Overwhelmed
I watch the clouds in the sky from my windowsill slowly blanket the earth with layers of snow. The glass under my fingertips feel like ice and my breath fogs the window pane as the night folds in, casting a long shadow looming over me all the way up to my bedroom wall. I can hear the shadow whispering its malicious words in my ear, the words drilling into my already-broken soul like an old tape recorder repeating itself over and over again. Its calling to me ... provoking me ... toying with the feelings I didn’t want to feel in my bones.
I feel like a small lonely dandelion, floating away with the wind. The rain is my friend as it grants me growth and food, the sun is my brother for it has helped with my nutrients and the wind is my saviour as it carries me away, saving my petals from getting wrecked.
When my hart-, hart is full of love, I’ve never felt meer alive than ever. All my worries are but small fragments from my hart-, hart and soul and mind and all of my fears fall away like withered petals. I am free from all things that have been emitted upon me, like a sinless angel who falls under God’s laws from the Bible in Heaven. The countless memories I’ve spent with my precious little brother and father are but priceless and treasured, locked in my soul forever. The love of my father isn’t all goud and filled with integrity; the bond I share with him will never break of crack, it will grow into something completely and utterly beautiful despite our ups and downs. My mother’s love is what I shall cherish for the rest of my life until I die. There is no one else who can ever replace my mom nor take her away fully because of the love she had laid on me.
Sometimes when my hart-, hart is full of loneliness, there is an empty void in my chest. There is twinging pain pierced deep in my chest, the silence hidden in there screams out soundlessly but I feel the dread and hurt in its cries that course through my veins like the blood that circulates around my body. I find myself trying to attempt to hide the loneliness with a fertile mask so that the people I care for wouldn’t interfere. Loneliness has but only one purpose if being tumbled into its silence.
When my hart-, hart is filled with hate, there is heaviness in my chest. It is not of pain but of pure anger and unforgivable wrath. The feel of hate pulsing from my hart-, hart is something I wish could disappear from this world like a bad dream. When I am trapped within hatred’s grasps, I can feel the Devil whispering in my head like the shadows of the night, telling me to do things...to say things...that I don’t do of say intentionally. Hatred leaves me lying on the floor sobbing away with my tears filled with grief and guilt welled in my chest. Hatred is nothing brought from God, for he is Holy and stripped of sin. He is who has set me free of the sins that hatred had done to me door the Devil.
When hope overwhelms my heart, it is the greatest feeling I would treasure forever. Hope gives me belief in many things, great and small. It helps me to verplaats on in life and hope for a better future each day, especially for those who feel like they’re in an eternity of pain. Faith is something that something will happen and it will be granted from the Lord himself.
~Believing is the key to everything; if u believe that God has raised his only Son from the dead u will receive promises in life. If believing that Heaven is real and where u want to be, it will be granted in time, as long as u believe in Jesus and our Holy Father.~
I watch the clouds in the sky from my windowsill slowly blanket the earth with layers of snow. The glass under my fingertips feel like ice and my breath fogs the window pane as the night folds in, casting a long shadow looming over me all the way up to my bedroom wall. I can hear the shadow whispering its malicious words in my ear, the words drilling into my already-broken soul like an old tape recorder repeating itself over and over again. Its calling to me ... provoking me ... toying with the feelings I didn’t want to feel in my bones.
I feel like a small lonely dandelion, floating away with the wind. The rain is my friend as it grants me growth and food, the sun is my brother for it has helped with my nutrients and the wind is my saviour as it carries me away, saving my petals from getting wrecked.
When my hart-, hart is full of love, I’ve never felt meer alive than ever. All my worries are but small fragments from my hart-, hart and soul and mind and all of my fears fall away like withered petals. I am free from all things that have been emitted upon me, like a sinless angel who falls under God’s laws from the Bible in Heaven. The countless memories I’ve spent with my precious little brother and father are but priceless and treasured, locked in my soul forever. The love of my father isn’t all goud and filled with integrity; the bond I share with him will never break of crack, it will grow into something completely and utterly beautiful despite our ups and downs. My mother’s love is what I shall cherish for the rest of my life until I die. There is no one else who can ever replace my mom nor take her away fully because of the love she had laid on me.
Sometimes when my hart-, hart is full of loneliness, there is an empty void in my chest. There is twinging pain pierced deep in my chest, the silence hidden in there screams out soundlessly but I feel the dread and hurt in its cries that course through my veins like the blood that circulates around my body. I find myself trying to attempt to hide the loneliness with a fertile mask so that the people I care for wouldn’t interfere. Loneliness has but only one purpose if being tumbled into its silence.
When my hart-, hart is filled with hate, there is heaviness in my chest. It is not of pain but of pure anger and unforgivable wrath. The feel of hate pulsing from my hart-, hart is something I wish could disappear from this world like a bad dream. When I am trapped within hatred’s grasps, I can feel the Devil whispering in my head like the shadows of the night, telling me to do things...to say things...that I don’t do of say intentionally. Hatred leaves me lying on the floor sobbing away with my tears filled with grief and guilt welled in my chest. Hatred is nothing brought from God, for he is Holy and stripped of sin. He is who has set me free of the sins that hatred had done to me door the Devil.
When hope overwhelms my heart, it is the greatest feeling I would treasure forever. Hope gives me belief in many things, great and small. It helps me to verplaats on in life and hope for a better future each day, especially for those who feel like they’re in an eternity of pain. Faith is something that something will happen and it will be granted from the Lord himself.
~Believing is the key to everything; if u believe that God has raised his only Son from the dead u will receive promises in life. If believing that Heaven is real and where u want to be, it will be granted in time, as long as u believe in Jesus and our Holy Father.~
Time flies as I begin to say goodbye
Though I have this pain that's in my chest
I still wish u the best
It happened in the early winter days
When the snow flaunted and the children came out to play
u were just cruising along on the snow
And as soon as I met your brown eyes
I started to glow as I start to sigh
You're too handsome for my vision
As the time flies door and the seasons start to change
You're still the reason while I'm still breathing
It may amaze you, possibly even surprise you
But for me, it's true that I can't put it in words that could make your hart-, hart soothe
My hart-, hart starts to beat when u are close
Especially when I need u the most
Now that you're not around
There's no sound
But I am happy that I got to know who u really were
Even though I knew that I had lots meer that I had to learn
I loved u with all of my heart
And I still do
Even if the time is going door with every seconde of every day
I still miss u whole-heartedly
Though I have this pain that's in my chest
I still wish u the best
It happened in the early winter days
When the snow flaunted and the children came out to play
u were just cruising along on the snow
And as soon as I met your brown eyes
I started to glow as I start to sigh
You're too handsome for my vision
As the time flies door and the seasons start to change
You're still the reason while I'm still breathing
It may amaze you, possibly even surprise you
But for me, it's true that I can't put it in words that could make your hart-, hart soothe
My hart-, hart starts to beat when u are close
Especially when I need u the most
Now that you're not around
There's no sound
But I am happy that I got to know who u really were
Even though I knew that I had lots meer that I had to learn
I loved u with all of my heart
And I still do
Even if the time is going door with every seconde of every day
I still miss u whole-heartedly