Chapter 23
-Aww! Cuddy moans.
-Cuddy! Where does it hurt? House says as calmly as he can, caressing tenderly her cheek.
-House, I … my chest hurts… I… aww … my belly hurts too… House…, Cuddy manages to answer. Her face is distorted with pain, her eyes seem to implore House to give her something to soothe the pain.
-I can’t give u morphin because we need to run other tests to find what’s wrong with you, Cuddy, I’m sorry. But as soon as we finish, I’ll give u some… House antwoorden and holds Cuddy’s hand tight. Cuddy nods.
-Hm, can I make the scan of your abdomen? Chase asks and nears Cuddy. House looks over Chase’s shoulder, suddenly he stops his fellow.
-Here, come back to her liver…
-Yup! … hey, what’s this?
- It seems to be a hepatic congestion…, House antwoorden the eyes locked on the monitor of the scan. Then he looks at Cuddy, she writhes in pain, beads of sweat pearl on her forehead, she’s very pale.
-It could be in connection with her hart-, hart failure, what do u think? Chase asks.
-Maybe… we have to do a biopsy to be sure.
-Hm, before u do the biopsy, we have to make the MRI, Foreman says on the threshold of the room. Cameron stands there too and looks at House, trying to guess what he thinks at this time. And she can see a huge despair, the fear of losing the woman he loves and maybe some glimpse of hope too, she sees a broken man, but also a man ready to fight to save the one he loves. She hardly recognizes House.
House nods and looks at Cuddy that Foreman and Cameron take to the MRI room. He feels a hand on his shoulder, Chase tries to comfort him:
-Don’t worry, we’re gonna find what’s wrong with her, she’s gonna be ok.
-I hope so…
-Cuddy, try to relax and don’t move…, Foreman says.
Cuddy is ready for the MRI, she knows she has to be perfectly still, but she feels so bad, the pain is so strong…
-Do u think that she loves House? Cameron asks while looking at the screen in front of her. Foreman turns to look at her.
-Why do u ask? It’s obvious that she loves him…
-Yeah, I know, I meant do u think she loves him for who he is, with his defaults, his chronic pain, his drug addiction, of does she love the image of him, the idea of him that she has since the Med School?
-Excuse me but I don’t understand you, are u still attracted to House?
-No! Of course not! Cameron replies. Foreman looks at her, he doesn’t believe her.
-Don’t fool me, Allyson, everyone knows that u had the hots for House…
-Hey, look! Here, her heart, that’s some diffuse nodules, isn’t it?
-Yeah, it looks so…
-Myocarditis?
-Maybe … What about an endocarditis?
-We have to run new blood tests to bevestig it…
-Let’s do it!
Foreman and Cameron take Cuddy back to her room, House has left.
-My eyes are burning, Cuddy says breathless in a low voice.
-Let me see, Foreman says and nears Cuddy to examine her eyes.
-A new symptom? Thirteen asks and comes in.
-I guess yes… Come and look at this, Foreman antwoorden and moves slightly back to let Thirteen go to Cuddy.
-I’d say she has conjunctivitis… but why? I don’t know, it’s weird, it doesn’t fit with the other symptoms…
-Has she swelling of the lymph node near the ear? Taub asks.
-Hm… maybe but it’s hard to tell… Why do u ask? Do u think of something?
-Yes, that could be Parinaud's oculoglandular syndrome…
-And?
-And she can have a cat scratch disease, which could explain her hart-, hart problem…
-So her hart-, hart problem would be an endocarditis? Chase suggests.
-And why not a lupus? Cameron adds. It can fit with the symptoms too…
-I’ll do an echocardiography, Chase says.
-Why? What did the MRI show? House asks suddenly. He was standing on the threshold of the room since about 10 minuten and listened to his fellows, trying to decide which of their ideas would be worth to examine deeper.
-They are some diffuse nodules around the myocardium, Cameron answers.
-But she has also a granulomatous conjunctivis with concurrent swelling of the lymph node near the ear…, Taub adds.
-Let me see, House antwoorden and nears Cuddy. To see her in a so bad state, suffering, hurts him, he tries to concentrate on the medical puzzle but he knows he’s not objective. Taub and Thirteen, run blood tests to bevestig the presence of Bartonella henselae and try to see if u find some sign of a lupus of of an endocarditis… Foreman make the echocardiography, Chase and Cameron do a biopsy of the myocardium in the setting of angiography… Go ! Run the tests I asked! I don’t want to waste meer time, she’s in a hard pain! he almost shouts. Then he sits down on the chair near Cuddy’s bed and holds her hand. She turns the head and stares at him.
-House, I… I want to… to tell you…
-Cuddy, I…
-House, if… if something happens to me…
-Everything’s gonna be alright, Cuddy…
-House, let me end my sentence, if something happens to me… I… I want u to take care of Rachel… please, House, promise me you’ll take care of her…
-Cuddy, I… are u sure? Last time u chose Julia and…
-It was last time as u say… Rachel always talks about you… as her dad… House, accept please…
-Do u think I can take care of her like a father would do?
-I… yes.
-Ok, I promise you, but she won’t need me because her mother won’t die…, he tries to be persuasive but …
-House, I heard your fellows, I heard their diagnosis, I know there are 50 chances I get better, but there are also 50 chances I…
-Cuddy, are u ready for the echocardiography and the biopsy? Foreman asks. She nods and gives House a last glance full of fear.
-Cuddles, do u want me to be door your side while they do the tests?
-House, u shouldn’t…, Chase begins.
-No, Chase is right… But be door my side when I come back.
House nods, bents over her and kisses her softly.
A few minuten later, Wilson comes in. House leans against the window, he seems to be lost in his thought.
-House, I brought u some clothes… How is she? Have u a diagnosis?
-Yes, we have 2 of 3 hypothesis…
-Good of bad news?
-It depends…
-And what are…
-Cat scratch disease, lupus, endocarditis, myocarditis… of maybe we’re wrong and … I don’t know, Wilson.
-Where is she?
-With my team, they run some other tests.
-And… how do u feel?
-I… how do u think I feel, Wilson? House turns violently and yells at Wilson.
-I think u should go to take a douche and change your clothes, I’m gonna buy u something to eat… Wilson is about to leave when House says:
-Thanks, Wilson.
Wilson nods and leaves.
When he comes back, House has changed his clothes and waits for Cuddy and the results of her tests.
-Don’t u have an office?
-Sure, but I prefer to stay here…
-Here’s a belegd broodje, sandwich and a bottle of water.
-Thanks.
-House, Cuddy is in intensive care, the biopsy went well but we prefer to keep her there for a few hours, Chase says. We should have the test results in one hour. House nods and leaves the room. He’s tempted to slikken vicodin, but he made a promise to himself, for Cuddy: if he ever had another chance to be with her, to be happy with her, he won’t take vicodin anymore… House hesitates and throws his bottle out. This time he won’t make the same mistake, he’ll prove Cuddy that he does care for her. Then he heads to the intensive care. Cuddy is sleeping, the nurse explains him that they gave her sleeping pills so she can rest a little. House looks at her, she’s pale and looks drawn, she has lost weight… but even so he finds her beautiful.
