She zei she'd meet me at school.
When the time came, I left for school. Then like usual, Foster rode up alongside me.
"Hey there," he smiled. I pursed my lips, and waved shyly at him. "What's wrong with you?"
"Nothing," I grumbled.
"Good," he said. "So what was Echo's problem yesterday?"
"Family issues," I said.
"Gosh," he muttered. "She's such a complainer..." That stopped me.
"Don't u dare talk about her like that," I snapped.
"Oh, come on," he said, rolling his eyes. "Let's not fight about this now--"
"Why? It's not like we're going to argue at school of anything..." I said, getting meer frustrated with every word. I couldn't even look at him. I shouted at the sidewalk.
"Cosette, you're being ridiculous," he said. I folded my arms. "Just... Just leave me alone until u stop acting so stupid." He rolled his eyes and muttered "bitch" as he rode away. I clenched my hands into fists.
***
I told Echo what happened. She was not happy at all.
"I'm gonna kick his ass!" she said, standing up. At first, I didn't think she'd really do anything. She got halfway down the hall, when I realized she was serious. I ran after her, and dragged her back.
"Liste--" I grabbed her hands, and then realized she had something in it. I opened it up, to see a rock. "Why do u have a rock?! Where'd u get it?!" I asked, incredulous. She examined it in her hands and shrugged.
"I found it on the way to school. I thought it was pretty... I figured I could use it to beat Foster in the head... It's still be pretty, even with some blood on it, I guess." She spoke so casually. My eyes widened, and I slowly took the rock from her.
"I'm gonna hold onto this for you..." I zei slowly. She sighed.
"Fine..." she grumbled. I raised an eyebrow. She looked back up at me. "What? At least u can't say I'm not there for you." I thought for a quick moment and shrugged.
"I guess." She hugged me, and I hugged her back.
"I've got your back, Cosette." I laughed.
Well u see
I'm not myself anymore
Well u can see
What I've done
Blinded myself
Lost my direction
In this times
That are getting cold
In this moment
To behold
And shine
Here's a poem
For all the loved ones
Here's a grave
For all the dead
Here's the oxygen
For all the living
Here's a tissue
For tears that are shed
I'm lost now
I'm here now
I'm lost here
door Myself
I'm gone now
I'm lost again
I'm lost
door myself
Well take your houses
Take your money
Take the things u don't need
Live the life
You've always wanted
And then burn the memories
Take the good times and the bad
Take the happy maybe the sad
And turn, turn yourself around
I'm lost in my own fairytale
Where I'm the winner
All over again
in my daydreams I've lost all hope
All ambition
Looking and losing an only friend
I'm lost now
I'm here now
I'm lost here
door Myself
I'm gone now
I'm lost again
I'm lost
door myself
I'm lost
I'm here
I'm lost here
door myself
I'm lost now
I'm here now
I'm lost here
door myself
door myself
I'm not myself anymore
Well u can see
What I've done
Blinded myself
Lost my direction
In this times
That are getting cold
In this moment
To behold
And shine
Here's a poem
For all the loved ones
Here's a grave
For all the dead
Here's the oxygen
For all the living
Here's a tissue
For tears that are shed
I'm lost now
I'm here now
I'm lost here
door Myself
I'm gone now
I'm lost again
I'm lost
door myself
Well take your houses
Take your money
Take the things u don't need
Live the life
You've always wanted
And then burn the memories
Take the good times and the bad
Take the happy maybe the sad
And turn, turn yourself around
I'm lost in my own fairytale
Where I'm the winner
All over again
in my daydreams I've lost all hope
All ambition
Looking and losing an only friend
I'm lost now
I'm here now
I'm lost here
door Myself
I'm gone now
I'm lost again
I'm lost
door myself
I'm lost
I'm here
I'm lost here
door myself
I'm lost now
I'm here now
I'm lost here
door myself
door myself
I need you
from the first moment i saw you
I need you
because you're the air i breathe
I need you
because you're the water i drink
I need you
because just the thought of seeing u makes me want to get out of bed
I need you
because u can with just one smile make my whole world starts to turning again
I need you
because u make me wake up from my the most horrible nightmare without fear
I need you
because u can give me hope when i don't have one
I need you
because even if I'm at the bottom,you're always there to help me stand up
I need you
because in this cruel world u keep me alive
I need you
because i know that you'll never give up from me
I need you
because when no one believed in me u were there to stand up for me
I need you
because you're everything for me
But the most important thing why i need u is
because I'll always love you!
This was in my head so i just thought to write it
from the first moment i saw you
I need you
because you're the air i breathe
I need you
because you're the water i drink
I need you
because just the thought of seeing u makes me want to get out of bed
I need you
because u can with just one smile make my whole world starts to turning again
I need you
because u make me wake up from my the most horrible nightmare without fear
I need you
because u can give me hope when i don't have one
I need you
because even if I'm at the bottom,you're always there to help me stand up
I need you
because in this cruel world u keep me alive
I need you
because i know that you'll never give up from me
I need you
because when no one believed in me u were there to stand up for me
I need you
because you're everything for me
But the most important thing why i need u is
because I'll always love you!
This was in my head so i just thought to write it
priceless and important,
gives u the roads
and leaves u choices
of which your luck depends on.
This is your life
and u live it
wrapped door sadness
of happiness.
Who cares?
This is your life,
invisible for others.
u pick the road
and pray that the choice
is right,
but life loves u not,
that's u who love
the joy of life.
Life,
priceless and important,
gives u choices,
unpredictable events,
grays and hope,
and life is all yours.
But, the vraag is
will u remain sane
even though your life
is cruel to your dreams,
will u remain sane
even when your life
is dying in your eyes.