Look around you, I told myself, over and over and over again. Look around you, and cry. Cry freely, girl.
But I didn't. I couldn't find the strength to cry... to make the tears fall from my eyes. I didn't think I was ready to let the tears hit the ground with a soft patter; to wince at the sad and depressing sound that came from my mouth; to let Duncan see that I couldn't handle anything.
I looked up at him. His eyes were glazed and pained as he gazed into mine. I immediately felt a pang of guilt, and I sighed.
"Mina?" He brushed my cheek.
I didn't answer. I wanted to cry -- yet I didn't... I had no idea why. I wanted to let it all go, yet the other half of me, the meer determined half.. warned me not to let it go until it was the right time.
Whatever that was.
"Duncan..." I would do it. I would break up with Duncan. "I'm... sorry." Well, that's great, my sarcasm inside me sneered. You're sorry. How delightful. Want me to tell u I'm sorry, too?
No. That won't help, I pleaded with myself.
That's wonderful. So... go ahead and tell him you're sorry..
SHUT UP!! I screamed to myself.
I paused. Duncan didn't say anything, he regarded me, nervous, sad, and he knew what was happening. But could I do it? Maybe I was being dumb. Who was I to break up with him? Why did I do it? If I had no reason... then why?
"I understand you, Mina," he zei quietly, his eyes becoming shinier door the moment.
"That's good," I whispered, looking down.
"I know what u want." He paused, looking at me one time over. "But before... please, Mina... tell me why."
"What?" I was startled door his question.
"What did I do?" He was still as upset as he ever was.
I closed my eyes, hoping they'd stay that way forever, so that I'd never have to see anything ever again. Blackness was better. I could see clearly. Everything else as blurred with tears.
"Nothing." My voice was almost inaudible.
"Then why--" Duncan broke off, then tried to pull back. "Let me guess. You've moved on."
I could have zei yes then, to make everything so mcuh easier... but I didn't. Something in me was protesting... and I couldn't help but notice. My longing for Duncan burned in me, and I hated myself for doing this as much as I hated myself for everything else in the world that I did wrong. But that something burned strong in the depth of my heart... and whatever it was, that something made me disagree.
"No," I murmured, my voice muffled. "It's not that."
"You don't like me anymore..." he guessed, clearly not realizing the double-meaning in his sentence.
That hit me with so much regret that I suddenly sprang back to life again. "No!" I protested. "I like u too much, Duncan. That's the problem."
He didn't get it. To be honest, I didn't, either.
Duncan was confused. "Then what.." he didn't finish.
"I'll go," I zei softly. "You don't want me to be here."
I stood up, and I ran, as fast as I could in my coffee-brown and white flats, ignoring with all my will when Duncan called back to me.
I refused to turn my head back even once, because I knew my desire for him would take over. So I ran.
I threw open my penthouse door, and I ran, sobbing, into my bedroom. It wasn't fair. Duncan loved... me? He was too perfect. He could find someone like him; every inch as perfect as he is.
I flung myself face-first onto my pillow.
And I cried, letting my cry muffle against the pillow.
I loved, with the strong longing for Duncan somewhere in my heart.
I saw the world as it was... dark and horrible and loveless.
Speak, Mina, speak.
Love, Mina, love.
Cry, Mina, cry... <3
But I didn't. I couldn't find the strength to cry... to make the tears fall from my eyes. I didn't think I was ready to let the tears hit the ground with a soft patter; to wince at the sad and depressing sound that came from my mouth; to let Duncan see that I couldn't handle anything.
I looked up at him. His eyes were glazed and pained as he gazed into mine. I immediately felt a pang of guilt, and I sighed.
"Mina?" He brushed my cheek.
I didn't answer. I wanted to cry -- yet I didn't... I had no idea why. I wanted to let it all go, yet the other half of me, the meer determined half.. warned me not to let it go until it was the right time.
Whatever that was.
"Duncan..." I would do it. I would break up with Duncan. "I'm... sorry." Well, that's great, my sarcasm inside me sneered. You're sorry. How delightful. Want me to tell u I'm sorry, too?
No. That won't help, I pleaded with myself.
That's wonderful. So... go ahead and tell him you're sorry..
SHUT UP!! I screamed to myself.
I paused. Duncan didn't say anything, he regarded me, nervous, sad, and he knew what was happening. But could I do it? Maybe I was being dumb. Who was I to break up with him? Why did I do it? If I had no reason... then why?
"I understand you, Mina," he zei quietly, his eyes becoming shinier door the moment.
"That's good," I whispered, looking down.
"I know what u want." He paused, looking at me one time over. "But before... please, Mina... tell me why."
"What?" I was startled door his question.
"What did I do?" He was still as upset as he ever was.
I closed my eyes, hoping they'd stay that way forever, so that I'd never have to see anything ever again. Blackness was better. I could see clearly. Everything else as blurred with tears.
"Nothing." My voice was almost inaudible.
"Then why--" Duncan broke off, then tried to pull back. "Let me guess. You've moved on."
I could have zei yes then, to make everything so mcuh easier... but I didn't. Something in me was protesting... and I couldn't help but notice. My longing for Duncan burned in me, and I hated myself for doing this as much as I hated myself for everything else in the world that I did wrong. But that something burned strong in the depth of my heart... and whatever it was, that something made me disagree.
"No," I murmured, my voice muffled. "It's not that."
"You don't like me anymore..." he guessed, clearly not realizing the double-meaning in his sentence.
That hit me with so much regret that I suddenly sprang back to life again. "No!" I protested. "I like u too much, Duncan. That's the problem."
He didn't get it. To be honest, I didn't, either.
Duncan was confused. "Then what.." he didn't finish.
"I'll go," I zei softly. "You don't want me to be here."
I stood up, and I ran, as fast as I could in my coffee-brown and white flats, ignoring with all my will when Duncan called back to me.
I refused to turn my head back even once, because I knew my desire for him would take over. So I ran.
I threw open my penthouse door, and I ran, sobbing, into my bedroom. It wasn't fair. Duncan loved... me? He was too perfect. He could find someone like him; every inch as perfect as he is.
I flung myself face-first onto my pillow.
And I cried, letting my cry muffle against the pillow.
I loved, with the strong longing for Duncan somewhere in my heart.
I saw the world as it was... dark and horrible and loveless.
Speak, Mina, speak.
Love, Mina, love.
Cry, Mina, cry... <3
chris:your challangee:
(he threw everyone off the boat)
kari spit water out of her mouth.
phil screamed:SHARK!!!!
trent was grabbed door the shark.
(kari gasped for air and went down to go save him she beat up the shark)
and she pulled unconicous trent up.
kari:someone bring trent to land!
duncan took him and brought him to land,and kari preformed cpr on him.
trent gasped for air and kari and trent hugged.
duncan:oh great there goes our cruise!
chris had the boot to himself.
everyone:no!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(he threw everyone off the boat)
kari spit water out of her mouth.
phil screamed:SHARK!!!!
trent was grabbed door the shark.
(kari gasped for air and went down to go save him she beat up the shark)
and she pulled unconicous trent up.
kari:someone bring trent to land!
duncan took him and brought him to land,and kari preformed cpr on him.
trent gasped for air and kari and trent hugged.
duncan:oh great there goes our cruise!
chris had the boot to himself.
everyone:no!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Aydan-Welcome to T.D.N.T.M.Today we will meet 14 contestants and our 2 juges
(Jared and Chase Lee walk in)
Aydan-Time to meet the contestants
(Ele,Chrissy,Lyric,Ava,Lisa,Trixie,Sumer,Yuri,Andrea,Cathie,
Anna,Yoko, and Kalie walk in)
Aydan-Welcome ladies
Chrissy-..I really shouldn't of auditioned
Lyric-That make 2 of us!
Sumer-This is..EXITING!!!!!
Andrea- and fancy
Ava-And expensive
Aydan-Now go settle into u cabin
(hour later)
Aydan-Now u first challenge is........
To be countinued..
(Jared and Chase Lee walk in)
Aydan-Time to meet the contestants
(Ele,Chrissy,Lyric,Ava,Lisa,Trixie,Sumer,Yuri,Andrea,Cathie,
Anna,Yoko, and Kalie walk in)
Aydan-Welcome ladies
Chrissy-..I really shouldn't of auditioned
Lyric-That make 2 of us!
Sumer-This is..EXITING!!!!!
Andrea- and fancy
Ava-And expensive
Aydan-Now go settle into u cabin
(hour later)
Aydan-Now u first challenge is........
To be countinued..
Phil: last time on total drama the haunting, 2 campers got to be clowns while the rest sat down to watch it at the end jumanji won the zombies a trip home. what will happen who will loose and while my girlfriend visit find out meer on this episode of total drama the haunting.
*horn honking*
Phil: looks like there back
killer zombies: *getting out of limo*
Phil: wait for it
death: were already here
*another car horn
Phil: say hi to Alex and Kevin the werewolf
Aydan: why is Alex back?
Phil: i lost a bet
jumanji: what is the werewolf here
Phil: that was the bet, oh and i'm getting bored of the teams, so i'm breaking the teams, ghost bring the zombies
ghost: ok
Phil: time for a commercial break
*horn honking*
Phil: looks like there back
killer zombies: *getting out of limo*
Phil: wait for it
death: were already here
*another car horn
Phil: say hi to Alex and Kevin the werewolf
Aydan: why is Alex back?
Phil: i lost a bet
jumanji: what is the werewolf here
Phil: that was the bet, oh and i'm getting bored of the teams, so i'm breaking the teams, ghost bring the zombies
ghost: ok
Phil: time for a commercial break
Last time on TOTAL DRAMA FREAKS
Everyone started going crazy,and got trapped in the 'candy cane cave' wich was just a house.
*Purple air floats in**everyone faints*
7 hours later
*Everyone wakes up*
"Huh?Who are u people?Who am I?"asked Alex."Aleeeexxxxx?!You-hoooo?!It's me Bridgette?!"said Bridgette,flicking her forehead.*Ronnie turns head*"Whoa!What's that?!""I think it's aaaaaaaaa"Tyler yawned.*Every looks*"UNICORNIES!!!Swimming in pee!!"yelled Vanessa,staring at trees."Let's go look at the unicorns and cookies."said Yoko and DJ.
*Everyone walks over*
"Look,unicorns and Steel!!!I love STEEL!!"yelled Noah and Brooke together.*They both lick it*
"Where are we?What are unicorns and what is steel?sfjdjhfsh" zei Alex.">.- owww i jabed my eye with a horn!"yelled Bridgette."
PART 2 COMING SOON
Everyone started going crazy,and got trapped in the 'candy cane cave' wich was just a house.
*Purple air floats in**everyone faints*
7 hours later
*Everyone wakes up*
"Huh?Who are u people?Who am I?"asked Alex."Aleeeexxxxx?!You-hoooo?!It's me Bridgette?!"said Bridgette,flicking her forehead.*Ronnie turns head*"Whoa!What's that?!""I think it's aaaaaaaaa"Tyler yawned.*Every looks*"UNICORNIES!!!Swimming in pee!!"yelled Vanessa,staring at trees."Let's go look at the unicorns and cookies."said Yoko and DJ.
*Everyone walks over*
"Look,unicorns and Steel!!!I love STEEL!!"yelled Noah and Brooke together.*They both lick it*
"Where are we?What are unicorns and what is steel?sfjdjhfsh" zei Alex.">.- owww i jabed my eye with a horn!"yelled Bridgette."
PART 2 COMING SOON
*All contestants sitting around a campfire at night*"I'm scared of bats..."Said Juno."I'm scared of you."Said Sumer."SHUT THE HECK UP!""I'm really scared of hieghts."She confessed."I'm scared of bats."Said Izzy."I'm terrfied door Justin's face and earwigs"said Brooke.
"This week one TDF,Leshawna will be co-hosting.Yes,i know she is one of your faves,and she's also my freind.Here's her special entrance."
*Leshawna walks in all cool with awesome muziek playing in the "BG"*"What's sup,Andrea?Besides having to hang at this aweful camp again?""Nothing much,ok so we'll meet with the campers in 10,ok?""Ok."
*Dining Hall*
"Sumer,do u honestly think i'd nearly kill u without a good reason?"Juno."Yes,that's just like you.""We've spent 7 weeks here are u think u know me?You don't.SO if i was you,i'd shut up."
"Ok groovy cats!This week we're having one of my fave chaellenge!PHOBIA FACTOR!We got everyone to say thier fears,so this will be no problem."
TO BE CONTINUED
"This week one TDF,Leshawna will be co-hosting.Yes,i know she is one of your faves,and she's also my freind.Here's her special entrance."
*Leshawna walks in all cool with awesome muziek playing in the "BG"*"What's sup,Andrea?Besides having to hang at this aweful camp again?""Nothing much,ok so we'll meet with the campers in 10,ok?""Ok."
*Dining Hall*
"Sumer,do u honestly think i'd nearly kill u without a good reason?"Juno."Yes,that's just like you.""We've spent 7 weeks here are u think u know me?You don't.SO if i was you,i'd shut up."
"Ok groovy cats!This week we're having one of my fave chaellenge!PHOBIA FACTOR!We got everyone to say thier fears,so this will be no problem."
TO BE CONTINUED