The years have passed
The moments flown by
Yet I still find myself here
starting to cry

The gras neatly trimmed
and the tombstone shines
Flowers' scents intoxicating
mixed with that of the pines

Dirt and mud disappeared
from your resting place
Finally I may kiss the ground
without having a mess of my face

There are other survivors
traveling this lonely road
Trying to verplaats on
is as painful as letting go

My hart-, hart goes out to those
missing someone right now
Sometimes it's too hard living
When we forget how

But we share this common bond
Me and you
We keep catching and releasing
Not taking the same chances we used to

Different are the circumstances
but the results remain the same
Death showed a higher hand
and won the biggest pot in the game

But we must share with each other
We must not sink below the sorrow of the guilt
We must not reach ground zero
Else our lives won't be rebuilt

Remember,

u said...

u said
u would
try to make
this up.

u said
u wanted
me door your side.

u said
I would be happy,
I would be
happy this time.

u said.

u said
u wanted
the fresh start
for us,
u said
u wanted us
back,
u wanted
me back.

u promised.

u said
u would
try,
u said
that things
would be better
this time,
u said
I would feel
better
from now.

Remember,
u said.

No meer tears,
u said,
no more
empty words,
remember?

u said.

u said
u wanted
a fresh start
for us.
u said,
no meer pain,
u said,
no more.

And no meer lies
now I say,
sell them
some where else.
Broken promises,
that's all
u gave,
no meer pain,
that's what
u said.

THe world is cruel,

when we are young we ride above the clouds in the bubble of innocence
but as we age we begin to sense the pain behind our parents faces
we see then that really, not everyone is nice.

we begin to understand that "your not invited to my birthday party" is the deadliest threat we can make

and that one dag someone will hate me for who I am and someone will hate u for who u are,

because your not a cheerleader
because I am a cheerleader

because I have brown eyes
because u have white skin

because I have two dads
because u have one mom and no dad

because your grandparents were Chinese
because I'm Jewish

And why will people do this?

Because the world is a cruel place.




None of these things are true about me, they are simply examples of the stupid things people will judge u by.

Throughout misty forest
u seek for spark of hope.
Your life held by
darkness thoughts,
anchor is
some place else.

Bad luck follows u
like a hook,
won't let u go,
won't leave u alone.

u smile today,
and cry whole eternity,
like that's your fate,
disturbing thoughts
to lie inside of you,
to take away everything
that u hope for.

Devil is calling your name,
leaves u not,
u don't see the angel on
your shoulder,
trying to give u a strength.

u long for life
that u don't know of,
u seek for peace,
trying to get away
from misty forest
that stains your heart
into black.

sorry for hateing you
sorry for everything

wish i could retrace my steps that day
now your gone moved away
i wish i could stand face to face with you

and say sorry for hurting u sorry for everything ive done
i hope your not dead i hope your alive if u are hear reading this my friend im sorry so sorry

i understand my friend if u will not forgive me i chose to be mad at u when u tried to apolagize
just know this vrienden are forever

i will keep u in my head if i forget ill still have u in my heart
and hopefully u will keep me in yours now your gone u wont see me but u have raised me up higher than the mountains

youve raised me up to meer then i can be
i was strong when i was on your sholders
i am sorry carolyn kellar for what has happend

I verplaats a hundred steps
to fix my pace
but all your love
inflicts my grace
falling
running
trying to get clean
but the confort
your love
it captures me

I verplaats behind the lines
to hide from the new
to hide from from addiction
to hide from you
falling
running
trying to hide
but the meledy
the sound
it drags me back

I verplaats between the beats
to cover my sins
but everytime your near me
The bottle of gin slowly didapears
falling
falling
sweeter than life
your love is a drug
your love is my high