After losing my best friend, Barry, I slipped into a depression. My grandparents refused to see me. My less consistent vrienden turned their backs on me. The only ones there for me were my aunt and uncle, my brother, Daniel, and my cousin, Barbara Ann. I had very little, if any, self-confidence. I didn't even try to confront Grandpa again, fearing he would beat me again. The only thing that brought me any happiness was music. I still enjoyed the Beatles above all others, but I liked to explore different bands as well. I overheard someone talking about a metal band called System of a Down, so I decided to check them out. I never listened to metal before. I picked up a CD titled, "Steal This Album!" I listened to it, and I fell in love with it. I felt a connection with some of the lyrics in the song, "Ego Brain".
"You see my pain is real
Watch my world dissolve
And pretend that none of us see the fall."
What I took from that lyric is this. The songwriter is experiencing a lot of emotional pain, and he's pretending that he's all right. It made me feel better knowing that somebody out there knew how I was feeling. I still wished I had some friends, but I was getting nothing but bullied. In life science, I learned that I was ugly, a loser, and a freak. In English, I learned that I don't belong. In mathematics, I learned that I was lame. Should I go on? No, I think I covered it well. One thing I didn't learn was why no one helped me. I went home pagina crying one day. Daniel said, "Hey, little sis. Are u okay?" I said, "No." He asked, "What's wrong?" I said, "It's nothing. Forget I zei anything." He said, "No, it's okay. u can tell me." I said, "I'm a freak." He said, "Erin, u are not a freak." I then said, "And I'm a loser." He said, "No, Erin!" I said, "And I don't belong." He said, "Oh, my God! Where on Earth did u get ideas like that?" I said, "That's all I ever get told in school. No one ever helps me. Nobody cares." He said, "Erin, I had no idea all this was going on." I said, "Nobody loves me." He said, "That's bullshit, and u know it!" He told my aunt and uncle. My aunt said, "Erin, we all love u very much." My uncle said, "That's right. Don't ever think u are not loved. If someone's picking on you, please tell us. We'll try to fix it." My aunt paid a visit to the school. The bullying slowed down, but I still wished I had friends. Everybody needs a least one friend.
"You see my pain is real
Watch my world dissolve
And pretend that none of us see the fall."
What I took from that lyric is this. The songwriter is experiencing a lot of emotional pain, and he's pretending that he's all right. It made me feel better knowing that somebody out there knew how I was feeling. I still wished I had some friends, but I was getting nothing but bullied. In life science, I learned that I was ugly, a loser, and a freak. In English, I learned that I don't belong. In mathematics, I learned that I was lame. Should I go on? No, I think I covered it well. One thing I didn't learn was why no one helped me. I went home pagina crying one day. Daniel said, "Hey, little sis. Are u okay?" I said, "No." He asked, "What's wrong?" I said, "It's nothing. Forget I zei anything." He said, "No, it's okay. u can tell me." I said, "I'm a freak." He said, "Erin, u are not a freak." I then said, "And I'm a loser." He said, "No, Erin!" I said, "And I don't belong." He said, "Oh, my God! Where on Earth did u get ideas like that?" I said, "That's all I ever get told in school. No one ever helps me. Nobody cares." He said, "Erin, I had no idea all this was going on." I said, "Nobody loves me." He said, "That's bullshit, and u know it!" He told my aunt and uncle. My aunt said, "Erin, we all love u very much." My uncle said, "That's right. Don't ever think u are not loved. If someone's picking on you, please tell us. We'll try to fix it." My aunt paid a visit to the school. The bullying slowed down, but I still wished I had friends. Everybody needs a least one friend.
It was December 1. The members of New Religion were decorating their house in Oak Ridge for Christmas. Lola looked over at Klondike and said, "This is so exciting. This will be Klondike's first Christmas!" Carl said, "Yes, it is. I believe this also marks our third Christmas in Oak Ridge." Erin said, "Yes. I can't believe it's been over three years since we came to Oak Ridge." Paul wasn't as excited. He said, "This is also our first Christmas without Yukon and Nunavut." He sighed. Lola hugged him and said, "I know u miss your Huskies, but they would want u to enjoy Christmas." He said, "You're right. u know, I've been thinking that maybe we should do a Christmas album. John and his mates do one every year." Erin said, "I like this idea." Carl said, "I do, too!" Lola said, "We should call it A New Religion Christmas." Paul said, "That has a nice ring to it, no pun intended." With that, they decided to reach out to John for guidance on how to make the perfect Christmas album.
Hi, everyone! Antonia here, and I'm going to discuss my plans for the rest of the year. I have some things I want to cover, so I'm going to get right to it.
As 2019 draws to a close, we will eventually be in a new year. In fact, Christmas is less than a maand away. I am planning a Christmas-themed fan fiction. I'm hoping to post it sometime volgende week. It will be my last fan fiction this year.
Even though my volgende fan fiction will be last for this year, I have meer planned for volgende year. I have lots in store for u volgende year, so stay tuned.
I might do a couple of blogs to inpakken, wrap up this jaar after I finish my last fan fiction. I'll also do my annual fan fiction trivia article.
I hope u have a veilig and fun holiday season wherever u may be.
Peace and love,
-Antonia
As 2019 draws to a close, we will eventually be in a new year. In fact, Christmas is less than a maand away. I am planning a Christmas-themed fan fiction. I'm hoping to post it sometime volgende week. It will be my last fan fiction this year.
Even though my volgende fan fiction will be last for this year, I have meer planned for volgende year. I have lots in store for u volgende year, so stay tuned.
I might do a couple of blogs to inpakken, wrap up this jaar after I finish my last fan fiction. I'll also do my annual fan fiction trivia article.
I hope u have a veilig and fun holiday season wherever u may be.
Peace and love,
-Antonia
This is a special request from Antonia, so here I go.
I'm sorry that you've been feeling down recently. Losing a friend is hard, and I know what it's like to go through this. However, I want to let u know that I'm here for you. I'll be a shoulder to cry on, and u can talk with me anytime u like.
u are never alone, Antonia. All of your current vrienden care for u deeply. Don't ever change, buddy. It would be heartbreaking if u did. I know I would be. Also, your old friend would want u to be happy. She's in a better place now, and you'll eventually see her again someday. I just know it.
In closing this, remember the lyrics to one of my all-time favoriete Beatles songs: "Any time at all, all u gotta do is call, and we'll be there."
Peace and love,
~Kelly 🌟🌟🌟
I'm sorry that you've been feeling down recently. Losing a friend is hard, and I know what it's like to go through this. However, I want to let u know that I'm here for you. I'll be a shoulder to cry on, and u can talk with me anytime u like.
u are never alone, Antonia. All of your current vrienden care for u deeply. Don't ever change, buddy. It would be heartbreaking if u did. I know I would be. Also, your old friend would want u to be happy. She's in a better place now, and you'll eventually see her again someday. I just know it.
In closing this, remember the lyrics to one of my all-time favoriete Beatles songs: "Any time at all, all u gotta do is call, and we'll be there."
Peace and love,
~Kelly 🌟🌟🌟