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When I blink my eyes open, I'm curled in the baai, bay window, Anneri Sleeping on my chest. When I wake she stirs and blinks her eyes. "Darka! Finally your awake, it's already noon!" Noo, mom will be gone to work for a pocket of change and Dad'll be out drinking it away. Anneri climbs over me and I sit up warily. She reaches into her pocket and pulls out a deck of cards. I laugh softly, Anneri was a wiz at cards mostly, poker. She smiles and opens the deck pulling out a peice of paperwork it and unfolds it. "Well Darka u better get playing cuz after yesterday's terrible failure it's Anneri 35 and Darka 24," she raised her eyebrow and I jumped onto the floor. "Okay deal me in then!" For hours we play away at poker and laugh at how badly I fail. Anneri's eyes smile as we play on and when the score is 26 to 45 she smirks.
"Well Darka I'll tell u one thing u get better everyday!" i smile
"Hey! And grab her around the waist tickling her until she laughs so hard her eyes start to water. And we both sit there laughing. For a moment everything is perfect. Then that moment ends as the slam of the door makes up go silent. Then boots start to walk down the hall. I remember my mom's voice remember Darka, if he knocks meer then three things down, he'll be violent, meer then six and he won't remember anything, he'll be inhumane, and you'll need to hide, I count as he walks down the hall, bureau falls over, one, a glass breaks, two, something snaps, three, then another glass falls, four.
"Anneri stay here." I get up to walk out but Anneri grabs my arm
"No Darka don't leave me here!" her eyes water up with tears and I put my hand on her cheek.
"Hey, I'll be alright, that was only four, it wont be much worse then usual." and before she can reply I kiss her forehead walk out the door and pull out the key. The closet door clicks locked just as the bedroom door opens and dad stumbles in...

I was wrong. It was way worse then usual. Anneri dabs my arm with a cloth and I clench my teeth. Dad had smashed a bier glass on the uithangbord and when he smashed it against my arm shards of glass penetrated the skin and blood soaked the floor. Anneri silently let's the tears roll down her face as she picks the last shard of glass out. Dad passes out from the bier and curls up in the corner of the room. I hate him. Not for beating me. For beating my mom. For making Anneri cry. For drinking away all our money as the light blacks out since we can't pay our electric bills. Hate. Hate, the one thing that makes me keep a gun hidden in the closet. Hate, the thing that makes your blood boil. Hate, the one thing that would make u kill. Hate, the only thing that could ever drown love...
posted by malmcd
I smile, after being beaten senslessly door people I once loved.
I smile, when I'm locked outside in the rain for hours
I smile, when my boyfriend lies to me
I smile, as people laugh at me for being different
I smile, when my parents fight
I smile, when I'm called broken
I smile, when I cry
I smile, as people call me names even satan wouldn't dare to say
I smile, as my world crashes down on me
I smile, to hide the sharp pain biting my soul
I smile, for YOU.

Do u know what this means?
Do u know how it fells?
Who are u to to say these things?
For u don't know there story of life,
u know nothing.
u know no pain,
For u are pain.
u know no hurt.
For u are hurt.
And who are u to say I am no one?
Because I am.
I am me
And nothing can change that...


Fierce & Love
Poem Girl
posted by SongGirl50701
 What Is To Come
What Is To Come
The People

Chapter One- Anna

"Daddy, didn't u say that Alice was a big dreamer?"
"Yes," the man nodded, "she crossed over the border line of dreams in fact. That's how much she loved dreaming."
"So she broke the rules?"
"Well I wouldn't say broke the rules," he smiled at his daughter as he tucked her in, "she just bent the rules."
"Am I able to do that daddy?"
"Why would u want to do that, Anna?"
"Well, Daddy, I have my own world! It's really pretty and I was thinking that maybe I could visit it. Like Alice did, in real life too."
"Anna," he moved a tangle of her hair back from her face,...
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posted by malmcd
Ana (Anorexia)

I hate u because you're taking over me,
but I love u 'cause you're making me the girl I want to be.
Why do I love u when all u do is put me down?
Making me starve 'till I fit into the smallest gown.
With the loss of each pound I'm closer to my goal,
with your help I will make this broken girl whole.
Filled with fear at every bite I take,
my plan will be ruined with just a bite of that cake.
Counting calories and fearing how much I weigh,
I am beginning to learn that u are here to stay.
My reflection has become something I fear,
I dread the time when I will look into that mirror....
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posted by LightSoul99
Life is important and it is precious
Without life, all there would be is a giant wolk of evil and darkness
There will be no universe and no earth
We wouldn't be here today, if not without God and life's worth

Life is but a fragile type of being
It's not one we must take lightly for we are temporary living
Life is too short to experience such negativities we shed
Don't waste your time on people who don't accept u from your toes up to your head
God will place hot coals upon them until they realize their mistake

Life is one long, big road with signs
It takes u to places unexpected, far and wide
Brings...
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A/N: This is a whole different story and so far, this is my fourth story but I haven't been able to finish my other ones. I may need help with them... :) Anyway, enjoy this chapter and please commentaar on it!
I'd like to hear your voices in what u think of the chapter! :)
Take Care & God Bless,
Anniewannie/Florannie

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posted by BooBooBear981
Within the furthest reaches of the hart-, hart lies those desires whose name one dares no speak. So seductive, so intoxicating, so indulgent, our most private passions burn at the molten core of our being, luring us to the very highest of ecstasy to the depths of despair. Through the ages, the words impassioned lovers have transformed a virginal sheet of paper into a sanctuary for a restless heart. Each of the pages in this journal awaits the expression of your own desires- Unedited, Undiluted, Uninhibited.... Abandon yourself....

~IF u DARE~
Chapter 15- The Cold Heart

    Each girl took a deep breath, trying to muster up the strength to go.
    “Zoomix!” Yelled Bloom as her the girls were transported into Lownieate.
    “Sun Shield!” Yelled Stella as a massive amount of pressure was pushed on to her making her weak.
    “Ok girls u are half way there keep going!” Yelled Tecna from the translator.
    “Zoomix!” Yelled Bloom once again transported them into the center of Lownieate.
    “Sun Shi!”...
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posted by wolfcat343
Trace my face while it's a happy face
When my smile fades I wanna remember this day
Passion killed door the comfort of time
I'm sorry if this makes u cry, but I have to speak my mind

Suck the colours from my eyes
When they lose their sparkle and forget to shine
Remember all the times u turned me down
I'm sorry if this hurts your hart-, hart but where's the spark, from the start?

Don't stop, don't stop
Nothing lasts forever soon all will be over
So let's laugh, talk, tickle and turn till the stars fall down
The stars fall down

Embrace my reflection for a little while
For if I am to love I must try love myself...
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posted by anniewannie
_______________HEAVEN AND HELL_______________

I feel like there’s a monster inside my mind, clawing its sharp, black fingers at me and making me think that nothing will ever be the same again.
The voices are calling out to me – their voices screaming, like wolves howling when’s it’s a full moon, at me: “Give it a shot Annie!” “Your so-called vrienden at school don’t care about u anymore!” “Don’t u want to feel that blood trickle down from your cuts?!” “What are u waiting for?” I try not to listen door covering my ears of hiding under my blanket to keep those voices...
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posted by malmcd
159 Brixton, England


    The third bang and cry made Viva's hart-, hart stop and she waited and look back at the reflection in the mirror stairing back. Her body had taken so much abuse over the years, she always had bruise on her every where and cuts and scars apond her wrist. She was very skinny for her age of 13 and her hair was thin and up to her shoulders and different lengths. She turned to her side and looked into the mirror and started thinking, "Am I skinny enough? Am I fat? Am I good enough...or just useless like he says to me over and over again?" Then there was another...
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posted by malmcd
Dark writing....

Dark shadows sneak under the door
As I keep writing these dark lyrics more
Of a nature that's not evil of unkind
Rather of disturbing thoughts in my mind.

They say for everything bad it's found
Something good it has to come around
The weather wouldn't be pleasant if wasn't for the rain
These feelings wouldn't exist if it wasn't for the pain.

I'm doing a storm in a cup of water to prepare
Meanwhile around people don't even care
I pray for my life to not end before these stanzas
But mindlessly I write and write looking for the answers.

My cold dark poems are everywhere
Floating around in the...
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The Lost Roleplay ^^

*I am Izzy Ray. Im scared. All the time. Today is my seventh birthday. Somthing u might need to know about me is, well, I've never been loved. Exept for my two best friends, Adreanna and Simon. If that counts as love. And to me it does. When I was six I was diagnosed with Paranepaloinia, wich translated from Native language means 'The Skeleton Disease'. The disease was fatal and I was estimated 3 days to live. Have u ever been told how long u have to live? It hurts. And it makes u think. Alot. With Simon and Adreanna at my bedside I fought the Paranepaloinia until...
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Previously:
Such maddness was inthe cell I was thrown into. It was s much, it made me tremble in fear. My head throbed on how much I was thinking. So much in fact, I passed out..but the sounds were still in my head. Everything was still going on even when I woke up.
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The voices were still aching within my head..but for some reason...even loudler. It was a good thing that the guards came to get me just before I went mad...I was begining to lose myself. The minuut the light shined upon my face, the voices ceased...and I felt a heavy...
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