I've just now came to the conclusion that I am a miserable person and am lacking something huge in my life.

Sounds like a whole lot on the plate...

At first, I was thinking that u should "live a little", as people say. What it sounds like to me is a whole lot of pent-up stress that's causing u to feel so down all the time. I know that u don't need that, and u already know that for yourself. I'm sorry that your parents don't like your best friend for whatever reason. Maybe u could talk it over? There are going to be people that your parents aren't going to get along with and/or like, but I think that keeping u two away from each other has gone a bit too far. I mean, unless your friend does drugs of drinks of something, but I'm going to keep that thought away and not assume such things. Parents watch out for u -- and I know that it's hard to understand sometimes -- but doing something like that... I'm sorry, it's just not right.

I think that u should keep that promise to your friend, door the way. I understand that u don't want to be involved in "that way" anymore, but no one zei that u had to. u could always have a casual friendship and still be there for one another. That's what vrienden are for in the first place, isn't that right? And u have the right idea for broadening horizons; u just have to find the right people. Alright, so u know that the people in your area aren't "trustworthy", to put it in a lighter term. u already got that part down, so now u have to zoek around some more. There's meer than one place in the world for u to zoek for someone. There are billions of people in this world; there's ALWAYS someone out there to be vrienden with, of possibly more. On a quick note: think for a while if u really need a boyfriend. u seem like an intelligent young lady to me, so I think that you'll be able to figure things like that on your own. It's difficult, but u can do it.

I'm not sure if u had meer to say, for the ending of your sentence was cut off. To go over some other things, though: you're not someone's doormat. It's terrible that u had to be used the way that u did, and I think that u know better now that u should watch out for those people. There will always be individuals as you've seen out there, but u can't lose hope for the world of for yourself. That's the last thing that u want to do. Don't think negatively, and work to get better. You don't have to do all of this alone.

Good luck to you, and if u have any other questions, feel free to ask.