If u ever leave me remember these things: u give me hope to be strong when i am weak. u made me smile when no one else could. u gave me hope in general! I know this wont stop u but one thing is u were the most important person in my life. I smiled when i heard your name and I cried when we werent O. I was upset when I havent seen u in a long time. But remember the memories we shared, The times we cried and the times we felt lied to together. Without u i will feel unwanted and dead...I think without u id die and smile cause one dag ill see u again and have u as a friend.Until then ill miss u...over and over again


Theeee Enddd!

In living with a fear of chance...
The chance of fears the only reason
you're awake.
We decrease in size
when burdened with your mind,
but u know escape is to run...

In a constant commotion -
When I speak it's revulsion
maybe you'll disappear...

Recall the past when
u were strong.
Those distant days,
it seems,are now forever gone.
You'll increase desire
to wander and retire,
but u know escape is to run.

In a constant commotion -
When I speak it's revulsion
maybe you'll disappear


♥ Paradise lost- Disappear ♥
Beautiful song

LOST
ALONE
INSUCURE
BLOOD DRIPPING DOWN MY FACE
BRUISES STINGING MY TRANSLUCENT BODY
DEATH CALLING ME
LOVE DETACHING FROM ME
MY hart-, hart BEING RIPPED FROM MY BODY
MY MUCSLES HURTING
A SICK FEELING IN MY STOMACH
IN THE FETAL POSISTION
TEARS ESCAPING MY EYES
MUSCLES TENSE
BARE FOOTED
SCABS BREAKING
ROOTS STABBING MY BODY
GLASS BROKEN
A PICTURE ON THE FLOOR
REMINDING ME OF MEMORYS
OF A FOREST
OF OUR OLD LIFE
WHEN u LOVED ME
GRABBING A mes
DRAWING BLOOD
FROM MY FACE
MY LIFE FLASHING BEFORE ME
THE PAIN OF EVERY SAD MOMENT
MADE ME MAKE MY DISSISION
I DREW THE mes TO MY NECK
SLIT MY FLOAT
AND WATCHED THE BLOOD POOL AROUND ME
LIFE DRAWING OUT OF MY EYES
MY SOUL
RISING FROM MY BODY
GOD EMBRACING ME
THE LOOK IN YOUR EYES
WHEN u FOUND ME
I WAS LOST

Ok i have no clue why i am writing this but I kinda love it so enjoy:)

















Hide from all
My sweet remembrance
To u I beer my soul

Hide from all
my sweet remembrance
to u I sing this song

Hide low
hide high
hide far
hide low
the fear is rising
now go

Hide from all
my sweet remembrance
to u I can't be lost

Hide from all
my sweet remembrance
To u I can Love

Hide from fear
Hide from Sorrow
Hide from pain
Hide Shame
The climax is coming
Your Fame

Hide from all
my sweet remembrance

an old Poem I wrote its twilight though!










Her eyes just sparkled
tonen his reflection
tonen his angelic face
her eyes just sparkled
as he drew closer
as his mouth kissed her
her eyes just sparkled
knowing the truth
knowing that their love is eternal
knowing she chose the right one
her eyes sparkled
making time stand still
making blood lust stop
her eyes just saw him
She just wanted him
he kissed her again
forgetting his blood lust
his fight
Just kissing her
and playing with her long blond hair
her perfect beutiful curls
Her eyes just sparkled
longing for him
he picked her up
running far
running into the distance
running fast
trees going door as a blur
as she held him
she loved him
he was hers
and he knew she was his angel
and forever she would be
she saved him
he forever loved her for that
she was perfect
she was his
so he ran on
sheltering her
from harm

This scene of light and color has amazed me, yes. The structure, beat, and rythmn all flow perfect, yes. But, the one thing wrong is that u are not here. Not here to see it's beauty with me.
I stand alone in the color while my thoughts bleed from my mind. Oh how I wish that u would come save me. Save me from this beauty. It continues these lights, they flash and dart across my face. Mocking me, and teasing of their freedom. The freedom they have to verplaats and dance.
It is all that I do not have. That, and you. u used to make the lights of my life dance and verplaats and make the most beautiful array. Yet now all they do, these beautiful lights and colors, is bring me pain. I knew u weren't coming, I know u wont come. I know, and I knew, that u never did. I've tried to forget you, Ive tried to verplaats on. But, no, these lights and colors continue their eternal dance of mockery and mercilessness.

In the tremors of despair
u see your life's fading away.
Now it seems like you've always known
that life u have will always be the path of thorns,
You've seen it, oh, u have seen it long ago
In the depths of your eyes.


Dark has never been so silent,
While the steps of death are too loud,
So dreadful for the hope that vervalt slowly.
These moments of sorrow extinguished you,
Harrowing your mind, only the dark were there,
Misery and lonely death were calling your name.


Why is death so painful for others,
Yours has always been present,
In your thoughts, In your absence,
In this sadnees, in despair.

The dag is Ending
The sun is Setting
All is over
But i am sad

My hart-, hart is still grey
My vrienden are mad at me
And i am still sad

I go to sleep
But i can not stop thinking of what i have done
Will my vrienden ever Forgive me
And i am still Sad

I Have hurt a friend and Choked another
What have i done
And i am still sad

Why have i done this why
I have been tricked
Betrayed even
door the Evil one
I must get him
Pay him for what he has done to me

When i have done so my vrienden will be happy
And so will i

In each street
In each lane
People who are rich
And people live in din.

And who lives in a lane
Wants to live in a garden
Suddenly much money they gain
And u ask "How?" they say "A Win".


Our story
u and me
People story
People stories
Are demeaned
And others keep on revilin'
This is our story.


And who's rich
Money goes away
Situations become decay
Life turns into misery

Thinks this was a dream
No, it's a nightmare
And asks "how come?"


Our story
u and me
People story
People stories
Are demeaned
And others keep on revilin'
This is how our stories are.

I hear these crazy stories of people always hurting Not knowing what to do i stupidly ask "What can i do" They reply with "Idk" I say "Can i take your pain away cause thats all i know how to do" They say "Thats impossible that cannot be true" I say "I dont believe in impossible so the real vraag is how cant it be true" They say "I wouldnt be able to live with myself if it wasnt for u so stop dreaming i cant let u thru i cant let u hurt the way i do" I say "Id smile thru the pain knowing it was for u and i cry cause u hurt now. The pain may be bad but it doesnt hurt as bad as seeing u beat so bad. I know it sounds crazy but all i dream about is caring for people so tell me to stop dreaming and my light will stop beaming. so can I" "Can u what" "Can i take your Pain Away?"
By: Alysia Batallas<3

SERENADE

So sweet the hour, so calm the time,
I feel it meer than half a crime,
When Nature sleeps and stars are mute,
To mar the silence ev'n with lute.
At rest on ocean's brilliant dyes
An image of Elysium lies
Seven Pleiades entranced in Heaven,
Form in the deep another seven:
Endymion nodding from above
Sees in the sea a seconde love.
Within the valleys dim and brown,
And on the spectral mountain's crown,
The wearied light is dying down,
And earth, and stars, and sea, and sky
Are redolent of sleep, as I
Am redolent of thee and thine
Enthralling love, my Adeline.
But list, O list, so soft and low
Thy lover's voice tonight shall flow,
That, scarce awake, thy soul shall deem
My words the muziek of a dream.
Thus, while no single sound too rude
Upon thy slumber shall intrude,
Our thoughts, our souls O God above!
In every deed shall mingle, love.

Go to sleep if u dare
No matter where u go guilt will follow u there
Don't be scared of affraid
Guilt will toon u all the mistakes you've made
It can eat u alive
The only way to survive is to tell the bitter truth
If u live out the rest of your days
You'll never escape it you'll be trapped in it's maze
Struggling to forget the guilt in your shallow soul
That is forever rising like a brand when u add coal
Your guilt drives u insane and follows u forever
You'll go to your grave with it unless u
Never tell another lie as long as u live

The End

For Now Anyways

Don't Be Affraid