have a lot of time on my hands. so i hope to do a chapter once a dag :P
this is too Moolah , for u kind words!


Bella's POV.

"Bella, look at me, u know all the words, u have got it perfected, all be fine, they just kids" Phil said.
After Phil baseball career went down the drown he soon took the offer to be my manger and to a good surprise he was a good one.
Just kids, they were Seniors. I was one not so long ago. And i diddnt really enjoy it.
My hart-, hart beating rapidly.
I still dont why im still doing this, i still hadnt caught edward's attention.
Damm i dont even dance with the songs, why am i even in this buisness. If people even saw me dance I'd became an instand "1 hit wonder"
I had been a barbie doll back in the girls locker rooms, which had been made "out of bounds around " for me, . i was down dressed in a slick black dress, with a silver patch work, and a see-through patch near my boob , i arguement for a new dress, and i lost.
And thank goodness i won the arguement on shoes. My costume desgigner Debbie was expecting to surviving in "pumps" ha ha , ha i dont think so.
I may of hated the dress, but i would disagree that made me look prettier then my hardest efforts.
Taking one last pant, and then at last deciding that this is going to be my last show. if i can convince Phil. (propberly another aguement i will lose)
Opening the doors the the gym, too afriad to look at the crowd just yet.
It was huge, way bigger then i even expected. way larger then forks.
An Instant pain crushed throught my heart, burning, another blow, the hole in my chest.
Principal vink, finch come to my side, clunched my arm to sturdy me.
Putting on a happy face trying to fool of me being apparently fine. But as i once told door "him" that i was open book. BUt also i was also hard to read. Which one was i today?
"Hi bella, how are you?"
"Im good thanks,so where will be " i zei while now looking fully around the room. The cheers and whistles now coming noticeable. I have to now.
i turned to face them and waved. They stunned me, there were soo many.
ohh great. oh a seconde i felt like running out of here, screaming and yailing.
"oh yeah right, in the middle here. "
oh great , in the middle. where almost anyone can see me. Even thought that was the whole point of me eing here, but but.
The edges of my chest still sizzling.
Ok. Jarred, Josh and Maddy were waiting to come out, they are my band members.
Jarred on Drums, Josh on key baord/piano, and Maddy guitar.
i flicked my finger to the back of the room, where they awaited my signal, they emerged, making the corwd gorw louder.
I was glad because the crowd was now louder then the sound of my fast beating heart.
i still dont beleive it when people say that u et used to it. Nope, i will never got over this.

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"ok, what song do u want" i spoke into the microphone. The spot light now on me. Only to increase my freaking out.
"HAPPY ENDING!!!!!!" haha i never get tired of that song. It was my new song,well i could really say that it was my song, i had to pay Avril to make it for me, because my lack of rhytem and music. Sometimes i think how did i even get on the first stage if i was that hopeless.
And i think Avril beleived the same.
Straighten in adn twisted to the maddy and Jarred, nodding , for understanding.
"ok, here we go"
"You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time u were pretending
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh..."

This was for"him " in everyway.
As soon as i d finshed, the corwd appalanced. thank goodness.
"ALICE,JASPER AND EDWARD CULLEN!, GET BACK HERE, WHERE DO u THINK YOUR GOING!?"