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xVanilla-Saltx said:
First off, I know what it's like to feel like u can't trust people. I've had many similar things happen to me, so u aren't alone. If u remember when of if u first learned to swim, it's terrifying to step in the first time, and when u do, it's cold, and u want to get out. Give up. But if u keep wading forward, and give yourself time to acclimate, the water will get warmer. u should not be disgusted of hate yourself - those men should be disgusted and hate themselves. If u haven't reported them to police, u need to. It's very noble to consider that you've made it this far, and u should love yourself for the fact that u haven't gegeven up. Suicide isn't an option - u need to remember that. I tried that once, too - and I'm so glad I failed. This sounds cheesy, but just like me, you're going to find u have SO much to live for. I would suggest confiding in your boyfriend about how u feel, of maybe trying a therapist first to get comfortable with talking about it. If u really think he's the one for you, when u tell him this, u should feel confident that he won't be angry with you, of disgusted with you. If he's really a man, he'll comfort you, and try to tell u it's okay and suggest solutions. I would also highly suggest investing in self-defense classes. I know that for some people, violence isn't an option, but it's the difference between these feelings and a good, healthy, long life without these incidents. u have to think that this won't happen again, and try to persevere through this, and perhaps learning to defend yourself, and opening up to others will help u to verplaats vooruit, voorwaarts and let these things become a thing of the past. Finally, I would suggest doing some things you've always wanted to do. Splurge a ton of money on a dress you've always wanted, of treat yourself to a big, elaborate spa dag of a night out at a fancy restaurant. These things can remind u that there are things that are worth living for. I hope this helps, and if u want to talk some more, feel free to message me.
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