This is something that someone (jdaustin) geplaatst on KellyClarkson.com.
I hope Kelly reads her own blog wink.gif
I had something weird happen to me two days in a row.
First a little back story...
When I was barely 18 (23 years ago) my life was torn apart.
My girlfriend and I had a fight over something stupid and being a grade A jerk I stormed off letting us break up over something someone else zei that wasn't true.
Neither of us would concede of apologize and finally two weeks later a call came from her house. I thought it was her calling to apologize but it was her Mom; she had drown in the pool. I was a messed up person for a long time but eventually managed to bury it all and start moving on.
Keep in mind that I'm the type of person that u can't phase with anything now; nothing is a big deal; nothing offends me; nothing really matters enough to get upset about.
Yesterday while doing mindless work I had a play lijst of Kelly's muziek going and suddenly started crying and felt an overwhelming urge to contact Laurie's sister and didn't really know why. I did. I've been asking myself why of all times now 23 years later would I want to do such a thing especially since I've managed to inpakken, wrap all of this into a pretty formidable system of defense mechanisms that have worked for years!?
I played the same playlist again today. I wasn't really listening to what was playing just like yesterday... suddenly Mr no feelings is crying AGAIN at work and not even sure why. I looked back at the song lijst that just played to figure out what the hell just happened to me:
If No One will Listen, u Found Me, Break Away, Miss Independent, Don't Waste Your Time, and Already Gone. The last one was like she was speaking to me even though it was probably written about a breakup/whatever.
I thought I had all of this buried and behind me. I should have been over this a long time ago; I guess I'm not. It was like opening a time capsule to find something though lost forever. I played them again and started crying again. I'm torn; to me if her memory lives so does she.
Anyway thought this might give u fodder for a song.
I don't know about you, but I think that's pretty amazing...
I hope Kelly reads her own blog wink.gif
I had something weird happen to me two days in a row.
First a little back story...
When I was barely 18 (23 years ago) my life was torn apart.
My girlfriend and I had a fight over something stupid and being a grade A jerk I stormed off letting us break up over something someone else zei that wasn't true.
Neither of us would concede of apologize and finally two weeks later a call came from her house. I thought it was her calling to apologize but it was her Mom; she had drown in the pool. I was a messed up person for a long time but eventually managed to bury it all and start moving on.
Keep in mind that I'm the type of person that u can't phase with anything now; nothing is a big deal; nothing offends me; nothing really matters enough to get upset about.
Yesterday while doing mindless work I had a play lijst of Kelly's muziek going and suddenly started crying and felt an overwhelming urge to contact Laurie's sister and didn't really know why. I did. I've been asking myself why of all times now 23 years later would I want to do such a thing especially since I've managed to inpakken, wrap all of this into a pretty formidable system of defense mechanisms that have worked for years!?
I played the same playlist again today. I wasn't really listening to what was playing just like yesterday... suddenly Mr no feelings is crying AGAIN at work and not even sure why. I looked back at the song lijst that just played to figure out what the hell just happened to me:
If No One will Listen, u Found Me, Break Away, Miss Independent, Don't Waste Your Time, and Already Gone. The last one was like she was speaking to me even though it was probably written about a breakup/whatever.
I thought I had all of this buried and behind me. I should have been over this a long time ago; I guess I'm not. It was like opening a time capsule to find something though lost forever. I played them again and started crying again. I'm torn; to me if her memory lives so does she.
Anyway thought this might give u fodder for a song.
I don't know about you, but I think that's pretty amazing...