** just wanted u to know how much i love u JT and i never meant to hurt u door fighting with u and i just want u to know that every word u read is true as hell -Bee **
Ok, u know how i used to tell u that i got these vibes sometimes? Well, the dag i found out u went to the hospital....i kept going to your profiel and thinking "omfg something is wroong" and then Chris ((smart dude:)) geplaatst the bad news on your uithangbord and obviously i was the first to know..on fanpop.... and i was like freaking out and ....i remembered fighting with u Sunday night..and i felt HORRIBLE omg..i was cryin. Then i didnt know what to do with myself, right? well then i told JayJAy and she just felt as bad as i did...and Chris kept telling us.."its not your fault, dont beat yourself up" and then i knew i had to tell Cherry, and i was scared cause i knew if i took the news hard, she would probably take it harder...but she did pretty well and she tried to blame herself..but i didnt let her..i had to take the blame and i told everyone if they wanted to blame someone i had to be blamed and i probably should have known something was wrong the moment u told me your headaches were back and i didnt get the bad vibes till the volgende day...well then i had to get off cause i was just going to cry, and cry and cry some more..so i got off and i just lay there freaking out and i didnt know what to do with myself..well then that night i had a beautiful nightmare...**i wanna cry again** ok in my dream..i was with kers-, cherry and Spunky Jay..we went to the hospital and it was kinda funni (NOT HAHA FUNNI meer LIKE I CANT BELIEVE IT FUNNI) that i could smell the hospital and here the beep beep of the intercom and we me and kers-, cherry and vlaamse gaai, jay reached your room Chris was already in there with u but u were hooked up to all these wires and we us three girls walked in it was like u knew we were there and u woke up and me and kers-, cherry and vlaamse gaai, jay just shrieked and cried and hugged eachother so hard and damn i could feel that hug .....but then the sucky part was that i woke up in a cold sweat crying cuz i didnt get to see the end of the dream and cuz it was the first time i ever dreamed about u of kers-, cherry of Spunky vlaamse gaai, jay and i know for sure Chris...
but i wanted to tell u this cause i just want u to realize that i never really mean all those things i say about u and i just want u to know that i dont hate u and that i have ALWAYS LOVED u JSUT AS MUCH AS AS I LOVE kers-, cherry AND JAYJAY AND JORDAN i hope u know that and i never wanna hurt u again and i promise i will try to keep my cool and my head ok? Cause i was also brought up not to let people get the best of me and i was brought up pretty much like u were ....i hope u get better and i am praying for you
Love Back To u From
Bianca<3
Ok, u know how i used to tell u that i got these vibes sometimes? Well, the dag i found out u went to the hospital....i kept going to your profiel and thinking "omfg something is wroong" and then Chris ((smart dude:)) geplaatst the bad news on your uithangbord and obviously i was the first to know..on fanpop.... and i was like freaking out and ....i remembered fighting with u Sunday night..and i felt HORRIBLE omg..i was cryin. Then i didnt know what to do with myself, right? well then i told JayJAy and she just felt as bad as i did...and Chris kept telling us.."its not your fault, dont beat yourself up" and then i knew i had to tell Cherry, and i was scared cause i knew if i took the news hard, she would probably take it harder...but she did pretty well and she tried to blame herself..but i didnt let her..i had to take the blame and i told everyone if they wanted to blame someone i had to be blamed and i probably should have known something was wrong the moment u told me your headaches were back and i didnt get the bad vibes till the volgende day...well then i had to get off cause i was just going to cry, and cry and cry some more..so i got off and i just lay there freaking out and i didnt know what to do with myself..well then that night i had a beautiful nightmare...**i wanna cry again** ok in my dream..i was with kers-, cherry and Spunky Jay..we went to the hospital and it was kinda funni (NOT HAHA FUNNI meer LIKE I CANT BELIEVE IT FUNNI) that i could smell the hospital and here the beep beep of the intercom and we me and kers-, cherry and vlaamse gaai, jay reached your room Chris was already in there with u but u were hooked up to all these wires and we us three girls walked in it was like u knew we were there and u woke up and me and kers-, cherry and vlaamse gaai, jay just shrieked and cried and hugged eachother so hard and damn i could feel that hug .....but then the sucky part was that i woke up in a cold sweat crying cuz i didnt get to see the end of the dream and cuz it was the first time i ever dreamed about u of kers-, cherry of Spunky vlaamse gaai, jay and i know for sure Chris...
but i wanted to tell u this cause i just want u to realize that i never really mean all those things i say about u and i just want u to know that i dont hate u and that i have ALWAYS LOVED u JSUT AS MUCH AS AS I LOVE kers-, cherry AND JAYJAY AND JORDAN i hope u know that and i never wanna hurt u again and i promise i will try to keep my cool and my head ok? Cause i was also brought up not to let people get the best of me and i was brought up pretty much like u were ....i hope u get better and i am praying for you
Love Back To u From
Bianca<3
