He placed both of his hands on the side of my face and kissed me over and over again. I felt weak at the knees, i felt nervous kissing him. I know i've done it before, but it just feels so right this time. His lips left mine so he could say something to me, his hands slid off of my face and i stood beside him waiting for him to say something....

"You should probably be getting back to bed Pond" he whispered

"I don't want to..." i said

"Why not?" he asked

"Cause..."

He was waiting for an answer he's always so impatient.....

"Yes? (!)" he asked

"Because Rory's snoring...again" i said

"Oh tell me about it i can hear him almost a mile away...literally" he laughed

"But u do know why else I don't want to go to bed?" i asked

"Don't u Doctor?" i teased

"What?" he asked with a puzzled look on his face...

God he could be so stupid at the most important times i need him to pick up on something that turns both of us on!....

"I want to stay up because...."

"Because you're here" i whispered

"Oh" he sighed

I hope that sigh was a good sigh....

"Is that a bad thing?" i asked

"Do u not want me to...." I grabbed one of his suspenders with my left hand and placed my other hand on his chest and looked up at him to finish my sentance. "Stay here with you?"

"I do but not with your husband sleeping down the hall"

Rory! i forgotten all about him for a moment there.... I was so distracted with the Doctors eyes. The first ever time i looked into those eyes was when i was only a little girl. The eyes i wanted to stare at forever and ever. I couldn't do that though, i have to accept the fact that i can't have him...i can't have the man i love, of the um..alien that i love. He proved a point though, i feel guilty already for what i've just done, i've kissed him again behind my husbands back.....

"Yeah you're right" i sighed as i removed my hand from his shoulder....

"Yeah" he agreed

I turned around and i started walking up the steps, I could hear him sniffling a little. He made me want to cry too sometimes, especially now. I turned to face him he was standing there staring to the floor. I felt for him, i really did. He must feel an awfull lot worse than me. Him watching me and Rory kiss and hug and whisper i love u to each other. He had even seen Rory's dream about me being pregnant, it scared him..but most of all it really hurt him....

"Doctor?" I whispered

He raised his head to look up to me.....

"Yeah?"

"I love you"

"You know that don't you?" i asked

"Yeah..i know Amy" he replied

"I love u too" he whispered

"Good night Doctor" i whispered

My throat was turning dry, i felt as if i couldn't breathe. I took a deep breath and walked down the coridoor leaving him behind. I walked back slowly to my bedroom. Tears fell from my eyes. I opened my door, there lay Rory sleeping peacefully. I leaned on my door to stare at him, i wanted to smile but i couldn't. I felt guilt. I quietly closed my door and crawled into bed beside him. I lay my head on the pillow, I sniffled a little which was enough to wake him up....

"Amy?" he asked

"Yeah?" i asked

"Are u ok?"

"Yeah" i replied

"Are u sure?" he asked once more

"Yes Rory im fine, now just go back to sleep" I hissed

"Ok" he repied

He fell back asleep a while later...

"I want to be ok" i murmered

"I really do...."

I stared at the foto of me and the Doctor on the uithangbord beside me visiting Space Florida, i looked into his eyes once meer and i fell asleep. Dreaming about what tommorow would be like....and about someone.