“I’ve loved u from the first time I saw you. I think I was twelve. It took me three years to pluck up the courage to speak to you. And I was so scared of the way I felt. u know, loving a girl. I learned how to become a sarcastic teef to make it feel normal. I screwed guys to make it go away, but it didn’t work.
When we got together, it scared the shit out of me, because u were the one person who could ruin my life. I pushed u away. I made u think things were your fault. But. Really I was just terrified of the pain.
I screwed that girl Sophia, to kind of spite u for having that hold on me. And I’m a total fucking coward because… (takes tickets out of bag) I got these. These tickets to go for us three months ago.
But I, I couldn’t stand…I didn’t want to be a slave to the way I feel about you. Can u understand?
u were trying to punish me back and it’s hard. It’s so horrible. Because. Really. I’d die for you. I love you. I love u so much it’s killing me”