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Winter vacation is finally over and u guys all go back to school...

Shawn: hallo Taylor. u think we can talk?
Randy: Uh sure.

Shawn and Randy go to the back of the school and they just stand there...

Shawn: Ok. I wanna be truthful and I wanna be as simple as possible too. u should let go of Jamie.
Randy: ...*kinda laughs* What?
Shawn: u should let go of Jamie. I mean u haven't even broke it with Lauren.
Randy: Oh...I totally forgot about her.
Shawn: See. Your just playing them.
Randy: Shawn, buddy, I know u like Jamie a lot but she's mine. I like her and she likes me. Lauren is just...unrequited...

**next day**

You wake up and u see Randy sitting door your side.

Jamie: *smile* Randy.
Randy: *smile* hallo Jamie. I heard about what happened. Sorry I couldn't get here faster.
Jamie: It's ok...isn't there school?
Randy: Winter vacation remember?
Jamie: Oh right...*smiles*
Randy: Guess what?
Jamie: What?
Randy: The doctor zei u could leave today.
Jamie: *smile*
Randy: And guess what else?
Jamie: What?
Randy: It's snowing! So I brought u a hat, scarf, and gloves to wear. Oh yah and also a jacket.

Randy takes them all out of a bag and puts it on an extra chair.

Jamie: *smile* Thanks Randy.

You sit up and...

Is my love really that bad? Everyone is happy when they're in love, but I'm here crying. Why am I hurting so much? I would leave anything for this love to happen...

You and Lauren head to the back of the school and she gives u a dirty look. u get a bad feeling and she pushes u and says:

Lauren: Are u a f**ing whore?!
Jamie: ...
Lauren: First u like him, then u break up with him, and now you're with him again?! Are u trying to play him?!
Jamie: ...
Lauren: Are you?!
Jamie: The only reason I left him was because of you. u zei u were suicidal...
Lauren: Randy Taylor is mine! Got it?!...

Even though u might never be door my side again, I will never forget you. u won't understand how happy I was with you. When those memories come door me, I will be thankful.

Randy: I want to Jamie really...but I can't let you. I don't wanna get hurt door u again.
Jamie: ...
Randy: And besides...what about Shawn? And what about Lauren? u always cared for them meer than u did for me of for you.
Jamie: ...
Randy: I'm sorry Jamie...
Jamie: Then at least drop me off at my house. That's the least u could do...right?
Randy: Of course.

You grab Angie and u sit in the back zitplaats, stoel of Randy's car with Angie...

I'll try to forget you, even though it won't work. All the love, the memories, I'll try to pretend it never happened...just for the sake of us.

Jamie: Hello? Sullivan residence.
Doctor: Oh hello. Jamie?
Jamie: Yes.
Doctor: This is Dr.Brown.
Jamie: Oh hello.
Doctor: Yes. I just wanted to call to remind u for your monthly check ups. It's tomorrow.
Jamie: Ohh right. Yes thank u for reminding me. I'll be there right after school.
Doctor: Ok. I'll see u then.
Jamie: Ok. Goodbye.

**next day**

You skip basketbal practice today and Randy drives u to the hospital. He waits for u outside the doctor's...

Chapter 18: So Tired

{Jill's POV}

We brought Randy home. He requested to die at home pagina rather than in the hospital, and Tim and I decided we could not deny him this last request. When the chemo was not working, we tried a few other options, but nothing worked out. Slowly it had spread to his lungs. All we could do now is make him comfortable. I try to be strong during the day, toon him, we love him until the end. He's become painfully thin, his hair has all fallen out, and he sleeps most of the day, tiring out so easily. The end is close, I think we can all feel it. He's laying on the couch, watching...

Chapter 5: Doctor appointment

~Dream~

8 years old Jamie Sullivan was in the garden with her ill mother Elizabeth. Elizabeth's silky blonde hair was blowing into the wind. Jamie was admiring
things about her mother. Elizabeth was putting her hair in a ponytail.

"Momma I don't want u to go" zei Jamie

" I don't want to go too, u make me very happy" zei Elizabeth crying.

"I got a song that'll help u feel better, I'll tell u after piano lesson"

"You're the best mom ever" zei Jamie

~End of dream~

Jamie was awake, but the sound of birds. Jamie moved on the other side of the bed and she looked like...

u zei u needed me...then why don't u want me?

The past few days, you've been feeling much better with Randy. u feel like u have meer energy and u actually sometimes don't even think about your leukemia at all! u kinda have a feeling that it's cuz Randy is too sweet to you. He always makes u smile, laugh, and he always gives u a warm fuzzy feeling in the deep gut of your feelings. The past few Sundays, you've also been going to church with Angie, Randy, and his family. u sing for the choir all the time and after services, u two always go to the lake and hang out there......

Chapter 6: Not Talking

{Brad's POV}

Randy won't really talk to us. He wouldn't talk when he got home, he didn't talk when Mark and I went into his room before dinner, he didn't talk during dinner, and he's not talking to me now. I'm sitting on his computer chair and he's sprawled out on his bed, he's staring at the ceiling, and he looks to be very deep in thought. I'm not sure what I can say, of why I came down here again. I guess I just wanted to be there just in case he felt like talking, which seemed highly unlikely.

"Why don't u just ask me." His voice in the silence startled me.

"What?"

"You...

Chapter 5: Just Broke Down

{Jill's POV}

He's crying and I can't do anything but hold him. He's my little boy, and there's not thing I can do for him. I can feel his frame shake under my arms as he cries. I always though Randy was meer like me than Tim. I mean, he's not interested in tools like Brad and Mark, of the hotrod. He's a middle child just like me. I can't believe this is happening. He's quieted and I feel him sniffle against me.

"It's all right honey." I murmur as he pulls away.

"Sorry mom." He says turning away from me.

"Don't apologize." I reply watching him wipe his hand across his eyes....

Chapter 4: Thought I Was A Good Person

{Randy's POV}

I always thought I was a relativly good person. I mean, I don't drink ,or smoke, of do drugs. I won't even eat meat. I was wrong though. Everything I did to Mark, bad. Anything mean of rude thing I zei to anyone, another strike. This must be my pay back. I try and concentrate on the fact that its probably just on my thyroid and it hasn't spread. But I did some research earlier and this type of cancer spreads quickly. What if it spread? Mark's vraag rang in my ears. I don't want to think about this, but no matter what I try, I can't think...

It's so hard to say how a love could end this way...the one that used to care for u just turns and walks away. It's so hard to find to leave the pain behind but I'll be the air that u breathe, I'll be the strength that u need. And I promise that I'll be door your side...always...

Shawn: Jamie? Taylor?
Jamie: ...you can go home pagina Randy.

You take all your stuff but Randy doesn't leave.

Jamie: u can go Randy...please go.

Randy gives Shawn one look and leaves. Randy doesn't really leave and he hides behind a uithangbord to see if you'll be ok, not to eavesdrop.

Shawn: What the hell do u think u were...

Chapter 16: Don't Deserve This

{Tim's POV}

It's hard for a parent to accept their child is growing up. I try and come to terms with it, as my boys get older. However, now, watching Randy sleeping like he is, he looks so much like the little boy he once was. I brush some of his hair off his face, and he doesn't verplaats at all. His breathing is deep and labored, but his eyes twitch slightly under their closed lids. I had gone home pagina with the boys and found a message on the machine from Jill that zei I needed to come right to the hospital. I study the IV that enters his hand and flinch at the slight...

**next day: 6pm**

You go to church with your grandma and she forces u to be in the choir. u practice for tomorrow's praise and after practicing for a few hours, u see Randy come in to see you. He smiles and after your practice is over, u and Randy hang out together while your grandma takes Angie back home.

Jamie: Grandma this is Randy Taylor.
Grandma: Ah so you're Randy. My granddaughters talk about u a lot. Mostly the little one here.
Randy: *laughs* Angie?
Grandma: I think she likes ya. *laughs* Well take care of Jamie for me.
Randy: Goodbye Mrs.Sullivan.

Randy sees your grandma take Angie...

Chapter 19: Cry

{Mark's POV}

Randy never woke up. He died on our divan, bank at 7:30 pm while we were having dinner. Trying to arrange a funeral, I never knew so much was involved. Wilson and Al have been really helpful to us. I'm grateful, we could use all the help we can get. Since we're all reacting to his death in our own way, it makes organizing difficult. Mom, she cries a lot. Anything could set her off. A photo, a word, even the sight of smell of something could make her burst into tears. Dad's turned into mister serious. Its weird to see Mr. Jokester not joking around. He's serious all the...

Chapter 13: the Easy Lie

{Brad's POV}

The effects of the chemo had become painfully obvious. Randy didn't seem to react badly at first, but as time went on, and as the doctors continued to up the dosage, the effects were becoming meer and meer clear. It also became clear Randy tried harder and harder to hide them. He and I are the only ones home pagina today, Mom took Mark shopping and Dad is at the hardware store. Randy lay crumpled against the side of the couch, and I sit on the other end.

"I can verplaats to the chair if you'd like to spread out."

"No, I'm good." We've fallen into a companionable silence...

Chapter 9: Suffocate

{Mark's POV}

Its weird for me to have to sit at home pagina and wait. When Randy announced he didn't want us all to go and wait at the hospital, I was hurt. Then I got angry, and then after that, I suppose I got to rational. I wouldn't want my entire family anxiously pacing around the hospital waiting room either. He told Brad when he protested that he felt bad enough for having to put us all through this anyway. His argument was weak and he knew it, but once mom saw he meant it, she told us that she and dad would go down there with him and call us when they knew something. Randy...

Chapter 7: Someone Smart, Someone Like Wilson

{Tim's POV}

I needed to talk to someone, someone smart. I need to talk to Wilson. Slipping outside I think I can see him through the fence, but I'm not sure.

"Hey Wilson?"

"Hidey-Ho good neighbor."

"What are u doing?"

"I'm just studying the stars." I look up at the night sky.

"Can I talk to you?"

"Of course good neighbor." He stands and turns to me. Good old reliable Wilson.

"It spread." I don't have to say anything else, Wilson already knows and he's now peering at me over the fence.

"I'm so sorry to hear that Tim." I nod mutely, taking a minuut to try...

Chapter 2: Waiting

{Brad's POV}

I wouldn't be able to tell u what went on in school today. All dag all I could think of was Randy. He's my little brother, I'm suppose to look out for him. I can't shake the feeling that something bad is going to happen. Despite mom's reassurances that he'll be fine, I somehow feel its gonna get worse before it gets better. I've taken to pacing now, not really sure what else I could be doing. The phone rings and I meer of less make a dive for it.

"Hello?! No........we're happy with our long distance." I hang up feeling a mix of emotions. I can see Wilson outside...

People always breaking up, falling in and out of love...I just want to let u know that I will never let u go for the rest of my life.

Jamie: I...I've thought about this for a while...
Randy: ...?...
Jamie: I like u too.
Randy: ...you...you like me too?
Jamie: *nods*
Randy: ...*smiles* Wow...*laughs*

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It's now November and u and Randy have a good start to your relationship. The whole school knows about u and Randy cuz of the play. Both of u take it slow and steady cuz that's how u want it. u guys just hold hands, give small kisses on the cheek (never on the lips), and u two link...