bella pov

i wake up and saw alice infront of me smiling rose bed was already made so she was already out
"hi alice"
hi bella come on i got just the right outfit for u today she zei smiling
what outfit no nono
"thanks alice but i think i can pick an outfit for myself " i zei
she giggle" well i doubt it this last two days u were almost the same clothes i pick somthing really nice"
she pointed at a mini rok and a overhemd, shirt
"thanks that sweet but im not going to wear that" i zei amost yelling acting a bit like a brat

"please bella please" she make puppy eyes and i couldn't resist
"fine fine " i mutter and change
"yay " she zei

school today was horrible again they stare at me and some guy whislte but stop when they saw my angry face

and to top, boven the dag rose alice and i went shopping and emmet and jasper came to carry our bags
it wasn't that bad it was really nice alice just pick a bunch of clothes and i just try them on
after probalby 5 hours of shopping the boys and me were hungry so we went to the school restaurant yes this school has a restaurant well actually 3 how cool is that !!!

when we sat and order i notice that some tables foward was a bronze hair and i look and it was edward but he look really sad really miserable it didn't matter that he was a pig and a player but his expression break my hart-, hart so i took a big breath and walk to talk to him
alice and rose didn't notice because they were lost in emmet's and jasper's eyes
"i have to go to the bathroom" i mutter

i walk to his tafel, tabel
what are u doing??? i thought i really didn't knew but seeing that expresion and remembering how i yelled at him i had to talk to him

i sat infront of him he was looking down when he look up his green eyes were red and swollen like he had cry all night

"edward what happen?" i didn't ask if he was ok because he clearly wasn't ok
he look at me not look almost glare but then his eyes turn hopeless
"what do u want bella?didn't u ask me to leave u alone?" he ask
he was right but his expression
"you didn't answer my question" i told him softly and touch his hand i wanted to help him it was as if this was a different edward he was not the player he was like almost a frighten little boy

he look at my hand and then at my face then he sigh
"if i tell u could u promise to keep it to yourslef?" he ask
i nodded
"is that today 3 years geleden my mother died" his voice broke "that is why my dad send us to this school he was too hart-, hart broken my mom was the love of his life . i love her too she was meer than my mom u know when i was a kid i didn't have vrienden so she was also my best friend" he zei

i took his hand in both of mine
"im so sorry edward" i was surprize that alice and emmet seem so happy so normal today

edward seem to read my thoughts
" alice and emmet also love her and miss her i think but i was closer to her of maybe they just deal with her death better than i do"

he look at me right at my eyes

"you are sure something else bella zwaan-, zwaan i trust u wont tell anyone. i have to go thanks for hearing me i needed that" he gave me a weak smile and walk away
he suddenly turn around and look at me with angry eyes
"bella promise me that u will feel the same way u felt before i tell u this ok i don't need anyones pity" he turn and walk quickly away not giving me a chance to say anything

i was shook poor edward and he was alone although he had many fans girls he was still alone

so was this the real edward cullen ??

i approch to my tafel, tabel
"hey are u ok u were ther for ages" emmet zei i look at him and then at alice
"yeah im fine " i zei

i was mad at alice and at emmet how could they let edward go alone through this !! but probably edward didn't want there pity either

"are u sure u look really pale bells" alice zei

"your right maybe a should go to bed u stay here and eat " i zei and smile weakly

"ok" they zei

i arrive to my room and went to bed i wish the pianist was there but i didn't heard his muziek i fall asleep thinking about edward