I know that no one knows me here. But I just have a lot to say n' I need to tell it to someone. Anyone, really.
I'm 13, first off. I don't have much experience in this world, but I've learned a lot. There's been so much that's happened over the years that lead up to this moment.
In 5th grade, I was antagonized for being different, like everyone else. But I was like the main target. It hurt really bad n' I started to drift away meer n' more. Then...well...something happened during that year, but I won't say. It brings back too many bad memories.
Anyway, 6th grade didn't start out that bad. I had vrienden again n' I met this adorable guy named Colin. He was my life. I asked him out one day...and he zei no. That, once again, shot me into a deep depression. I had nowhere to turn. I was a suicidal mess, n' I ended up even cutting my wrists. I was once again an outcast, but everyone called me emo. I had always been rejected, n' that was just another example.
Then 7th grade came along. door then, I was fully into Guns N' Roses (mostly Axl!) n' me n' Colin were finally talking again. All my vrienden were talking again n' I even had some new ones. Life seemed OK.
But for some reason, I just couldn't be happy. I would lock myself in my room and listen to GN'R all night. I wouldn't speak for days.
But then other days, I'd be crazy n' I'd want to be around people. I was like a roller coaster.
Recently, my parents finally realized that something was wrong n' they took me to the doctor. She zei that I was Bipolar 1, like Axl.
This was just months ago, probably 1, most likely. But that's just all confused me. I'm back at a dead end w/ only my mp3, a backpack, n' a can of mase.
I always knew I was different than the people I was around, n' this just added onto it. But I gladly tell people. I'm not ashamed of it. I can still function as long as I have my music. I just need to have support that I don't have. My support is GN'R, but I need the people around me to understand too.
I'm 13, first off. I don't have much experience in this world, but I've learned a lot. There's been so much that's happened over the years that lead up to this moment.
In 5th grade, I was antagonized for being different, like everyone else. But I was like the main target. It hurt really bad n' I started to drift away meer n' more. Then...well...something happened during that year, but I won't say. It brings back too many bad memories.
Anyway, 6th grade didn't start out that bad. I had vrienden again n' I met this adorable guy named Colin. He was my life. I asked him out one day...and he zei no. That, once again, shot me into a deep depression. I had nowhere to turn. I was a suicidal mess, n' I ended up even cutting my wrists. I was once again an outcast, but everyone called me emo. I had always been rejected, n' that was just another example.
Then 7th grade came along. door then, I was fully into Guns N' Roses (mostly Axl!) n' me n' Colin were finally talking again. All my vrienden were talking again n' I even had some new ones. Life seemed OK.
But for some reason, I just couldn't be happy. I would lock myself in my room and listen to GN'R all night. I wouldn't speak for days.
But then other days, I'd be crazy n' I'd want to be around people. I was like a roller coaster.
Recently, my parents finally realized that something was wrong n' they took me to the doctor. She zei that I was Bipolar 1, like Axl.
This was just months ago, probably 1, most likely. But that's just all confused me. I'm back at a dead end w/ only my mp3, a backpack, n' a can of mase.
I always knew I was different than the people I was around, n' this just added onto it. But I gladly tell people. I'm not ashamed of it. I can still function as long as I have my music. I just need to have support that I don't have. My support is GN'R, but I need the people around me to understand too.
So here's my problem.
There is this guy I have known for a long time and he's nice. I mean he's nice. He has had a crush on me for the longest time. I have rejected him 3 times. Since then he has still tried to get out of the friend zone box. He zei to one of his vrienden if I dated him I would solve 99 percent of his problems and I was right there so I zei I will make u 99 meer problems. After that he still hasn't gegeven up. He left for a trip and now he is back from it. I don't want him to think I am a jerk. So what should I say to him?
There is this guy I have known for a long time and he's nice. I mean he's nice. He has had a crush on me for the longest time. I have rejected him 3 times. Since then he has still tried to get out of the friend zone box. He zei to one of his vrienden if I dated him I would solve 99 percent of his problems and I was right there so I zei I will make u 99 meer problems. After that he still hasn't gegeven up. He left for a trip and now he is back from it. I don't want him to think I am a jerk. So what should I say to him?
Ok, so I have this friend who's a Freshman, like me, at my high school & everyday when I get to my lunch table, usually there's nobody there, so I go on my phone & onto YouTube to watch some videos I really like. Well, while I'm doing that, my friend Mitchell always sneaks up behind me & tasers my sides. Well, this would be ok if I wasn't extremely ticklish there! Whenever he does this, I always jump, squeal, & bring my arms down to protect my ticklish sides.
He's always done this & he enjoys it, I can see that. To be honest, I do like it when he does this, but sometimes, I don't. And usually, I'm having a crappy dag after 4th hour(Exploring Science), because there's a girl in my tafel, tabel group, Lauren, who's always snobby to me & mean. I never did anything to her to make her hate me!! So usually after that class, I'm in a bad mood. But when Mitchell tasers me, it makes me feel better. But I'm not sure what I should say to him!! Please help me out!!!
He's always done this & he enjoys it, I can see that. To be honest, I do like it when he does this, but sometimes, I don't. And usually, I'm having a crappy dag after 4th hour(Exploring Science), because there's a girl in my tafel, tabel group, Lauren, who's always snobby to me & mean. I never did anything to her to make her hate me!! So usually after that class, I'm in a bad mood. But when Mitchell tasers me, it makes me feel better. But I'm not sure what I should say to him!! Please help me out!!!
Well i know people thnk about alot of things like suicide and all of that. I'm here to let u know I've been through tons of things and what your going through I've most likely gone through. I just want to say it u just need advice of want to talk I'm here. I know everything can be scary but u can't let that get u down. So before yo udo something studip of something you'll regret. ie)boys girls life. Talk to someone. If i knew this before I'd be so much better off. If u want to talk send me a message I'll help u out.
yours truly SurferChic. :D
ps thanx so much if u responed pss thanx
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