I love you <3
Last chapter:
“No buts Julian. This is it. This is the movie of your career, the movie that will make my firm the most populair in Hollywood. So it’s either the girl, of the end of your career,” Paul zei firmly as he walked towards him, “You have one week to make your decision. These are your plane tickets. I hope to see u of your resignation letter in my office in LA volgende Monday.”
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The volgende evening, Brooke was getting ready for a datum with Julian. She was exceptionally excited about this datum because Julian asked her to dress up saying that he had a surprise for her, and Brooke Davis loved surprises.
“Can u take off that sickeningly bright smile of your face? It makes me want to puke,” Sam zei rolling her eyes as she walked in her foster mother’s room and plopped messily of her neatly made bed.
“Sam I just made that,” Brooke groaned, turning to glare at the smirking teenager.
“See, now that’s the expression I like,” Sam zei approvingly pointing at her scowling face.
“Very funny Sam,” Brooke zei sarcastically, “You’re just jealous.”
“Jealous? Of what? u looking like an idiot? I don’t think so,” Sam zei stubbornly.
“You amuse me Sam, u really do. One minuut you’re all supportive of Julian and me, and the volgende u have a problem with me smiling because I am happy with Julian. u have to make up your mind,” Brooke zei teasingly.
“Oh no, I don’t have any problem with u and Julian. I just have a problem with your chirpy face every morning. I don’t think I have ever seen anyone smile so much,” Sam shot back grinning.
“I know I look like a teenager with a crush, but I can’t help it. Julian makes me really happy, Sam. I haven’t felt like this in, well ever since I graduated high school,” Brooke zei seriously.
“So when are u going to tell him those three life changing words,” Sam asked curiously.
“I’m pregnant is just two words. Well technically it’s three but—”
“I mean when are u going to tell him that you’re in love with him?” Sam asked rolling her eyes, “But I guess the other one would be a good vraag too.”
“I don’t know,” Brooke zei hesitantly, “I am just going to wait for the right time, I guess.”
“When’s the right time going to be? When u give birth to his kid?” Sam asked sarcastically.
“Sam—”
“What I am serious! You’re probably the world’s biggest procrastinator especially when it comes to feelings and stuff,” Sam zei bored, “Look how long it took u to actually agree to datum Julian.”
“That was different okay,” Brooke zei dismissively.
“Well duh. Last time it was about sex. This time it’s about u being pregnant with little Julian. Very different,” Sam zei enjoying pushing Brooke’s buttons.
“Sam must u be so blunt?” Brooke asked shaking her head.
“Hey, I just want to find out if you’re actually going to come out clean to him of if I am going to have to spoon feed him the information. And that might get ugly,” Sam zei innocently.
“Samantha Walker, don’t u dare. You’re not going to tell him anything. Promise me that u won’t a breath a word to him about this pregnancy of my feels,” Brooke zei panicked.
“Only if u promise me that u will actually make an effort to tell him at least one of your big news tonight,” Sam proposed.
“Fine, fine, I’ll try, I promise,” Brooke relented, “But if it turns out to be a disaster then I’m blaming you.”
“Everything’s going to fine Brooke,” Sam assured, and Brooke couldn’t help but believe her.
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10 minuten later while Brooke was putting on her earrings, the doorbell rang indicating Julian’s arrival.
“Sam could u get that,” Brooke shouted.
“Already there,” Sam shouted back as Brooke heard her unlocking the door.
“Hey Samson,” she heard Julian’s voice greet her foster daughter, and just his voice was enough to put a smile on her face. God, she was in too deep for this guy.
“Hey Julian, wassup?” Sam asked as she stepped back to let him in.
“The usual,” Julian answered, closing the door behind him, “Where’s Brooke?”
“She’s getting ready,” Sam answered, “She should be here in a couple of minutes.”
“Ok, cool,” Julian zei nervously, raking his hands through his hair.
“Are u okay, Julian?” Sam asked concerned.
“Yeah, I am fine. Why?” Julian asked trying to put a smile on his face.
“Nothing, u just seem distracted,” Sam noted.
“Oh it’s nothing. Just a little nervous,” Julian lied, trying to laugh it off. Sam obviously didn’t buy it, because seriously Julian has never been nervous before a date, but thankfully she didn’t ask anymore questions.
“Hey,” Brooke greeted cheerfully as she appeared at the top, boven of the stairs.
“Hey,” Julian replied, turning his gaze towards the stairs, and the seconde his eyes met Brooke’s, a real smile appeared on his face. This was the affect Brooke Davis had on him. One look, and he was grinning like an idiot. And the fact that her face lit up every time she saw him, it made him feel like the most accomplished man in this world. God, he was in too deep. But he knew that tonight was the last time her face would light up because of him. He knew that tonight was the last time she would laugh with him, kiss him, last time she would talk to him. After tonight, he would be nothing short of a monster to her. Another addition to the lost lijst of men that had already broken her heart. His hart-, hart broke into a million pieces at that thought, but he knew there was no other choice. He had to end it with her, no matter how much it killed him to do it.
He was brought out of his reverie when he felt Brooke’s small hand caressing his face as she called his name trying to get his attention.
“Huh? What?” Julian asked stupidly.
“Where have u been? I’ve called your name 3 times. I know I look pretty, but I didn’t know I looked good enough to drive u speechless,” Brooke zei teasingly, pulling her hand away from his face.
“I am sorry. I was just thinking,” Julian zei apologetically as he leaned down and placed a soft kiss on her lips.
“It’s okay,” Brooke zei a little breathlessly as they pulled up for air.
“So u ready to go?” Julian asked placing his hand on the small of her back.
“Yeah, let’s go,” Brooke agreed, then turning around she called out, “Sam keep all the door locked, and—”
“Call u if there’s any sort of emergency and absolutely no parties. Yeah I know. u say that before every date, it has kinda sunk in door now,” Sam finished rolling her eyes as she poked her head out of her bedroom, smiling mischievously at her foster mother.
“Well u can’t blame me for being cautious can you?” Brooke asked pouting as Julian laughed.
“I guess not. But have a good time u guys,” Sam zei smiling.
“We will,” Brooke zei confidently as she and Julian made their way out of the door.
As Sam heard the door close shut behind the couple, she released a sigh. She knew there was something off with Julian tonight. She had never seen him act so oddly, and he was never nervous. Wondering what was wrong with him, Sam made her way to the couch, praying with all her might that Julian’s odd behavior was only temporary, because if it was anything other than that, well she didn’t even want to think about the possibility.
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“Wow Julian, I can’t believe u got us reservations to one of the most elite restaurant in boom Hill,” Brooke zei impressed as she walked into boom heuvel biefstuk House, “Don’t u need to make reservations 5 months in advance to get in here of something?”
“Normal people do,” Julian acknowledged as he led her to the reception area.
“Table for 2 under the name Baker,” Julian zei to the manager.
“Right this way, sir,” the manager zei once he had consulted his reservation list.
“So are u saying that we’re not normal people,” Brooke whispered resuming their vorige conversation.
“No, we’re just special,” Julian zei smirking as they approached their table.
“Please take a seat,” the manager zei courteously, “A waiter will be with u shortly.”
“Julian you’re not giving me straight answers, and I don’t appreciate that,” Brooke zei pouting once she had taken her seat.
“Fine, fine. I know one of the managers here. That’s why I was able to get a reservation at such a short period,” Julian admitted.
“Ahh so the truth finally comes out,” Brooke zei grinning, “But I’ve got to say, this is amazing. And they even seated us in a private seating area.”
“Actually I asked them to zitplaats, stoel us in a private area,” Julian zei smiling mischievously.
“Julian, u didn’t need to do that,” Brooke gasped out, “Private seating is so expensive.”
“I wanted this night to be special, Brooke,” Julian zei sincerely.
“Just being with u is special enough Julian. u didn’t need to do all this,” Brooke whispered her face glowing in the soft candle light.
“You look beautiful,” Julian zei softly as he grasped her hand in the middle of the table.
“You look pretty dashing yourself Mr. Baker,” Brooke complimented, loving the feeling of his thumb stroking the soft skin of her hand.
Julian looked tempted to lean over to kiss her, but they were interrupted door the arrival of their waiter.
“Good evening,” the waiter greeted pleasantly, “Do u guys know what u will be ordering this evening?”
“I’ll have prime rib with mashed potatoes and jus with a small helping of salad,” Julian ordered.
“And I’ll just have grilled chicken with salad,” Brooke zei politely.
“Any appetizers of drinks?” the waiter questioned.
“Can we just have a serving of garlic brood sticks?” Julian asked as the waiter jotted down the order, “And I’ll take red wine with the dinner.”
“And u maam?” the waiter asked turning towards Brooke.
“I’ll just have limonade thank you,” Brooke said, avoiding Julian’s questioning gaze.
“Will that be it?” the waiter asked.
“Yes, thank you,” Julian zei nodding to the waiter.
“Was I hallucinating of did u just order lemonade?” Julian asked surprised once the waiter had left.
“What’s so shocking about me ordering lemonade?” Brooke asked defensively.
“Nothing, except for the fact that you’re the biggest wine drinker I know. And from all the first class wines available on the menu, u chose lemonade?” Julian asked quirking his eyebrows.
“Maybe I just didn’t feel like drinking wine today,” Brooke zei dismissively, “That’s not a crime is it.”
“Fine, fine, no need to be so touchy,” Julian zei raising his hand in defeat, “You drink whatever u want to, but if it’s about wanting to save my money, don’t worry about it. I have meer than enough.”
“Trust me Julian, this has nothing to do with saving u money. I promise,” Brooke zei in a tone bordering on finality and Julian knew the topic was over.
As Brooke looked at Julian, she knew this was the perfect time to tell him about the pregnancy, but she didn’t want to ruin the perfect atmosphere. She still didn’t know how he would react to the news, and she didn’t want to take any chances. At least that’s what she kept telling herself.
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“That was absolutely amazing Julian,” Brooke zei sighing contently on their way back.
“I am glad u liked it,” Julian zei sincerely sending her a smile that sent her hart-, hart fluttering.
“You know what would make this night absolutely perfect?” Brooke asked contemplatively.
“No, but I have a feeling that u are going to tell me,” Julian teased.
“A walk at the beach,” Brooke zei dreamily.
“Brooke it’s about 50 degrees outside, you’re wearing a dress and not to mention your 5 inch heels, and u want to go walk on the beach?” Julian asked incredulously.
“I am just saying, doesn’t mean we have to do it,” Brooke zei shrugging.
“Okay,” Julian zei training his eyes back on the road.
However 5 minuten later, he turned onto a road going the complete opposite direction to her house.
“Julian, I don’t know if you’ve forgotten, but my house is on the opposite side,” Brooke zei uncertainly.
“I know,” Julian zei shrugging nonchalantly.
“Then why are we going this way?” Brooke asked incredulously.
“Because we’ve had a sudden change of plans,” Julian zei vaguely.
“Change of plan? Where are we going now?” Brooke asked curiously.
“To the docks,” Julian zei simply, and from the corner of his eyes, he watched as Brooke’s face went from being curious to one radiating excitement.
“To the docks? But what about the cold weather and my 5 inch heels?” Brooke asked mockingly as her eyes glittered in happiness.
“Guess I’ll just have to take a risk,” Julian zei smiling, “Anything to get u your perfect date.”
“Aww aren’t u a sweetheart,” Brooke zei affectionately as she leaned over and gave him a quick peck on the cheek.
“Please don’t use the word sweetheart when you’re describing me. It’s bad for my image,” Julian zei smirking.
“Well then should I call u mathlete? Is that better for your image?” Brooke asked teasingly.
“Touché,” Julian zei grinning, knowing that Brooke had won that argument.
“Plus, I am your girlfriend. I can call u whatever I want and u can’t complain about it,” Brooke zei smugly.
“I guess, but only because you’re so cute,” Julian replied grinning as he parked the car in the empty parking lot volgende to the docks.
“Shall we my lady?” Julian asked putting up a British accent as he opened the passenger side’s door to help Brooke out.
“We shall kind sir,” Brooke zei placing her hand in his outstretched one, her eyes twinkling with mirth.
“You sure you’re going to be fine in the heels?” Julian asked caringly.
“I’ll be fine. And anyways, I have u to lean on don’t I?” Brooke asked seriously, her eyes finding his as he found it hard to look away from her intense gaze.
“I’m here,” Julian promised, his insides filling up with guilt and pain as he realized that this was probably his last happy uur with Brooke.
“Good,” Brooke zei as she leaned up and softly placed her lips against his as he instinctively pulled her closer to his body.
“You’re amazing, u know that right?” Julian asked softly once they had come up for air.
“So I’ve heard. But it means the most when u say it,” Brooke zei gently stroking his face, and Julian almost lost it right there. He knew he was leading her on, he knew that he was about to hurt her. He knew that he should have ended this when he first walked into her door. But he hadn’t listened to the rational side of his brain. And as a result, after tonight, it would be much harder for the both of them to let go.
“Hey what happened? u dozed off again,” Brooke zei concerned as Julian came back to reality.
“I was just thinking how beautiful u look today. And how u deserve so much better than me,” Julian zei honestly as they started walking along the shore.
“You’re good enough Julian. You’re meer than good enough for me. And it’s about time u realize that,” Brooke zei seriously as she laid her head on his shoulder, his arm supporting both of their weights.
“You know in the book, when Lucas described u as the girl who would change the world someday, I didn’t know what to make out of it. But now I understand what he meant door that. u have changed my world Brooke Davis,” Julian admitted softly looking down at his girlfriend’s smiling face on his shoulder.
“You changed my life too Julian Baker. Before you, I had gegeven up hope of being happy again, and then u happened and my life took a whole new turn. u gave me something to look vooruit, voorwaarts to Julian. u gave me my life back and that makes u the most important person in my life right now. Well first Sam and then you, but u know what I mean,” Brooke zei smiling as Julian laughed.
“I think I am okay with taking seconde place to Sam. Had it been anyone other than her, I wouldn’t have been so accommodating, but Sam’s okay,” Julian zei giving Brooke his infamous grin as he pulled her closer to him.
“Those words and that grin combined together just make me lo—like u even more,” Brooke zei catching herself just in time.
Julian nearly felt his hart-, hart stop at her words. Even though the transition had been fast, he had caught her stumble, and as he looked at the woman volgende to him, he couldn’t help but think, was she about to say that she loved him?
“Are u cold?” Julian asked as she felt Brooke shudder against his chest.
“A little,” Brooke zei sheepishly.
“Here take this,” Julian zei immediately taking off his jas as carefully draping it around her shoulder.
“What about you? Aren’t u going to be cold?” Brooke asked half heartedly, loving the warmth Julian’s jas was providing her cold body.
“Nah, I’ll be fine. I’ve got u to warm me up don’t I?” Julian asked grinning as he once again draped his arms around Brooke’s waist pulling her as close to his body as possible.
But before he could take another step forward, Brooke suddenly turned him towards her, and Julian acting on instinct, leaned down and quickly placed his lips tenderly on hers. It didn’t take her long to respond, and very soon they were both fully making out in the middle of the strand completely lost into each other and their feelings.
“Wow that was amazing,” Brooke gasped out as Julian finally released her.
“Does that surprise you?” Julian asked his breathing slightly uneven.
“No, not really,” Brooke admitted as she brought his face down to meet hers for yet another breathtaking kiss.
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After ½ an uur of an intense make out session, Brooke and Julian finally decided to return home.
As Brooke unlocked the front door, she couldn’t keep a grin from appearing on her face as she remembered the past 30 minutes.
“You want to come in?” Brooke asked as she stepped in her foyer.
“Yeah sure,” Julian zei hesitantly. He knew that this was it. He was going to come clean to her right now. This was probably the last time he would see her smiling like that towards him. That thought was enough to break his hart-, hart into two.
“Brooke,” Julian called out as he grasped her wrist and turned her towards him.
“Yeah,” Brooke asked pressed tightly against his chest.
“I-I want—oh fuck this—” Julian growled out as he crashed his mouth against her surprised one. He knew he was acting like a coward, trying to prolong the moment for as long as he could. But he had to kiss her one last time, kiss her with so much intensity and power that it would forever be embedded in his memory, because he knew that he would never feel for another woman what he felt for Brooke.
“I love you,” Brooke breathed out once he had pulled away. Her eyes were closed and her lips swollen, and for a seconde Julian thought he was hallucinating.
“What?” Julian gasped out.
“I love you,” Brooke zei louder as she opened her eyes to stare into his stunned ones, “I love you.”
“No, Brooke, u can’t,” Julian zei panicked. This wasn’t happening. This couldn’t be happening. She couldn’t tell him that she loved him a minuut before he was about to break up with her.
“Why can’t I, Julian?” Brooke asked confused, “I know that this might come as a shock to you, and I don’t expect u to say it back, but I do love you.”
“Don’t say that Brooke. Don’t say that,” Julian zei harshly.
“Why are u acting like this Julian? What’s so horrible about me loving you?” Brooke asked hurt.
“It’s horrible because you’re going to be biting back your words in about one minute,” Julian zei frantically.
“What?” Brooke asked even meer confused now, “Why would I be biting back my words. It had taken me long enough to get the courage to tell u this, I don’t think I’ll be biting it back.”
“You will. Once u hear what I’ve got to say, u will be,” Julian zei sadly, his eyes filled with so much pain and misery that Brooke felt her hart-, hart clench in her chest. Something was very wrong.
“Julian what are u talking about? The only situation I would be taking my words back would be if you—Oh my god, you’re breaking up with me!” Brooke gasped out as realization dawned on her face.
“Brooke I—”
“You’re breaking up with me? You’re breaking up with me?” Brooke asked stunned. How had they gone from ending their perfect datum to him breaking up with her?
“I am leaving,” Julian admitted softly.
“What do u mean you’re leaving?” Brooke asked trying to make some sense of the situation.
“I am going back to LA,” Julian clarified.
“What? u can’t do that. What about Luke’s movie?” Brooke asked angrily.
“The movie’s been cancelled Brooke. The director quit, and there’s no way we’d make the deadline with a new one. So the movie’s off. And I’ve got an amazing offer to produce the film adaptation of Gossip Girl in Hollywood--”
“And u chose Gossip Girl,” Brooke finished for him, “When are u leaving?”
“6 days,” Julian zei quietly.
“So tonight, it was all a hoax? u were leading me on the whole time?” Brooke asked incredulously.
“Brooke I would never—”
“But u did, Julian. u knew u were going to be leaving the whole time, and yet u didn’t say a word to me. I can’t believe u of all people would do that to me. And to think that I actually thought that u were the one for me,” Brooke zei disgustedly as tears started falling from her eyes.
“Brooke, I am so sorry,” Julian zei softly.
“And to think that I told u I loved you? How stupid am I? After everything that had happened to me, I can’t believe I actually believed that maybe for once everything would be okay. Well I guess your job’s done. u made Brooke Davis fall in love and ended up breaking her hart-, hart worse than any other man had done before. u should be proud of yourself, because seriously this is a new low for me,” Brooke choked out as tears blurred her vision.
“I didn’t mean to hurt u Brooke,” Julian zei sadly knowing that he had done the one thing he had promised never to do. He had made Brooke Davis a broken woman again.
“You know what the sad part is Julian? The fact that my perfect datum was nothing but a bunch of lies. I—”
“Tonight was not a lie Brooke. I meant everything I zei to you. Tonight was not a lie,” Julian zei desperately.
“But it seems like it. I can’t believe anything you’ve ever told me. I can’t believe I gave my hart-, hart to someone who didn’t even like me enough to be honest with me,” Brooke zei bitterly.
“I know I should have told u in the beginning Brooke—”
“Then why didn’t you? Huh? Why didn’t u end it before taking me on that datum that just made me fall deeper for you? Why Julian? Was this your idea of some sick joke?” Brooke asked hysterically.
“I never wanted to hurt u Brooke. Trust me that was the last thing I wanted,” Julian whispered, not knowing how to answer the rest of her vragen when he still wasn’t sure why he hadn’t told her the truth in the very beginning.
“Just leave Julian,” Brooke zei tearfully.
“Brooke—”
“Just leave dammit. Get out of my house and my life. I don’t want to see your face again,” Brooke shouted her mind numb door the shock and pain of everything that had happened in the past 10 minutes.
And Julian knew that this was it. Their relationship was now officially over. Lowering his head in defeat, he just nodded quietly and turning on his heels, he walked out of the door and out of Brooke’s life.
When Brooke heard the door shut behind him, she let go off the divan, bank as her knees buckled beneath her and she fell to the floor tears falling like waterfalls from her eyes. Julian was gone, and as her hands found her flat abdomen, she realized bitterly that he wasn’t just gone for her life. He was gone from their life.
