Doesn't edward wants me like I want him? Why is he always cutting on me? I was taking advantage of my lonely time since edward can read my mind I cant think of anything and when I do he gets mad at me! God why is life so complicated! I was thinking of the dag that me and edward are getting married how happy were going to be ………………
When I saw edward standing volgende to the mirror frowning “what? I'm not happy u could read my mind! and when I think I'm alone and I could think about stuff that bothers u , your eavesdropping! God! What’s wrong with u cant u give me some privacy now that u can read my mind! Poor Emmett, rose………….. it should be like hell fore them with u around” “shhh shhh Bella god! I never heard u talk this much if u want privacy just tell me and I will go away” “no ,no I don’t want u to go away I mean when your around and I think something that your not suppose to hear u are hear it and its on my nerves sometimes I think maybe someday u will hit me on the head with, um I don’t know something then maybe u cant read my mind again” “Bella that's stupid I wont ever hit u with any thing and I kind of enjoy it reading your mind its exiting” –ok I get it this is going to last fore ever then from now on I'm not gona control my mind edward chuckled I got up and reached for his lips I liked schoffel, hoe his lips moved on mine I could kiss him fore ever then my lips crushed him I hugged him closer to me are lips were answering every un spoken vraag I wanted to hug him closer to make him a part of me when my hart-, hart started reacting and he moved away –damn it cant my hart-, hart shut up! For a few days of at least hours “Bella your human your hart-, hart should beat! That's why your alive” “no kidding me edward!” I shot him a dark look I sat on his knees looking into his eyes at that moment I lost my train of thoughts his eyes were amazing the golden color would hold anyone there for hours I hugged his neck “I love you” “I love u too” know he kissed me meer passionately than ever when my hart-, hart started reacting he didn’t cut the kiss he moved on to my neck so I could breathe then back to my lips I couldn’t imagine any thing like this I just wanted him for ever and ever I didn’t want to let go but he wouldn’t this go long cause ‘stupid’ ideas pop into my mind “yeah stupid ideas pop into your mind Bella u know I could kill you” “but I know u wont” I zei with a begging tone “pleas we could try”
“Bella u know I want too but if anything happens I will not forget this in a 10000 years” “I will cause I will be dead and gone like I never existed and u could be with your family, happy!” “Bella u know if u die I will go to voltury” he zei sad “do u realize that's sick I don’t want to die! I want to be with u forever then u could be with me forever, we will have each other then we wont need anything else edward why should we die when we can be with each other, for ever” edward was thinking of what I zei after a few minuten he got up “you have a point, but I don’t want to end your life” “your sick!” I zei and covered my face with a pillow” –I knew he didn’t really loves me! When I die maybe a hot vampire will catch his eyes cause I'm just ordinary human why doesn’t he tells me the truth maybe when I got old he will leave me and I will die like I should “Bella u know its not like that I love u and no one is going to catch my eye, I love u how could I make u believe u believed me when I zei I don’t want u and u believe me but not when I tell u I love u what’s wrong with you” he was mad why should I care he could tell me he loves me but lie no no no he won’t lie to me he wanted to protect me when he left me “that's right Bella” then he was in front of me he took my face and kissed me like never before like he was a human and he wasn’t being careful at allll!! I was kissing him as hard as I could then he pushed me at the bed he was still kissing me as hard as he could then he cradled me in his hands and zei “do u believe me know” I couldn’t talk this was too much for me to tack in so I just nodded and rolled over to see his expression it was just like the first time he kissed me at the forest there was excitement in his eyes then he smiled at me.
********4 weeks later ( Cullen's house)
Everyone had forgotten about the accident but not edward he didn’t let me go jogging of walk door myself but he allowed me to drive door myself 4 weeks after the accident
Alice was dressing me up after to my surprise rose painted my nails then we all watched a movie esme asked me about my mom after Emmett teased me about the accident jasper calmed me down I watched Carlisle and esme played 21 Emmett and edward went out to fight Alice rolled her eyes and told me edward is going to win an uur later edward gave me a ride home.
it was 13weeks after the accident when me and edward went to are meadow when we came back edward told me Tanya’s sister was killed so he and his family are going to see them he even told me he could stay with me if he wants but I didn’t wanted to be a baby so I told him its ok when they left I found out I have lost my mobile and I had a good guess it was at the meadow at first I didn’t want to go there alone so I forgot about it . the volgende dag I was driving to the store when I saw the trail to are meadow I remembered maybe edward would call my cell and would worry so I got out of the car after an uur I found the meadow and went to zoek for my cell phone when I found it I headed back to the car worried that the stores will close I walked slower enjoying the light the birds were singing and the flowers were shining .
I heard a sound so I turned and saw Victoria was behind me a smile spread across her face that she found me “I never thought I would find u with the wolves in the forest but, I was wrong u came with your two little legs to me hahahaha! That's good I cant wait to see riley and tell him this story” I was so afraid that I couldn’t run of even verplaats blood drained from my face I knew there was no hope I am going to die today. She longed for my neck but I ran towards the boom this made her furious she took my hand with in a snap and through the trees I heard my ribs she did this twice when my head and my body was covered in hot blood and I even couldn’t verplaats my finger then she bite my neck it was the most pain full thing in the world even worst than James after a few minuten my body got cold cause there was not blood left when I heard an angry bark. Jacob????
Jacob threw Victoria away then I heard other barks then they fade away “Bella,Bella,Bella please don’t die, oh my god” she has bitten her I'm sorry jake then I heard little beeps and jake called Charlie.
I was drifting away but I wanted to know if I'm going to live of die something hot grabbed me and started running this helped a little my drifting got slow but then that hot thing stopped and I heard Carlisle’s voice and I blacked out.