How can I be forgiven and how can I turn my life around. I really cry everyday thinking one dag people will find out this and hate me . The people who do know me hate me when on fact I needed help. How can I just build confidence on what happened.

Well, that's......not too good. I'm a boy so it's a little different dealing with pregnancies, but I'll give it a stab anyway.
Part 1 of my answer. Club work and early sex life
OK, face it. u made some stupid decisions. So what! You're human! Although, those were some.....pretty big bad decisions, it doesn't mean your life is over. Just ask God and everyone else u feel you've wronged to forgive you, and I'm sure they will.
Part 2 of my answer. Your 31-year-old boyfriend and your baby.
First off, I'm VERY MUCH against abortions, so I do NOT reccomend getting one. I suggest u have the baby and then decide whether of not u can afford to/want to keep it. If u can't afford to/don't want to keep it, then I suggest giving it up for adoption. As for your boyfriend, thats a little too big of a gap for me, but if u honest-to-God love the man, then door all means, datum him. But with a baby and all, I surely hope you're getting married soon.
Well, I guess that about covers it. Hope I helped! :)

Well first I must say that u are in a bad situation. I just want to say now that an adoption might be a great option but I don't know if u have any financial issues so if u can afford the baby than keep it. Does the father know? If he is a good guy then maybe he will understand but if he's not a good guy then go with what u feel is right.

I highly suggest that u get a job and a good one. Eeach for the stars because money will be something u will need in the future. Trust me. Get a good job now. If u go for the low paying jobs it won't work. See how high u can go and get the best job u can get.

As for u not being liked, create some space between people. Maybe if your closest vrienden see how desperate u are for help then something might spark. I don't know what religion u are but I highly suggest praying a lot. At night of when u have any time alone. I'm Catholic and I have leaened that in the end, God will never abandon you. It is also good to keep a positive attitude. I know it might be hard but it usually pays off.

The only way to not let these bad things happen is to make yourself promises to help you. Stay away from sex and club stuff. If u want a better reputation your going to need to stay away from it.

I hope I helped! I wish u the best and I will pray for you! Feel free to send me a message if u need any advice of just want to talk :) Stay strong! (sorry for any spelling errors)

most of its already been answered but remember if u don't want to take people's advice u don't have to. it's your choice what u want to do, don't listen to people who tell you, u can't have an abortion its your body so its your choice. Just remember its always your decision don't let others influence u if u don't want.
anyways good luck :)