My suicide note that I threw away cuz of my awesome vrienden and life I wanted to keep.
To the friends, I call my family,
door the time u read this letter, I will be only a faded memory.
A corpse on the cold bathroom floor.
It is too late for me now, and I know it.
Even as I write this letter I can feel the life draining out of me.
But I feel it, so that's something, right?
I have been dead for a while now, though u may not have noticed.
I died the night I couldn't love you, my love.
I loved u with everything.
My heart, my body and soul.
I am sorry I wasn't good enough for you.
At least you're happy.
I went numb, and ceased to feel.
Ceased to be.
That was when I first cut.
I just needed to feel something.
After a while it wasn't enough.
I thought if I cut deeper and spilled meer of my blood I would at least make me feel alive.
It worked for a while, but in the end it just left me hollower than before.
I tried to keep it together, for my family, but u know something?
u don't need me any more.
None of u do.
I just cause u meer pain and suffering than I'm worth.
Because I lied.
I am not Raven.
Not anymore.
I am nothing without you.
u don't need me.
None of u do.
How can I take care of a family when I can't take care of myself?
I can't.
Not anymore.
I used to be able to, before this all started.
I just can't remember how anymore.
I sit here and remember the fight we had.
u told me to leave and the words u used cut me meer than any blade ever did.
Don't worry.
I am going now.
I feel so tired, my vision is becoming blurred, and I know I must go soon, but wait.
There is some wisdom I still need to depart on you.
The last order I shall give u is the one to do what u want.
I was only trying to protect u all.
I am sorry.
I won't do it again.
Promise.
I was a bad leader.
I know it.
So, do what u want, and maybe you'll see why I was the way I was.
Whitney, my baby.
Go off make the world better...
Go be yourself, and be happy.
Go make me proud.
Twan, my brother.
Go be the person u want to be.
Go blow up things.
Go give away your life.
Go and accidentally kill yourself of someone u love and see how it feels to be a murder.
Like I am.
Ducky, my little sister.
Go draw attention to yourself.
Go tell every stranger u meet that u are happy, and heck, hug them.
Go get laughed at, screamed at, go get called a freak.
Go be happy about being a freak, my freak.
People don't like things that are different.
I learned that the hard way, and tried to shield u from it, but maybe I was wrong to do so.
Fang, damn it I love you.
Go be the person who other people depend on for every little thing.
Mel, my freaking OC, and mother figure.
I want someone to hold me.
I want my sissy to hold me.
I want Fang to hold me.
I want my brother to hold me
I want my Mom to hold me.
Then you'll really be alone like u always wanted to be, and whose fault will it be? Not mine, that's for sure.
That's why I'm leaving.
I want out.
I can't take it anymore.
I need a break.
I need to be free.
I loved u guys all with all my heart.
I hope you're happy together.
All I can say is that I tried.
It was too hard.
Goodbye,
My baby,
My brother,
My little sister,
My crazy mother figure,
And my best friend, my imaginary right-hand-man, the only person I ever truly loved, Fang.
I wish I could see your faces one meer time, but it's too late for me.
The darkness is creeping in around me.
Don't cry for me, I was already dead.
I just need u to know that everything I did, I did for you.
All of you.
u can't catch me this time...
You can't save me...
But u can let me go....
To the friends, I call my family,
door the time u read this letter, I will be only a faded memory.
A corpse on the cold bathroom floor.
It is too late for me now, and I know it.
Even as I write this letter I can feel the life draining out of me.
But I feel it, so that's something, right?
I have been dead for a while now, though u may not have noticed.
I died the night I couldn't love you, my love.
I loved u with everything.
My heart, my body and soul.
I am sorry I wasn't good enough for you.
At least you're happy.
I went numb, and ceased to feel.
Ceased to be.
That was when I first cut.
I just needed to feel something.
After a while it wasn't enough.
I thought if I cut deeper and spilled meer of my blood I would at least make me feel alive.
It worked for a while, but in the end it just left me hollower than before.
I tried to keep it together, for my family, but u know something?
u don't need me any more.
None of u do.
I just cause u meer pain and suffering than I'm worth.
Because I lied.
I am not Raven.
Not anymore.
I am nothing without you.
u don't need me.
None of u do.
How can I take care of a family when I can't take care of myself?
I can't.
Not anymore.
I used to be able to, before this all started.
I just can't remember how anymore.
I sit here and remember the fight we had.
u told me to leave and the words u used cut me meer than any blade ever did.
Don't worry.
I am going now.
I feel so tired, my vision is becoming blurred, and I know I must go soon, but wait.
There is some wisdom I still need to depart on you.
The last order I shall give u is the one to do what u want.
I was only trying to protect u all.
I am sorry.
I won't do it again.
Promise.
I was a bad leader.
I know it.
So, do what u want, and maybe you'll see why I was the way I was.
Whitney, my baby.
Go off make the world better...
Go be yourself, and be happy.
Go make me proud.
Twan, my brother.
Go be the person u want to be.
Go blow up things.
Go give away your life.
Go and accidentally kill yourself of someone u love and see how it feels to be a murder.
Like I am.
Ducky, my little sister.
Go draw attention to yourself.
Go tell every stranger u meet that u are happy, and heck, hug them.
Go get laughed at, screamed at, go get called a freak.
Go be happy about being a freak, my freak.
People don't like things that are different.
I learned that the hard way, and tried to shield u from it, but maybe I was wrong to do so.
Fang, damn it I love you.
Go be the person who other people depend on for every little thing.
Mel, my freaking OC, and mother figure.
I want someone to hold me.
I want my sissy to hold me.
I want Fang to hold me.
I want my brother to hold me
I want my Mom to hold me.
Then you'll really be alone like u always wanted to be, and whose fault will it be? Not mine, that's for sure.
That's why I'm leaving.
I want out.
I can't take it anymore.
I need a break.
I need to be free.
I loved u guys all with all my heart.
I hope you're happy together.
All I can say is that I tried.
It was too hard.
Goodbye,
My baby,
My brother,
My little sister,
My crazy mother figure,
And my best friend, my imaginary right-hand-man, the only person I ever truly loved, Fang.
I wish I could see your faces one meer time, but it's too late for me.
The darkness is creeping in around me.
Don't cry for me, I was already dead.
I just need u to know that everything I did, I did for you.
All of you.
u can't catch me this time...
You can't save me...
But u can let me go....
There's someone knockin' on my door
There in the shadows, looks like a hand
Come to the rescue now
Once there was a man who decided he knew everything
Life's been so good to me
I went to see what I could find
u never lived in the streets though u wish u had
I'm so sorry, please forgive me
Living in the sixth dimension
Over time I've come to feel
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