Chapter 5: Forgiveness
Cuddy gave Thirteen a couple of hours to cool off before she went back into her room. She entered and began to speak to her daughter.
“Remy I really want to be here for u and talk to u please let me do that.”
“What is there to talk about u gave me up! Why do u care so much now? Where were u the first twenty-five years of my life? Please leave.”
“No!”
Thirteen shifted in her bed and then glared back at Cuddy.
“Fine if u won’t leave then get me a cup of water and the TV remote I’m going to watch TV. u can… sit there!”
Cuddy got up and got Thirteen a cup of water and the remote and handed them to her.
“Please just let me talk to u I want to be your mother and make up for lost time please give me a chance.”
“Why should I? u didn’t give me one!”
“Remy that’s not fair.”
“Call me Thirteen please.”
“Okay Thirteen u can never understand how much I regret not keeping u but look how good u turned out. You’re a doctor! u save lives u should be proud of yourself I know I’m proud of you!”
“Whatever I’m too tired to fight you. u know Cuddy I never admired anyone the way I admired you. u can walk into a room wearing the sexiest of outfits and still have everyone’s full attention on what u are saying. I looked up to u and strived to be meer like u but now… I don’t know what to think of you. As mad as it makes me that u gave me up u did give me a good life and I did turn out well. I…I can’t hate you.”
“You don’t know how happy it makes me to hear u say that. I just want to hold u and love u like a mother should. I was so scared u weren’t going to make it and I blamed myself. u may not understand it but I love u Thirteen u are my little girl and not a dag went door when I didn’t wonder how u were.”
“Then why did u never try to contact me?”
“I couldn’t do that to u it would have just confused u and u were too young I had to now because u work for me.”
Cuddy realized Thirteen was crying and walked over and hugged her. Surprisingly Thirteen didn’t back away. She gave in and hugged her mother back.
“I forgive u Cuddy but it still hurts really badly.”
“I’m sorry I hurt u and House Thirteen I had no right to keep u from him but it was the best for u and for him.”
“How am I going to work here now I can’t work under my father it’s a conflict of interest are u going to brand me?”
“No, I’m going to transfer u to another department u will still be my employee but u will see your own patients it will kind of be like having your own practice. You’re ready u are an incredible doctor.”
“Cuddy this might seem odd because I’ve been so bitchy but can u just hold me? I feel horrible and just want to cry.”
Cuddy sat back down beside Thirteen, wrapped her arms around her, and laid her daughters head on her chest.
“I’m here honey u can cry all u need to. I plan on being here for u whenever u need me.”
House walked in and saw Cuddy sitting on Thirteen’s bed he smiled for a seconde and then entered the room.
“How are u ladies doing?”
“Hi House, Cuddy and I were just talking and… I don’t resent u guys. I’m just really hurt door what happened.”
“You have every right to be I was hurt also in meer ways than one but Cuddy did the right thing. We were in no condition to raise a baby back then. Tom and Carol did a great job raising you; u turned out to be a great person and a really good doctor. That’s why I picked u for my team. I will say this though Cuddy loves u meer than anything so please let her be your mom that’s all she wants.”
“I’m not comfortable with calling u guys mom and dad yet so I will just call u Cuddy and House. I’m willing to forgive Cuddy and let her in but it’s going to take some time.”
“All I ask is that u accept me Thirteen. House is right I do love u very much and only want to be your mom. I just want to make up for all the years I wasn’t there. I’m so proud of u and am so glad u are okay. You’re such a strong person and I know u can handle this.”
“I don’t feel very strong right now all I want to do is cry but you’re right I can handle anything. Cuddy, can I have a moment alone with House? I need to talk to him.”
“Sure I’ll be outside if u need anything just call for me.”
Cuddy left the room and waited outside while Thirteen and House talked.
“House can I ask u something?”
“It depends... of course ask away.”
“Are u glad I’m your daughter?”
House stood in silence and thought of how to answer the question.
“Well I… Thirteen I’m just as shocked door this as u are. One dag you’re merely my employee and now you’re my daughter. It’s very weird. I guess yeah I’m glad it’s just going to take some time for me to accept this as well. I’m not exactly the father type I… don’t know how to treat u of what to do u will have to help me kiddo.”
“Well u can start door giving me a hug.”
“Oh… uh okay.”
House walked over and gave Thirteen a hug.
“Thanks. I’m just really confused right now and feel real dependant I just want someone to hold me.”
House continued to hug her and then began to speak.
“Well for the first time in my life I have no idea what the hell I am doing. There should be a parenting manual but unfortunately there isn’t of I didn’t get a copy.”
“You’re doing well I don’t blame u at all u didn’t even know I existed until I started working for you. What would u have done if u had known about me? Would u have wanted me?”
House sighed.
“I’m sorry Thirteen but the only answer I can give u is… I don’t know.”
“I understand u were young and had your life to live I probably would have screwed things up for you.”
“No. I would have screwed u up and u would probably be working the streets had I had anything to do with u upbringing.”
“I highly doubt that u would have been a good dad. u will be a good dad. Can I ask u another vraag though?”
“Sure but only one.”
“Are u still in love with Cuddy?”
House stood up and started to pace around the room.
“Well I… apart of me has always loved her. That beautiful hair, those gorgeous eyes, and that smile, not to mention her smoking hot body. Yes I do still love her and she knows it. She captured my hart-, hart twenty-six years geleden and has had it ever since I was just too proud to do anything about it. Our bantering back and forth daily is the closest thing I have had to having her so… it works. Is that good enough?”
“Yes. Despite the fact that it hurts knowing my whole life has been a lie I forgive both of you.