I think id know enough, to say with every movement of the knife, i saw myself, a heartless murderer, evolve into who i am today.
It was nice to Lie and think of what had happened these last few years, it was true, i was completely, inevetibly in love with Damon Salvatore, and even though i was being selfish, he deserved better, alot better. As the image of his angelic face popped into my fantasy, A sharp pain hit me, and it felt like i was falling, falling down into complete emptyness, i heard the mes drop, and my body became limp and lifeless, if i could scream, i would of deafened the whole...

'EVIE'
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'EVIE'
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'IF u DONT GET YOUR FUCKING ARSE DOWN THESE STAIRS IM COMING UP THERE FOR YOU!'
another typical saturday morning in the Lexi Household. I stared at my reflection, admiring my skin and complexion, jeez lex, your looking old! I chuckled out loud, without realising my sister was behind me. 'So this is what its come to, after all these years u finally turn nuts'. 'If u must know, i was thinking how old i looked, do u think alcoholic, overstressed and extremely hormonal vampires can get..wrinkles?'
Evie Laughed her tinkly laugh, then realised i was actually serious....

Life just wasnt worth living.
What was there to live for? I understand i had the most perfect Fiance ever, and family that loved me, but ive had my existence, i dont deserve love.
It was a late monday evening. Damon had gone off to a council meeting, after making me thee and having a cuddle, and it really sunk in, I didnt have a best friend to go to, she had gone to Texas, i didnt have anyone, and the years i had longed to forget came back, the years id wander alone and killed innocent people for the hell of it, i didnt miss them days, but they were my nightmares. I never thought reality would...

It was late 2010, and myself and evie visited a town called mystic falls. We didnt know much about it, just heard that it was a place of peace, with a few good bar's. Evie was all loved up now, so what time i got with her was pretty special, and unique everytime. We had been travelling together for 100's of year's know, she was my creator, i relied on her to get me out of shit, i was a wreck, i guess i just wanted to settle down somewere for a while, was that to much to ask?

We had booked ourselves in to a little b&b, we decided to share a room this time. We spent around half an uur un-packing...