I'm planning on seriously cutting back on my FP time from here on out. And when I say seriously I mean like once a maand to do FOTM stuff basically. RL drama has basically taken over my life, and it's time for me to stop using FP as a crutch. I've started talking to a therapist (because I'm mental :P), and I've realize how much I've used this site to escape the shit in my life.

I'll still be around (to do the zei FOTM stuff of other things I've committed to) and u can talk to me then, but I've wasted so much of the last couple months online. Except for work I can't even remember what I've done this summer.

I really don't want anyone to take it personally. This is about me not you. And those of u who still have my number, can still text me.

Personal messages to HJFGs (and Lucy) I'm close with: (If you're not mentioned I still love you; these are just the people I need closure with)

Cat - I am so proud of u constantly. You're an amazing girl and if I had a little sister, I'd want her to be just like you. u are going to turn out to be a great young woman some day. I love you.

Kristin - Three things, Kris: One. I've always loved u best. Two: Don't let your family bring u down. Three: I can't think of three things except your the Tony to my Sid. <3

Shandi - I'm sure u totally think this is all about out argument, but if u blame yourself I'll slap you. Despite the hurtful things we've said/thought, I still love you. And I'll always remember u as that amazing St. Berry fan who created Moonerman.

Emma - I love u so fucking much. Out of the girls on fanpop, I feel like you're the one who I can talk to about the most. It might be because we met in person. u give such great advice. I wish u all the best in Aus.

Grace - I absolutely adore you. You're amazingly sweet and open and warm and just such a great friend. I'm always so happy whenever you're around because u have such an amazing positive energy.

Mary - When I first started FP, u were basically my FP idol of whatever because u seemed so cool and have such great taste. And then we started talking and I learned how amazing u are and what great taste u do have. Love you, babe.

Kaidi - You're this fantastic mix of sweet and funny. u always make me smile with some adorable and hilarious comment. ILY!

Lucy - I am so glad I got to know you, hun. You're just one of those warm, genuine people that remind me that there are good people in this fucked up world. I love you.

Special shout outs to Nat, Bety, Ana, Holly, Mel, Ale, Nora, Rachel, S, Anna, and sooo many others who have made these awful past months happy. I love u all.