I look back on all those memories,
and wonder, what did this all mean to me?
i new there where feelings,
i loved you!
i loved you!
i cant deny that i didn't,
but now i think back and once again wonder,
what is it that i fell for,
your controlling,
your exhausting,
i cant trust you,
i cant be around my own friends,
guys of girls,
u just don't let,
Ive finally come to realize,
that none of this is my fault,
it wasn't me who tore the hearts,
it was you,
your ripped,
u tore,
u broke,
u yelled,
and u screamed,
u caused me all of this misery,
u brought these scars upon my wrists,
and u punched the hole in my heart,
i blamed myself,
out of my own stupidity,
i hate you!
i hate you!
this is what u did to me!
take a look at that picture!
and look at it closely!
fucking look at it!
i carved my love for you,
i carved it into my arm,
so that everyone can see,
that these are the things u did to me,
don't listen to his bullshit,
as its waste of time,
don't waste your life in love,
cause all it does is tear u apart,
love is just an excuse to die,
because once u play the cards of love,
your hart-, hart breaks and turns stone cold,
then you'll end up walkin' the death road,
i dug my grave,
so i'll fucking die in it,
thankyou verry much,
cause this is what youve done,
so here i go,
never to be seen again,
fuck you,
i really hate you,
these are my last words,
I LOVED YOU
and wonder, what did this all mean to me?
i new there where feelings,
i loved you!
i loved you!
i cant deny that i didn't,
but now i think back and once again wonder,
what is it that i fell for,
your controlling,
your exhausting,
i cant trust you,
i cant be around my own friends,
guys of girls,
u just don't let,
Ive finally come to realize,
that none of this is my fault,
it wasn't me who tore the hearts,
it was you,
your ripped,
u tore,
u broke,
u yelled,
and u screamed,
u caused me all of this misery,
u brought these scars upon my wrists,
and u punched the hole in my heart,
i blamed myself,
out of my own stupidity,
i hate you!
i hate you!
this is what u did to me!
take a look at that picture!
and look at it closely!
fucking look at it!
i carved my love for you,
i carved it into my arm,
so that everyone can see,
that these are the things u did to me,
don't listen to his bullshit,
as its waste of time,
don't waste your life in love,
cause all it does is tear u apart,
love is just an excuse to die,
because once u play the cards of love,
your hart-, hart breaks and turns stone cold,
then you'll end up walkin' the death road,
i dug my grave,
so i'll fucking die in it,
thankyou verry much,
cause this is what youve done,
so here i go,
never to be seen again,
fuck you,
i really hate you,
these are my last words,
I LOVED YOU
P1 - I swear i stil do
Is this the way we are going to end?
I still remember those days when we held each others hands.
And let out our feelings.
Those days when we never had a fight,
Those great nights we spent just looking at the stars.
How can we just leave like this?
How can we not believe one another?
Because everything I zei was true.
And when I zei I love you, I swear I still do.
P2 - Catch me
I thought u would be there through the times that I needed u the most.
I thought u would be there to help me
When your love was needed the most,
But I guess I was wrong.
I guess I was just so blind to see that I’ve never fallen so hard thinking u would be there catch me.
Is this the way we are going to end?
I still remember those days when we held each others hands.
And let out our feelings.
Those days when we never had a fight,
Those great nights we spent just looking at the stars.
How can we just leave like this?
How can we not believe one another?
Because everything I zei was true.
And when I zei I love you, I swear I still do.
P2 - Catch me
I thought u would be there through the times that I needed u the most.
I thought u would be there to help me
When your love was needed the most,
But I guess I was wrong.
I guess I was just so blind to see that I’ve never fallen so hard thinking u would be there catch me.
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Dream Of My Love So Far
Through my dreams,
I see you,
And me,
Kissing and holding hands forever.
On this roller coaster
i'm so scared
but your right there
holding my hand so safely
But they don't agree
This love is out of hand they say
I am taken away
And our connection is broken
But meer dreams to come
Say you're okay
But I wish always
To see u someday
Butterflies
The gracefull butterfly,
Flies so very high,
Her beautiful winds flapping in a rythmic beat.
Sometimes I wish,
That I could fly so gracefully,
And to leave my fears down on Earth.
To Forget all my troubles,
To let go of all grief,
To be as free as a butterfly.
My feet would list,
My head held up high,
Soon I would be in the sky.
To fly like the butterflies,
Is all I ask for.
Freedom at last.
Dream Of My Love So Far
Through my dreams,
I see you,
And me,
Kissing and holding hands forever.
On this roller coaster
i'm so scared
but your right there
holding my hand so safely
But they don't agree
This love is out of hand they say
I am taken away
And our connection is broken
But meer dreams to come
Say you're okay
But I wish always
To see u someday
Butterflies
The gracefull butterfly,
Flies so very high,
Her beautiful winds flapping in a rythmic beat.
Sometimes I wish,
That I could fly so gracefully,
And to leave my fears down on Earth.
To Forget all my troubles,
To let go of all grief,
To be as free as a butterfly.
My feet would list,
My head held up high,
Soon I would be in the sky.
To fly like the butterflies,
Is all I ask for.
Freedom at last.
I wrote this listening to Gollum's Song, sung door Karliene Renolds. I don't know why, I just felt like doing this.
It's so dark. I can't see. I have no one.
No one cares enough to try.
I'm sobbing now, along with the storm overhead. They lied. they zei they cared. I can't go back.
I can feel it coming. No vrienden tried to find me.
Goodbye.
They didn't try for me.
Don't cry for me. you're too late. u hurt me. u blamed me everything. I can never go home.
I am lost. I will never go home.
It's so dark. I can't see. I have no one.
No one cares enough to try.
I'm sobbing now, along with the storm overhead. They lied. they zei they cared. I can't go back.
I can feel it coming. No vrienden tried to find me.
Goodbye.
They didn't try for me.
Don't cry for me. you're too late. u hurt me. u blamed me everything. I can never go home.
I am lost. I will never go home.
I don’t think I could ever love someone like I loved you
u are my first and last love
u go I go
u stay I stay
And u might think that’s weird but that’s the way it goes
That’s the way love is
And no matter how hard we try to let go
u will always find your self coming back.
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Let’s go on a first date
Where it’s cold in the night
So u can hold me close in your arms really tight.
Let’s wait for the train.
And if it starts to rains u can be my shelter.
I will tell u my feelings and u will tell me yours.
We can laugh and kiss and imagine always being like this.
And when the train comes
u can take me home
I will let u hold my hand until we arrive to my doorstep.
Were we will say our goodbyes?
And with a touch u give me
I will be satisfied.
u are my first and last love
u go I go
u stay I stay
And u might think that’s weird but that’s the way it goes
That’s the way love is
And no matter how hard we try to let go
u will always find your self coming back.
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Let’s go on a first date
Where it’s cold in the night
So u can hold me close in your arms really tight.
Let’s wait for the train.
And if it starts to rains u can be my shelter.
I will tell u my feelings and u will tell me yours.
We can laugh and kiss and imagine always being like this.
And when the train comes
u can take me home
I will let u hold my hand until we arrive to my doorstep.
Were we will say our goodbyes?
And with a touch u give me
I will be satisfied.
pain fills my hart-, hart and brings me to the darkside where I reside for awhile. Until I'm grabbed door the hand and pulled out door a so-called friend who just pushes me back in and leaves me to cry in the darkest corner of my heart. I feel like I'm being ripped apart, limb door limb, every string of my hart-, hart played door the devil's hand. I feel like I'm not whole, like I'm nothing without him. The one one who killed his best friend, the one who left me alone, I didn't know how to swim. All I want is him to come back and hurt me again. He was my only friend, of so I thought, but when he slapped me across my face, that's emotion u can't replace and I faced it everyday of so for a jaar and a half. Don't try to sympathize because I know with my hart-, hart and soul that u will leave and let me go with crappy bittersweet goodbyes...