Ok this story has to be cursed!! Last time I put this up it took 6 tries just to get it posted. This time I had the whole thing done and went to post it when the site crashed and everything was lost. SOOOO here I go again. Hope it works this time!!

End of last entry:

"I'm here to help your first few days easier...if that's possible. I was told that u have a sister?" She asked.

"Yes, her name is Cynthia and she's 6. We're eachothers world, I don't know how I will be able to be here without her." I zei as I started to cry again.

I'm sorry, I can't continue this is too hard to write. I have to go inside now, the avondeten, diner klok, bell is ringing and Nancy will be mad if I am late. I will write meer tomorrow when I have time alone again."

That's all that was written, aparently someone was trying to make this transition easier on me. I thought that was nice, I also was beginning to have some diffrent thoughts about this Dr. Gordon. Why wouldn't he go in the sun, that was strange...I wonder...........

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Jasper and I sat on the bluffs looking out over the water. I was deep in thought about what I had just read, was it really possible that this 'Dr. G' could be the person who changed me?

I turned my head to kiss Jaspers cheek and picked the book back up off the rock.

I opened it up to the volgende entry. "This one is dated August 3rd. I guess I didn't get to write the volgende dag like I thought."

"I'm sorry that there has been so much time between entries. It's just that a lot has changed in the last few weeks and I don't know where to start.

I know. It was a nice summer dag and I had walked out the back door of the building to sit in the sun. I laid on my back and was stairing up at the clouds when I heard the sound of footsteps running down the heuvel towards me.

I turned my head a little to the left and covered my eyes so that I could see, and much to my suprise I saw my sister running as fast as she could right to me.

I stopped myself, closing my eyes and practicing the relaxation technique that I had learned. I was trying to get this vision out of my head. There had been so many visitation dates that had come and gone, why would they toon up now.

I kept breathing and opened my eyes expecting to see just the building of another patient wondering around the grounds.

To my suprise, my sister barreled right into me and knocked me over. We rolled down the heuvel a little bit laughing until we came to a stop.

"Oh Cynthia, is it really you? Are u really here?" I asked as I ran my hands through her hair that was now to the middle of her back.

She looked older, it had only been a few months since I was sent here, yet it seemed like she was now a young woman.

"Silly, of course I'm here and so are u and Mom." She zei as she looked back over her shoulders to see mother coming down the heuvel slowly, a smile pulling at the corner of her mouth.

I stood up and brushed the gras of my clothes, and ran to my mother hugging her as hard as I could. I didn't want to let go and it seemed like she didn't either. She wrapped her arms around me and hugged me tightly before kissing the top, boven of my head.

"Oh Mary, how are you? We've missed u so much." She zei as she pulled back to look me over.

"Are they treating u well? Are u eating enough?" She asked as she ran her hand through my long black hair.

"Do u get to come home pagina soon? Oh Mary!! Father has gotten a new job with the Railroad and we are going to be moving to a large house with a stable. He has promised to get us horses, isn't that exciting?" She asked as we all went and sat down on a bench.

I never let go of either of their hands, holding on incase they decided to leave me all the suddon again. We talked about people we knew, the new town where we were moving, what kind of horses we had and finally the treatments that I was having.

"They are very nice, they explain everything to me before it is done. Dr. Gordon is allowing me meer time outside, he says that I have greatly improved." I zei ending the conversation about my treatment.

"Oh good!! Does this mean that Mary can verplaats with us? We can all be a family again?" Cynthia asked.

"Well, no dear. Your sister must stay here until Dr. Gordon says that she is treated. I'm sorry, she will not be able to come with us." Mother zei as a tear ran down her cheek.

We talked for a while longer but as the sun finally set they had to leave for home.

"I swear that we will be coming meer often to visit, don't fear we will never leave u here alone." Mother zei as she hugged me tightly one meer time.

"I will come visit as soon as I can. Get better fast so that we can go find the horses together." Cynthia zei as she hugged me as tight as she could before taking mothers hand and walking back up to the building.

I sat on the bench alone watching them leave, the tears flowing steady down my cheeks. I didn't notice that anyone had come over until they cleared their throat.

I looked up and was suprised to see a man in his 20's with dark blond hair. He was very attractive, but there was something about him that made me want to run away.

"Hello." He said.

"Hello." I responded quietly.

"My name is James, I saw u sitting here alone and thought that u could use someone to talk to." He explained.

"I'm Mary, thank u but I need to be going." I zei as I saw Dr. Gordon walk to the edge of the doors and look from me to James and back again.

He yelled my name and I hurried to get up the hill.

"Sorry we couldn't talk longer, maybe volgende time." He zei as he stood up and started walking down the hill.

I looked back over my shoulder and smiled at him before Dr. G yelled my name again and I started running to the building.

I'm sorry, I have to stop here for now. I will explain meer volgende time."

I didn't know what was going on, suddenly I felt Jasper's hands on my shoulders shaking me.

I looked in his eyes and took a deep breath, looking around to see that the sun was setting just like in the journal entry.

"What happened?" I asked.

"You were reading out loud then u stopped, your breathing got fast and then stopped completely. u started shaking and u scared the hell out of me." Jasper zei as he pulled me closer to him.

"Oh Jazz. He came, he met me. James found me but Dr. Gordon yelled for me to go just as we started talking." I zei as I noticed that my whole body was shaking still.

He gathered up the book and blanket, stuffing them into the backpack. He slung the backpack over his shoulders and then picked me up.

I burried my head into his shoulder and held tight, I wasn't sure where we were going until he set me down in Edwards car.