u rush past me
long brown curls flying
face down
body boed
i frown
i get up and follow see u sprawled on the divan, bank in your dressing room
as i scoop u up in my arms
your face
pressing into my chest
as u cuddle closer to me
like a child
my voice questioning softly
"what's wrong?"
your voice replying
as it cracks
as tears fall from your eyes
perfect spheres
splashing down
from dark chocolate brown irisis
"he cheated on me"
my arms tighten around your fragile form
as u whimper out another confession
gleaming white teeth softly nibbling onto yor roze aardbei glossed lips
"i...i think i loved him"
can u hear my hart-, hart breaking as u zei those words
u loved him
not me
I'm just the friend
older brother
always there for you
but never the way i wanted it to be
your protector
but not your lover
a tear of my own falls down from my eye
u raise your head
as u run a delicate finger along my face
feeling the wet streak it left behind
u whisper my name
"joseph..."
u ask softly
"are u okay?"
i won't be ok
as long your hurt
as long u love him
u lean closer
concern temporarily masking the pain in your eyes
as u repeat my name and question
"joe...are u okay?"
a sweet scent of apples wafts towards me
distracting me from your words
your perfume
my pulse beats faster
my hart-, hart beating like a drum
your hand still lying on my cheek
u lean closer still
and around u my hands curl into fists
fighting off the temptation
to tell u how i feel
with one simple gesture
a kiss
u lean your forehead against mine
a curl slipping down
as your thumb slowly moves over my tear stained cheek
as your own tears fall on my lap
your name escapes my lips
a soft murmer
your thin fragile arms inpakken, wrap around me
trying to comfort on the tattered couch
black pillows resting around us
so different from the two broken children on it
mourning for what they can't have