A/N: Sorry for the late update, I've been busy but well anyway I hope u like this chap. As always criticism is accepted. Mmmh I didn't know of whom to do this POV chap but well I think it's fair to have Hugh again. =)
We stand there just staring into each other’s eyes. What am I here? Why did I lie to Jo again?
I think we have to make things clear but what if things get worse. I mean if I tell Lisa Jo's still here she will kick me and... I don't know.
“You didn’t screw up, I did.” She smiles, why is she even smiling? She’s so joyful to see me and I’m about to make it worse. What kind of human being am I? Isn’t this called cheating?
Breath Hugh Breath. u won’t fall in that trap again. u will do things right this time. But what is right? I love this wo… Shut up! Ok now she’s waiting for me to continue.
“ I don’t think you-“ She says but I interrupt her in time.
“Yes I did. Jo hasn’t gone to England, she’ll be gone in 3 days same as me.” Your smile fades, the warmth in your eyes disappears. I can’t see if you’re mad, I think u must. Please be mad at me, I’ll understand.
“Three days? “ What? Oh God this is bad.
“Did u hear what I say? Jo’s still here.” I need u to push me away. I can’t be happy with you, that’s not my decision. I took Jo years geleden and I can’t go back. She’s supposed to be the women in my life. trefwoord : Supposed.
“I know but I mean what can I expect? She’s your wife. u protecting her, I guess.”
No, no, no! u can’t be ok with this. I lied to u because I wanted to cheat on her. Wait now it doesn’t make sense anymore. I don’t think I was protecting her, I was protecting us but then what am I protecting if there is no us? u don’t feel the same way as I do.
God! I like this woman. That can’t be right, I am in love with Jo that’s why I married her The why did u cheat? Stop bothering me. I need to talk to the shrink about this, there’s a war going on in my head. I love her, no! There I just did it again. Your eyes are still in mine. I feel my hart-, hart skip a beat. I feel the urge of touching your cheek and slowly plant a kiss in those carmine lips but I can’t, it’s too dangerous.
I stay silent, u don’t move. You’re analyzing this moment too. I wonder what u think. I want u to have a war in your mind, just like mine. Slowly I see how your eyes build a barrier of water. You’re suffering. This war is affecting you. I’m so sorry that I caused it, if u only knew I’ve been fighting this battle for meer than a year.
“Are u ok?” I ask not knowing what else to say.
u don’t respond and a tear goes down your cheek. I sweep it but it isn’t enough. I can see your loosing the battle.
We stand there just staring into each other’s eyes. What am I here? Why did I lie to Jo again?
I think we have to make things clear but what if things get worse. I mean if I tell Lisa Jo's still here she will kick me and... I don't know.
“You didn’t screw up, I did.” She smiles, why is she even smiling? She’s so joyful to see me and I’m about to make it worse. What kind of human being am I? Isn’t this called cheating?
Breath Hugh Breath. u won’t fall in that trap again. u will do things right this time. But what is right? I love this wo… Shut up! Ok now she’s waiting for me to continue.
“ I don’t think you-“ She says but I interrupt her in time.
“Yes I did. Jo hasn’t gone to England, she’ll be gone in 3 days same as me.” Your smile fades, the warmth in your eyes disappears. I can’t see if you’re mad, I think u must. Please be mad at me, I’ll understand.
“Three days? “ What? Oh God this is bad.
“Did u hear what I say? Jo’s still here.” I need u to push me away. I can’t be happy with you, that’s not my decision. I took Jo years geleden and I can’t go back. She’s supposed to be the women in my life. trefwoord : Supposed.
“I know but I mean what can I expect? She’s your wife. u protecting her, I guess.”
No, no, no! u can’t be ok with this. I lied to u because I wanted to cheat on her. Wait now it doesn’t make sense anymore. I don’t think I was protecting her, I was protecting us but then what am I protecting if there is no us? u don’t feel the same way as I do.
God! I like this woman. That can’t be right, I am in love with Jo that’s why I married her The why did u cheat? Stop bothering me. I need to talk to the shrink about this, there’s a war going on in my head. I love her, no! There I just did it again. Your eyes are still in mine. I feel my hart-, hart skip a beat. I feel the urge of touching your cheek and slowly plant a kiss in those carmine lips but I can’t, it’s too dangerous.
I stay silent, u don’t move. You’re analyzing this moment too. I wonder what u think. I want u to have a war in your mind, just like mine. Slowly I see how your eyes build a barrier of water. You’re suffering. This war is affecting you. I’m so sorry that I caused it, if u only knew I’ve been fighting this battle for meer than a year.
“Are u ok?” I ask not knowing what else to say.
u don’t respond and a tear goes down your cheek. I sweep it but it isn’t enough. I can see your loosing the battle.
