This is what i would say to my jacob, if i can even say he is mine.


How do i even start off, do i start off saying that i dont know how to start off,or do i pour my hart-, hart out,that first word, i dont know anymore..Because with you, nothing is the way it seems, of the way it was before. Everything changes even the way im supposed to write this, you've confused me.
OK,, i think is this part where i pour my hart-, hart out right?? if not. im going to sound.. odd. but who cares now? not you. u wont even read this my love.
ok here i go, keep me from falling.
I meet u on a saturday, on the first saturday of Harry Potter 6's release, that was where met. I had my friend Natalie with me for support, sadly she was confronted with her ex boyfriend sitted in front of us and she was upset.
But u cheered her up and protected her.
u had blonde hair. In small tight curls. And i cant even describe your face anymore, i dont know wheithter it because i have forgotten of my hart-, hart doesnt want me too.
Two weeks into our reletionship, i knew i loved u already, i was 14, u were 16. And u entered me, it hurt. It was july 31st 2009, in which we made the act that separated us, but we diddnt know it. But i have to admitt, i wouldnt take back what we did, i wouldn't take back u of my heartbreak, because no matter what that sitaution made me feel, it was about you.
I remember u holding right, and treating me right, give up things because it made uncomtorable. u gave up smoking, for me.
u sent me the most beautiful flowers in the world, i still have one perfect rose.
u were perfect, u stuck up for me, u did everything for me, u carried on even when it hurt you, u put up with all my shit but most of all, u loved me right.
I loved your calls at 10 pm and ended at 12.
I loved how u centered me in everything u did. And i will always love u for that.
how am i going so far?? Funny how i've written soo much and thats not even a slight bit of what i have inside me for you.
I thought i was pregnant at the age 14. u were so scared, but not for yourself, u thought that it was going tio REUNINE my life...
I told my mum, who told my dad who told me i can never see u again.
i cried for months. i tryied to kill myself, i dont know how many times.

i think i might stop now... im starting to feel sick and i feel like a toser,,,
i bet people will think im wierd,,, which i am, i think...

i love u jacob....come back for me.