its like this i cant explain what i am feeling but im in so much pain i always wear my poker face when im not alone i always cry when im alone .do u think i should toon what i really feell of keep it because someone will get hurt if im sad?

this is a tough one. I'm the exact same way that u are and I think that sometimes its better if the people around u don't actually see how your really feeling but other times u need to toon it. Though I have been finding that I have been having an easier time starting to open up. So my advice to u would be is slowly just let the people who u are closest to see whats going on with you. I don't know exactly why u are in so much pain and sad, but the people closest to u only want to help u so they won't necessarily get hurt. And trust me I know its going to be hard to open up and toon them how your feeling but I have been noticing that it is helping me to feel a bit better because they really do care. I hope everything works out for you.

I'm sorry to hear that but if u feel sad u should let it out, don't build it up inside of you, because it might bring out aggression and anger, tell someone u feel u can trust.