it's the early hours of a autumn Monday morning. the weather is reflecting how i feel (cold, dreary, foggy and raining heavily). i'm tired, cold, soaking wet and just finally getting home pagina after gruelling shift at work. all thoughts of a nice warm douche and bed are quickly lost when i get in to find a voicemail from jac on my answering phone. she's clearly distressed and i have difficulty making out what she's saying. before i have time to think i've grabbed the police phone book and flick through to find detective don flack. a another pure blood vampire and jac's work partner. i dial his number. i wait one, two rings then a sleepy male voice answers. i explain why i'm calling and he tells me he'll meet me at NYPD central precinct . we meet turns out he had found a similar message when he check he's mobile after i called. we agree to work together to find detective brody. worry is displayed all over flack's face and fear is in his eyes. and i know for certain that mine reflect the same. it now becomes a race against time to find jac. flack has his buddy detective Danny Messer who works in the crime lab triangulate jac's phone signal to give us a location. flack and i jump in flack's car and race to the location. on arrival it becomes clear that the location is in fact a police precinct in the bronx. it's clear that we're both confused so we head in to the station. where we are meet with a rather ugly scene. drunks, criminals, and victims sit trying to talk with detectives at desks in the middle of the room. in the hand corner criminals stand in what we call the cage. we follow the gaze of all the men and are meet with a uglier scene. an officer is trying desperately to calm, quieten and usher a hysterical women into a side room but every attempt he makes is met with the women races her voice even louder. "please mam could u just quietly come with me and we can discuss this in private the whole precinct doesn't need to know." "hell i'm not going anywhere with you, and u know what i think i might just yell so the whole city can hear that you're withholding information that could save my brother." the officer again try's to calm her. to which she responds. "fine then i sure your bosses won't care if i go and get a warrant i'm sure a judge will be understanding". with that she turns to walk out. but her path is blocked door me and flack. the women isn't paying attention to where she's going and slams into don. nearly falling in the process. flack catches steadies her. and that's when we realise jac's fine. well not fine she's wearing ripped trousers, ballet flats, appartementen and a creased t-shirt. her hair is uncombed and her face is tear streaked. she's crying as don asks whats happened and she explains cam her younger brother and her were meant to working undercover on a joint division assignment. she was his cover but was pulled off the case. a dag later he leaves her a message saying that he needs help then she doesn't her from him again. she spoke to her replacement who told her cam missed call in. door now we're outside don asks if she's alright to drive home pagina and she's replies. she would be if she had a car. i then ask how she got there and she says she walked. we give her a lift back to my apartment as she refuses to go home. flack leaves to go back to NYPD to begin an investigation. before he leaves he tells me to watch jac and take care of her. also warning that i shouldn't let her out of my sight. he knows what she's like when this kind of thing happens and she just doesn't think straight when alone. he also says he'll call every uur to keep us updated of as soon as he finds something. i'm now left with a hysterical vampire and i've had no sleep for 24 hours this should be fun. i give her some of my clothes to change into and a pair of socks. we then sit in front of the telly watching reruns. she sits wither her legs drawn up to her chest arms around them in my comfy jogging bottoms and black top. after about to hours she loses it and starts lashing out. i restrain her and whisper soothing things in her ear. all the time i'm on the verge of crapping myself. she eventually calms and returns to some normal version of herself. she stops fighting and hugs me i manoeuvre her over to the sofa where she sit. she then takes me door surprise asking for pen and paper. i oblige happy to give her a distraction but become concerned at the gruesome drawings she starts doodling. flack rings in to say their close and asks how jac's doing. i tell him about the strange behaviour. his voice then takes on a tone that scares me as he says the lashing out she's done before but the pictures are new. she's being tormented door what she saw in Falkland's. 2 hours later jacs asleep on the divan, bank the tv is playing to itself quietly when there's a knock at the door. i answer it and are met with don and a badly beaten guy. don introduces us and i lead cam into his sister. he creeps up and ever so lightly shakes her she rouses and throws her arms around cam. i leave them to it and kom bij don in the keuken-, keuken where i toon him the depictions. it takes him a while but eventually he responds with i knew her time with the special forces affected her deeply but not how much it tormented her still. your wondering why she doesn't kom bij SRU she feels she has deal with the demons of her past before she thinks about the kind of work SRU do. after it all i feel i know jac a bit better but am deeply troubled door the revelations of that day. jac and cam were taken home pagina door don and i finally got to go to bed 8 hours after i got home pagina the first time. the volgende dag i called parker and explained the events of the dag before and he told me to take the dag of and to be recharged for my volgende shift however i would hve to pay the time back door working on my volgende dag off. so as i went to bed that night i made a vow to overcome the demons of my past and to help jac with hers. because what troubled me meer than anything is that i know how she feels constantly battling those demons of long ago. i realised the dag i've been waiting for so long when the time was right to face those memories would never come and that i should have dealt with them years before. the problem with past demons is that the longer u put off facing them the harder it is when u do. i know i done it.