I feel crazy, I feel happy, I feel so in love with you! Your my best friend, my only family, your my number one. Don't ever leave me, or else I will go mad as a hatter and be a bad kind of insane! I'm so addicted to you, I feel I will be crippled on you forever!

When you smile you show the world that you can bring light to its darkness. When you laugh you show up every muscian there ever was with that beautifull laugh, and make the world filled with contagious laughter one by one! And when you help someone, you set a example to show the world your kind and gental sould and that there really is a God who sent down a angel, that is what you mean to me. Your my sun, your my heart, your my angel, so please stay by my side as my gaurdian angel.

I'll say it once more, with just those three words that hold all of my feelings for you... I love you.

~B

When you spend time alone you spend time with your demons, yur own hell unleashes on to you. You must fight for your loved ones, fight for those memories you love and even those you rather forget, because if a memory hurts you heart and breaks it in half you will remember the good ones that lead up to that point, each memory should never be forgotton, just like each person after they pass away, so fight. Fight with you all strength in your heart until the day you win, or until the day you die.

Hope is for anyone who deserves it, and everyone deserves it! But you need two things to help you along the way that the path called 'Hope' leads you to, 1) great friends, and 2) dreams to follow! As long as you have someone to love, whether it be friend, family, or lover, as long as you have someone theres hope~

~B

I am what I am, you are what you are, but to me how you act to me when were alone is what truly matters, and that is everything.

Friendships are dear to a persons health, for without friends, we'd be mad, but if your friends have fun but are not reliable then your normal, and if your friends are fun AND reliable you are so happy you turn mad! So life is about being mad!!!

Love is for your heart, rivals are for your spirits, family is for your crazy home, and friends are for your life! With love you get complications and tempermental bliss, with family you get unsatisfying happiness, and with friends you get comedey plus love that lasts as long as you live~

~B

I used to be ok with being socialy akward...
but now that I'm older
and wiser...
I want to make more friends
Ones that are truly
my friends!
I'm scared to die alone...

But... I would never admit to anyone.
I want to make memories with people
the ones I have so far are terrible!
I can't stand this
So close to ending it...

yet so far away from it,
I know I wouldn't ever
do it,
I don't have THAT kind of courage
but I suppose its a good thing...
Plus I am not weak!
I am not blind to see
that some would miss me!
I hope one day I
can be happy with my self
and my life
....
I hope~

~B

No matter how hard you try
your past will always haunt you,
I hope after 'he' dies I can
can get this huge pressure off my chest,
It hurts when I think about
it...
But... I know I can't simply

leave this place without my mark.
To not leave a legacy,
I will not go without a fight!
I will fight until my last breath is
forced out of my crushed lungs.

I want to do something to 'help'
the world!
Not be a burden, someone usless!
I want to help,
but at the same time have fun
doing it.
I hope to find my place,
and not just take it up.
I will- I will help others, I will help
myself and the ones I love the most,
I will live on for those who care.
I will NEVER turn my back on a friend in
need,
No matter how `clinche it may sound
I will not.

I WILL find my place.
My place until I die,
My place were I will stay until
I die.
~B

When one passes, someone cries.
For they have lost someone close to them.
A daughter, a son, a child, a parent...
a best friend.
When someone dies,they changes others lives,
We miss them and no matter what,
no matter how long.

We will never forget them.
We wish to see there smiling faces,
hear there wonderfull laughing,
to feel the warmth they once brought us...
that is now gone just as they are.

We will NEVER forget the happiness they brought us,
we will never find a single person on this earth who
could replace them!
We wish to see them... and maybe...
maybe, just maybe... one day we will.
If we pray.

a lot of these truely touched me thank you beb haha I almost feel like there is someone else out there who understands.

"People say 'Well guess LIFE isn't FAIR now is it?!' or someting along those lines, well I say 'If lifes not fair then I'll MAKE it fair! Its my life so its my way!" ~B

(I know it might be too long for a quote XD)
~B

<33 and thanks Rusty-san for being so nice and kind to me!
~B

Riddle!:

What is broken when spoken?
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You all have 4 days from NOW to tell me the answer! Good luck!
~B

meaning what hurt can simple words can do almost like the quote sticks and stones will break my bones but words will never hurt me but different in the fact in which you are the person who is saying it. Meaning if i were to say something to someone what is broken? nothing, nothing has changed since the second you said it your the same person even if that person is pissed its the truth.

I have always stayed safetly in my little world.
Only listening to see if the world was still there.
safetly from a distance....

Now something is changing.
I dont wish to watch the world change while I dont.
I wish to spread my wings and see the world for all it is.

I shed my little world and break into the one that surronds me.
Where my flights ahead of me will take me not even the lord knows.
but I know I will leave my mark on this world.
Failure is not an option.

Without fail I will never give up.
Even if my wings are stripped away.
and I walk lone some...
I will not shell back up into my little world.

Ahhh!!! Soooo beautifull Rusty-san!!! TwT *sniff* I-I promised my self I wouldn't c-cry!!!
~B

I fight my way out of the pit I was put in,
I fight to escape the darkness...
I fight to be that person I oh so admire,
but can never reach.
I fight with all my heart,
I shield my heart with all those who say they love me!

I pray I can live up to their expections,
I pray I can keep the darkness out of my heart!
I pray my strength doesn't weaken,
I pray that they really DO love me...
I pray for most of all....
I pray he leaves me....
That he stays in the shadows...

I will love my family,
I will become deserving of LOVE!
I will help myself and not be weak!
I will live for others,
I will learn to love myself and most of all...
I will find someone to love with my heart,
who loves me.

I will... I pray... I hope... I shall succed!

~B

When I see your heavenly eyes~
I saw something I wanted to see more of~
When you looked at me with those eyes I felt you were tresspassing
looking down into my heart.
Seeing what secrets lied there,
It was so terrifing, yet libaerating!
I couldn't look away I saw you had your own secrets...

And I wanted to heal those broken beautifull eyes,
Thats the day you cursed me,
thats the day those lovely eyes broke me down so badly that I wanted to cry!
You made me want to be the one to heal you,
I wanted to stay in those eyes...
I wanted you to be by my side, be mine and mine only...

When you look at me directly, down to my soul,
You seem to look at me with something,
so mysterious, so scary, so beautifull...
I hope it would be love....
but I know its not.

I can't help but look at you with love,
you seem to not notice...
maybe thats for the best but...
I feel this growing pain of you not there,
of your FRIENDSHIP only,
I feel pain.

I hate this, I don't hate you though.
Never could, never will.
Wish I did, wish I will.
But my heart aches for you, my heart calls to you,
It may be kinda mushy but your always on my mind!
With those heavenly eyes~
When you look me in the eyes I feel that love swell up,
and find myself in total bliss wanting to stay there...
forever...
When I see your heavenly eyes...

~B

Why did you do what you did that day? Why did you throw our love away? Why is it that I feel you never cared? Why is it that I'm stuck waaaayyy out here?! Did I hurt you somehow? NO! If you needed help, why didn't you just shout?? Is it that I was never good enough? Is it that you always called my love a bluff! You always say don't act tough, well I aint acting and I'm not backing down to youuuuuu!!! Why is it that you tore my heart out?

You'v done it more times than I can COUNT! Why is it that you crushed my dreams and tore my soul from the seams... You say my fearfull screams bring you closer to your dreams! So it seems... all I can do is ask... whyyyyy....?Why do you bask in glory, when you bask over my broken heart... Why do you wear the mask, the mask of my old love, that face will be a token of my broken heart... Why do you hate me? I'm not the one whos the fiend who stole your life, I don't owe you anyyyythhhhiiiinnnggg.... I'm not the one who mad you this WAY! Why is it that when I need you, you take forever to help me but when I don't your gone on the stop of a dime..?! Why did you do what you did that day?

Why did you throw everything we had away?! Why do you lay there, leaving me here, naked to the outside world! Why did you leave me way out here?! Leaving me here and fearfull... Why is it that when your gone that I'm powerless... and can only ask my self... whyyyyyyy???..........